Cherophobia (fear of happiness)

I look around
And see a nice sunny day
However I stay
Inside this dark room
I have my games
On the floor
Shattered disc and broken cases
And while inside this dark room
My hand falls onto a soft stuff bear
And as I hug it and feel a smile form
I scream ripping it head off
Stuffing flying everywhere
Rocking back and forth
Over and over
Over and over