How Did It Get to This

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How did it come to this, scrolling through your messages and paranoia gripping me by the neck.

How did it come to this? You swayed me with your words and it once made my heart race but now I can taste the dishonesty in every word you speak.

What happened with your promise of being mine? Was that just a test of courage, to see if you can even form those words in that exact order, to convince me you were mine?

I don't want to lose my pride but here I am, tearing myself apart with overthinking or is it just thinking when I know all of your secrets and I know who you really are and I know what you've been doing and I know, I know everytime you come back home to me you smell like her but I smile like I don't know anything. It feels like you're consciously walking over me lately?

They accused me of losing my mind, they warned me about people like you but I thought to myself, "Maybe he'll be different." Because goddamn baby, you made me feel special, you painted me a blue sky, you were too good with your words. You know I tried to keep it fun, I tried to keep it good but my efforts were clearly not enough.

I know I'm losing you, but it feels more like loosing my mind. Was it me, did I say something way too honest that made you run and hide like a scared little boy? Once I thought I was so much more than 'enough' to you but now it's the same old questions that I ask myself:

Was I not enough?
Did I not try hard enough?
Did I not pass all your tests?

Maybe I'd known it all this time that you kept what was between us blurry, never really telling me what we are or was it you and your careless vocabulary that effortlessly swept me off my feet?

We're spiraling down this endless pit of confusion and secrecy, how did it get to this? Smiling when you come home, greeting you at the door and hugging you, asking you how'd work go and kiss you like I don't know anything, like you didn't do anyting wrong.

I'm only human, after all.