1.  First of all paul, i have a lot of explaining to do and some questions to ask, before i even have the right to apologize, so please give me a fighting chance and hear me out.  Tell him im sorry about  the poor quality of our convos yesterday.  I was unable to organize my thoughts effectivly.  I, do, however, daresay i have a valid excuse to fall back on for my subpar reasoning. nani was getting in the way of my thoughts he was an extremely hateful person, he wouldnt let me finish a sentence, would wouldnt stop rambling and it was so frustrating trying to engage with him.  And that i could not effectivly get my ideas out because of him.  I dont intend to attack nani.  I am sure he has his own story and past that validly explains his behavior and way of interacting.  Im just explaining my individual experience with him.  In the later part of the day.  You were with your friends and it was clear everyone had had it with me at that point and was NOT going to listen to a word i said so the mob decided to just joke around and troll instead of diplomatically, having a tame, and civil discussion reasoning, and expressing our thoughts, and brainstorming large samples of possible solutions to the issue, at hand.  This disrupting my train of thought and left me with a pile of rubble instead of an elegant artwork of thoughts.  I, however understand why you felt the urge to not cooperate though.  You probably partly (or even mostly) feel that i dont care about negativly impacted you and your friends and that im never going to change regardless of how you reason with me, or that im even trolling.  I understand that feeling and i want to let you know though that none of these beliefs are the case.  Let me explain some things to you.

2. Tell him im not here to argue with him about whos right and whos wrong, as thats subjective. and i dont want either of us to think of this as a confrontation.  and tell him why im doing this and that i do care about him and that im not being selfish and i do care that i  negativly impacted the community

3. Tell him why i think socializing my way is better FOR ME, and  apologize for being so harsh about it the other day, I was being very arrrogant saying i am a god nani kept cutting me off so i had to practically speak without thinking so i could get a fucking sentence off, which STILL mostly failed.  Again, im not intending to spread hate, im simply saying how he affected me specifically.  This is why i hate talking in groups, instead of having just one person against me i have to wait out to 16 trillion people pouncing on me like hyenas and showing off their hate and disgust towards me via joking and trolling or going on about how wrong and dilusional i am despite that being subjective, etc, and it just isnt a stable, or healthy playing field.  Again though, i understand why you feel the urges to do this.  And just in general i believe a much deeper and interesting connection can be made via one on one discussions… point being though, being ganged up on phazes me out and i my thinking is greatly hindered.

4. Ask him how i can change

5. Ask him how i can get closer

6. I want to understand how you think.  I know we may likely have different views here but i promise i wont argue with your philosophy, as that is what i promised at the start of this appointment.  Im just curious though, you previously claimed you were currently a bully,  do you actively go out of your way to bully and hurt others lives for pleasure, or does it just happen instincually for you, or is it a combination of the two? Do you ever look back, and feel bad about putting another person in pain, or do you just not worry about it?  Do you pick compatent targets to troll, or do you seek out the weak with a low social status to assure victory, or do you do it to both?  Do you choose to bully and hurt others to feel more powerful, or for entertainment, or a combination of the two?  Thank you for telling me your motives and how you think when you bully and troll.  I may not agree or like your actions (but i really cant complain considering you most certainly feel the same way about my actions), but at the same time i find it interesting to have a conversation with a person this different from myself.  I truly feel priviledged to have been given this beutiful oppurtunity to speak one on one with you, and to have met you. I hope you eventually feel the same.

8.  That brings me to another thing.  Tell me if im wrong, but i believe part of the reason you dislike and dont take kindly to me is partly due to how different i am from you and the people you generally interact with.  It is much harder to befriend someone who is different from yourself than someone who is very similar.  However, it is my belief that interacting with those who are vastly different from yourself can teach you many things your typical friends wouldnt be able to.  That is partly why i have been so obsessed with you.  (im not validating myself, im simply giving the reason)

7. Ask him about bugs lives

8.  human nature makes people troll and pick on those with differences and     when people are with their friends it makes them especially tempted to troll.  Tell him trolling helps noones side of the problem and only stagnates (or possibly worsens), the said dilemma. Tell him although i understand why you felt the right to troll me in the past, now that ive told you all this, would you be willing as a special favor to both of us to help us both get out of this issue ASAP,  to be Diplomatic, civil, and tame and suppress the urges to troll from now on due to these reasons.

9. Ask him what drove him away when i pretended to be someone else    Dont take this as a provocative question, but are you easily annoyed towards others?    What specifically did i do to bother you?   Thats interesting.  Thank you for telling me more about yourself.

10.   to make your avatar, or at least the discords avatar an aardvark