Its my birthday and Ill be a bitch if I want

Covet: Felix was in the dinning room getting things set up. He'd set up a spread of berries, and other finger food veggies and fruits. He had a couple of wine glasses out and some sparkling juice waiting. He'd gotten candles out and there was a boquet of flowers on the table and there was a box on the table wrapped neatly with a bow, as well as a longer large box that laid across the table. He was pacing about the floor waiting to go in and have Steph come out of the office where she'd been since she'd gotten home from Cadence's and Classes.
Alexithymiaa: -Steph had basically tried to pretend Felix didn't exist for most of the day because she was still pretty pissed off with him and the fact that it was coming onto her birthday just made her more pissed at him. She'd spent her time since getting home in the office with the door closed, only Alfred and Ozzy in the office with her. Except that Ozzy was lying on the floor by the door sticking his paws underneath it trying to swat at Harley who was doing the same on the opposite side. She kept her head down, staring at the screen of her mostly finished and typed paper she was working on.-
Covet: Taking a deep breath he headed for the door, and watched the cats playing between the door. "Okay, guys... can I step in please." He said reaching down to grab Harley so she wasn't in the way as he opened up the door. "Hey Red. Can I bother you for a few?"
Alexithymiaa: -She slowly looked up from her computer at him, staring at him with a completely unamused expression for a long moment before she actually answered. Sarcastically. "Is that in addition to how much you're already bothering me, or just checking in to keep it at a steady constant?"-
Covet: "In addition, of course." He said immediately, not exactly ballsy enough to challenge her attitude right now. "Please?"
Alexithymiaa: -She let out a deep sigh, nudging Alfred off of her lap and standing up to her feet, adjusting her puffy skirt to quit sticking to her. "I guess. I'm not done with my paper though." She shot back quickly, making her way around the desk with her arms crossed over her chest on her way out of the office.-
Covet: "Well, if you absolutely need to get back to it, I understand." He said sheepishly, glancing at the set up he had in the dinning room.
Alexithymiaa: "It's due next week." She said shortly like that meant tonight was the only time she could work on it or something. When she saw the dining room table all set up, she furrowed her brows, slowly turning to face him. "What's all this?"-
Covet: "Pre birthday kiss assery, so that I can at least apologize." He said. " I have other plans tomorrow, so don't think this is all of it. I just kind of thew this together after last night." He walked over and pulled out a chair for her.
Alexithymiaa: "Oh so is this supposed to make up for the fact that you've apparently been consistently lying to my face every day?" She asked as she sat down, continuing to be a butt face.-
Covet: "Not entirely, but it's a start." He said softly, pushing it in, then made his way over to his chair and sat down. "Do you want something to drink?" He asked openign up the bottle of juice.
Alexithymiaa: "A start would be telling the truth. At least when I do take up unhealthy habits, I don't lie about it." She grumbled, dropping her hands to her lap as she looked at the juice. It was becoming increasingly hard to keep a pouty face because the spread going on looked pretty good. "Sure."-
Covet: He poured out the juice into each glass then set it back down. "I want to. But... I don't want you to feel guilty about the truth. Not that my reasons are great excuses for anything. But it's a delicate subject." Felix explained.
Alexithymiaa: "Ask me how many fucks I give what you want right now." She snapped at him, reaching for the glass of juice to take a small sip. "Why would I feel guilty for your poor life choices?"-
Covet: He was quiet for a long moment before he spoke up. "Because I didn't take you having your heart attack well. I panicked. I stressed. The only thing I could think of was to smoke. But I didn't want to go back to cigarettes, too much nicotine. So I went for the vape and got myself set up with one that was low nicotine. It helped, not really but...it seemed like it. That's what started me back smoking. But I know you and I know you'd take that on yourself, but it's not. Okay, It's on me. I could have handled all of that better, I guess."
Alexithymiaa: "Why would I take that on myself? There are plenty of other healthier outlets or vices you could have used to cope with your stress and you chose to smoke. Which... I get it. I do. It was a scary time and a lot of things were kind of up in the air with my health and a vice helps... but then you lied to me about it. And for what, over a month? A month and a half that you've gone out of your way to hide it from me instead of being honest that you went back to smoking in a moment of weakness? I'm not mad that you broke, I'm mad you fucking lied, Felix." She pouted again, leaning back in her chair. "How many times do we have to do this?"-
Covet: "Enough times until it sticks?" He asked her. "I know, I know I could have chosen other things, but I did what was familiar to me. I could say the same in regards to the repeated mistakes anyone makes. I'm human. That includes the lying too. Because you have been doing so good. And I'm proud of you. I didn't want you worrying about me, so I said nothing. and lied. I'm sorry. I don't want to be a distraction from your progress. Because the minute you find something that takes that focus from yourself, especially when it concerns the ones you love, it distracts from your own progress. You do so much looking after others, that you forget yourself, so I'm trying to make sure you focus on yourself more."
Alexithymiaa: "I've got myself covered for now. I'm always going to worry about you whether you lie to me or not, but when you lie I'll be worried about you and mad at you instead of just worried about you. You should just tell me when you trip up so we can get over the hurdle together. Take a little responsibility for your actions and your own health instead of trying to brush it under the rug and hope no one notices." She said like she didn't learn that from therapy and it wasn't helping her you fucking hypocrite. "I don't feel like we can move forward with our lives until I know you're going to be honest with me, regardless of if you think it's something I want to hear."-
Covet: "I'm not brushing it under the rug. I know exactly what doing this entails, and the risks involved. But you and I both know that a habit can be hard to break." Felix said then grumbled. " It's easy to say that though isn't. But when words come down to actions..." He shook his head, "Not so easy. But it's almost hilarious how you can sit there and say that though." He said shaking his head, this really wasn't going how he had intended to.
Alexithymiaa: "I'm not saying breaking habits isn't hard, but being honest with me shouldn't be the end of the world." She spoke through her teeth, getting annoyed all over again. "Don't you dare turn this around on me. I've been open and honest with you when I'm having bad days or something is harder for me to get through. Even when I'm not yelling it from the rooftops, I'm not lying to you or pretending I don't have a problem. I know I have a problem and I'm doing the best to keep myself in check and under control." She shifted her eyes to glance at the clock on the shelf, shaking her head. "You know why birthdays have become so important to me over the last few years? Because I wasn't actually sure I'd see the next one. But I made it to 24 and that's a lot better than other people in similar situations could say for themselves."-
Covet: Felix set his jaw and just put his head down. "Sorry. I just feel like I'm being chastised for things that you only follow half the time." He sighed putting his face in his hands, "That's not fair to you, I'm sorry. This is about your birthday, not my shit. I get it, I do. I promise. I do. and I want nothing more than to celebrate that with you."
Alexithymiaa: "I'm always honest with you. Struggles or no struggles." She said firmly, sticking to her guns even though it wasnt exactlyyyyyy true. Good start, Steph. "Good. Now let me smell my flowers before I have to hide them from the cats." She stood up from her seat, leaning over the bouquet of flowers and inhaling. "They're beautiful."-
Covet: "Bullshit. And I'll use the most recent example, being Christmas." Felix said watching her, then shook his head. "No.. no we're not going there tonight. How about you open your gifts too." He said pointing to the two boxes on the table, slouching back in his chair.
Alexithymiaa: -She gave him a look until he back pedaled, sitting back down in her chair and adjusting her fluffy skirt around her. "I thought we were supposed to be trying to save money for the wedding..." She said as she picked up the smaller of the two boxes, beginning to pick at the bow.-
Covet: "We are, don't worry about where this came from. Only one of them is any sort of expensive." He told her watching her open the box. Inside was his thoroughly destroyed vape pen, looking like it'd had a sledge hammer taken to it.
Alexithymiaa: -She pulled the box open and looked inside at the destroyed vape pen, lifting her eyes to him and smiling. "You're very good at ass kissing. This means a lot to me, thank you. Are you going to be okay with this?" She asked, keeping the habit thing in mind.-
Covet: He nodded his head, "You've already pointed out that we can't continue on until we get past this.. so first step would be getting rid of that. Hard to be tempted by it if it's not usuable, or a thing anymore." He told her looking at her seriously.
Alexithymiaa: -She set the box down, nodding her head. "That's very true, and I appreciate you taking that step." She reached over for the second box, setting it in her lap and beginning to open it. "I really hope it's not another cat... I had to ask CJ to stop Bryan from calling the shelter and getting me another cat..."-
Covet: "Definitely not a cat, a Cat wouldn't weigh that much, well mayb if it was another Harvey." Felix said, "That was a good idea, cause We have enough. And I know better." He added then waited for her to take the lid off of the box, that had a black velvet inlay with a brand new bass guitar inside. [ http://www.edroman.com/customshop/wood/images/QSG_06750.JPG ]
Alexithymiaa: "Hey... be nice to him. He has big bones and I love him." She said quickly on the defense for poor Harvey. As she pulled the top off of the box, her eyes lit up, looking over the bass and instantly scooting back in her chair so she could have more space to pull it out of the inlay. "Oh my god.... Felix.... this is like a custom quilted maple..." She trailed off, too enamored by the instrument to finish her thought.-
Covet: Felix nodded his head. "Mhhm. I told the guy at the shop I needed something extra specially unique because nothing else would be fit for the love of my life."
Alexithymiaa: -She looked up at him, her face completely soft compared to how she'd been addressing him earlier in the night. "This is... incredible. And I know it's late, but I hope you understand I need to go upstairs and play for at least an hour and you'll just have to deal with the house shaking."-
Covet: "Are you kidding me, I'm going up there with you to watch you play it. That's the whole reason why I got it." He told her with a bigger smile. Then he got up and offered her his hand. "C'mon Birthday Girl. Time to ring in your birthday rockstar Style."
Alexithymiaa: -She pushed up from her chair and held onto the neck of the bass, putting her free hand in his. "One of these days I'm going to teach you. If there ever was an instrument for you, it would be bass because you can literally feel it. It's a very kinetic type of music." She said with a laugh, heading up the stairs with him to go kill eardrums.-
Covet: "Hmm, I might just take you up on that. If it's something you can feel better I might be able to handle it. If I can keep my focus on it." He said following up behind her feeling a little better about things at least.