Session Start: Sat Nov 21 00:26:56 2015
Session Ident: Will
[00:29] <Will> i feel really shitty Jaycub
[00:29] <Will> really bad
09[00:29] <Jaycub> if that girl did that and said that
09[00:29] <Jaycub> then you should look at the situation and realize
[00:29] <Will> i really dont wanna be here
[00:29] <Will> im embarrassed
09[00:29] <Jaycub> no
09[00:29] <Jaycub> nononononono
[00:29] <Will> i feel less than a fucking insect on the ground
09[00:29] <Jaycub> embarassment is when youve done something bad
[00:29] <Will> i already feel like shit
[00:29] <Will> she made me feel like shit even more
[00:29] <Will> like
[00:29] <Will> she broke up with me the night my aunt died
[00:30] <Will> and said "now you can deal with 2 losses tonight"
[00:30] <Will> dude
[00:30] <Will> i really wanna like
[00:30] <Will> wreck her
[00:30] <Will> socially
[00:30] <Will> and mentally
[00:30] <Will> the way she has me
09[00:30] <Jaycub> Will, you put yourself on the line and tried to be with someone you thought was

worth it
09[00:30] <Jaycub> she wasnt worth it
09[00:30] <Jaycub> so now you move on
09[00:30] <Jaycub> dont let her shitty bitchy behavior
09[00:30] <Jaycub> have anything to do with YOU
09[00:30] <Jaycub> because you tried hard
[00:30] <Will> then like
09[00:30] <Jaycub> she just didnt have the stuff
[00:31] <Will> i tried to do something worthwhile
[00:31] <Will> i wanted to fucking
09[00:31] <Jaycub> she couldnt handle your realness man
[00:31] <Will> play music for people
09[00:31] <Jaycub> and thats the truth
[00:31] <Will> then embarrassed the fuck out of myself
[00:31] <Will> i get it
[00:31] <Will> i cant fucking sing
09[00:31] <Jaycub> no
[00:31] <Will> i want to so bad
[00:31] <Will> i try
09[00:31] <Jaycub> dude
09[00:31] <Jaycub> you made the mistake of thinking that you have something to prove, or to do with

your music
09[00:31] <Jaycub> you dont
09[00:32] <Jaycub> and you wont ever do that
[00:32] <Will> maybe if i idolized someone other than jeff fucking mangum
[00:32] <Will> vocalwise
[00:32] <Will> i just wanted them to understand
09[00:32] <Jaycub> you cant force that
[00:32] <Will> how deep and meaningful two headed boy is to me
09[00:32] <Jaycub> Will think about like, something basic
09[00:32] <Jaycub> like showing a friend a comedic 10 second clip on youtube
09[00:32] <Jaycub> and expecting them to love it
09[00:33] <Jaycub> and you sit them down and want them to see how funny and hilarious this stupid 10

second clip is
09[00:33] <Jaycub> and they just dont see it as funny or humorous
09[00:33] <Jaycub> or even, they say 'man we cant laugh at this, thats someones x and y'
09[00:33] <Jaycub> people will always look at art
09[00:33] <Jaycub> and experiences
09[00:33] <Jaycub> from their own eyes
09[00:33] <Jaycub> not ours
09[00:34] <Jaycub> we cant force it, forcing it is the worst thing to do
09[00:34] <Jaycub> you just present it
09[00:34] <Jaycub> with all the shame and hubris and courage
09[00:34] <Jaycub> you can muster
09[00:34] <Jaycub> naked
[00:34] <Will> Jaycub i really dont wanna be here
[00:34] <Will> like
09[00:34] <Jaycub> and then let it be there
[00:34] <Will> i really am probably about to do something stupid
[00:34] <Will> im trying to talk to someone
09[00:34] <Jaycub> Will what about the next dude that wants to sing a song at that place
[00:35] <Will> before it happens
09[00:35] <Jaycub> or even listen to a song on a boomboc in that place\
09[00:35] <Jaycub> or express feelings
09[00:35] <Jaycub> you made your mark\
09[00:35] <Jaycub> you were there, you wet the stone
09[00:35] <Jaycub> it takes a lot of water to make a dent
09[00:36] <Jaycub> it sucks but like literally all we have in this world is our actions
09[00:36] <Jaycub> thoughts mean shit, souls mean shit, intentions mean shit
09[00:36] <Jaycub> you took action and made 20+ people think about a song
09[00:36] <Jaycub> when they expected a cover band of like warrant cherry pie
09[00:37] <Jaycub> and they will remember that
09[00:37] <Jaycub> and maybe you reached one out of the 20.
09[00:37] <Jaycub> thats what artists do man
09[00:37] <Jaycub> its never going to be 8 mile
09[00:37] <Jaycub> or footloose or fucking breakin
09[00:37] <Jaycub> lol
09[00:37] <Jaycub> you just got a shit ton of stuff dropped onto you at once
09[00:38] <Jaycub> and thats bullshit and uncool
09[00:38] <Jaycub> but dont let that fuck with your art
09[00:38] <Jaycub> keep making music please
[00:40] <Will> Jaycub
[00:40] <Will> ily
[00:40] <Will> if i tell you to do something
[00:40] <Will> will you do it?
09[00:40] <Jaycub> yes
[00:41] <Will> ill give you a number
09[00:41] <Jaycub> no dude
[00:41] <Will> to all
[00:41] <Will> call
09[00:42] <Jaycub> can you like
09[00:42] <Jaycub> just get away for a bit
09[00:42] <Jaycub> come visit me
09[00:42] <Jaycub> i mean shit if you have nothing to lose
09[00:43] <Jaycub> then a few days wont matter
09[00:43] <Jaycub> leave right now
[00:43] <Will> im just scared because idk what will happen
[00:43] <Will> afterward
09[00:44] <Jaycub> deal with that then
[00:44] <Will> ok
09[00:44] <Jaycub> 2701 sixth street morgan city, 70380
09[00:44] <Jaycub> parents are gone until tuesday afternoon
09[00:44] <Jaycub> you can come right now and just chill
09[00:45] <Jaycub> i have no money though lol
09[00:45] <Jaycub> but im serious
[00:45] <Will> i have like 40 bucks
09[00:45] <Jaycub> come over
09[00:45] <Jaycub> chill and enjoy some time away
09[00:45] <Jaycub> and lets hang/talk
[00:45] <Will> Jaycub
[00:45] <Will> i like
[00:45] <Will> have this fucking
[00:46] <Will> belt tied to my closet
[00:46] <Will> thats been there for like
[00:46] <Will> 10 months
[00:46] <Will> i always go to it
[00:46] <Will> and attempt to do it
[00:46] <Will> i like, put it around my neck
[00:46] <Will> bare down
[00:46] <Will> almost pass out
[00:46] <Will> get scared
[00:46] <Will> then stop
[00:46] <Will> and just sit there on my tip toes
09[00:47] <Jaycub> flirting with disaster man
[00:47] <Will> with it wrapped around my neck
[00:47] <Will> and i get this
[00:47] <Will> fucking
[00:47] <Will> feeling
[00:47] <Will> of like
[00:47] <Will> its going to happen
[00:47] <Will> sooner or later
09[00:47] <Jaycub> naw
[00:47] <Will> because theres nothing
09[00:47] <Jaycub> leave now man
09[00:47] <Jaycub> come here
[00:47] <Will> that seems to make it better
[00:48] <Will> i tried so fuckign hard
[00:48] <Will> always do
[00:48] <Will> i dont fuck my friends over
[00:48] <Will> i dont fuck anyone over
[00:48] <Will> except maybe my mom
[00:48] <Will> i dont fucking mean to
[00:48] <Will> i just cant stand to be in the same room as her
[00:48] <Will> sometimes
[00:48] <Will> so i get this abrasive tone with her
[00:48] <Will> but she doesnt deserve it
09[00:48] <Jaycub> dude
09[00:48] <Jaycub> come to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
[00:48] <Will> despite all shes fucked up
09[00:48] <Jaycub> how far away are you
[00:48] <Will> 2 hours
[00:48] <Will> 20 mins
09[00:49] <Jaycub> i dotn have gas money ffff
[00:49] <Will> i havent told anyone this shit
09[00:49] <Jaycub> no i know
09[00:49] <Jaycub> i dont know what i can say in text
09[00:49] <Jaycub> and i have no phone
[00:50] <Will> its my dads belt
09[00:50] <Jaycub> do you really think its at that point
09[00:50] <Jaycub> i mean youre a smart dude, you know the macro/micro aspect of this experience
09[00:51] <Jaycub> theres no way for me to like rationalize
09[00:52] <Jaycub> or talk to you
09[00:52] <Jaycub> so maybe i shouldnt
09[00:52] <Jaycub> so fuck that comment i guess
09[00:53] <Jaycub> i personally wouldnt want to see a world without your contributions
09[00:53] <Jaycub> maybe thats selfish but like
[00:53] <Will> ily man im sorry, i didnt mean to do this to you
[00:53] <Will> or act like this
09[00:53] <Jaycub> no you arent doing anything to me
[00:53] <Will> im at the end of my fucking rope
09[00:53] <Jaycub> this is life
09[00:53] <Jaycub> like
09[00:53] <Jaycub> your burdens are mine
09[00:53] <Jaycub> and vice versa
09[00:53] <Jaycub> thats how it works
09[00:53] <Jaycub> neighbor to neighbor
09[00:54] <Jaycub> if it is literally like life or death
09[00:54] <Jaycub> like you say
09[00:54] <Jaycub> please dude
09[00:54] <Jaycub> come chill here
09[00:54] <Jaycub> if you dont like your time then who cares
09[00:54] <Jaycub> if you do then maybe you can work on stuff later
[00:54] <Will> i was gonna ask if i could go there
[00:54] <Will> way earlier today
09[00:55] <Jaycub> but shit, like would you rather take a scolding for being 'crazy' and driving 2

hours to a friend
09[00:55] <Jaycub> or like literally dying
09[00:55] <Jaycub> come on dewwwwwwwwwwwwd
09[00:55] <Jaycub> my parents are in texas until tuesday night at the earliest
09[00:55] <Jaycub> at least you can decompress
[00:56] <Will> i have work monday
[00:56] <Will> but im off tomorrow and sunday
09[00:56] <Jaycub> there you go