DR Transcript: SK Erald Anapanasati 7 28 19

 there it goes now we're on so just to recap when I'm meditating I've seen noticing a lot of it for a lot of tension I don't want it which makes it worse you know not wanting the tension so in that moment I sure will add in the mind and let go of wanting all right be happy that you can see the tension that's the first thing all right go ahead in the mind in the Syst well at least I can see the tension now I can see it before the tension was there and I didn't see it now I can see it and before when you couldn't see it that meant that whatever you were doing at that time was making you more tense and so now is the time to change and that wake-up moment is sati when you woke up to the pack oh that icy tension there is tension here and so from that you can then go to the next point okay I am really happy that I can see that tension let me feel good that I know that I was a moment ago creating tension but now I'm not creating tension and there's now I'm not creating tension because I know that that tension was there whatever I was doing before to give me that tension I'm not doing that what I'm doing right now is congratulating myself for seeing that tension and so a major change has just occurred one of the things you can do then is you can start experiment with where is the tension is it in the front of the face is it in the middle is it in the neck is it in the back is it in the shoulders where is the tension and how much tension is there and what's the relationship normally when people feel tension in the head anywhere in the the tension or headaches or migraines or any of that kind of stuff a lot of it has to do with blood pressure and that the blood pressure is interrupted from its normal state when the neck and the shoulders get tense and all the capillaries don't let the oxygen in or let us say the blood that has been spent by the brain come out very well and so while the heart wants to pump and pump and pop more in to the brain the capillaries don't lift that out because there's tension so if you can relax that and what you just did is exactly the right thing to do is to roll the head around find out where the tension is and - now we can also begin to look at something on the underlying part of that and that is that there is anxiety that in fact that tension is in the shoulders and the neck comes from the blood itself with properties such as adrenaline or cortisol I haven't done any medical research on your body so I'm not sure exactly what's going on but one of the things that they know for sure and that is almost always blood pressure is taken at the hand and that the hand should be either at the end of the arm but in any case it should be about heart level and that's what the blood pressure that medical science works with but they're beginning to understand oh no that probably the right place to do blood pressure check is on the throat and on the neck because that's where the blood pressure is most likely to really zone up and down then in fact what they have found is is that over a course of a period of a short period of time say maybe within one minute the blood pressure in the normal reading will go up and down based upon as a secondary benefit or a secondary point because the primary point is how much blood the brain is using and whether there's tension in the shoulders and as the shoulders relax the the blood flows better throughout the brain and because of that that affects the blood pressure that can be recorded in the arm that's really amazing then they're beginning to do that that kind of research but they're nowhere near as far along with it as the Buddha that the Buddha didn't need blood pressure but what he did recommend is is that people carry tension and the tension comes from and in fact of the right word that we would use in English would be stress and stress can be then directly translated into dukka dukka is in fact tension that's one of the best definitions of it is that's what it is and in this case it's in the body and so finding a way of relaxing the shoulders and relaxing the neck will then change the blood pressure now so the tension in the head can take care of itself so now the thing to do is to start watching for shoulder and neck tension because if you can catch shoulder in that tension then you can catch it is it's doing its thing before it causes the tension in the head okay because of the secondary blood pressure issues okay I'll keep an eye on that I would deal with so now that's the important thing keeping an eye on it is precisely what we're talking about that keeping an eye on things by the way is exactly an excellent translation of the word sati which we normally translate as to remember but was you keeping an eye on it that's right you do that you keep an eye on it you watch that stuff you make sure that you know when any tensions come into the into the body like that in the shoulders because that'll often happen along with the anchor that you were mentioning a few moments ago when it comes to tension in the breath you recommend controlling the length and the coarseness or the fineness of the breath through this time absolutely and in fact yes as an experiment to get to know the body and to get to know the breath there's a lot of different kinds of breathing techniques that is worthwhile for you to work with the Buddha puts it into two main qualities of long breaths and short breath but in all cases with the breath we're going to be watching the N and the out-breath now the next part is really important for people to understand and that is Rossetti if we're not watching the breath then the breathing will go back to normal which means it's now is being controlled by the reptilian brain but when we're thinking about the breath when we're actually watching the breath it becomes part of the rip not the reptilian brain anymore it has to release control and the power now goes to the frontal cortex and the frontal cortex they have found with MRIs that when people start to think about their breath watch the breath note the breath and begin to modify and change the breath that the frontal cortex lights up it lights up in the sense that neurons are firing things are happening and that this is exactly what the Buddha wants us to do though he didn't use that kind of language but we need literally to wake up that frontal cortex and start relying upon our instincts or our underlying tendencies to be and that's so that's what wisdom is wisdom is in fact firing up and getting in you SAP frontal cortex so that we can now with that keeping an eye on that's the frontal cortex just watching he's the the guard the Guardian and at the best place then to do this is in a place where you feel really comfortable and really sad slide Witcher practice based upon success then if you have a successful practice in when the mind comes out of of the hindrance with the idea of gladdening the mind see them as a major success a big success why because this success that we're building right now is so important it's possibly the most important thing in the world in this regard that to become a noble to become part of the good impact Jesus talked about it you must be born again in other words born not from the reptilian are from the natural or the old way of doing it but the second or the new birth is the birth of wisdom to birth to the frontal cortex the waking up and the use of it and that the funny thing is is that in our society we don't use the frontal cortex very much this society doesn't need it almost all of the society is run by the reptilian brain especially the Republican Party even though they employ well all of the intellect is still it's not wisdom the intellect is verbal you could go so far as to say that's part of the mammalian brain that's the mid cortex and the desire for knowledge the thirst for wanting to know stems from the Gazelle wanting to know where the Lions are and it has to do with communication our language in fact the Buddha calls that the verbal Sankara just opposed to the mental Sankara in in the mental Sankara we're talking about in fact the old reptilian brain in fact in the thai version of the of the the sutra they actually don't use the word mind the way that you would in English you would they use the word heart the hearts and car are emotional systems in it and the way to look at it is the reason that on occasions you get angry like you do this because you're already in the habit of getting angry like that and the reason that you're in the habit of doing it like that is because you used to do it like that and you've been doing it like that over and over and over again but now you're waking up to it I'm waking up to before because after I've noticed it like a second after but now I'm noticing it the building up and like I'm like wait a minute yes exactly that's right this kid messed up it tastes like it is what is this well you did the right gesture you could I can see that gesture that you're making and understand that's exactly right well you're actually pointing at is how the tension comes out of the chest area and comes right up to the throat and if this anger literally gets you by the throat this is exactly why people are call redneck not because they're out in the Sun in the hot field working oh no the rednecks are sitting on the porch while somebody else is out two people working no the redneck comes from anger hot people exactly hot people and all of that is there in the neck you can see anger when people want they tenser net do you know why that's true mm-hmm when the lion gets the Gazelle the first thing he does is he jumps on his back but when he goes in for the kill what does he do goes for the neck ah so this is deeply buried this is way down in our DNA isn't that interesting way way down in the DNA humans have been doing that long before they were humans if you're doing this when they were lions and gazelles or at least monkeys it's funny said that before I picked up meditation I've always had but shows no less they miss and at some point it took some herbal stuff and my shoulders went down and I'm like wait a minute is this when it's were like it feels like to be normal like my shoulders down okay cuz I never noticed like this one no oh no more shoulder paid I know what it was this my whole life who was this my soul doesn't like this every time I walk into a public place oh they are hello everybody based in fear and that fear will turn to anger all right so you're exactly right your own to it all I'm doing is explaining what you're already on too it is it's the throat it's the neck is the tension is the fear that comes from old primitive days in the sense that this is a dangerous situation but in fact the frontal cortex can take a look at the situation's it wait a minute there's no danger here there's really no danger and yet those shoulders go up because we sense danger that's because we're on automatic pilot or we're on running instinctual and the whole point of instinctual behavior is self-preservation that instinct and so the instinctually minded people are the reptilian brain people they can see danger anywhere instead of looking for comfort everywhere looking for comfort yeah looking for comfort looking for joy here it is I like that because you can find it if you're looking at the visible and what you're looking for and if you're looking to if you're looking for danger then you're using reptilian brain and there are all kinds of folks who will exploit that in fact I have a word for it it's called GRE be Greb and I and the letters are only in that way so that they spell something actually you can do it with bird be PRG it's government religion education and big business and all four of these will lie to you telling you lies that will get you afraid so that you will behave the way that they want you to behave out of fear and possibly the way that can be stated in if you don't work you'll starve yeah that's a big one that's the big one right there huh huh and all four of them conspire against you to keep you doing things so that you pay taxes and can be exploited so the government takes your money your education they already got your money because that you needed em to get up to the point of getting the job and now that you're working for business they're exploiting you and if you if you're going to church they want your money too everybody wants your money and they want to keep you afraid and in need of them and what the path of the Buddha is is a path to get out of that trap so that we eventually come to the point of and let me get this clear so that you can hear this and memorize it Oh boundless joy to find at last there is no happiness in the world what world is that the world of grab the world of government the world of religion the world of Education world of business there is no happiness in that world and yet everybody works in that world and you're going to have to find your happiness does not depend upon your job what religion you have what government benefits you do what boats you take any of that kind of stuff none of its gonna make you happy sure the only thing that's gonna make you happy is your own change of attitude when I when I walk into a room it's fight you said that looking for danger looking for comfort that's really stuck with me right now first thing I think I'm like who could cause me danger in terms of it socially or you know who can like your ostracized reject me or insult me or I saw done kind of like martial arts and stuff so come physically I don't feel threatened but it's all that's other the right which is in fact you did that martial art because you felt threatened so now that you've done the martial art you've taken care of the actual threat in the sense that the frontal cortex now you can take care of yourself yeah and yet you still feel danger you still feel afraid so doing the martial arts didn't fix the problem that's exactly but it was a step in the right direction got you breathing anyway I'll tell you maybe 20 percent just like I know I'm safe you know but it doesn't mean it's fully registering but some part of it is like you know what we're done physical harm but will give me a social harm we can be in now here's a trick about it did you ever do any actual sparring did you get that far in martial arts I imagine that you did or you wouldn't have the confidence that you do those jiu-jitsu I don't know if you ever heard of it and you know oh yes I have been thrown around I've repeated it so I would do okay so here's the thing then in any martial arts but you were doing jiu-jitsu one of the things that you really have to do is watch your opponent you got to be right here right now in order to watch what he's doing or he's gonna throw you on the mat yes exactly and if he tries to throw you on the mat your job is to do exactly what you need to do to not only stop him from throwing you on the mat put him down there - all right so here's the point you've already developed a socket that you need now you have to focus it if you can so imagine now that every time that you're in meditation sitting on the cushion or in fact all whenever you go into a room of those people but instead of watching your opponent with every move that he makes start watching your own feeling system in your own mind with every move it makes possibly with the idea of I am going to keep my shoulders relaxed when I go into this room I'm going to relax intentionally the shoulders as I open the door I'm going to go in that room with relaxed shoulders and I'm going to be on guard and the other thing is intentionally start looking for people who are friendly rather than looking intentionally for people who might be dangerous change your attitude when you walk into that room full of dangerous people you're the most dangerous where you can change that but you have to be on top of it you have to keep an eye on it and this is why sati is so important it's the key element of the teachings of the Buddha if people only study Buddhism out of a book they can know everything but then at the right time when they need all of that stuff to read out of the book it ain't there for theirs back tense or uptight or shoulders are up their head is tense the most dangerous guy in the room why what good and all of that reading do them if they're not there for seeing what it is this is why the bring key in fact that's what that's the advantage that Buddhism has over psychology for instance because the students of psychology or the clients are never given the task of you've got to start remembering over and over and over again you've got to develop the sake you got to keep it going you got to make your whole mind changed with it an example would be a Y here's my new example a light switch that has a spring on it and a timer of some kind so that sometimes you push light switch and the light will stay on for a while but eventually it'll turn itself off and then you got to go turn that light switch back on again to get the light back on and your brain is very much like that when the dissolve that means you're on automatic pilot and when your own that means you're in human mode so that you're in control rather than being on automatic running from the automatic old program so but it goes back automatically again all by yourself and not only them but just at the wrong time just when you need to light the most that's when he goes dark Murphy's Law and so we have to remember to keep turning that light switch on to keep turning it on keep turning it on wake up wake up wake up sati sati sati sati over and over and over again and that's the real use of the practice and sitting meditation it's that sati that's the number one skill to be developed with the secondary skill that needs to be developed is the thing that you give let us say the fruit of the path so the path of the path is the sati and the fruit of the path is the joy that comes but just flipping that switch and turning the lights on I'm now in the champion I'm no longer the sufferer I am no longer in darkness I am no longer the victim right now I am no longer the victim to a tent set of shoulders and give me a attention to make me angry that doesn't happen now now I'm watching what's going on I'm the boss did you lower your camera just a little bit sorry here we go like that yeah okay so I do have some experience report on that when I first started I thought I had pretty good mindfulness and I would remember oh and then I'll do the success I'm like I got it yeah this is awesome and then as I'm getting it I'm like I'm gonna go to the breath I didn't even make it to the breath before like I forgot about it I was like that's weird I didn't even last two seconds so I can remember why I wouldn't like to stay so that's when I switch to the breath I'm like you gotta be able to maintain that at least a couple seconds you know to realize the beginning I hadn't done that not here that's exactly right you're right that's an excellent point let me further clarify that the dreams of the sequence of a long end breath and long out-breath that becomes part of the practice in that time period the mind has plenty and plenty and plenty of time to do things one of the things it can do is just wander off with the breath but another one is we can stay on the breath but thoughts occur and so we want to make sure that the thoughts that are occurring are of the quality the number one they're not going to take us away from the breath and number two they do not cause suffering in fact dukkha or suffering is what takes us off the breath and so we have to start maintaining wholesome thoughts but what we've been talking about today is also wholesome feelings and that the pee leaves come out of one part of the brain the reptilian brain and the thoughts come out of the mid part of the brain which is the what they call them a million part of the brain where we have language and we tell ourselves stories and intellect and all of this kind of stuff but the real knower and seer the thing that makes humans really human is for instance ability to connect the dots and the ability to see the dots dogs came to see the dots how can you get them to connect the dots so it's that frontal cortex that we have that makes our speech and our language so powerful but the quality of the speech and the language is it and the intellect itself is not this better part of the brain the part this wisdom the part that can be here now and see what's going on and understand not just a situation but the way that we feel the way that we act we become high class high quality human beings not only do we change the emotion now we also got to change the thoughts so they're directed towards a whole song after who are hold very exactly okay I let the thoughts do the thing while I'm trying to bring joy but it's like to two things don't know different directions right and so you need to take the thoughts and start directing them also and the direction and and in the way we can direct the thoughts is with that quality of gladdening the mind okay and the gladdening the mind and will assist us mightily in feeling good so that we wind up with with most of the appropriate thoughts that lead us to host some conclusions about life itself which helps us then to eliminate the better so an example would be the better of doubt to eradicate the better of doubt means that we have to have this success all over and over and over again with the gladdening of the mind of aha I call you as opposed to oh no there the mind goes against you see that's a major change in attitude aha I call you becoming very pleased with your progress this is the blatant of this is the feeling this is what they call rapture and and and pleasure born the seclusion now that rapture and pleasure born of seclusion is actually dynamite back the word actually is pity pity and cyka cyka is actually happiness we can translated by bode as pleasure but it's really a satisfaction so that wraps your pity is much more like the feeling of success and it's a feeling but it goes along with that thought ah hi I call you this is the underlying feeling of being the winner huh huh I'm the boss here haha I got it okay that's the good feeling and this is the kind of feeling that everybody wants as why people play slot machines at the casino is to get that feeling a feeling of being a winner you need to start to develop that not just the thought about how I call you but the feeling and then that changes in into suka which is satisfaction versus success then the satisfaction once you have those two qualities those are jhana factors and they're born of the seclusion from the entrances so now we want to make sure that we keep those indexes at bay because the hindrances one keeps us out of the joy as you were saying is almost like a conflict and eventually that conflict will be won by the wandering mind it always wins unless we make sure oh no you're not going to do that no I'm gonna be the boss I win you come back here and so you come back here is what they call in the Mojave method denoting to note what's going on right now and in this regard we're going to start noting the happiness noting the satisfaction noting that state of mind where everything is good now as pleasurable this is relaxed I like it notice that and notice also that now it's okay to start wanting to maintain that because that's not wanting something you don't have it's wanting to keep something you've got completely different so you begin to guard it and what are you gonna guard it from the very thoughts that are gonna take you away from that this feels nice so you get into that nice really comfortable enjoyable state and you like it and you want to maintain it this is good this is nice and so any thoughts of the past we said oh no I don't want to think about that I want to stay in this really beautiful nice State never mind come back in this is the whole quality that we're looking for is to be able to maintain that state of really this is good stuff I like this place let's I have a state in place does attention stay on the breath as well if you start noticing the tension coming though you can start breathing back into that tension because you can use the breath to help relax the body take a long slow deep breath for instance if the if the anxiety and the tension can be felt into the chest then when you're breathing you think about you watch you notice and you make sure that you're getting a whole lot of air into that area in the opening the chest expanding it out getting all the blood flowing so that they could start moving around instead of getting stuck in that place of tension where they have tightness and in the chest and you'd be surprised that people will get that tension and tightness in the chest but they don't even know it but yet they know it at least subconsciously so that that tension and tightness and the chest begins to affect their thoughts in the sense of oh I've got to go do something I'm not sure exactly what it is I need to do or why I need to do it because they're not aware of in fact why they need to do it is because they want to get rid of this tension in the chest or for you in the neck it's the same exact same thing some people store it here some people store it there and in fact if you find it like that do the same thing with the breathing in the sense of when you breathe in breathe in to fill it up completely and then when you exhale you want to let it all down just and so you relax the neck relax the shoulders relax the whole body tranquilizing the body just let it out let it go it's actually part of anapanasati it's surprisingly how much more its mindful or Michael develops when concentration or when you know pay attention to the breath I didn't think it would translate you know because all I do is pay attention to the breath or the day and now I'm noticing well that's just causing attention and that's kind of this why did I notice it before why I just pay attention to one thing that's kind of showing all this other stuff because I always thought you know you got my first here from noting and maja see or what I've heard of my house they've been taught and then you have concentration here one point Ernest they don't mix yes they do is all one practice is just a different focus and that the mistake that most Westerners make is this quality that they talk about concentration because that's not what the word Sumati should be translated to and yet it's been translated that way for well more than a hundred years now and so the whole Western society is all screwed up that the word concentration actually means something like taking out all of the in essential points and gathering together on the essential ingredients an example of that would be concentrated orange juice either frozen or all the way to powder or concentrated milk okay they do that with raw uranium that what they're doing is is that they're taking all the stuff that's not a particular u-238 or 35 or whatever I take all the other stuff that's not that out of it and they do that with centrifuges because even if the centrifuges spinning high enough and the screens are down to the molecular level so that the screening is small enough then the stuff that you don't want will be separated from the stuff that you do want it'll go to the outside of the centrifuge and so they keep doing that and then the stuff that they take out of the middle is more purified but it's not yet so now they got to throw out all the junk and put on is a partially purified stuff in and centrifuge it again and so they'd be alright that's concentration that's not what we're doing here not according to the Buddha and yet people who think of jhanas they think of that as concentration torian's back oh no it's not really concentration that we're doing even when we get to the point of turning those thoughts off we can go into second jhana which then turts the thoughts out because in first jhana we actually do want to keep those thoughts going why because we're going to put them to work we're not going to let the mind just wander around we're going to make sure it's staying on point but the point is only in the sense of the wholesome that's the way that we would say the concentration is just to remove the unwholesome stuff and leave only the wholesome in so in that regard is kind of a concentration but a better wave to look at sumati is they gathering together of the ingredients that you need in order to do something and now we're thinking that we've come a completely different way instead of trying to get rid of things that are in essential instead we're thinking about oh no we need things we don't have that needs to be come and put into place an example of this would be the attempt like a teepee Western American Indians have a teepee and at the top of that point all of those rich bowls came together at a top point the same is true with a yurt in fact in the in the Buddhist scriptures it is a Europe that is used in the sense that it's got a central point and then all the rich bowls go around on the outside but they collected this high point you can also think of it as a as the dome on the Capitol building that high point that's what we mean by Sumati and for that Sumati of course jhana is when we collect all the factors together and what are the factors that we need rapture and pleasure born from the seclusion of the hindrances so that when we get all the crap out of the mind now we feel really joyful and satisfied that we've got to step out of the mind and we want to maintain that satisfaction so now we've got the things together and so the way that we're going to use the mind is in a way of applied and sustained so now we're going to by the mind on what's worth thinking about and we're going to keep the mind sustained on what's worth thinking about now that we're thinking about in fact is basically what's worthy of wise attention is the Eightfold noble path in the Four Noble Truths in the sense of what is suffering or the neck tension and all of that stuff is suffering and I'm going to be watching for that separate this is suffering what's the cause of suffering wanting things we don't have putting up with things that we don't want in most specifically not keeping an eye on things that's the second noble truth right there greed ill-will and delusion not keeping an eye on things and that allows that wanting things to come up and cloud our meditation so we're now going to be on guard because we're in the state of joy a state of happiness the state of sweet spot of satisfaction I like this and I'm not going to leave it I'm not going all that to mind now take me away and if it does we'll catch it again we'll eventually get an eye on it and we'll start over again and do this process over and over and over again but let's suppose now I have to reproach them for a while we can actually keep the mind focused enough so that we're only thinking about wholesome thoughts thoughts about to here now thoughts about what is it like to be really completely free from suffering wow this is so nice well at first that first Noble Truths it good stuff I like it alright and how did I get here well I've got it because I've got right view I've got right attitude I've got right sati I can keep remembering to come back and do this and I'm doing it with just the right amount of effort so that it's pleasurable your attention is feeling good your intention is to maintain this state of suka is the breathy anchor still it comes running that breath is not only the anchor but it's also the toy it's a toy to play with rather than something to focus on with concentration think about it as a toy and so you want to take it apart you want to inspect it you want to play with it you want you want to make it go from zum-zum zum-zum that's something fun yes make it fun that's the whole point in life you have you would children are robbed of their joy children are robbed of their pot stop having fun and sit down and do your homework stop having fun and do what you're told to do and when we get really good at bad somehow we think of that as an adult no not an adult that's still we've really been stuck into that wrong kind of childhood director do what you're told to do but the child they want to go play that's talking about kiddie in the beginning that's one of the things that I really liked about her even though the let us say the drill sergeant the office the military officer the teachers the college professor and all of that qualities is still left in here someplace we want her to pay attention you do your some work come on you've seen that word before you know what that word is remember it okay so that part is there but there's another part in in here which is actually relatively long the fact if you don't give up lying around you want to go play so I have to address that too hey kitty can you actually have fun with this let's see if you can have fun while learning that in fact having fun while learning is what the whole new way of looking at education should be rather than telling these kids that they have to pay attention and you have to feel bad and stop doing what you want to do with whether to direct a child's attention so that they begin to enjoy what they're doing they like it then they'll learn and I know because I'm right in the throes of that with with Kitty right now of getting her to begin to learn and to enjoy learning how to read and write Thai language and learning and how to read and write English it's amazing how can we get rid of it to really like it right well I've gotta like it too and I've gotta like her and by that way we could get it done but unfortunately I was not trained that way and neither were you and so somehow or another we think that all will if I've got to do this maybe I can have fun and enjoy myself after I get the job done so I'll do what I'm told to do and let my reward go off into the future someplace guess what now we're playing according to the rules of the game of the law of kamma you do good something and eventually you'll get a good payoff if you do a bad something eventually you'll get a bad payoff but the Buddha says oh no kama is based in college the fact if you do good now you're gonna get a benefit right now if you're doing bad right now you're gonna be get the punishment for that right now mm-hmm that's just how it works right it's supreme' is real go ahead it's surprisingly how cos yes yes Ahmadi studies you know forget the thoughts all your thoughts forget the hindrances and just you know one pointedness trying to focus on their you know some tension and discomfort and that's I definitely that's how to develop a version and I guess some anxiety towards breathing and that's why I spent so much time the past two weeks I'm like I gotta figure this out I cannot be afraid of breathing or you know putting my attention on the breath so being gently coaxing and talking and figure out and what do you said you know use the thoughts as well to be involved with that the pleasure and the joy is like what I think of that I mean I do that for work or I do that when I'm doing something I'm like you know in order to get involved I put my thoughts at it directed you know and sustained thoughts but before I got you physically to say there though like that's just like we do it all wrong yeah it's been there all along and it's funny because we we hear new things and old ways so they don't quite get it so sometimes it needs to be explained to over and over and over again in different ways and walking around until the student said oh yeah there's nothing it's really easy to do all I have to do is remember to do it even when you said you know bring the joy of success and all that I was like yeah I'm pretty successful right and we think I'll try it it was after whatever experience I had made a patient I was listening to teachers and they're all like well you know it is as it is don't get involved and I was a pretty happy person before but I always knew some effort was required for me to be happy so now I'm like alright I should probably drop that effort and just be as I am and I noticed I no longer smiled and I got no longer look forward to doing stuff and like all this kind of like stuff I don't my guess this is it and then I realize when I started a success like oh I have been having to lose his mentality like it is there like surprisingly I don't think I'm gonna do this and like that sharp contrast you know for the few seconds where you know alertness and brightness and like hey I feel great I am a champion - lady that go and going back to the oh I just wanna like do nothing and just you know sit here and not accomplish anything kind of just be because that's what the teacher said just be and and we go the wrong direction and the situation that's great I hope that you've got a path now so that you know which way to go that really is okay for you to feel the way that you want to feel and you need to experiment with that like experimenting with the breath how long is the long breath there's a long dress effect attention can I relax for shoulders with depressed this is one of the ways of playing with that but we're playing with the joy was wow how good can I feel let me let me just cheer up already thank you start playing that with the feeling of really really successful really really you're really successful much more successful than you allow yourself to feel in your job that's ten percent we're shooting for eleven percent my method instead I was like on fire well Tanisha wrote John Tanisha role has a book mind like fire unbound well check it out it's funny bring up I'm not sure whether the book itself is that much valuable but what he was writing was from a quote from the Buddha that yeah that the mind when when you get to mind turned on it's a marvelous toy it is such a marvelous toy that they say that the humans only use about 10% of their capacity I would say oh no when they use it to use all of it but the only use at about five or ten percent of the time this improved concentration is definitely helps me at work helps me with paying attention to people I had something very difficult I work with today I was teaching him something who made me want to quit my job before and I was in front and who respected me you know you know I wasn't erotic and breathing like that so I was like oh man I was impressed and I was actually cool this you know it's no longer just I am Who I am I can't change and it's funny because you've told me you know you can't change you know listen but I'm like you can't change you can right but our society doesn't want us to change why if actually they they want us to think that we cannot because if we cannot change then they can control us but if you're capable of changing then it doesn't matter what they try to swat you move you can see it coming get out of the way of it just like good your jutsu become that lion become that's why the Buddha called himself a lion he's trying to put that point out that you're the best of humanity that's why he used the word like Noble or Aryan the way that he used it was this is the high-class stuff this is really good quality you are the champion you're the winner cultivate that feeling and the satisfaction that goes along with it and it'll change the way that you live but you have to remember to do that over and over and over well I've enjoyed this talk I've got another friend whose callings and so I'm gonna let this one go and I'll get over to him that went by quick yeah thank you so much Chris yeah excellent I'll keep you updated thank you so much may you be happy and I mean that remember thank you sir