november (12:21:30 AM): d-despite what i said, everything isnt only on you.
november (12:22:40 AM): besides you said you found someone who cares about you now
november (12:22:59 AM): i dont even get why im trying to comfort you while im trying not to cry myself.
november (12:23:16 AM): a-also eyes/eyesockets can hurt when you are holding back tears but need to cry
samantha (12:23:46 AM): he may care, but i've exchanged less than 2k chats with him in 6 weeks
november (12:24:09 AM): isnt.. 2k a lot..? and i thought you only dated girls.
samantha (12:24:25 AM): 2k isnt really that much
samantha (12:24:42 AM): that's on average 47 exchanged a day
november (12:24:45 AM): im not really sure how much that is in relation to.. well.. anything
november (12:24:47 AM): oh
november (12:25:14 AM): its
november (12:25:17 AM): still something.
november (12:25:21 AM): just..
november (12:25:27 AM): dont mess it up..
samantha (12:25:33 AM): and it's not everyday i chat with him
samantha (12:25:39 AM): he knows i feel really down
samantha (12:25:42 AM): but he doesnt know what to do
samantha (12:25:48 AM): i try to chat with him
samantha (12:26:07 AM): but it just usually is very vague conversations
november (12:26:38 AM): guys dont tend to be very good at emotional support.
samantha (12:26:44 AM): he's busy with college and stuff too
samantha (12:26:51 AM): so i don't except him to be supportive
samantha (12:26:56 AM): i should be supportive of him
november (12:27:02 AM): how did you mange to actualy get someone fucking decent.
november (12:28:00 AM): honestly
samantha (12:28:15 AM): my throat feels like its closed up a bit
samantha (12:28:19 AM): it feels hard to breathe
samantha (12:28:41 AM): ugh
samantha (12:28:53 AM): i stopped th tears though
samantha (12:28:55 AM): the*
november (12:28:58 AM): you shouldnt be dating. but since you are then.. just give support and take support, thatshow a relationship works..and if there is an unbalence then issues will come up from that
november (12:29:11 AM): thats good.. you should try drinking water..
november (12:29:21 AM): it might help
samantha (12:29:45 AM): when i chat with him, he makes me feel better by just chatting with me
samantha (12:29:48 AM): but then i crash again
november (12:30:13 AM): you need to learn to be happy on your own.
samantha (12:30:28 AM): youre not the first one to tell me that
november (12:30:28 AM): and honestly
samantha (12:30:34 AM): i don't know how
november (12:30:37 AM): its better to keep people like that as friends.
november (12:30:58 AM): its better to keep people that make you happy as friends so you dont have to risk losing them to some petty shit.
november (12:31:01 AM): and
samantha (12:31:02 AM): i've been depressed for a decade and it is usually very hard to be happy
november (12:31:09 AM): you have to work on yourself
november (12:31:12 AM): get up and get a job
november (12:31:15 AM): exersize
november (12:31:25 AM): break the boundry
november (12:31:58 AM): work on yourself and happyness will follow.
samantha (12:32:09 AM): i know why it seems hard to function now
november (12:32:16 AM): ?
samantha (12:32:25 AM): it's generalized anxiety
samantha (12:32:34 AM): not just social
samantha (12:32:54 AM): i should seek help
november (12:32:55 AM): yes but you need to work though that even if its hard.
november (12:33:04 AM): you need to.
november (12:33:09 AM): you'll be happier
november (12:33:36 AM): exersizing prety much 99% of the time cures depression and helps with anxity
samantha (12:33:45 AM): maybe i could try things for hypersomnia
samantha (12:33:54 AM): but i heard there isnt a real solution
november (12:34:02 AM): so even just that would probably make you feel better, and also give you enegery to stay awake
samantha (12:34:16 AM): maybe