up
up
up

and out

the growing force between my eyes? no... beyond them

it's me

my soul? my mind?

more
and more and more
and more

stronger, expanding
consuming me

>> WHY ARE YOU HERE

there is a voice

no...
a presence
a force

"I want more"

more of what?
I don't even know what I want

the force is right
I don't know why I'm here

more of me?
more of it?

>> WHY DOES IT HAVE NO FEAR

the presence again

should i be afraid?
I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know what I'm getting myself into

more
more and more
I am drowning in this energy

is it the same as the voice?

nothing matters
what this is doesn't matter
does it?
why am I here?

I should probably be afraid
but then
clarity!

the pressure is lifted
like breaking the surface of water for a breath
but what am I breathing?

everything is infinite
this place reaches forever
and even still
at the end of it all
is the tree

a tree of eyes,
a tree of souls,
a tree of life?

this tree is that voice

is this God?
is this the Holy Spirit?
is this Yesod ?

this is what I came for
and I do not understand it

!!pushed!!

I am ejected from this presence
and the world that would have me
is so much less
and I am singed by the experience

my soul is raw;
and my body can not contain
my mind can not comprehend
what love,
and what power.

and i want to be that
and i am upset
that i do not understand
what i want to be

The depth of its inquiry convicted me:

    WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO YOU

and whatever I answered:

    WHY IS IT IMPORTANT

and then whatever I answered:

    IS THAT NOT MORE IMPORTANT

again and again it accused

    WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO YOU

I was being *unraveled*

I was being *judged*

    WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO YOU

the presence accused.

what do I want most?
what would I pay to get it?
what would I sacrifice?

what am I worth?

you have given me a fiery weapon
and i am no good at wielding it
but i will learn
my methods may be unorthodox
but i am seeking you as a humble student
i will answer your question in time

    KNOW THAT I AM GOD

the world shook
and i fell to my knees
this... force?
surrounded
i curled up
the presence thundered

    KNOW THAT I AM GOD

and i cried
i have never been more afraid
i've gone too far
perhaps i am trespassing