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ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:34 AM
where are you on the whole simulation theory thing
Nat - Today at 12:34 AM
wait what
what’s that
I’m a dumbo
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:35 AM
oh
its the idea that all of this, reality the universe etc, everything, is just one giant simulation
i mean if you're on dissos
you surely have seen the simulation break before like i have(edited)
Nat - Today at 12:35 AM
describe it
maybe I have
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:36 AM
it's not something that is objectively perceivable it's a very subjective thing but i will do my best to explain what i saw when i saw it break
it only happened for a few moments
but as i glanced in a specific direction and focused i saw reality break down into a 3d cartesian grid system and the grid started to break and crumble apart
Nat - Today at 12:36 AM
I’ve had shit like that
but
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:37 AM
salvia does it hardcore
Nat - Today at 12:37 AM
the only time I’ve ever had it happen was during one of my dxm benders
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:37 AM
it generally only happens to me on dissociatives
Nat - Today at 12:37 AM
I drank my days cough syrup and I guess with the doses getting larger and the DXO building up in the body
I hallucinated that plane
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:38 AM
and i have come to hypothesize that that is because dissociatives disillusion you
Nat - Today at 12:38 AM
falling apart
the universe was
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:38 AM
i tend to look at hallucinations as not necessarily always just false perceptions
sometimes what we call hallucinations are peeks at alternate realities seeping through into ours
or someone pulling the curtains back and showing the bigger picture
Nat - Today at 12:38 AM
but then it turned into the head of Homer Simpson I shit you not
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:38 AM
nice
Nat - Today at 12:38 AM
and then I thought it was rubbish
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:38 AM
it takes different forms for everyone
i wouldn't view that as rubbish. everything is symbolic when it comes to dissociative intoxication
also
Nat - Today at 12:39 AM
it was just, a really bad 3D modeled render of Homer Simpson’s head
Nat - Today at 12:39 AM
it fit nowhere
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:39 AM
yes i get that
and i could see why you would think that is rubbish
but my mind on the other hand would be searching for some sort of significance or meaning in it no matter how trivial or silly it seems
the totality of reality collapsing into a 3d model of homer simpsons head
collapsing into the face of society
into the construct of the world around us
homer simpson is just a mimetic representation of external reality
and the illusions that we allow ourselves to believe in, the "objective reality" that people are so quick to say exists
because it's convenient
and everyone can clearly see it in front of them
just like they can clearly see homer simpson on the tv
but its a shitty 3d model
indicating that it is a shitty replication of the actual nature of the referent(edited)
Nat - Today at 12:41 AM
that’s just sad
it really is
to imagine
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:42 AM
when things like that happen to me i take it as my consciousness trying to speak to me so i try to interpret it
of course that's just how i would interpret it if it happened to me
Nat - Today at 12:42 AM
I’ve just never done that. For whatever reason I’ve never thought of anything like that.
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:42 AM
that is how i think about basically everything
Nat - Today at 12:42 AM
To interpret all of this shit that happens to me as I trip on whatever
damn
ₒᶻ->[yung.antinomy] - Today at 12:43 AM
regardless of being high or sober lmao
but being high makes it a lot easier to get into that mindstate
i just try to embody the daoist concept of wu wei. thoughtful thoughtlessness. going with the flow of the motion of existence. but also understanding that what you see through your eyes is just something constructed by your brain and fed to your consciousness to give you a picture of the extrnal world
as you can tell i am highly detail oriented and extremely analytical