I hate God, I have for years, and here's why

I hate God.

Some of you reading this already know. I hate God. I hate religion. And I absolutely pity those who are faithful to such an evil entity, even if it exists.

My opinions on God are twofold:

1. He is a 'clockwork God'. He made the laws of physics, set them in motion, and sat back. Honestly, you can't really hate someting like this. It's kind of like a kid with an ant farm.

2. He is an omnipotent, "religious" based God such as the Christians/Jews/Muslims portray him. THIS is the God I hate. What a pile of shit. All forms of this God basically preach some form of adherence and obedience, along with "virtues" or whatever. But talk about total hypocrisy. I hate this God more than anything. To watch people suffer....to sit back and let such atrocities happen...Fuck that. During my darkest moments, I prayed. I prayed heavily. Ya know what happened? THE EXACT OPPOSITE, WORSE OUTCOME. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. This is the God that needs to be forgotten, abandoned, and betrayed. Isn't that what they've done to humanity?

3. God, and nothing like him, exists at all. No problems there.

My rant is about God #2. No matter what happens, its like the worst possible outcome or some strange divine intervention happens to me and I get set back or hurt or screwed over. ESPECIALLY if I pray. And it depresses the fuck out of me. What point is there to live? With a God like that, I'd rather just off myself and see what "hell" is like than worship some shit like him. And the whole "you go to hell if you kill yourself!"? It is just so he can slowly torture us, some more than others.

And it really sucks. I want to love God. But I see all the suffering around me and my own pain and well...it's kinda hard not to. If he exists, that is.

If he doesn't exist then welp, nothing to worry about.

/rant