Okay so, that was the best thing I have ever read in my ENTIRE life. My phone died when I first started reading it, but I charged it at lunch and read WHICH I am lucky that I did because I was tearing up so MUCH I almost cried but good tears. I can't type a message that is even comparable to that amazing message but I would like to respond with more than just a 'thank you aw i love you' because that is just not enough. If I am gonna be honest, I am so speechless about this like omg I am so happy. You are the only person in the whole entire world that has ever made me feel this feeling deep down. There are some things that I do that are considered bad or unhealthy, like scratching and stuff or like of that topic. Like, my emotions being all weird, those things are now MINIMIZED. Granted, I am not perfect and I never will be so I still have problems handling this type of stuff but for the most part they are barely there because I have someone who makes me so happy and distracted from my problems which is amazing. I smile when I read your messages, like do you think anyone else can even be able to do that? NO. The answer is no (with the acceptation of funny memes, I'm talking real heartfelt smiling). ANYWAYS, I would like to address a few things rn. The cover, you don't have to do that it's okay <3 no pressure on that, I won't be mad or anything so please don't worry about that or anything. The song, fiRST OF ALL do you know how many people have made me a song??? here lemme count hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm okay I will give you a hint NONE NO ONE HAS EVER DONE THAT.  I will not tell you to like "make it before this date" or anything, you can take as long as you want I swear. BUT at least make something before the holidays so I can take it with me. I will do the same, I will try to do something for you idk what yet but I will. I love you, I will have something for you for everyday I'm gone. I WILL TRY it'll be good I think idk. ANYWAYS, sorry and I wanna bring up the way you are with words I am actually amazed by that. You break me out of my shell and really speak to ME, not the person my brain portrays me to be. Okay well that sounded like I am fake but that's not what I meant, like I mean when I feel empty or when I am in that state (you know the one). Like let me put it this way, when people talk to me when I am upset or even empty, it is all filtered through and it makes all the feelings different and it sucks so bad. But with you, it's like that goes away. When I talk to you, there is no filter. Everything that is said goes straight past my stupid emotion "shell" and it goes straight to my heart and I FEEL it. I have never ever felt that and I didn't know that was possible until I met you. Not to be cute or nothing, but fr you are my medicine and I'm so thankful that I have you. Okay so class starts in literally 2 minutes, and I can't type anymore because stupid MATH but please I love you so much and nothing will ever change that I promise you. Why would I leave someone that takes me out of the constant pain that I used to go through? Seriously though, please don't ever think you are annoying or talking to much. Me and you. Forever and always.