I'll be gone for a few days

This is going to be difficult for me to explain this, but I'll try my best.

I mentioned about a week ago on stream that a certain thing in my personal life may be coming to a head any day now. I've been extremely vague about it because I didn't want anybody to be concerned. There is no easy way to say this, so let me just be blunt.

My Grandmother on my Father's side has passed away as of June 11th, 2018.

As a family, my parents and I took her into our home a little over a year ago because she was starting to fail in a number of areas with her health. It has been hard on us the last year having to adjust our personal lives to help her, but we couldn't just leave her (she would have been dead a long time ago otherwise). She seemed to be on a road to recovery over the first 6 months she stayed with us, until she had a horrible fall at the start of this year. My father has been doing his absolute best to keep her in the best health possible. He said he didn't need our help since it was his responsibility, but I couldn't just sit around and tend to my business solely. Many days I was gone from streaming, I needed to help him before it started drastically affecting his health too. It finally came to a point recently he just couldn't care for her anymore due to her declining condition and she had to be hospitalized. Today, after a week in the hospital, we received a call that she has now passed.

I'm quite upset, but my father is absolutely torn by the news. He has been going to hell and back to make sure she passed away peacefully, since it came to a point we knew she wasn't going to last much longer. He visited her every single day at the hospital and is now going to see her one final time. He needs as much emotional support as possible, so I'm making sure to be with him until he starts to feel better.

Inconsistencies in my stream schedule and my shifting mood were probably reflective in my streams the last several months, and now you know why. If I came off as rude to anyone recently, it was because I was trying to cope with this in my mind every time I showed my face online. I have been doing my best to try and not focus in on it while I've been streaming, and I certainly didn't succeed on some days. This is the first death in my family since I was born, so this is very emotionally difficult on me (even more so seeing how devastated my Father is). I don't know exactly when I will be back to streaming, but I wouldn't count on me returning until at least this Thursday. I still plan to be at SGDQ in ~2 weeks time, so don't be concerned about that. For now, my Father needs me and I would feel so much guilt leaving him and going about streaming these next several days.

I'll see you guys again soon, thanks for keeping me sane over the last several months.

Mist