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- 265 days on hormones
- i dislike my hairline.
- i sometimes wonder about different hairstyles or ways of feeling less self conscious about it.
- the shape of my face bothers me sometimes.
- from certain angles, in certain lighting.
- i feel awkward sometimes due to this.
- othertimes i'm really cute.
- i dislike my facial hair and am getting it removed.
- 7 sessions of laser and now 2 sessions of electrolysis.
- more electrolysis to come.
- i dislike my body hair too.
- if i had unlimited money i'd probably have electrolysis all over my body and remove all of it.
- i feel like i've lost my voice along the way.
- at first i was experimenting with my voice and i'm very critical of it.
- i rewatch videos of myself and critique myself on how i sound.
- it's a bit neurotic.
- this is something i am struggling with.
- i like the changes to my body.
- my breasts are small.
- i'm okay with that.
- i like my name. Narcissa.
- i'm legally changing it soon.
- my sex drive is definitely mellower than before.
- masturbation happens less often.
- i crave physical intimacy though.
- i get butterflies in my stomach thinking about cuddling.
- i feel like i crave oxytocin.
- it's not even a sex drive, it's like a cuddle drive.
- i crave it a lot.
- i've been alone though.
- i've gotten no surgery and have no plans at the moment.
- i wouldn't be surprised if i would eventually be interested in maybe facial feminization surgery or an orchidectomy.
- but i'm really not sure and it's expensive anyway i think.
- so, no plans right now.
- i feel like due to my appearance and having gone through a full male puberty,
- waiting til i was 26 to begin hrt,
- that i won't be able to present fem enough sometimes without looking somehow bad or off.
- i think about aesthetics a lot.
- and how to present myself.
- i guess i want to reach some sort of andro/fem look that i can feel good about...
- and when i speak, to sound confident.
- so i can be in my comfort zone.
- i guess even though there's stuff i'm struggling with, i'm doing alright.
- first half of this year was rough for me though.
- just people's attitude towards me felt really bad.
- things are pretty good now though.
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