XXX- Last Wednesday at 11:04 PM
Ok there we go
Aaanyway, it's mostly just over the course of a few days I've been seeing/hearing shit that has made me spiral into an anxious, depressive mess and that's mostly things relating to "oh, you're gonna go meet hipster and do stuff huh?? :eyes:" and things of that nature, saying it's gonna be some like, meet n fuck, I don't know, but in another conversation that came up regarding mentioning you for whatever reason, I kind of glossed it over, someone I didn't even know in mentioning of you, mentioned "oh yeah, his gf sounds pretty lusty"
And I've been absolutely mind-boggled, I've probably ate only one or two things in the span of two days, I've gotten like 6 hours of sleep in the span of 48 (though with your track record I guess that's NOT SO BAD...)
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:08 PM
things of that nature, saying it's gonna be some like, meet n fuck,
who the fuck
Like
yeah, I wanna do things with you but that ahs
NEVER
left this chat
I'm
You know I love you
Like
Even if we did nothing at all
I'd be fine with that
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:09 PM
I feel like, maybe that was misconstrued from the eternia discord, but
why the fuck would someone I don't even know go "yeah his gf sounds pretty lusty" and I'm just ???
"nani the fuck"
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:09 PM
I'm not sure
I haven't said anything about you
I only mentioned I was dating you once or twice and that's it
Do you want me to yell at someone?
Cause, it's just
That's bad
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:09 PM
spires being spires, I feel people took "do stuff" as a
what's the word
'hint hint, nudge nudge'(edited)
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
You should of brought this to me sooner, like even before the 2 days were stuff
nooo
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
because spires is full of
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
I didn't even
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
idiots
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
mention]
we were meeting
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
you did
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
did I...
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
spires discord...
you shouted it in general chat
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
when(edited)
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:10 PM
"me and XXX are gonna meet up and do stuff"
last saturday
someone tipped me off and warned me that
'hey you should search your name' and I was like 'wh-'
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:11 PM
I just checked
I didnt like
what?
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:11 PM
it was in one of the chats
i dont like searching my namei t feels weird
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:11 PM
Right
Well, it's not in spires at all
And I can promise to god
XXX- Last Wednesday at 11:11 PM
but i could screenshot it if you want
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:11 PM
I didn't mention it
Do it please
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:11 PM
hold onnnn
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:12 PM
wait
no
I found it
XXX- Last Wednesday at 11:12 PM
I think
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:12 PM
that was so
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:12 PM
wasn't that the night
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:12 PM
I could push a meetup
with eric
and I
was mostly joking around
If-
I-
Fuck
I'm sorry
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:13 PM
If anything not everyone took notice of it, but
you dont need to say anything in the chat or like, try to rectify it any other way
(that'd only set more fuel into the fire anyhow)
and- WINDOWS 10 SHUT THE FUCK UP
WITH YOUR 5 POP UPS
PLS
IF I WANTED TO CHANGE MY BACKGROUND I WOULD
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:13 PM
Snrk
XXX  - Last Wednesday at 11:13 PM
as I was saying
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:14 PM
Do you maybe not wanna do anything when we first meet then? If you're worried I'm
Only looking to smash
Just hang out
Just, you said you trusted me and all that and I only now realize but wording it so fucking stupidly I kind of betrayed that
so I completely understand..
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:16 PM
Hanging out's probably better anyways it's-
My friend slapped me across the face metaphorically and told me 'it's only been 3-4 months' and he's right
Pushing anything too quickly is going to result in a mess and I'm a person who
When under duress or stress from one thing wants to crawl back under a rock and not be bothered for the most part and rrghghgrhgrh
Hopscotch - Last Wednesday at 11:16 PM
Yeah, I know that
It's kind of why I was giving you some space
I realize I've been
Kind of an asshole lately
And I wanna apologize
It's why I tried to rectify it with a cute meme...
I've been freaking out for no reason because, I get really nervous at times and I let it get the better of me and say stupid things
Like, I'm actually sorry
XXX - Last Wednesday at 11:18 PM
It's fiiiine, just
fuck I hate myself because I don't know what to further think or do and it reminds me of why I enjoy being single (but I enjoy NOT being single too??)
god it reminds me of the time people thought I was asexual or something and were impressed I wasn't
but that beats the time someone thought I was a lesbian I guess