[19:37]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	you know he agreed with all i said to him
	way before we broke up
	he felt more for me

[19:37]
Mira:
	You have someone saying "Love you muchly, sweetheart. <3" on your profile and call her Princess.

[19:37]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	thats my best friend

[19:37]
Mira:
	Oh

[19:37]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	female

[19:37]
Mira:
	and yet
	i can't
	have
	normal friends
	i play with
	that don't even write anything
	on my profile

[19:38]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	????

[19:38]
Mira:
	or i haven't talked to
	in
	4 months

[19:38]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	what do you mean by that

[19:38]
Mira:
	You got mad at Julia
	you got mad a Johanne

[19:38]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	yeah because you got mad at me

[19:38]
Mira:
	you got mad at Sweety

[19:38]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	for asking stuff about them

[19:38]
Mira:
	you got mad at Horishy

[19:39]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	i dont even care for those who are in your steam
	i know you have others you chat with

[19:39]
Mira:
	Those
	are
	not in steam
	That was when i showed you my Discord DM's
	the other were people i played with in League

[19:39]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	yeah
	because i dont like it when my boyfriend gets handled like a pet
	because i dont like when my boyfriend gets shared
	unlike you do
	you like that

[19:41]
Mira:
	Is that all?

[19:41]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	that is the truth
	you can block me.

[19:41]
Mira:
	I already did.

[19:42]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	you removed me.
	didnt block me.

[19:42]
Mira:
	I already blocked you.

[19:42]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	alright.

[19:42]
Mira:
	Before i removed you.

[19:42]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	got any last words for me?
	like..

[19:42]
Mira:
	No.

[19:42]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	"fuck off"?
	okay.
	I hope you find someone who will fulfill your desires.
	Who will be perfect for you.

[19:42]
Mira:
	I won't.

[19:42]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	You will
	you know you will find someone really soon

[19:43]
Mira:
	:)

[19:43]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	it's clear as day.
	anyone would want you

[19:43]
Mira:
	I find many, i don't find what i want or need.

[19:43]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	you are literally the most amazing person

[19:43]
Mira:
	Many call it a psychopath's charm.

[19:43]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	yet i charmed you as well
	anyway.
	You can close the chat.

[19:44]
Mira:
	I'll miss you. I don't know why you did these things, but i probably don't want to know why either.

[19:44]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	ive told you everything i wanted to
	i didnt do anything wrong
	besides not taking meds

[19:44]
Mira:
	I hope you enjoy life and find someone that knows how to handle and appreciate you.

[19:44]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	that was the biggest and only mistake

[19:45]
Mira:
	The promises you made to me you no longer have to keep.

[19:45]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	So I can kill myself?

[19:45]
Mira:
	I have no control over what you do.

[19:46]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	Alright.
	You know my email.

[19:46]
Mira:
	I'll never understand why people just can't give me time and understand the words i say to them instead of only seeing the negative. You can Chris both.

[19:46]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	Maybe we can someday reunite.

[19:46]
Mira:
	You and*

[19:46]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	Please email me in a few years.
	Please Jean.

[19:47]
Mira:
	I wanted to create space to let everything settle down, to recollect myself, find myself in this robotic state. Yet i keep getting pushed by everyone. Everyone demands something from me while i don't even know who i am anymore.

[19:48]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	Sorry.
	It was really just not okay.
	You should've just shut off everything

[19:48]
Mira:
	Learning that i am talked about like that behind my back when i already know that i am not the easiest when it comes to these things, i thought the people that are like me and have been with me for so long would understand.

[19:48]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	Not make us wait and worry.

[19:49]
Mira:
	But nobody ever understands me until it is too late.

[19:49]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	OF COURSE

[19:49]
Mira:
	Nobody ever says a while to listen.

[19:49]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	YOU NEVER TALKED
	TO US

[19:49]
Mira:
	No?

[19:49]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	YOU DIDNT OPEN UP TO US
	YOU DIDNT TELL ME SHIT
	HOW COULD I NOT ASSUME
	"I dont want to talk about it right now"
	"Lets not talk about it."

[19:50]
Mira:
	I told Chris many times why i did have these issues, and i told him that i was going to try and fix them, there are just some things that are like a blockade, but nobody understands unless they are mentally ill like this.
	And when i say
	I don't want to talk i really meant it because i was going full robot and had no regard for anothers feelings or my own.

[19:50]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	Why are you opening up to me when you already blocked me
	Why couldn't you do it before

[19:51]
Mira:
	Because you never let me.
	You never asked me what was wrong.

[19:51]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	No

[19:51]
Mira:
	Why i didn't want to talk to him.
	Why i didn't want to play League with you.
	Nobody ever asks why.

[19:51]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	WHy couldnt you just tell me
	I asked so many times
	to play
	you couldve just told me

[19:51]
Mira:
	You asked to play, you never asked why i didn't.

[19:51]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	why didnt you
	i wasnt even toxic anymore

[19:52]
Mira:
	Because i wanted to get a bit of space between you and me so you would not be as attatched to me anymore and i could feel like i can talk normally with you again, have fun and joke with you.

[19:53]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	that space..
	made this all worse.
	you shouldve just blocked me back then.
	;w;

[19:53]
Mira:
	I wanted to work things out with you because you meant a lot to me.
	You were my Twin after all.

[19:53]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	as i said.
	people always leave me
	because i fuck up.
	i told you.

[19:54]
Mira:
	I didn't leave you the first time you fucked up.
	I didn't leave you until now.
	I wouldn't have left you if you didn't talk so horribly behind my back instead of coming to me and asking me for my reasons.

[19:54]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	you were just so busy

[19:54]
Mira:
	But what you did is betraying my trust, something i have so little of.

[19:54]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	you couldnt talk to me
	just like you talk right now

[19:54]
Mira:
	You know why i was busy?
	Because i was getting so depressed

[19:55]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	I know why

[19:55]
Mira:
	that i was thinking
	about hurting myself
	every single minute
	i was awake
	before going to bed
	i was thinking

[19:55]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	why didnt you tell us

[19:55]
Mira:
	about the ways i could kill myself around here
	without anyone ever knowing what happened to me.

[19:55]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	it made us feel like you didnt care about us.
	we literally thought you didnt care

[19:55]
Mira:
	Because i felt like nobody cared about me.
	The only people that cared about me were my friends.
	they were happy i was back after two months

[19:56]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	yeah..
	2 months of us.

[19:56]
Mira:
	I left them before i even knew about you.

[19:57]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	but we were together for 2 months or so

[19:57]
Mira:
	Then it was 3 months.

[19:57]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	ughn~
	im sorry for talking behind your back.
	it was just that we felt horrible
	me and cake we both
	assumed things

[19:57]
Mira:
	Yet
	nobody
	talked to me about it.

[19:58]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	because you were so busy
	ignored us

[19:58]
Mira:
	I was busy
	because
	everyone
	was constantly saying
	they were sad
	but never really told me why
	You said you were sad because of the distance
	Chris said he randomly got sad.

[19:58]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	he got sad because of me
	he felt bad for me.

[19:59]
Mira:
	Meanwhile
	i want to fucking kill myself because two people important to me seem sad because of me all the time
	making me want to vanish

[19:59]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	then why didnt you talk to us

[19:59]
Mira:
	Because
	no matter what i say

[19:59]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	we literally messaged you everyday

[19:59]
Mira:
	you guys don't even pay attention to it.

[19:59]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	you respond after a few hours.

[20:00]
Mira:
	You always get scared that i get angry
	when i don't get angry
	but frustrated
	and even more depressed
	slipping even further from sanity
	wanting to hurt myself more and more

[20:00]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	well i cant fix this now.
	cant even be your twin now.

[20:00]
Mira:
	You broke my trust.

[20:00]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	i hope you still have my email.

[20:00]
Mira:
	You talked like this in my face.

[20:00]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	can you email me after a few months..

[20:01]
Mira:
	How could you betray me like this..

[20:01]
liliana (Ana | 20 | Estonia | Mimi&Momo | July 16th):
	I didnt mean to
	I really didnt
	It was just impossible to stay like this