pitterer&Cringyroll-conversation

[12:45 PM] pitterer: hello cringy
[12:45 PM] Cringyroll™: hi
[12:45 PM] pitterer: i am here to find a solution to a problem
[12:45 PM] pitterer: so what is going on? you can expect complete honesty from me
[12:45 PM] Cringyroll™: whats going on with you?
[12:46 PM] pitterer: i have severe depression and couldnt decide what i should do, once i decided what i should do i regretted my decision and tried to revert it
[12:47 PM] pitterer: sometimes i was angry and overthought the things so i let my anger out
[12:47 PM] pitterer: i also regretted that, always, and apologized for that
[12:47 PM] pitterer: but you can and probably heard that it was an endless cycle of me going back and forth, right?
[12:49 PM] Cringyroll™: yea, it was pretty insane from what ive seen. why you doing this to yourself?
[12:49 PM] pitterer: yes. "crazy" and "insane" were words that have been mentioned
[12:49 PM] pitterer: doing this to myself? self harm?
[12:50 PM] Cringyroll™: not only that, everything. just throwing it all away
[12:51 PM] Cringyroll™: i know youve never liked me from day one, so its amazing you are actually talking with me right now
i think this is the first conversation we've ever had
[12:51 PM] pitterer: cringy, to be honest, i actually think you are a very likeable person. i was just testing you
[12:52 PM] pitterer: okay back to the other thing
[12:52 PM] pitterer: throwing everything away like in killing myself?
[12:53 PM] Cringyroll™: for someone online in another country that will probably never meet. seems insane to me
[12:54 PM] pitterer: well we were actually going to meet this summer and we also had plans for the future so i don't really understand
[12:56 PM] Cringyroll™: well at any rate, i dont understand why doing self harm to yourself for someone would be a good thing
[12:57 PM] pitterer: i harmed myself because on thursday i think, when it happened, i became very angry and just started to punch myself and cut with scissors
[12:57 PM] pitterer: i had a break down
[12:57 PM] Cringyroll™: jesses chryste.
[12:58 PM] pitterer: i have (diagnosed) depression since at least 2016, i was in treatment and stopped it on my own without supervision(edited)
[12:59 PM] Cringyroll™: why would you stop teating it?
[12:59 PM] pitterer: i didnt feel any change when i was taking the medication other than withdrawl symptopms after 4 days, so i just stopped taking them, i stopped taking them because i thought they didnt help
[1:03 PM] Cringyroll™: well its a chemical imbalance. you might not notice it changing or helping, but when you stop completely it hits you like a ton of bricks
best thing to do would be to go to your doctor and tell him/her this and increase the dosage if you must
my best friend suffers from manic depression and has had to up the anti before
it would be a very smart idea to go to your doctor and tell him/her about this
[1:04 PM] pitterer: thank you cringy but i uhm i beat you to it
[1:04 PM] pitterer: i was at my psychiatrist thursday, next thursday i have a therapy session with my therapist and also another psychiatrist appointment most likely(edited)
[1:05 PM] Cringyroll™: thats good, thats really good
[1:05 PM] Cringyroll™: depression makes people do crazy things
[1:05 PM] pitterer: back then i took one pill a day, now its 3 a day
[1:05 PM] pitterer: yes it does
[1:05 PM] Cringyroll™: same with my friend
[1:05 PM] Cringyroll™: has to take more
[1:05 PM] pitterer: my god
[1:06 PM] pitterer: i take one in the morning and evening and one throughout the day if im overly excited or so, restless(edited)
[1:06 PM] pitterer: also gotta say that i have the starting dose(edited)
[1:07 PM] Cringyroll™: whatever it takes, follow what your doctor says and stick by it
[1:08 PM] pitterer: yes, she gave me a nice medication plan that im following
[1:08 PM] Cringyroll™: good, you should be back on your feet soon and i really hope you are doing better
[1:09 PM] pitterer: i think the pills are already kinda working, thank you very much
[1:09 PM] pitterer: i appreciate to hear that
[1:09 PM] Cringyroll™: none of us think youre evil or anything, just really worried about you
[1:09 PM] pitterer: awh you are making me cry
[1:10 PM] Cringyroll™: sorry.
[1:10 PM] pitterer: no its good good
[1:10 PM] pitterer: its not bad crying
[1:10 PM] Cringyroll™: sometimes its good to let it out
[1:11 PM] pitterer: i thought you all hated my guts after all the crazy things i have done
[1:11 PM] Cringyroll™: it takes a LOT for me to get on my bad side, i dont really hate anyone
if you ever need to talk about things dont be afraid to talk ok?
[1:12 PM] pitterer: im so happy right now
[1:12 PM] pitterer: thanks cringy
[1:12 PM] Cringyroll™: no problem, take care of yourself ok? keep us updated(edited)
[1:12 PM] pitterer: yes thanks and i will do
[1:12 PM] pitterer: :)