Greetings from the null and void /drg/! Now some of you are aware of what is going on and some don’t. Well allow me to explain everything. Now this is going to be a long read. I’ll provide a short version though so don’t worry. So why am I typing this?

“If we want to survive, you can’t be picking the easy way out. You have to choose the painful path before you can finally survive.” -Touko Fukawa Danganronpa Another episode

People are going to talk shit no matter what. I haven't even lurked on /drg/ the past two days and im still getting shit talked. Its the way of life on the internet. I do want people to know the truth though instead of it being skewed though. I can’t keep running away from this, looking over my shoulder and being afraid. I will confess my sins before all of you and embrace retribution. No easy way out. I just want people to know my side of the story is all.

Now long ago in a distant land, I tokoposter.

Actually I am going to ditch this name now and start over. You guys say I am comfortable with being pathetic, I don’t want to change and ectra. Bitch I got a job now and I am being groomed for a management position and going to trade school afterword’s. I am going to CALLAGE *again*. I lost weight and shit. Look at these fucking guns son. https://a.pomf.cat/ggkmdy.jpg I can bench shit now.

So new game new name right? https://a.pomf.cat/jwostw.jpg let’s see if you can get the joke.

*Gao* Found the danganronpa anime.  I watched it and I had a good time. Then I played it on the psp emulator. I installed the jpn dub patch and played that way. Holy shit did I regret watching the anime after playing the game. I played it during 2013. Exactly one month after the anime finished.

After that I completely forgot about the series. Until I saw this.
http://store.steampowered.com/app/413410/Danganronpa_Trigger_Happy_Havoc/

Then I got back in. I waited for danganronpa 2 to come out on steam and then I went to /drg/, found the the torrent and played that way. I beat danganronpa 2 completely unspoiled because I simply forgot about the series. After I beat danganronpa 2, I became a regular on /drg/. I lurked exactly one month, and then I made some anon posts. I saw everyone who was here and they were nice. They played games with each other and goof’d off a bit and shitposted. This is when people started getting to know me. I posted Toko fanart, avatarfagged, and engaged in the activities. I was lonely, the whole point of me doing that is to meet people and make friends. I did meet people and make friends, and it just became a habit at that point. See now I was suffering from a hard case of depression, I was suicidal and created a bunch of unwanted attention. I even got a trip that was created by one of the people I was friends with.

Now the problem with that is. It’s fucking 4chan. You don’t do what I do on 4chan and expect everything to be hunkey dorey. Especially in a video game general. People don’t forget who you are and what you did on the internet. So here is what I did. I got attached to some of my female friends while I was undergoing this hard-case of depression. I misread signals and developed these one-sided relationships with them. I also kept a diary of past failed crushes and put it on a paste bin, with this like page long love confession. This is how my bad reputation was created. There was somebody I was really infatuated with and honestly I am retarded for doing that too. See I put them on this pedestal and never really got to know them. I didn’t know who they were outside of their circumstances. I got to know them over the course of several months and then discovered I made a huge mistake.

I learned a lot of real life shit from /drg/ which is kind of fucked up when you think about it. But better to learn it than never I guess. My family never really did their job of teaching me the shit I was supposed to, and forced to learn everything by firsthand experience.

So to summarize, I kept falling in love with stoves. I got burned and blog posted about it. This is where all that is coming from. You can go through the fireden if you are genuinely curious. I didn’t save any of it, stalker probably found it by now and showed everyone. I am working hard to correct this behavior. I am even going to start seeing a psychiatrist and talk to them so I can stop telling people about my life. It's nobody’s business.

Now my main point. All of that shit happened like a whole year ago I “think”. And it seems somebody who remembers everything is insisting on reminding me I made mistakes when I never really lied about them to begin with. Tell everyone about it. Cause you know bullshit outside of /drg/ is apparently relevant to /drg/ now.

Now I never had a stalker before. So I imagine posting your medical certificates is a dumb fucking thing to do. Now I completely forgot to be honest that my CPR and First aid expired. I am going to get those renewed because apparently they are handy skills at the place im working at. But he did raise a point, I work in retail. I am not a medical assistant or in neither training anymore, nor am I certified. So I will stop giving medical advice. But I will never stop telling people to eat healthy foods and take care of themselves because im a huge nurturing faggot.

There is a long story to why I gave medical advice in the first place but, I learned my lesson. Do not fucking talk about yourself like that on the internet when you can be recognized. But I did go to medical school for 4 years. I never got the job I wanted because of testing circumstances and no money to pay for retaking tests. I just settled for a retail position. I plan on going to trade school after I become a manager. And learn how to be a repairman. Then ill give advice on how to fix things and you guys can tell me how im a lying piece of shit.

But now I got a question for you people.

Some lonely guy who socializing with people with an occasional tendency to type out paragraphs like a fucking sperg, and sounding completely idiotic. Maybe develop an accidental crush here and there and act out on his emotions. But I got much better at that.

Or the guy who keeps inciting drama, getting people to shitpost and be angry. Analyzing every single bit of information about me, posting it, and then bragging how much of a shitlord I am. And fueling the drama. Posting conversations from discords into the threads, starting shit with other people and telling them to kill themselves.

So which is worse? Obviously though it's both.

I went cold turkey. I don’t even have the thread open in a tab and lurk. But according to reports from my friends "he" told people who he thought were me to kill themselves. And picked fights, and now apparently making blanket empty posts to “nobody” telling me to kill myself. He is talking to himself at this point now. Telling me to kill myself when I don’t even fucking read the thread anymore. All I got is reports from a few steam friends. He is jumping at ghosts thinking they are me.

Talking to himself when he thinks im there, attacking other people because he thinks they are me. When the guiltiest thing I ever done to anyone on /drg/ is maybe give them some emotional stress for a day. I never bullied anyone. There was once incident where I got a little upset with somebody named noodle. And that was because they impersonated somebody else. I was accused of having a crush on the person they impersonated, when I was just overly attentive of them. So that’s my fault for causing that misunderstanding.

I don’t like it when people pretend to be another person and lie to everyone. But I don’t hold grudges. I just asked for them to apologize. They apologized, and that was it. That is what should of happened but guess what. The stalker posted some of my pastebins exactly after they apologized, said how creepy I was too everyone, made fun of me and turned me into this boogieman. But then I was forgotten when discord drama happened. This was old /drg/ so like a year ago. All because I asked somebody else to apologize to a person for doing a bad thing.

This stalker just insists on holding onto the past when I am trying to grow up and be a better person. He is trying to psychologically torture me when in reality he is making a fucking idiot of himself now. And he keeps dragging innocent people into his fucking shitposting. Stop doing this to yourself.

I love /drg/ because /drg/ was there for me. I would never do anything intentionally that would hurt you guys even though I fucked up quite a bit over the period of time. I would never attack another person, bully them, and shitpost about them constantly.

Versus him who will derail the thread whenever he has good juicy drama to share.

Here is some proof. I had to put a password on my taima because I woke up to this two days in a row. The first thing I see in the morning after checking my email is this shit.
https://a.pomf.cat/vtjhum.png

Then several days later, my friend sent me this. He confesses his obsession will never stop.
https://a.pomf.cat/gfzlhz.png
Now I censored this so nobody is exposed. Yes I even censored the person who is stalking me to prove to you people.
I will not stoop to his level.

So in conclusion.

All the screencaps of me and my steam user name involves me asking other people telling him to stop. There is archived fireden conversations asking him to stop from me. There are posts after posts of him telling me to kill myself from him. And I never EVER once stooped to his aggression. Because I am not going to stoop to his level.  I will never tell anyone to kill themselves, I may tease a few times in jokingly and shitpost as well. But attempting to emotionally harm real people?

You know what, I am going to apologize again. I have a few opinions on things that others may find bad, or hurtful. I will concede I am not the most mature person on decision making and having those opinions. But they are opinions. I am just like everyone else, everyone has an opinion.

I won’t intentionally harm the people even if they hurt me, abuse me, and say mean things to me. I want to atone for my sins and seek redemption. I want to grow up and be a better man. And I am going slip, fall, and tumble on that journey. But everyone does. So stop holding onto grudges for past mistakes.

Nobody died, nobody got hurt, the only thing that happened is there was a few pieces of bullshit said on the internet.
We need to let go /drg/. Forgive and forget. I apologize for shitting on the internet. I forgive those who harmed me, and I ask of you people to forgive them as well. You don’t need to physically say and apologize to me. Because you already forgiven.

Kanye-sama is the inner warmth and love we all need. We are all misguided children on this path. Love each other /drg/ and love yourselves goddammit. I can’t be the only one to love you people I need some help. We are all in this together.

Now I am going to stay away at least for a few more weeks. I want to focus on having fun and playing video games and being with my friends who were always ALWAYS there for me. These people stopped me from killing myself, talked me when I was sad, I argued and laughed with these people.

They care about me and its only right that I return the favor.
I love all of you, especially you anon.
http://i.imgur.com/pqo8SBf.jpg


Now here is a message to some of the people I know.

Kaedeanon "the one who says good night." You have nothing to do with this. I have no idea why they keep using that fucking name instead of using the code name. Code-names are for these exact instances to protect identity and privacy of each-other. They are talking about somebody else. So I apologize for you getting confused constantly.

Grumpy. dude you are like a dad to me man. You understand and know better. You believed in me when you don’t even know who the fuck I am. That generosity towards a complete stranger is so rare that I kind of cried a few times when you comforted me. Your dedication to jokes and knowledge is vast and respectable.

ESL-Bot. Stop putting yourself down. You are a unique beautiful individual and somebody is rooting for you. They like me want you to stop thinking these negative thoughts and focus on the positivity and strive to be somebody. You are beautiful, and he thinks you are beautiful.

Maki anon. Besides being (German?) I think you are a cool dude and I like how you try to actively help and cheer people up. Your maki edits are cute and so are your posts. Keep working on that goal of yours. I think she is worth it.

Kaito anon. I don’t know much about you other than you want to fuck kaito. Cool. You also seem nice and a good person even though you say some faggy shit. Nothing against that of course, just expressing my humor a bit.

Anami anon (rantarou?) The other gay dude that hangs out with kaito anon. You are cool too. The stories ive seen told were pretty cute and interesting. Posting each others husbands because you would get banned for avatarfagging. That’s something out of a book man. It’s super cute.

Mitty. Please don't eat people. And stop responding to the people who are calling you a satanic degenerate or some shit. I dunno. 4chan has mean people. Ignore them. I am bad at following my own advice though but chin up and be yourself.

Jewell. I think you should focus on having some fun and stop worrying about the bullshit said on the internet. You made mistakes and in my opinion, completely fucking harmless compared to the shit I did. Stop hating yourself. You have good a friend who I have told repeatedly to be there for you because everyone needs a friend.

Angie anon. I want you to focus on working hard at all times, on your sprite edits, your stories, your school work, and work towards being who you want to be. You don’t need to be somebody else, you need to be yourself. Don’t be scared of not turning into this perfect replica of what you think is expected of you. He will always be proud no matter what.

Tenkoma. I would like to talk to you in private one day. But that day may never come and that is fine. But it would still be nice at-least once. Stay beautiful and roast is the best shit.

Monk. Thank god I met you man. Thank god I met you fucking dwarf looking midget ass taco eating piece of shit. Goddamn you are so much more immature than me, but so much mature as well at the same time. You have some flaws, I can help you with those flaws. But first, admit bioshock infinite was an okay game. You do good and set a positive image for people who shitpost. Never take this shit seriously and being malicious.

Sonny. I don't know where you are, and haven't talked to you in forever but I hope you are doing good and understand what kind of path you want to follow.

Kiri poster: Stop bashing homo's.

Aussie. STOP SAVING SPRITES IN JPEG YOU FUCKING VENMONOUS DROP BEAR REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Jap Mikan? I think. You fascination with weird shit scares me a little. But if its harmless who cares ya know? Keep being you.

Blood lady. You terrify me. I honestly don’t know what to say to you because everyone probably at some point already said something to you. You need more than words of encouragement. I think you need some help. There are trained professionals that have and cured people of their inhibitions and problems. You can be saved, everyone can always be saved. So stop doing this to yourself and seek some help. They are better help than any of us can give. Please stop hurting yourself.

Akamatsu. Mom you keep giving and giving. All I ever do is drop my problems onto you and you listen and talk to me all the time. Goddamn you are a good person and I apologize for being such of a piece of shit in the past.

Slav Sonia. 2nd mom. You are very mean sometimes but I know there is something there behind those eyes, the hair, its potential. You have a lot of potential to offer people with your unique point of view and understanding. You are very helpful and you like to learn how to do things which is one of the greatest potentials all of us have.

Makoto. Dude, emotions suck sometimes. They make you hurt a lot and confuse you into doing stupid things. But honestly that is what makes us human, that is what stops us from being boring. Having flaws and making mistakes is a flavor of life everyone should have. I appreciate your dedication to keeping your nose clean and being a good person. We need more good people.

Akapo. I know you are out there, somewhere. Comeback to us when you are ready.

Pryle. Keep doing a good job of helping others around you and contributing to the greater good.

Tsumikan. You will never be forgotten friend. You were there at my lowest, when everyone around me couldn’t stand me anymore. In your last moments you decided to help me, somebody I didn’t consider worth helping at all. Thank you friend.

NIDAI. Dude, you have some serious ego issues and anger management problems. But despite those flaws, you were dedicated to help others and inspire. I still have your training regiment saved in a notepad file on my desktop. I lost a lot of weight and doing great. Thank you.

Stalker. I forgive you, you don’t need to forgive me. You never even need to say the words you forgive me. There is a side to you I am sure everyone sees that I can’t see. I am sure you are good person deep down especially when other people talk of you. You are doing this because you think you are doing something right. You are holding back, and using your words in creative ways to get to me. You could of easily found out where I lived at this point. But you didn't. There is something inside of you that is human. But for some reason you are ashamed of showing it to others. I forgive you. Genuinely forgive you even though you are most likely going to continue doing this.

If there is anyone I missed. I apologize. I would like add you guys on steam so we can play a few video games together. Danganronpa isn’t going to be around forever, but our friendships can. Even if we don’t know each other physically. We can still connect via hope.