Chemical Hearts (2020) EN

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(ELECTRICITY CRACKLING)

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BOY: You are never more alive
than when you're a teenager.

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(ELECTRICITY ZAPPING)

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Your brain is flush
with chemicals

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that can turn your life into
a story of epic proportions.

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An A-minus feels like
the Pulitzer,

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a lonely Saturday night
is an eternity of solitude,

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and your lab partner becomes
the great love of your life.

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And yet, by the start
of my senior year,

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nothing interesting
or remarkable

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had ever happened to me.

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- I was grateful for my life.
- (LAUGHS)

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I had my best friends...
All two of them...

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Relax.
You got this.

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...parents who met

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and fell in love
when they were my age,

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and my writing.

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(READING)

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But a platform was pointless

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unless I actually had
something to say.

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And I didn't,

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because nothing worth writing
about had ever happened to me.

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(CLOSES LAPTOP)

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Then, on the day
I found out about the job,

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something finally happened.

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(CHATTERING)

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(SIGHS)

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MAN: Hi, guys.
Thanks for swinging by.

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Come on in.
You want us both?

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Yes, both of you would be great.

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Come on.

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MAN: Grace just transferred
here from East River,

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where she spent two years
writing for the Gazette.

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You both possess remarkable
depth for writers your age.

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Which is why I think
that you two will make

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a truly dynamic
editor-in-chief duo.

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No.
What?

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Uh, one more time?

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I don't want to be an editor.

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But thank you.

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Um...

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Hey.

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- Why'd you say no?
- What?

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Why'd you say no?

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Why do you care?
What?

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Why do you care?

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Uh... I don't.

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It's just a good opportunity for a writer,
I guess.

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I just don't get
why you would say no.

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All right, well,
don't let it keep you up at night.

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(SIGHS)
Oh, shit.

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What?

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I just missed my bus.

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Can't walk?

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Um... no,
I mean, I can.

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It's just far.

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Uh, that's why I take the bus.

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My house is up there.

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I have a car. I can give
you a ride if you want.

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Yeah?

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Thanks.

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Hey, so you like "Nehradah"?

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Neruda.

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Oh. (LAUGHS)

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Oh. Um...

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Yeah, well,
I only read a stanza,

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but I thought
it was really beautiful.

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You think so?

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Yeah. Do you not?

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No, I just think
that's what people say

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when they read a poem
that they don't understand.

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Hmm.

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(SNIFFS)

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GRACE: Finish it.

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And let me know if you
still feel the same way.

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(BICYCLE BELL DINGS)

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(TRAIN HORN BLOWING IN DISTANCE)

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Huh.
It's a cool place.

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How come you walk to
school if you have a car?

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I don't like driving.

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- Do you have a license?
- Yeah.

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("TAKE CARE" BY BEACH HOUSE
PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS)

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<i>♪ I'd take care of you ♪</i>

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It's a good song.

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<i>♪ If you ask me to ♪</i>

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(SONG CONTINUES FAINTLY)

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(ENGINE AND MUSIC STOP)

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(BIRDS CHIRPING)

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You live in a house like this,
but you don't have a car?

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I guess my grades aren't
good enough for a car, so...

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Hmm.

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Thanks a lot.

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Uh...

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Well, I'll see you tomorrow?

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Okay.

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Henry.
What's up, Suds?

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You, uh, just get back
or something?

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SUDS: Mmm, no.
Just leaving.

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I'm late.

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So, uh,
who's the girl?

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- What girl?
- SUDS: The one that drove Henry home.

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A girl drove you
home? (CHUCKLES)

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SUDS: She left her car
here and walked away.

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(WHISPERS)
Run.

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Yeah, when are you gonna
move back out again?

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Ignore her.
She's declared war on love.

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No, just on cheating assholes.

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Will you see him today? Oh,
my God.

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He's my attending, Mom.

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I'll see him
several times today.

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So, how was the first day back?

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Good. Yeah.
It was good.

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Did you get it?

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HENRY: Uh...

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- Yeah.
- MOTHER: Oh.

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SUDS: Yeah, you did.
(CHUCKLES)

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Congratulations, sweetie.

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Nice work.

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SUDS: Okay,
got to go. Love you, guys.

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So, who's the girl?

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("TAKE CARE" BY BEACH HOUSE
PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS)

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<i>♪ I'd take care of you ♪</i>

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<i>♪ If you'd ask me to ♪</i>

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<i>♪ In a year or two ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪</i>

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HENRY: "I do not love you
as if you were the salt-rose,

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topaz or arrow of carnations
that propagate fire.

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I love you as certain
dark things are to be loved,

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in secret, between the shadow
and the soul."

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"...the shadow and the soul."

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"I love you like the plant
that does not bloom,

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but carries
within itself, hidden,

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the light of those flowers."

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"...thanks to your love,
lives darkly in my body..."

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"...a certain solid fragrance
that has risen from the earth."

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I love you without knowing
how or when or from where.

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I love you straightforwardly,
without complexities or pride,

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in which there is no you nor I,

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so close that your hand
upon my chest is mine.

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So close that your hand upon
my chest is mine.

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(SIGHS)

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"So close that your eyes close
as I dream."

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I have no idea what you said,
but it worked.

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What?

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I think the newspaper's gonna
be a really good thing for her.

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We will have four issues... the
first in November, the last in June.

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The first three are
garden-variety periodicals:

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Hard-hitting news, sports,
features, the like.

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But the last one,
that's where we get creative.

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With the help of the group,
Henry will choose a theme,

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and you will have carte
blanche to explore that theme

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as you see fit.

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That last issue will be
this team's legacy,

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an opportunity to share
your accrued wisdom

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with the students behind you.

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I'm not just talking about the
four years that you've spent

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within the walls
of this building.

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I am talking bigger than that.

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I am talking about the totality
of your 17 years on this planet.

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Last but not least,
Grace here joins us

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from our neighboring school,
East River Preparatory,

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and will lend Henry a helping
hand with all things editorial.

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Now, here's what Kyle and his
team did for last year's final issue.

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Um, I'm sorry.
Uh, Kyle sucks.

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(LAUGHTER)
TEACHER: Very constructive, La.

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Well, okay, um...

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the final issue last year
did kind of suck.

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(QUIET LAUGHTER)

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(SIGHS)
All right.

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(STUDENTS CHATTERING QUIETLY)

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Um, hey,
so I don't know what your thoughts...

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So, I'm not writing.

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If you have something to say,
you can just say it yourself,

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and I'll help with, like,
editing and design and...

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I handle design.

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Well, everything
other than design then.

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But just not...
just not writing.

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And I'm assistant editor,

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because apparently you
worked very hard for this,

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so it should be all yours.

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HENRY: Looks like
Cora's into you again.

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Yo, what is the deal with her?

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She's making eyes at me,
laughing at all my jokes,

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and it's like this
air pocket that's, like,

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connecting us, and it's just filled with,
like, marshmallows,

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gummy bears, and freakin'
bubble gum and sparklies,

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and it's just like,
if I eat it,

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I'm gonna get another cavity
like last year, and I can't.

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Hmm,
good metaphor.

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Thank you.
I appreciate it.

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Hey, Grace.
Hankard.

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I, um...
This is our bus!

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...actually didn't get
a chance to tell you,

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I finished that poem.

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And, um... yeah.

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I still think it's beautiful,

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but not in the, uh,
normal kind of bullshit way.

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Um, which, uh,
which I think is also

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kind of what the poem's about,
'cause, you know,

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Neruda's love for her doesn't come from,
like, uh... (SIGHS)

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Sunshine and roses
and cliché stuff.

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You know, it comes from,
um, her... flaws

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and her imperfections,
like, darker places.

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LA: Hankard!
Uh, comes from...

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BOY: Come on,
you flirt!

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...I guess who she has
the potential to be

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and not just who she is.

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So, I don't know.

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So, beautiful in that kind of way,
you know.

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You're gonna
miss your bus again.

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(SINGSONGY)
I see you.

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(ROCK SONG PLAYING)
What's he doing?

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(SONG FADES)

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Um, you think I could
get another ride?

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Sure.

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<i>♪ I'd take care of you ♪</i>

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<i>♪ If you'd ask me to ♪</i>

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(CAR DOOR CLOSES)

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Thanks for letting me
drive myself home again.

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HENRY: Where do you go to?
Why do you go?

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What are your colors?
What are your moods?

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To see you, I turn.
To know you, I burn.

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(BRAKES SQUEAK OUTSIDE)

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(CAR DOOR CLOSES, ENGINE STARTS)

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(SIGHS HEAVILY)

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(CORA SPEAKING SPANISH)

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- Okay. Bye.
- (LA WHISPERING) Oh, my God,

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it kills me
when she speaks Spanish.

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Don't you want to say, "What's up?"
Why? So she can ghost me again?

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I mean...
See you, guys.

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Uh, see you.

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Bye.
Uh-huh.

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CORA: Bye.

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(SIGHS) Fuck.

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Meh.

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Meh.
Meh-meh.

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(MUSIC PLAYING FAINTLY
OVER EARBUDS)

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(SIGHS)

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What was that little
"meh-meh" thing?

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Uh... oh,
um... um...

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(LAUGHS)

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I just... we...
when we're just,

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um, I guess, annoyed,
we just do that.

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I don't know.
Mmm.

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Um...

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Uh, you think you'd give me a ride today,
maybe?

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Hey, do you want to come in
and hang out or something?

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I can't today.

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Okay.

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Um...

251
00:14:12,727 --> 00:14:14,854
I'll just see you tomorrow then,
so... Okay.

252
00:14:22,028 --> 00:14:24,155
Henry?

253
00:14:24,239 --> 00:14:25,865
Hmm?

254
00:14:26,950 --> 00:14:29,369
Meet me here at 6:00.

255
00:14:29,452 --> 00:14:30,704
Okay.

256
00:14:30,787 --> 00:14:33,039
Yeah,
I can meet... I'll meet you there at 6:00.

257
00:14:33,123 --> 00:14:34,583
Yeah.

258
00:14:34,666 --> 00:14:36,459
Bring a loaf of bread.

259
00:14:40,714 --> 00:14:42,424
(BRAKES SQUEAK OUTSIDE)

260
00:14:42,507 --> 00:14:44,718
(VEHICLE DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

261
00:14:46,761 --> 00:14:47,762
(CAR DOOR OPENS)

262
00:14:51,933 --> 00:14:54,686
- HENRY: What happened to your car?
- GRACE: It's back at my house.

263
00:14:54,769 --> 00:14:57,230
Did you drive it back
and then you walked here?

264
00:14:57,314 --> 00:14:58,815
We don't need it.

265
00:15:01,109 --> 00:15:03,194
- (INSECTS TRILLING)
- (BIRDS CHIRPING)

266
00:15:51,826 --> 00:15:54,037
(WATER DRIPPING)

267
00:16:02,337 --> 00:16:03,338
Come on.

268
00:16:03,421 --> 00:16:05,715
(CANE THUMPING STEADILY)

269
00:16:08,635 --> 00:16:11,054
It was a cotton mill
in the 1800s,

270
00:16:11,137 --> 00:16:13,264
and then...

271
00:16:13,348 --> 00:16:18,186
they made plastic bottles until
it shut down in 1989, I think.

272
00:16:34,411 --> 00:16:37,163
(CANE THUMPING STEADILY)

273
00:16:37,247 --> 00:16:38,331
You have to be quiet.

274
00:17:16,411 --> 00:17:18,913
- HENRY: Whoa.
- Shh.

275
00:17:18,997 --> 00:17:21,124
You'll scare them away.

276
00:17:25,336 --> 00:17:26,546
(WHISPERS)
Come here.

277
00:17:29,549 --> 00:17:31,634
(WATER SLOSHING)

278
00:17:32,677 --> 00:17:34,179
(SIGHS)

279
00:17:53,698 --> 00:17:55,742
(BOTH CHUCKLE)

280
00:18:01,539 --> 00:18:03,249
(CHUCKLES)

281
00:18:14,844 --> 00:18:17,263
Have you ever had a girlfriend?

282
00:18:17,347 --> 00:18:19,307
(CHUCKLES) Uh, no.

283
00:18:19,390 --> 00:18:21,267
Uh, not really.

284
00:18:22,018 --> 00:18:23,269
Why not?

285
00:18:24,437 --> 00:18:26,689
Uh... You ever had
a boyfriend?

286
00:18:27,732 --> 00:18:28,983
(CHUCKLES)
No.

287
00:18:30,443 --> 00:18:31,694
So what's the deal?

288
00:18:31,778 --> 00:18:33,530
I don't know.

289
00:18:33,613 --> 00:18:35,323
(LAUGHS)

290
00:18:35,406 --> 00:18:36,699
Um...

291
00:18:38,159 --> 00:18:39,786
I'm not really good
at this stuff.

292
00:18:39,869 --> 00:18:42,872
Well, I thought
you were a writer.

293
00:18:42,956 --> 00:18:45,458
Uh... yeah,
I mean, exactly.

294
00:18:45,542 --> 00:18:47,252
I could probably
go home right now

295
00:18:47,335 --> 00:18:50,630
and write you something about
why I've never had a girlfriend,

296
00:18:50,713 --> 00:18:52,674
like an essay or whatever.

297
00:18:52,757 --> 00:18:55,969
Oh, so you just
have to edit everything.

298
00:18:56,052 --> 00:18:57,262
No, it's not editing.

299
00:18:57,345 --> 00:19:01,224
It's just, writing, I think,
sometimes helps me...

300
00:19:01,307 --> 00:19:04,978
understand myself,
I guess, 'cause...

301
00:19:05,061 --> 00:19:07,501
a lot of times, I don't really
know how I feel about something

302
00:19:07,564 --> 00:19:09,399
until I really sit down
and think about it.

303
00:19:09,482 --> 00:19:13,319
But, I mean,
you haven't shared much either.

304
00:19:14,988 --> 00:19:16,906
(SIGHS)

305
00:19:16,990 --> 00:19:18,491
(CANE THUMPS)

306
00:19:18,575 --> 00:19:21,202
(WATER SLOSHES)

307
00:19:21,286 --> 00:19:22,787
(SIGHS)

308
00:19:24,539 --> 00:19:27,375
I did some of my
physical therapy in a pool.

309
00:19:29,043 --> 00:19:30,503
Nine months ago,

310
00:19:30,587 --> 00:19:32,922
the car swerved
coming around a bend

311
00:19:33,006 --> 00:19:36,634
and hit the rock barrier
and the car flipped.

312
00:19:36,718 --> 00:19:39,971
Not that it really even matters.

313
00:19:49,606 --> 00:19:51,357
When I look at that,

314
00:19:51,441 --> 00:19:54,193
it reminds me

315
00:19:54,277 --> 00:19:58,907
that people are just
the ashes of dead stars.

316
00:20:00,575 --> 00:20:03,953
We're just a collection
of atoms that...

317
00:20:04,037 --> 00:20:06,581
come together for a
brief period of time,

318
00:20:06,664 --> 00:20:10,251
and then...
we fall apart.

319
00:20:13,463 --> 00:20:16,507
When all of this is over,

320
00:20:16,591 --> 00:20:20,929
and we're dispersed back
into nothingness...

321
00:20:21,012 --> 00:20:23,014
we have a clean slate.

322
00:20:24,682 --> 00:20:27,143
It's like having all of
your sins wiped away.

323
00:20:28,269 --> 00:20:30,980
Sure you don't want
to write for the paper?

324
00:20:35,068 --> 00:20:37,737
What sins do you need
wiped away?

325
00:21:12,605 --> 00:21:14,565
GRACE: I used to be a vandal.

326
00:21:15,733 --> 00:21:16,776
HENRY: You did this?

327
00:21:17,986 --> 00:21:19,821
When I was 14.

328
00:21:21,864 --> 00:21:23,908
What is that,
like, Latin?

329
00:21:25,535 --> 00:21:27,870
What's it mean?
(INHALES DEEPLY)

330
00:21:30,373 --> 00:21:34,043
I'm tired.
I'm gonna... head home.

331
00:21:34,127 --> 00:21:35,378
(SNIFFS)
Uh...

332
00:21:38,006 --> 00:21:39,173
Do you want me to...

333
00:21:39,257 --> 00:21:41,801
Can you find your way back?

334
00:21:41,884 --> 00:21:44,554
Yeah. Uh...

335
00:21:44,637 --> 00:21:46,389
But are you all right? Yeah,
fine.

336
00:21:46,472 --> 00:21:49,100
Uh, thanks for hanging out.

337
00:21:49,892 --> 00:21:51,394
Um...

338
00:21:52,687 --> 00:21:55,148
Yeah, sure. Anytime.

339
00:21:56,607 --> 00:21:58,234
(PANTING SHARPLY)

340
00:21:58,317 --> 00:22:01,070
("HEART SKIPPED A BEAT"
BY THE XX PLAYING)

341
00:22:01,154 --> 00:22:02,238
(SIGHS)

342
00:22:07,452 --> 00:22:08,953
(VASE BREAKS)

343
00:22:14,751 --> 00:22:18,087
<i>♪ Please don't say we're done
When I'm not finished ♪</i>

344
00:22:18,171 --> 00:22:21,382
<i>♪ 'Cause I could give
So much more ♪</i>

345
00:22:22,633 --> 00:22:26,429
<i>♪ Make you feel
Like never before ♪</i>

346
00:22:26,512 --> 00:22:29,557
<i>♪ Welcome, they said
Welcome to the floor ♪</i>

347
00:22:29,640 --> 00:22:31,726
<i>♪ It's been a while
And you've found... ♪</i>

348
00:22:31,809 --> 00:22:33,144
Why are you still up?

349
00:22:33,227 --> 00:22:36,105
Um, just working on this.

350
00:22:39,025 --> 00:22:41,652
Is that the one Mom and
Dad got you on your birthday?

351
00:22:41,736 --> 00:22:43,863
Mm-hmm.

352
00:22:43,946 --> 00:22:46,407
Don't... hey.
It's still drying.

353
00:22:46,491 --> 00:22:47,909
Touchy, touchy, Henry.

354
00:22:47,992 --> 00:22:49,952
<i>♪ Sometimes I still Need you ♪</i>

355
00:22:50,036 --> 00:22:51,788
<i>♪ Sometimes I still need you ♪</i>

356
00:22:51,871 --> 00:22:53,331
<i>♪ Sometimes I still
Need you... ♪</i>

357
00:22:53,414 --> 00:22:57,710
It is an odd hobby
for a 17-year-old boy.

358
00:22:57,794 --> 00:23:00,630
<i>♪ Sometimes I still need you ♪</i>

359
00:23:09,013 --> 00:23:11,349
Did you know that, uh,
heartbreak triggers

360
00:23:11,432 --> 00:23:14,519
the same areas of the brain
as physical pain?

361
00:23:19,857 --> 00:23:22,485
When I think
about him leaving me,

362
00:23:22,568 --> 00:23:26,948
my brain sends a distress
signal to my nervous system.

363
00:23:27,031 --> 00:23:28,282
(SOBS QUIETLY)

364
00:23:28,366 --> 00:23:31,869
And it elevates my blood
pressure and my heart rate,

365
00:23:31,953 --> 00:23:33,663
giving me chest pains.

366
00:23:33,746 --> 00:23:36,833
(SOBS)
Okay.

367
00:23:36,916 --> 00:23:38,751
<i>♪ And I was struggling
To get in... ♪</i>

368
00:23:38,835 --> 00:23:39,961
(SOBS)

369
00:23:40,044 --> 00:23:41,754
It's happening right now.

370
00:23:41,838 --> 00:23:44,298
(SOBS) Do you want
me to go get Mom?

371
00:23:44,382 --> 00:23:45,675
Oh, God, no,
please.

372
00:23:45,758 --> 00:23:47,468
(SNIFFLING) Jesus.

373
00:23:47,552 --> 00:23:48,719
(GROANS)

374
00:23:53,391 --> 00:23:55,601
(SOBBING)

375
00:24:03,609 --> 00:24:06,612
(STUDENTS TALKING FAINTLY,
VOICES ECHOING)

376
00:24:08,197 --> 00:24:09,615
TEACHER: Henry.
Um...

377
00:24:09,699 --> 00:24:10,992
What's next?
Yeah.

378
00:24:11,075 --> 00:24:12,952
Um, uh, okay.

379
00:24:13,035 --> 00:24:16,539
Um, I was thinking we
all could kind of just put out

380
00:24:16,622 --> 00:24:18,791
a few ideas of themes
for the final issue.

381
00:24:18,875 --> 00:24:20,251
No time like the present.

382
00:24:20,334 --> 00:24:24,130
How about a trippy Alice
in Wonderland theme?

383
00:24:24,213 --> 00:24:26,132
You know, like,
we all dropped acid

384
00:24:26,215 --> 00:24:27,884
and went down the rabbit hole.

385
00:24:27,967 --> 00:24:30,219
Now,
that's tight. I could work with that.

386
00:24:30,303 --> 00:24:31,846
(EXHALES SHARPLY)

387
00:24:31,929 --> 00:24:32,930
Grace?

388
00:24:34,891 --> 00:24:35,892
What?

389
00:24:35,975 --> 00:24:37,476
TEACHER: Any ideas?

390
00:24:37,560 --> 00:24:38,811
I don't know.

391
00:24:38,895 --> 00:24:40,563
TEACHER: None?

392
00:24:40,646 --> 00:24:42,648
Yeah, that's what
"I don't know" means.

393
00:24:45,151 --> 00:24:46,903
Can I go to the bathroom?
I have to pee.

394
00:24:46,986 --> 00:24:48,988
Of course.

395
00:24:51,908 --> 00:24:53,576
LA: Just ask her what's going on.

396
00:24:53,659 --> 00:24:54,994
No, I don't know.

397
00:24:55,077 --> 00:24:57,622
I feel like I don't
know her like that yet.

398
00:24:57,705 --> 00:24:59,707
I don't know.
You should follow her.

399
00:25:01,042 --> 00:25:02,251
What?
Yeah.

400
00:25:02,335 --> 00:25:04,253
Don't you want to see
where she goes?

401
00:25:04,337 --> 00:25:06,839
(CHUCKLES) Oh. What if she's
hanging out with her boyfriend?

402
00:25:06,923 --> 00:25:09,050
(STIFLED LAUGH)

403
00:25:10,468 --> 00:25:11,719
(LAUGHS)
Oh, no.

404
00:25:11,802 --> 00:25:13,387
I'm not gonna stalk her.

405
00:25:21,812 --> 00:25:24,065
- (INSECTS TRILLING)
- (BIRDS CHIRPING)

406
00:26:30,631 --> 00:26:32,111
(QUIETLY) Maybe I
was looking for you.

407
00:26:32,174 --> 00:26:35,511
Clearly, I wasn't
going to see you.

408
00:26:35,594 --> 00:26:37,972
It just felt strange,

409
00:26:38,055 --> 00:26:41,350
wanting to tell you...
(ECHOES, FADES)

410
00:26:43,602 --> 00:26:45,229
(FOOTSTEPS THROUGH GRASS)

411
00:26:56,282 --> 00:26:57,533
(TYPING)

412
00:27:41,077 --> 00:27:43,829
- (PHONE CLICKS)
- (SIGHS)

413
00:27:43,913 --> 00:27:46,082
HENRY: Would you be down
to talk over maybe

414
00:27:46,165 --> 00:27:49,001
some theme ideas or something?
Whatever you pick is fine.

415
00:27:50,836 --> 00:27:51,962
Okay.

416
00:27:54,006 --> 00:27:57,635
Should we just, like... I just run
my final selections by you then, or...

417
00:27:57,718 --> 00:27:59,678
I mean, it really
doesn't matter to me.

418
00:27:59,762 --> 00:28:01,639
I just got a new
feature in from Jade,

419
00:28:01,722 --> 00:28:03,474
so I was just gonna edit that.

420
00:28:05,935 --> 00:28:07,269
(QUIETLY)
Oh.

421
00:28:08,062 --> 00:28:10,731
(BIRDS CHIRPING)

422
00:28:10,815 --> 00:28:11,857
(PHONE CHIMES)

423
00:28:18,906 --> 00:28:20,658
(SIGHS QUIETLY)

424
00:28:20,741 --> 00:28:22,159
(PHONE CLICKS)

425
00:28:22,243 --> 00:28:26,414
I'd like to match those,
but instead I will match this.

426
00:28:26,497 --> 00:28:28,124
Hey, Dad,
can I use the car?

427
00:28:28,207 --> 00:28:30,334
Uh, sure, sure.
Where to?

428
00:28:31,544 --> 00:28:33,379
Um... (LAUGHS)

429
00:28:33,462 --> 00:28:34,880
I don't know.
Nowhere, really.

430
00:28:34,964 --> 00:28:37,216
So, where are you going?

431
00:28:37,299 --> 00:28:39,510
It's not a cross-examination.
(LAUGHS)

432
00:28:39,593 --> 00:28:41,720
I mean,
it feels like that.

433
00:28:41,804 --> 00:28:44,140
Well, you're asking us
to lend you our car,

434
00:28:44,223 --> 00:28:46,142
and we're asking a
simple question in return.

435
00:28:46,225 --> 00:28:49,645
Okay, um, I'm just... I don't
know. I'm just gonna go to Muz's.

436
00:28:49,728 --> 00:28:51,939
Now can I have the keys?
You're not even using it.

437
00:28:52,940 --> 00:28:54,525
You're entitled to your privacy.

438
00:28:54,608 --> 00:28:57,236
If you don't want us to know something,
say so.

439
00:28:57,319 --> 00:28:59,196
But don't insult us with a lie.

440
00:28:59,280 --> 00:29:01,657
It's beneath you.

441
00:29:01,740 --> 00:29:03,325
Just... You can Uber.

442
00:29:03,409 --> 00:29:05,411
What? I can't Uber. I
don't have a credit card.

443
00:29:05,494 --> 00:29:07,955
Well, then you're
gonna have to walk.

444
00:29:08,038 --> 00:29:10,541
(SIGHING)

445
00:29:18,215 --> 00:29:20,509
(LIGHTS BUZZING)

446
00:29:23,512 --> 00:29:25,764
(GRACE PANTING SHARPLY)

447
00:29:30,019 --> 00:29:31,729
(GRUNTS)

448
00:29:31,812 --> 00:29:33,939
(PANTING)

449
00:29:44,617 --> 00:29:45,951
(GRUNTS)

450
00:29:51,790 --> 00:29:53,584
(GRUNTS)

451
00:29:53,667 --> 00:29:56,003
Fuck! (SHOUTS)

452
00:30:01,926 --> 00:30:04,136
(SOBBING QUIETLY)

453
00:30:08,474 --> 00:30:09,892
(PANTING)

454
00:30:09,975 --> 00:30:13,062
(SOBBING ECHOES)

455
00:30:13,145 --> 00:30:15,272
(GROANING)

456
00:30:20,194 --> 00:30:21,445
(PHONE CLICKS)

457
00:30:21,529 --> 00:30:23,489
(TYPING)

458
00:30:40,381 --> 00:30:42,675
(TYPING)

459
00:30:45,678 --> 00:30:46,679
(PHONE CLICKS)

460
00:30:46,762 --> 00:30:48,264
(SIGHS)

461
00:30:50,683 --> 00:30:52,768
(MURMURING)

462
00:30:55,980 --> 00:30:57,690
Hi. Hey.
What's up?

463
00:30:57,773 --> 00:30:59,525
So, I couldn't sleep last night,

464
00:30:59,608 --> 00:31:01,735
so I was searching
through Mrs. Klein's syllabus,

465
00:31:01,819 --> 00:31:06,198
and I noticed a very
interesting trend.

466
00:31:09,118 --> 00:31:10,619
Uh...

467
00:31:13,247 --> 00:31:14,373
Look at them.
Okay.

468
00:31:16,041 --> 00:31:18,919
HENRY: Um, yeah.

469
00:31:19,003 --> 00:31:21,589
They're, um,
all about young people?

470
00:31:21,672 --> 00:31:24,049
GRACE: And they
all involve suicide.

471
00:31:24,133 --> 00:31:26,468
Romeo and Juliet off themselves.

472
00:31:26,552 --> 00:31:27,761
Werther shoots himself.

473
00:31:27,845 --> 00:31:29,597
Holden contemplates suicide.

474
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,516
Conrad tries to kill himself
by slashing his wrists.

475
00:31:34,226 --> 00:31:36,520
This is what you were up
thinking about last night?

476
00:31:36,604 --> 00:31:37,896
Yeah.

477
00:31:39,690 --> 00:31:41,567
Is that normal?
Oh, Jesus.

478
00:31:41,650 --> 00:31:43,861
What?
Well, I... (SIGHS)

479
00:31:43,944 --> 00:31:45,237
You...

480
00:31:46,447 --> 00:31:49,950
You, uh, like,
seemed down this week,

481
00:31:50,034 --> 00:31:52,661
so that's a little scary,
I guess. Okay.

482
00:31:54,788 --> 00:31:56,373
How do I explain this?

483
00:31:56,457 --> 00:31:58,917
Um... okay.

484
00:31:59,001 --> 00:32:02,838
Think about what it means
to be a teenager. Okay?

485
00:32:02,921 --> 00:32:05,716
Your parents
pressure you to succeed.

486
00:32:05,799 --> 00:32:09,678
Your friends pressure you to
do shit you don't want to do.

487
00:32:09,762 --> 00:32:11,805
Social media pressures
you to hate your body.

488
00:32:11,889 --> 00:32:16,352
It's hard, even if you're a
well-adjusted kid from a good family.

489
00:32:16,435 --> 00:32:17,686
Okay.

490
00:32:17,770 --> 00:32:20,773
So, now imagine you can't be
with the person that you love,

491
00:32:20,856 --> 00:32:23,150
like Romeo and Juliet
or Werther,

492
00:32:23,233 --> 00:32:25,152
or you lose the person
that you love,

493
00:32:25,235 --> 00:32:27,154
like Holden or Conrad.

494
00:32:27,237 --> 00:32:29,990
There's a reason why,
when every author,

495
00:32:30,074 --> 00:32:33,202
from Shakespeare to Salinger,
writes about young people,

496
00:32:33,285 --> 00:32:37,039
they can't avoid
the truth, that...

497
00:32:37,122 --> 00:32:40,334
being young is so painful,

498
00:32:40,417 --> 00:32:44,630
it's almost, like,
too much to feel.

499
00:32:45,839 --> 00:32:47,716
Yeah, are you, like...

500
00:32:49,468 --> 00:32:50,678
suicidal or...

501
00:32:50,761 --> 00:32:52,846
No. God.
I mean...

502
00:32:53,972 --> 00:32:55,891
Look, I'm not gonna kill myself.

503
00:32:55,974 --> 00:33:01,271
But have I thought about what it would
be like to just not be here anymore?

504
00:33:01,355 --> 00:33:02,606
Yeah.

505
00:33:02,690 --> 00:33:06,318
And I don't say that casually,
but I do say it

506
00:33:06,402 --> 00:33:11,407
because hiding that shit and
not saying it makes it worse.

507
00:33:11,490 --> 00:33:12,533
It should be talked about.

508
00:33:12,616 --> 00:33:14,618
All of our shit
should be talked about.

509
00:33:14,702 --> 00:33:15,786
Mmm.

510
00:33:17,162 --> 00:33:20,999
The teenage years are... limbo.

511
00:33:21,083 --> 00:33:25,045
You're somewhere between
being a kid and an adult,

512
00:33:25,129 --> 00:33:28,465
and the world, uh,
tells you to be mature

513
00:33:28,549 --> 00:33:30,718
and express yourself,
but the minute that you do,

514
00:33:30,801 --> 00:33:32,052
it tells you to shut up.

515
00:33:33,554 --> 00:33:37,433
The thing is, adults are just
scarred kids who were lucky enough

516
00:33:37,516 --> 00:33:40,102
to make it out of limbo alive.

517
00:33:40,185 --> 00:33:41,520
Which is why...

518
00:33:43,188 --> 00:33:47,776
the theme of our last issue
should be "Teenage Limbo."

519
00:33:51,113 --> 00:33:52,531
(QUIETLY)
Yeah.

520
00:33:54,491 --> 00:33:55,220
(MOUSE CLICKING)

521
00:33:55,235 --> 00:33:57,438
LA: Henry's sister is studying
to become a neurosurgeon,

522
00:33:57,453 --> 00:34:01,290
and she explained that the teenage
brain goes through an upgrade

523
00:34:01,373 --> 00:34:05,002
before it matures
to an adult brain.

524
00:34:05,085 --> 00:34:10,424
So, the upgrade is like an explosion
of connections and synapses

525
00:34:10,507 --> 00:34:11,842
as we figure out what's right.

526
00:34:11,925 --> 00:34:13,802
(GASPS)

527
00:34:13,886 --> 00:34:15,053
Or wrong.
(SIGHS)

528
00:34:15,137 --> 00:34:17,055
What we like,
what we don't like.

529
00:34:17,139 --> 00:34:19,183
You know,
who we want to be.

530
00:34:19,266 --> 00:34:21,185
- (MOUSE CLICKING)
- Each page of the issue

531
00:34:21,268 --> 00:34:25,314
is the brain refining itself,
figuring itself out,

532
00:34:25,397 --> 00:34:29,693
until eventually
it's out of limbo.

533
00:34:29,777 --> 00:34:31,737
So dope.

534
00:34:33,071 --> 00:34:34,490
(QUIETLY) Yeah.
Dope.

535
00:34:34,573 --> 00:34:36,784
(CLAPS) All right.
Sweet.

536
00:34:36,867 --> 00:34:41,997
Um... so I think
we could kind of just

537
00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:46,084
start a... kind of a discussion,
like what are we confused about,

538
00:34:46,168 --> 00:34:48,670
what, uh,
maybe scares us.

539
00:34:48,754 --> 00:34:52,132
Um, like,
are there things maybe

540
00:34:52,216 --> 00:34:54,176
you keep inside
that you're afraid to...

541
00:34:55,302 --> 00:34:56,595
Um...

542
00:34:58,514 --> 00:35:00,349
Do you have something?

543
00:35:02,100 --> 00:35:03,519
Um...

544
00:35:05,229 --> 00:35:08,482
Well, yeah, I mean,
I do, but I was gonna...

545
00:35:08,565 --> 00:35:11,735
I think I was gonna write it,
uh, which...

546
00:35:11,819 --> 00:35:13,153
Hmm.

547
00:35:14,530 --> 00:35:17,199
(HENRY SMACKS LIPS)
Um...

548
00:35:19,159 --> 00:35:20,661
(CHUCKLES)

549
00:35:23,580 --> 00:35:26,583
Uh, when Mike Johnson killed
himself a couple years ago,

550
00:35:26,667 --> 00:35:27,751
um...

551
00:35:28,919 --> 00:35:31,755
I realized that
I still had, um, this...

552
00:35:33,257 --> 00:35:36,009
Hustler magazine that he
gave me when we were, like, 13

553
00:35:36,093 --> 00:35:38,929
that, uh, he stole from
his dad's collection.

554
00:35:39,012 --> 00:35:40,430
And, um...

555
00:35:43,809 --> 00:35:44,977
(LAUGHS)
I don't know.

556
00:35:45,060 --> 00:35:47,646
I feel really stupid
admitting this,

557
00:35:47,729 --> 00:35:51,400
but, um,
kind of freaked me out.

558
00:35:51,483 --> 00:35:54,486
Like, I couldn't really
sleep at night

559
00:35:54,570 --> 00:35:57,573
with this magazine in my drawer.

560
00:35:57,656 --> 00:36:01,368
Um, like it was just kind of...

561
00:36:01,451 --> 00:36:04,037
like, haunted or something.

562
00:36:04,121 --> 00:36:05,581
Um...

563
00:36:07,499 --> 00:36:11,670
And basically, it just was kind
of too important to throw away,

564
00:36:11,753 --> 00:36:13,547
but it was also
too weird to keep,

565
00:36:13,630 --> 00:36:19,428
so I went to the tree
by the art park,

566
00:36:19,511 --> 00:36:24,474
one where he,
uh, hung himself,

567
00:36:24,558 --> 00:36:29,730
and I, um,
just buried it there.

568
00:36:32,774 --> 00:36:34,359
And, um...

569
00:36:36,403 --> 00:36:38,322
Yeah. Um...

570
00:36:39,823 --> 00:36:42,284
I don't know. It was weird,
'cause for the first time,

571
00:36:42,367 --> 00:36:45,412
I was old enough to
understand the gravity of death,

572
00:36:45,495 --> 00:36:49,750
but I was also, um,
you know, young enough

573
00:36:49,833 --> 00:36:53,837
that it all came down to just a stupid,
like, porn magazine.

574
00:36:59,885 --> 00:37:02,137
(SIGHS)

575
00:37:02,220 --> 00:37:03,847
GRACE: I'm proud of you
for sharing that.

576
00:37:03,931 --> 00:37:06,683
It must have been hard for you.

577
00:37:06,767 --> 00:37:08,393
Thanks.

578
00:37:08,477 --> 00:37:09,978
Hey, why'd you give up writing?

579
00:37:10,062 --> 00:37:12,230
You've obviously
got a lot of ideas.

580
00:37:13,565 --> 00:37:18,111
Somebody really important
to me... died.

581
00:37:19,404 --> 00:37:20,697
And, um...

582
00:37:22,032 --> 00:37:25,285
and I was asked to write something,
to say something,

583
00:37:25,369 --> 00:37:29,623
like a eulogy, because everyone
knew that I was the writer,

584
00:37:29,706 --> 00:37:34,086
and, you know,
told me how beautiful my words were, but...

585
00:37:37,547 --> 00:37:41,677
Nothing came. I just
couldn't find the words.

586
00:37:44,096 --> 00:37:45,347
(CHUCKLES)

587
00:37:46,598 --> 00:37:48,600
What?

588
00:37:48,684 --> 00:37:50,936
Uh, oh, no,
it's just funny.

589
00:37:51,019 --> 00:37:54,314
Um, 'cause, you know,
I can't find the words when I talk,

590
00:37:54,398 --> 00:37:57,484
and you can't find the
words when you write.

591
00:37:57,567 --> 00:38:00,195
That just made me laugh.

592
00:38:00,278 --> 00:38:02,447
(LAUGHS)
You know what I mean?

593
00:38:02,531 --> 00:38:04,866
("WHERE'S MY LOVE"
BY SYML PLAYING)

594
00:38:04,950 --> 00:38:07,119
<i>♪ Cold bones ♪</i>

595
00:38:08,161 --> 00:38:09,579
<i>♪ Yeah, that's my love... ♪</i>

596
00:38:11,581 --> 00:38:15,293
(LAUGHS) Thank you,
anyways. Yeah, yeah. I feel like it's...

597
00:38:15,377 --> 00:38:18,296
(LAUGHS) You don't have to
drink it. It's not that I don't want it.

598
00:38:18,380 --> 00:38:20,298
Yeah, sure... Yeah.

599
00:38:20,382 --> 00:38:22,259
<i>♪ Ooh, does she know ♪</i>

600
00:38:22,342 --> 00:38:25,178
<i>♪ That we bleed the same... ♪</i>

601
00:38:25,262 --> 00:38:27,180
HENRY: You want to see
a movie this weekend?

602
00:38:27,264 --> 00:38:29,141
GRACE: I don't think I can.

603
00:38:29,224 --> 00:38:30,559
<i>♪ Ooh... ♪</i>

604
00:38:30,642 --> 00:38:32,019
HENRY: You got other plans?

605
00:38:32,102 --> 00:38:35,105
GRACE: No, I just have
a ton of stuff to do.

606
00:38:35,188 --> 00:38:37,274
(BIRD CALLING IN DISTANCE)

607
00:38:37,357 --> 00:38:39,026
HENRY:
So, you used to run track?

608
00:38:39,109 --> 00:38:41,278
GRACE: Yeah, I was a sprinter.

609
00:38:41,361 --> 00:38:44,614
HENRY: Oh, what else did you do
in your previous life?

610
00:38:44,698 --> 00:38:46,033
GRACE: Oh, God.
(SIGHS)

611
00:38:46,116 --> 00:38:50,370
Lit magazine, yearbook staff,
student government...

612
00:38:50,454 --> 00:38:52,372
(CHUCKLES)
beer pong champion.

613
00:38:55,125 --> 00:38:58,587
HENRY: Um, first football game
is Friday night, if you want to go.

614
00:38:58,670 --> 00:39:00,255
Not that I care,
but it's fun.

615
00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:02,883
We usually pregame,
and everyone goes.

616
00:39:02,966 --> 00:39:05,385
GRACE:
That sounds fun, but I can't.

617
00:39:05,469 --> 00:39:06,803
Another time though.

618
00:39:08,847 --> 00:39:11,558
What would you say is the
dumbest thing you've ever done?

619
00:39:11,641 --> 00:39:13,518
HENRY: Um, probably
when I put my finger

620
00:39:13,602 --> 00:39:15,729
in an electric pencil sharpener
in first grade.

621
00:39:15,812 --> 00:39:18,231
It didn't go, um, super well.

622
00:39:18,315 --> 00:39:21,109
(GRACE LAUGHS) What did
you think was gonna happen?

623
00:39:21,193 --> 00:39:23,403
HENRY: I guess I thought
it would trim my fingernail.

624
00:39:23,487 --> 00:39:24,988
<i>♪ In the night ♪</i>

625
00:39:25,072 --> 00:39:26,907
(LAUGHS)

626
00:39:26,990 --> 00:39:31,078
<i>♪ Ooh, does she know
That we bleed the same? ♪</i>

627
00:39:34,414 --> 00:39:35,582
<i>♪ Ooh... ♪</i>

628
00:39:35,665 --> 00:39:37,501
GRACE: I used to be good
at socializing.

629
00:39:37,584 --> 00:39:39,628
I mean, I used to do it
all the time.

630
00:39:39,711 --> 00:39:41,129
HENRY: What changed?

631
00:39:41,213 --> 00:39:44,132
GRACE: I guess
I stopped seeing the point.

632
00:39:44,216 --> 00:39:48,136
Sometimes it's just easier
to slip into your own dark abyss

633
00:39:48,220 --> 00:39:50,555
and forget the world exists.

634
00:39:50,639 --> 00:39:52,224
<i>♪ Did she run away... ♪</i>

635
00:39:52,307 --> 00:39:54,309
HENRY: Yeah, I see her
in you sometimes,

636
00:39:54,392 --> 00:39:58,605
like, these, um,
flashes of this girl that you used to be.

637
00:39:58,688 --> 00:40:01,858
Um, but was she an act
and you're more yourself now,

638
00:40:01,942 --> 00:40:04,027
or is the Grace
that I know an act

639
00:40:04,111 --> 00:40:06,947
until you feel comfortable
being yourself again?

640
00:40:08,573 --> 00:40:10,867
GRACE:
I don't know. People change.

641
00:40:10,951 --> 00:40:14,955
There's no way you're the same
person you were when you were 14.

642
00:40:15,038 --> 00:40:17,582
(SINGERS VOCALIZING)

643
00:40:24,840 --> 00:40:26,633
(SONG FADES)

644
00:40:26,716 --> 00:40:28,510
Hey, um...

645
00:40:30,137 --> 00:40:31,138
What?

646
00:40:33,598 --> 00:40:37,102
All right, so Heslin is having his
annual Halloween party tomorrow night.

647
00:40:37,185 --> 00:40:39,229
And it doesn't
have to be a big thing.

648
00:40:39,312 --> 00:40:41,189
Doesn't have to be
a date or whatever.

649
00:40:41,273 --> 00:40:42,816
No, that's not why.

650
00:40:42,899 --> 00:40:44,317
I think it could...
That's not why.

651
00:40:44,401 --> 00:40:47,779
...maybe be,
um, just fun.

652
00:40:47,863 --> 00:40:50,615
It'd be good to...
good for you,

653
00:40:50,699 --> 00:40:55,537
kind of get back to doing
old Grace things. Um...

654
00:40:55,620 --> 00:41:01,376
Oh, is the new Grace not
good enough for you or...

655
00:41:01,459 --> 00:41:04,629
No. No, no.
That's not what I meant.

656
00:41:04,713 --> 00:41:07,257
Um, no.
I think, um...

657
00:41:07,340 --> 00:41:09,634
Hey, hey.

658
00:41:09,718 --> 00:41:11,469
Let's go.

659
00:41:14,097 --> 00:41:16,308
- Yeah?
- Yeah.

660
00:41:26,610 --> 00:41:28,111
Your keys.
(KEYS CLINK)

661
00:41:29,613 --> 00:41:30,906
Can I come in?

662
00:41:33,742 --> 00:41:35,243
You don't have to go somewhere?

663
00:41:36,411 --> 00:41:41,249
No, I'm not going to where I go today,
so...

664
00:41:44,169 --> 00:41:45,378
Okay, yeah.
No, totally. Yeah?

665
00:41:45,462 --> 00:41:47,589
Yeah, come in.
(CHUCKLES)

666
00:41:52,385 --> 00:41:53,720
Give me two.
(DOOR OPENS)

667
00:41:53,803 --> 00:41:57,015
I'll take three. But you
get three first. Here.

668
00:41:57,098 --> 00:41:58,600
Hey, guys. What's up? Hey,
Henry.

669
00:41:58,683 --> 00:42:00,101
Hey.
(DOOR CLOSES)

670
00:42:00,185 --> 00:42:02,103
Join us, bud. Uh,
can't right now.

671
00:42:02,187 --> 00:42:04,105
But this is Grace.

672
00:42:06,608 --> 00:42:08,318
ALL: Hi!

673
00:42:08,401 --> 00:42:09,986
Oh.
It's Grace!

674
00:42:10,070 --> 00:42:11,529
- Yeah.
- Yeah. You actually came in.

675
00:42:11,613 --> 00:42:13,198
We've only seen
your car up until now.

676
00:42:13,281 --> 00:42:14,282
(CHUCKLES)

677
00:42:24,334 --> 00:42:27,212
Just gonna pick up
this stuff here.

678
00:42:43,270 --> 00:42:45,355
(SIGHS HEAVILY)

679
00:42:46,898 --> 00:42:48,275
- (MUSIC BEGINS LOUDLY)
- (GRUNTS)

680
00:42:48,358 --> 00:42:49,693
(VOLUME DECREASES)

681
00:42:49,776 --> 00:42:52,279
("DIE 4 YOU" BY PERFUME GENIUS
PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS)

682
00:42:54,823 --> 00:42:57,909
<i>♪ Oh, my love... ♪</i>

683
00:42:57,993 --> 00:42:59,452
GRACE: How did this break?

684
00:43:01,329 --> 00:43:02,872
Oh, um...

685
00:43:02,956 --> 00:43:05,166
I broke that,
actually.

686
00:43:06,126 --> 00:43:08,044
Uh, it's called Kintsukuroi.

687
00:43:08,128 --> 00:43:11,298
It's kind of this old-school
Japanese art form

688
00:43:11,381 --> 00:43:14,301
where you mend back broken
pottery with seams of gold.

689
00:43:18,638 --> 00:43:20,557
<i>♪ Oh, my love ♪</i>

690
00:43:24,352 --> 00:43:26,771
<i>♪ Take your time ♪</i>

691
00:43:28,898 --> 00:43:29,899
(SIGHS)

692
00:43:29,983 --> 00:43:32,986
<i>♪ See it through ♪</i>

693
00:43:38,533 --> 00:43:39,534
(SIGHS)

694
00:43:41,578 --> 00:43:42,912
(SONG FADES)

695
00:43:42,996 --> 00:43:46,207
("TAKE CARE" BY BEACH HOUSE
PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS)

696
00:43:52,380 --> 00:43:55,508
<i>♪ I'd take care of you... ♪</i>

697
00:43:55,592 --> 00:43:58,053
Wait, uh,
is this...

698
00:43:59,763 --> 00:44:02,307
Oh, it's the song that
you like to play in your car.

699
00:44:05,477 --> 00:44:06,478
Are you okay?

700
00:44:06,561 --> 00:44:09,230
<i>♪ In a year or two... ♪</i>

701
00:44:09,314 --> 00:44:11,483
Why are you... why
are you playing this?

702
00:44:11,566 --> 00:44:13,902
I mean, I don't know.
I like it. I...

703
00:44:13,985 --> 00:44:16,237
Kind of reminds me
of us, I guess.

704
00:44:16,321 --> 00:44:18,448
(STAMMERS)

705
00:44:31,544 --> 00:44:33,004
Hey. Hey.

706
00:44:33,088 --> 00:44:34,798
I'm sorry I played
that. I didn't know.

707
00:44:34,881 --> 00:44:36,424
I thought... (STAMMERS)
I don't know.

708
00:44:36,508 --> 00:44:38,718
We listen to it all the
time in the car together.

709
00:44:38,802 --> 00:44:40,762
Okay, but it's not
our song, okay?

710
00:44:40,845 --> 00:44:42,347
Okay.
It's not for you and me.

711
00:44:42,430 --> 00:44:44,224
Okay. Who's it for?
What is it?

712
00:44:44,307 --> 00:44:46,434
(SNIFFLES) Dom.

713
00:44:46,518 --> 00:44:49,062
(SOBBING)
He was my boyfriend.

714
00:44:49,145 --> 00:44:52,941
He was driving the car,
and I fucked up my knee, but he...

715
00:44:53,024 --> 00:44:56,277
Oh. I'm sorry.
I didn't...

716
00:44:56,361 --> 00:44:59,114
(PANTING)

717
00:44:59,197 --> 00:45:01,199
I understand if you don't
want to, like...

718
00:45:01,282 --> 00:45:03,076
If you don't want to do
anything with me...

719
00:45:11,835 --> 00:45:13,503
(SOBBING)

720
00:45:18,466 --> 00:45:19,843
Hey.

721
00:45:19,926 --> 00:45:21,845
Can you let me drive you home? No,
please.

722
00:45:21,928 --> 00:45:23,555
Please stop, Henry.
Why?

723
00:45:23,638 --> 00:45:25,932
Because I'm fucked up,
okay? Come on. What's wrong?

724
00:45:26,015 --> 00:45:28,226
Can I drive you
home? Yes. No. Please.

725
00:45:28,309 --> 00:45:30,019
Please? Come on. Why?
No.

726
00:45:30,103 --> 00:45:31,980
I'm messed up. It's
okay. I don't care.

727
00:45:32,063 --> 00:45:34,107
No, it's not!

728
00:45:34,190 --> 00:45:37,819
It's not when you realize that I'm
not one of your fucking vases, okay?

729
00:45:46,411 --> 00:45:48,830
(ELECTRICITY CRACKLING,
WHOOSHING)

730
00:45:59,174 --> 00:46:01,759
(CHATTERING, MUTED)

731
00:46:08,600 --> 00:46:10,351
HENRY: You guys think
this needs to be here?

732
00:46:10,435 --> 00:46:11,686
- LA: No.
- HENRY: You're right.

733
00:46:11,769 --> 00:46:13,313
I don't feel like
we needed it anyway.

734
00:46:13,396 --> 00:46:14,898
It doesn't make
sense. Seriously?

735
00:46:14,981 --> 00:46:18,026
Hey,
guys. Are you going to Heslin's tonight?

736
00:46:18,109 --> 00:46:20,111
Yeah.
Maybe.

737
00:46:20,195 --> 00:46:22,155
We might come through.
Cool.

738
00:46:22,238 --> 00:46:23,948
Well, I hope you do.

739
00:46:24,032 --> 00:46:25,033
Hmm.

740
00:46:28,369 --> 00:46:30,121
What time is Elks picking us up?

741
00:46:31,122 --> 00:46:33,541
Um, I do not know.
I'm not going, so...

742
00:46:33,625 --> 00:46:36,336
No. No, no, no. (CHUCKLES)
No, we're going.

743
00:46:36,419 --> 00:46:39,616
A little beautiful creature, who might
be a part of the fairy kingdom like myself,

744
00:46:39,631 --> 00:46:42,091
just invited me to her magical,
enchanted forest.

745
00:46:42,175 --> 00:46:45,178
And I'm gonna take
this opportunity to fly.

746
00:46:45,261 --> 00:46:46,804
Meh.

747
00:46:46,888 --> 00:46:48,848
"Meh" yourself.

748
00:46:48,932 --> 00:46:50,975
Don't dip out
'cause of that chick.

749
00:46:51,059 --> 00:46:52,060
What?

750
00:46:52,143 --> 00:46:54,646
I need you there
for moral support.

751
00:46:54,729 --> 00:46:57,357
No, it's not 'cause of her.
I'm not feeling well, that's all.

752
00:46:57,440 --> 00:46:59,859
Oh, my God.
Wow.

753
00:46:59,943 --> 00:47:02,237
Elks has Kush.

754
00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:04,489
(SIGHS)

755
00:47:04,572 --> 00:47:06,533
What kind of Kush?

756
00:47:06,616 --> 00:47:08,868
- (DANCE MUSIC PLAYING LOUDLY)
- (CHATTERING)

757
00:47:16,584 --> 00:47:19,212
Take it easy, bro.
Easy in, easy out.

758
00:47:19,295 --> 00:47:21,548
It's a marathon,
not a sprint.

759
00:47:21,631 --> 00:47:23,049
(COUGHS)

760
00:47:23,132 --> 00:47:25,260
Yeah, I know.
(SHUDDERS)

761
00:47:25,343 --> 00:47:27,428
Hey.
What's up?

762
00:47:27,512 --> 00:47:30,723
She's already talking
to someone else.

763
00:47:30,807 --> 00:47:35,019
Man, I knew I shouldn't have gotten
my hopes up. Man, she's just playing me.

764
00:47:35,103 --> 00:47:36,854
Go.
(SHUDDERS)

765
00:47:36,938 --> 00:47:39,065
Go. Go. I need to ease into it,
bro.

766
00:47:39,148 --> 00:47:40,149
Why?

767
00:47:40,233 --> 00:47:41,985
(GIRL, SINGSONGY)
Henry Page.

768
00:47:42,068 --> 00:47:44,988
I cannot.
I can't. (CHUCKLES)

769
00:47:45,071 --> 00:47:46,406
Bye, Henry.

770
00:47:46,489 --> 00:47:48,601
GIRL: ...comes sprinting in,
his hands are over his face,

771
00:47:48,616 --> 00:47:51,286
and he just pukes. He
just pukes everywhere.

772
00:47:51,369 --> 00:47:52,537
No one knew what to do.

773
00:47:52,620 --> 00:47:54,414
It was between this
tiny little crevice

774
00:47:54,497 --> 00:47:55,832
between the wall
and the fridge...

775
00:47:55,915 --> 00:47:57,875
I'm just gonna get
some water. What?

776
00:47:57,959 --> 00:47:59,419
I'm just gonna get some water.

777
00:47:59,502 --> 00:48:01,462
Are you okay?
Yeah, I'm good.

778
00:48:01,546 --> 00:48:03,715
(DANCE MUSIC CONTINUES)

779
00:48:22,609 --> 00:48:24,861
- (DANCE MUSIC PLAYING)
- (CHATTERING)

780
00:48:46,966 --> 00:48:48,343
Got you this.

781
00:48:48,426 --> 00:48:50,428
Thank you.
Yeah.

782
00:48:52,764 --> 00:48:54,557
(CHUCKLES SOFTLY)

783
00:48:54,641 --> 00:48:56,517
What?

784
00:48:57,727 --> 00:48:59,646
You look, um...

785
00:49:00,897 --> 00:49:02,398
Thotty?

786
00:49:02,482 --> 00:49:05,026
I was gonna say hot.

787
00:49:08,279 --> 00:49:10,907
Well, it's my costume
from last year.

788
00:49:13,534 --> 00:49:15,078
Are you doing okay?

789
00:49:17,163 --> 00:49:21,042
Yeah. In this moment,
I'm... I'm okay.

790
00:49:23,127 --> 00:49:25,338
I think you're the most
confusing human being

791
00:49:25,421 --> 00:49:27,799
I've ever met.
(CHUCKLES)

792
00:49:27,882 --> 00:49:31,803
And I think I'm just the
most confused human being

793
00:49:31,886 --> 00:49:34,514
you've ever met
and that confuses you.

794
00:49:34,597 --> 00:49:36,432
(LAUGHS)

795
00:49:36,516 --> 00:49:38,184
Yeah, well...

796
00:49:40,061 --> 00:49:43,189
I'm, uh,
pretty trashed right now,

797
00:49:43,272 --> 00:49:46,567
so I guess I'm even more
confused. (CHUCKLES)

798
00:49:47,985 --> 00:49:50,071
(BOTH CHUCKLE)

799
00:49:51,364 --> 00:49:54,242
("PIECE OF YOUR HEART" BY MEDUZA
PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS)

800
00:49:54,325 --> 00:49:57,578
<i>♪ I'm turning you up to getting
Down, down, down... ♪</i>

801
00:49:57,662 --> 00:49:59,414
Hey, I've been looking for you.

802
00:49:59,497 --> 00:50:01,874
Oh, yeah?
Yeah.

803
00:50:02,959 --> 00:50:05,211
Uh, so last year,
I, uh...

804
00:50:05,294 --> 00:50:06,879
I get it.

805
00:50:06,963 --> 00:50:09,465
It was weird.

806
00:50:09,549 --> 00:50:11,592
We can just be friends.

807
00:50:12,844 --> 00:50:14,178
Cool.

808
00:50:17,473 --> 00:50:19,684
I hooked up with a
lot of girls last summer.

809
00:50:19,767 --> 00:50:22,729
(SCOFFS) Okay.

810
00:50:22,812 --> 00:50:26,607
Yeah, uh, I was just
really confused after we...

811
00:50:27,984 --> 00:50:29,068
you know.

812
00:50:29,152 --> 00:50:31,696
I know.
I don't know.

813
00:50:31,779 --> 00:50:34,824
I tried to, uh,
figure that out, I guess.

814
00:50:34,907 --> 00:50:36,492
But...

815
00:50:36,576 --> 00:50:40,413
I realized that I didn't feel
anything for any of them.

816
00:50:40,496 --> 00:50:44,792
I don't necessarily know how to,
um, label myself, but...

817
00:50:46,753 --> 00:50:49,172
I know what I feel
when you're in front of me.

818
00:50:50,506 --> 00:50:53,259
It's like, uh,
we are...

819
00:50:53,342 --> 00:50:56,053
Or, uh, we be.

820
00:50:57,930 --> 00:51:00,433
Then let's just be.

821
00:51:00,516 --> 00:51:02,393
<i>♪ And if it's physical ♪</i>

822
00:51:02,477 --> 00:51:04,979
<i>♪ Keep it subliminal ♪</i>

823
00:51:05,062 --> 00:51:07,273
<i>♪ Show me what you want ♪</i>

824
00:51:07,356 --> 00:51:09,692
<i>♪ Show me a piece
Of your heart ♪</i>

825
00:51:09,776 --> 00:51:11,652
<i>♪ A piece of your love ♪</i>

826
00:51:11,736 --> 00:51:15,448
<i>♪ I'm calling you up to getting
Down, down, down... ♪</i>

827
00:51:15,531 --> 00:51:17,533
(SONG FADES)

828
00:51:20,828 --> 00:51:22,955
("VULNERABLE" BY TINASHE
PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS)

829
00:51:23,039 --> 00:51:25,541
<i>♪ These niggas ain't nothing
On you, baby ♪</i>

830
00:51:25,625 --> 00:51:26,959
<i>♪ You got it, got it ♪</i>

831
00:51:27,043 --> 00:51:31,380
<i>♪ The way you run shit
And make it rain so well ♪</i>

832
00:51:31,464 --> 00:51:32,548
<i>♪ My Birkin bag... ♪</i>

833
00:51:32,632 --> 00:51:34,217
(LAUGHS)
Oh, no.

834
00:51:34,300 --> 00:51:35,718
I can't dance.
No.

835
00:51:35,802 --> 00:51:37,053
<i>♪ Oh, yeah ♪</i>

836
00:51:37,136 --> 00:51:38,736
<i>♪ These niggas ain't
'Bout it, 'bout it ♪</i>

837
00:51:38,763 --> 00:51:41,641
<i>♪ These niggas ain't nothing
On you, baby ♪</i>

838
00:51:41,724 --> 00:51:43,059
<i>♪ You got it, got it ♪</i>

839
00:51:43,142 --> 00:51:47,313
<i>♪ The way you run shit
And make it rain so well ♪</i>

840
00:51:47,396 --> 00:51:49,273
<i>♪ My Birkin bag
My pinky ring ♪</i>

841
00:51:49,357 --> 00:51:51,609
<i>♪ Coattail ♪</i>

842
00:51:51,692 --> 00:51:53,653
<i>♪ Oh, yeah ♪</i>

843
00:51:53,736 --> 00:51:55,571
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>

844
00:51:55,655 --> 00:51:57,657
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>
<i>♪ No, no ♪</i>

845
00:51:57,740 --> 00:51:59,951
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>

846
00:52:00,034 --> 00:52:01,674
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>
<i>♪ Don't ♪</i>

847
00:52:01,744 --> 00:52:03,162
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>

848
00:52:03,246 --> 00:52:05,706
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>
<i>♪ Don't ♪</i>

849
00:52:05,790 --> 00:52:07,667
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>

850
00:52:07,750 --> 00:52:09,794
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>
<i>♪ Don't ♪</i>

851
00:52:09,877 --> 00:52:11,546
<i>♪ Don't stop looking at me ♪</i>

852
00:52:11,629 --> 00:52:13,339
<i>♪ Don't stop
Looking at me ♪</i>

853
00:52:13,422 --> 00:52:14,423
<i>♪ Don't stop... ♪</i>

854
00:52:14,507 --> 00:52:16,425
(PANTING)

855
00:52:24,684 --> 00:52:27,103
Wait, wait. Wait,
wait, wait. Hold on.

856
00:53:05,975 --> 00:53:07,518
(SIGHS)

857
00:53:15,109 --> 00:53:17,236
I hope you don't have
high expectations...

858
00:53:18,779 --> 00:53:21,407
'cause I'm probably
pretty rusty.

859
00:53:23,326 --> 00:53:26,454
Well, I hope you don't have
high expectations either,

860
00:53:26,537 --> 00:53:29,957
'cause I've never
done this before.

861
00:53:32,335 --> 00:53:34,170
Do you have a condom?

862
00:53:34,253 --> 00:53:35,671
Yeah.
Yeah.

863
00:53:36,589 --> 00:53:37,757
I should get it?
Get it.

864
00:53:37,840 --> 00:53:39,133
Get it, okay.

865
00:54:01,447 --> 00:54:05,368
(HENRY GRUNTS, SIGHS)

866
00:54:06,744 --> 00:54:08,663
Oh. Oh, God.
(LAUGHS)

867
00:54:08,746 --> 00:54:10,915
Let me do it.
Okay.

868
00:54:10,998 --> 00:54:12,750
I'm sorry. I laugh
when I'm nervous.

869
00:54:12,833 --> 00:54:16,295
Do you want me
to do it? Yeah. Sure.

870
00:54:18,881 --> 00:54:20,800
(GRUNTS)

871
00:54:20,883 --> 00:54:22,969
(SIGHS)

872
00:54:26,681 --> 00:54:28,265
(BOTH PANTING)

873
00:54:28,349 --> 00:54:30,851
(BOTH GRUNT)

874
00:54:30,935 --> 00:54:33,104
(PANTING)

875
00:54:35,481 --> 00:54:37,692
Henry, Henry,
Henry, Henry. Yeah?

876
00:54:39,026 --> 00:54:40,778
Don't try to be
good at it, okay?

877
00:54:40,861 --> 00:54:43,239
Just be here with me.

878
00:54:44,448 --> 00:54:45,658
(QUIETLY)
Okay.

879
00:54:47,284 --> 00:54:48,369
(LIGHT SWITCH CLICKS)

880
00:54:50,371 --> 00:54:52,456
(BIRDS CHIRPING)

881
00:55:04,468 --> 00:55:05,803
(GASPS)

882
00:55:13,352 --> 00:55:14,854
(SOBBING)

883
00:55:19,025 --> 00:55:21,277
(BIRDS CHIRPING)

884
00:55:27,742 --> 00:55:29,869
(LINE RINGING)

885
00:55:33,456 --> 00:55:35,624
- GRACE: Leave your message.
- (BEEP)

886
00:55:35,708 --> 00:55:38,252
Um, hey, Grace.
Um, just want to say hi,

887
00:55:38,335 --> 00:55:40,588
and that, um...

888
00:55:41,672 --> 00:55:43,424
you know, despite
my lack of experience,

889
00:55:43,507 --> 00:55:46,302
um, hope that, uh,
last night just kind of meant

890
00:55:46,385 --> 00:55:49,930
a tiny fraction to you
as it meant to me.

891
00:55:50,014 --> 00:55:52,808
And, yeah, um...

892
00:55:52,892 --> 00:55:56,187
Then also, I promise if we ever
get the chance to do it again, um...

893
00:55:56,270 --> 00:55:57,730
(LAUGHS) I mean,
'cause not that...

894
00:55:57,813 --> 00:55:59,940
I'm not presumptuous enough
to think that we will,

895
00:56:00,024 --> 00:56:02,401
but, like, if we do,
then, uh, you know,

896
00:56:02,485 --> 00:56:03,986
I promise that it'll be better.

897
00:56:04,070 --> 00:56:07,114
Uh, no,
that I'll be better.

898
00:56:07,198 --> 00:56:09,950
(CHUCKLES)
Um, 'cause, uh, you know,

899
00:56:10,034 --> 00:56:12,953
um, practice does
make, uh, perfect.

900
00:56:13,037 --> 00:56:15,456
So, uh, yeah.

901
00:56:15,539 --> 00:56:16,832
Bye-bye.

902
00:56:17,958 --> 00:56:20,044
(SIGHS) Oh, fuck,
that was dumb.

903
00:56:21,087 --> 00:56:23,339
(CRICKETS CHIRPING)

904
00:56:32,515 --> 00:56:34,767
(GROANING)

905
00:56:37,311 --> 00:56:38,896
(PHONE CHIMES)

906
00:56:40,856 --> 00:56:42,149
(CLICKS)

907
00:56:51,075 --> 00:56:52,243
(TEXT MESSAGE SWOOSHES)

908
00:56:59,416 --> 00:57:01,043
(TYPING)

909
00:57:08,092 --> 00:57:09,760
(SIGHS)

910
00:57:11,220 --> 00:57:14,765
("A GREAT DESIGN" BY BLACK
MARBLE PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS)

911
00:57:14,849 --> 00:57:16,767
What?

912
00:57:16,851 --> 00:57:18,936
Surprise.
How did this happen?

913
00:57:20,563 --> 00:57:22,356
It was just time.

914
00:57:23,774 --> 00:57:25,192
Shit. All right.

915
00:57:25,276 --> 00:57:27,653
Um, where are we going?

916
00:57:28,904 --> 00:57:30,322
You'll see.

917
00:57:39,206 --> 00:57:43,169
<i>♪ Monochrome
It's a Saturn world ♪</i>

918
00:57:43,252 --> 00:57:46,672
<i>♪ Lying beneath the rings ♪</i>

919
00:57:46,755 --> 00:57:50,885
<i>♪ And they tell me
We don't have a long time ♪</i>

920
00:57:50,968 --> 00:57:53,179
<i>♪ Till our decline ♪</i>

921
00:57:57,224 --> 00:58:00,436
<i>♪ All the grown men
Are set in their ways ♪</i>

922
00:58:00,519 --> 00:58:04,190
<i>♪ Shining in the street ♪</i>

923
00:58:04,273 --> 00:58:08,360
<i>♪ And they tell me
We don't have a long time ♪</i>

924
00:58:08,444 --> 00:58:10,863
<i>♪ A great design ♪</i>

925
00:58:13,866 --> 00:58:15,201
(SONG FADES)

926
00:58:15,284 --> 00:58:17,286
(SHIP HORN BLOWING IN DISTANCE)

927
00:58:30,841 --> 00:58:32,384
(SIGHS)

928
00:58:34,470 --> 00:58:37,556
We used to come here
all the time before he died.

929
00:58:40,100 --> 00:58:41,769
I loved this drive.

930
00:58:41,852 --> 00:58:44,271
I want to be able
to love it again.

931
00:58:49,902 --> 00:58:52,863
I needed you here.

932
00:58:54,198 --> 00:58:56,116
I needed your support.

933
00:59:07,544 --> 00:59:08,921
Hold this.

934
00:59:20,057 --> 00:59:22,434
HENRY: Is this from the factory?

935
00:59:22,518 --> 00:59:24,436
What does it mean?

936
00:59:24,520 --> 00:59:26,897
GRACE: "Save me,
and I will save you."

937
00:59:29,483 --> 00:59:31,110
That was us.

938
00:59:47,876 --> 00:59:49,795
I want to move on.

939
00:59:55,634 --> 00:59:58,762
("WE STAYED UP ALL NIGHT"
BY TOURIST FEAT. ARDYN PLAYING)

940
01:00:04,768 --> 01:00:07,479
<i>♪ So let's pretend ♪</i>

941
01:00:07,563 --> 01:00:09,064
<i>♪ That we have no weight... ♪</i>

942
01:00:09,148 --> 01:00:11,650
I'm telling you,
Sharma... (LAUGHS)

943
01:00:11,734 --> 01:00:14,153
...dropped his glasses
right into the toilet.

944
01:00:14,236 --> 01:00:16,196
He nearly flushed them
down there. (LAUGHTER)

945
01:00:16,280 --> 01:00:19,033
But he fished them out,
'cause he got the same glasses on.

946
01:00:19,116 --> 01:00:21,535
<i>♪ We're young, have time... ♪</i>

947
01:00:21,618 --> 01:00:23,370
No, I sw... I...

948
01:00:24,663 --> 01:00:26,290
Can I join you guys?

949
01:00:26,373 --> 01:00:30,044
<i>♪ Out we run ♪</i>

950
01:00:33,297 --> 01:00:34,631
Okay.
Okay, got it?

951
01:00:34,715 --> 01:00:36,467
Yeah,
that was very helpful. Okay, good.

952
01:00:36,550 --> 01:00:37,926
Thank you.
You're welcome.

953
01:00:38,010 --> 01:00:40,304
SHARMA: Hey,
with all the news that's fit to print,

954
01:00:40,387 --> 01:00:41,680
your first issue!

955
01:00:41,764 --> 01:00:44,391
Congratulations!
(CHEERING)

956
01:00:47,478 --> 01:00:48,771
Well...
Hmm. Yeah.

957
01:00:49,772 --> 01:00:52,649
<i>♪ I won't give it up tonight ♪</i>

958
01:00:52,733 --> 01:00:55,444
<i>♪ I won't give it up
Tonight ♪</i>

959
01:00:55,527 --> 01:00:58,072
<i>♪ I won't give it up tonight ♪</i>

960
01:00:58,155 --> 01:01:01,825
<i>♪ I won't give it up
Tonight ♪</i>

961
01:01:01,909 --> 01:01:03,827
(SONG FADES)

962
01:01:03,911 --> 01:01:06,038
(BIRDS CHIRPING)

963
01:01:08,791 --> 01:01:10,292
Stay here.

964
01:01:12,878 --> 01:01:15,464
Whose car is that?
Stay here, Henry.

965
01:01:20,844 --> 01:01:22,564
GRACE: Aren't you
supposed to remember that?

966
01:01:22,638 --> 01:01:23,972
WOMAN: No, I don't
remember that!

967
01:01:24,056 --> 01:01:26,850
GRACE: I don't want... No,
no. Go! Go!

968
01:01:26,934 --> 01:01:28,644
(WOMAN SOBS)

969
01:01:45,452 --> 01:01:47,746
(TIRES SCREECHING)

970
01:01:52,501 --> 01:01:53,502
(DOOR OPENS)

971
01:01:54,753 --> 01:01:55,796
Hey.

972
01:01:58,632 --> 01:02:00,050
That your mom?

973
01:02:01,343 --> 01:02:03,220
No.

974
01:02:03,303 --> 01:02:06,432
Yeah.
It doesn't... matter.

975
01:02:06,515 --> 01:02:08,434
You all right?

976
01:02:08,517 --> 01:02:10,144
I'm fine.
Can we go?

977
01:02:19,153 --> 01:02:20,863
(BRAKES SQUEAK)

978
01:02:20,946 --> 01:02:22,698
(BOTH SIGH)

979
01:02:26,076 --> 01:02:28,078
So do you live with your dad?

980
01:02:29,663 --> 01:02:31,081
(SIGHS)
(CHUCKLES) I mean,

981
01:02:31,165 --> 01:02:33,402
I just feel like I don't know
anything about your family.

982
01:02:33,417 --> 01:02:36,003
Well, yeah. Well, okay,
you know enough.

983
01:02:38,255 --> 01:02:39,631
Something obviously
just happened,

984
01:02:39,715 --> 01:02:41,535
so I don't know how
I'm supposed to help you...

985
01:02:41,550 --> 01:02:42,843
You don't.
You don't help me.

986
01:02:42,926 --> 01:02:44,997
I didn't ask for your help,
so stop trying to help me.

987
01:02:45,012 --> 01:02:46,930
Stop trying to fix me,
all right?

988
01:03:03,280 --> 01:03:04,531
SHARMA: Oh, look at this.

989
01:03:04,615 --> 01:03:07,117
It's a lollygagging
convention in here.

990
01:03:07,201 --> 01:03:08,243
Let's go, people.

991
01:03:08,327 --> 01:03:09,703
We have three more
issues to plan.

992
01:03:09,786 --> 01:03:12,080
I'd love to see
a little focus, please.

993
01:03:12,164 --> 01:03:14,833
Henry, where's
your partner in crime?

994
01:03:15,834 --> 01:03:17,544
I don't know.

995
01:03:17,628 --> 01:03:18,962
She sick?

996
01:03:20,589 --> 01:03:21,924
I don't know.

997
01:03:23,008 --> 01:03:25,260
Today's the anniversary
of her accident.

998
01:03:25,344 --> 01:03:28,222
Oh, dear. I, um...
I didn't know that.

999
01:03:29,640 --> 01:03:33,477
Yeah. East River had a
candlelight vigil for her boyfriend.

1000
01:03:33,560 --> 01:03:34,561
(LINE RINGING)

1001
01:03:34,645 --> 01:03:36,245
- (CHATTERING)
- (LINE CONTINUES RINGING)

1002
01:03:36,313 --> 01:03:38,398
Does she drive?
Does she have her license?

1003
01:03:38,482 --> 01:03:40,567
Should we be...
(CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY)

1004
01:03:40,651 --> 01:03:42,903
You're probably
right about that.

1005
01:03:44,029 --> 01:03:45,948
- GRACE: Leave your message.
- (BEEP)

1006
01:03:46,031 --> 01:03:47,616
I would think so.
Would you?

1007
01:03:47,699 --> 01:03:48,575
Yeah.
(SIGHS)

1008
01:03:48,659 --> 01:03:49,868
I don't know.
Muck around.

1009
01:03:49,952 --> 01:03:51,578
Muck around a little more.
Muck.

1010
01:03:51,662 --> 01:03:53,705
What? Stop it.
No. Ow.

1011
01:03:53,789 --> 01:03:55,958
Stop.
Muck around.

1012
01:03:58,544 --> 01:04:00,379
Hankard. Hankard.
Yo, where you going?

1013
01:04:11,014 --> 01:04:13,100
(PANTING)

1014
01:04:18,480 --> 01:04:21,024
(THUNDER RUMBLING)

1015
01:04:21,942 --> 01:04:23,110
(DOOR OPENS)

1016
01:04:26,238 --> 01:04:28,407
Henry?

1017
01:04:28,490 --> 01:04:29,491
That you?

1018
01:04:29,575 --> 01:04:31,451
Yeah.

1019
01:04:31,535 --> 01:04:32,995
Come on in.

1020
01:04:33,078 --> 01:04:35,330
(THUNDER RUMBLING)

1021
01:04:36,707 --> 01:04:39,209
I must have fallen asleep
in front of the tube.

1022
01:04:41,128 --> 01:04:43,088
I'm Martin, by the way.

1023
01:04:43,171 --> 01:04:44,548
(SPORTSCAST PLAYING ON TV)

1024
01:04:44,631 --> 01:04:45,799
Oh.

1025
01:04:47,259 --> 01:04:49,428
This is my wife Sarah.

1026
01:04:49,511 --> 01:04:51,346
- Hi.
- HENRY: Hello.

1027
01:04:52,264 --> 01:04:55,100
(GROANS, COUGHS)

1028
01:04:55,183 --> 01:04:58,103
Grace has talked
a lot about you.

1029
01:04:58,186 --> 01:04:59,730
Says you've been a good friend.

1030
01:04:59,813 --> 01:05:03,025
Yeah, I just wanted to
make sure that she was okay,

1031
01:05:03,108 --> 01:05:04,818
'cause I didn't
talk to her today.

1032
01:05:04,901 --> 01:05:06,695
Um, and, you know,

1033
01:05:06,778 --> 01:05:09,823
given what day it is,
I... I, uh...

1034
01:05:11,283 --> 01:05:15,454
Well, she should be home
pretty soon.

1035
01:05:15,537 --> 01:05:17,497
You can wait upstairs
if you want.

1036
01:05:19,541 --> 01:05:22,961
Um, well,
thank you. It was good meeting you guys.

1037
01:05:23,045 --> 01:05:25,255
MARTIN: Yeah. Nice meeting you,
Henry. Yeah.

1038
01:06:29,444 --> 01:06:31,029
GRACE: So now you know.

1039
01:06:35,617 --> 01:06:38,662
Do you live here?
(SNIFFLES) Yeah.

1040
01:06:40,747 --> 01:06:44,751
I moved in a month before the
accident to get away from my mom.

1041
01:06:44,835 --> 01:06:49,423
She was drinking a lot,
and she was in really bad shape.

1042
01:06:49,506 --> 01:06:50,924
But you're still here.

1043
01:06:51,007 --> 01:06:55,262
Where else was I supposed to go,
my mom's boyfriend's couch?

1044
01:06:55,345 --> 01:06:56,555
(SNIFFLES)

1045
01:06:56,638 --> 01:06:58,724
(SIGHS)

1046
01:07:02,310 --> 01:07:03,854
You went back for that?

1047
01:07:03,937 --> 01:07:05,480
(SNIFFLES)

1048
01:07:10,652 --> 01:07:12,863
(PANTING)

1049
01:07:16,658 --> 01:07:18,076
Do you even wash his clothes?

1050
01:07:18,160 --> 01:07:20,620
'Cause you wear
his clothes, right?

1051
01:07:21,913 --> 01:07:23,874
I'm doing the best that I can.

1052
01:07:23,957 --> 01:07:26,752
You're doing the best you can,
but you're living in his fucking room?

1053
01:07:28,295 --> 01:07:30,297
We grew up together.

1054
01:07:31,548 --> 01:07:34,176
He was... he was my family.

1055
01:07:34,259 --> 01:07:36,178
(STAMMERS)

1056
01:07:36,261 --> 01:07:38,263
I'm not asking you
to let him go.

1057
01:07:39,639 --> 01:07:42,434
I'm giving you all that I can.

1058
01:07:42,517 --> 01:07:46,104
And this... confusion
and this craziness

1059
01:07:46,188 --> 01:07:47,397
is what that looks like.

1060
01:07:47,481 --> 01:07:51,067
And you can't handle it,
but I never expected you to.

1061
01:07:52,194 --> 01:07:54,780
What else could I
possibly give you?

1062
01:07:55,864 --> 01:07:57,365
What else can you give me?

1063
01:07:57,449 --> 01:07:59,701
Are you fucking...

1064
01:07:59,785 --> 01:08:01,578
Oh, this is crazy.
This is crazy.

1065
01:08:01,661 --> 01:08:03,121
Just stop.
No, you stop!

1066
01:08:03,205 --> 01:08:04,706
Stop leading me on!
I just...

1067
01:08:04,790 --> 01:08:07,167
I didn't start dating you
out of nowhere or something.

1068
01:08:09,294 --> 01:08:10,796
I told you to leave me alone.

1069
01:08:10,879 --> 01:08:12,964
Yeah, but then
you told me not to.

1070
01:08:14,591 --> 01:08:15,759
Well, because I don't know.

1071
01:08:15,842 --> 01:08:16,843
Because I don't know.

1072
01:08:16,927 --> 01:08:17,928
I know.
I don't know.

1073
01:08:18,011 --> 01:08:19,137
I'm confused, Henry.

1074
01:08:19,221 --> 01:08:20,847
I don't know.
I know!

1075
01:08:20,931 --> 01:08:24,434
I've known since, like,
the very beginning that I love you.

1076
01:08:26,770 --> 01:08:29,356
I can't pretend to be better
because that's what you want.

1077
01:08:29,439 --> 01:08:31,775
You said you wanted
to get better. I do.

1078
01:08:34,361 --> 01:08:36,154
I'm not ready yet.
I'm not...

1079
01:08:36,238 --> 01:08:37,614
I do, but I'm not ready yet.

1080
01:08:37,697 --> 01:08:38,990
Well, I...

1081
01:08:40,951 --> 01:08:43,078
I don't care.
All right?

1082
01:08:44,496 --> 01:08:45,997
Yes, you do.
I... No, I don't.

1083
01:08:46,081 --> 01:08:47,666
I don't care.

1084
01:08:47,749 --> 01:08:50,377
Seriously, I want you
exactly the way you are.

1085
01:08:52,963 --> 01:08:55,590
But you just got to
let me in and talk to me.

1086
01:08:57,342 --> 01:08:58,760
I love you.

1087
01:09:11,606 --> 01:09:14,025
- (THUNDER RUMBLING)
- (RAIN CONTINUES)

1088
01:09:25,370 --> 01:09:27,455
Why do you kiss me like that?

1089
01:09:30,041 --> 01:09:31,418
Like what?

1090
01:09:34,921 --> 01:09:37,007
Like you're in love with me.

1091
01:09:40,802 --> 01:09:43,221
It's the only way I know how.

1092
01:10:07,329 --> 01:10:09,414
(CRICKETS CHIRPING)

1093
01:10:32,062 --> 01:10:34,606
- (DOOR OPENS, SLAMS)
- (TV PLAYING QUIETLY)

1094
01:10:34,689 --> 01:10:36,343
MOTHER: Plate's for you
in the oven, toots.

1095
01:10:36,358 --> 01:10:38,401
- FATHER: Henry?
- What?

1096
01:10:40,195 --> 01:10:42,614
What's wrong?
(SIGHS) Nothing.

1097
01:10:43,782 --> 01:10:45,784
What's wrong?
Nothing.

1098
01:10:45,867 --> 01:10:47,494
Come here.
Come on.

1099
01:10:47,577 --> 01:10:50,997
We just want to know
what's going on.

1100
01:10:51,081 --> 01:10:52,540
Is it Grace?

1101
01:10:52,624 --> 01:10:54,694
It's just regular shit that
regular people go through

1102
01:10:54,709 --> 01:10:56,029
that you are not
gonna understand.

1103
01:10:56,086 --> 01:10:58,213
Oh,
come on. We're not regular people?

1104
01:11:00,966 --> 01:11:03,510
No. No. Are you
fucking kidding me?

1105
01:11:03,593 --> 01:11:05,804
Your relationship's been
perfect since you were my age.

1106
01:11:09,224 --> 01:11:10,725
I got this.
No, no, no, no, no.

1107
01:11:10,809 --> 01:11:12,268
We should go.
Mom.

1108
01:11:12,352 --> 01:11:14,771
He's right.
You don't understand.

1109
01:11:14,854 --> 01:11:16,231
I got it.

1110
01:11:30,578 --> 01:11:32,539
Did you guys break up?
Yeah.

1111
01:11:34,040 --> 01:11:37,043
I mean, I don't even know
if we were actually together.

1112
01:11:37,127 --> 01:11:38,837
Maybe it's just
a bump in the road.

1113
01:11:38,920 --> 01:11:40,880
No, she doesn't want me.

1114
01:11:40,964 --> 01:11:42,465
What happened?

1115
01:11:43,717 --> 01:11:47,262
(SNIFFLES) She's in
love with someone else.

1116
01:11:47,345 --> 01:11:49,139
Oh, shit.

1117
01:11:56,021 --> 01:11:57,272
(QUIETLY)
Okay.

1118
01:12:00,734 --> 01:12:03,194
(SIGHS) You want the
good news or the bad news?

1119
01:12:03,278 --> 01:12:04,279
Neither.

1120
01:12:04,362 --> 01:12:07,699
Well, the bad news is
it's gonna hurt.

1121
01:12:07,782 --> 01:12:10,285
Your brain has gotten
used to a steady stream

1122
01:12:10,368 --> 01:12:12,954
of dopamine and
oxytocin. Here we go again.

1123
01:12:13,038 --> 01:12:15,373
Yeah, I know. I'm sorry,
but that's what causes

1124
01:12:15,457 --> 01:12:18,209
all those blissed-out
feelings of love.

1125
01:12:18,293 --> 01:12:21,796
And now it's replaced
with stress hormones.

1126
01:12:21,880 --> 01:12:24,007
They're gonna make you
feel like garbage.

1127
01:12:24,090 --> 01:12:28,053
Headaches, tight muscles,
tight chest.

1128
01:12:28,136 --> 01:12:31,097
Your body's craving
those feel-good chemicals.

1129
01:12:32,557 --> 01:12:34,225
It's basically withdrawal.

1130
01:12:34,309 --> 01:12:36,019
Oh, awesome.

1131
01:12:36,102 --> 01:12:38,521
Yeah. Yeah.

1132
01:12:43,151 --> 01:12:47,614
Yesterday was the first day
I didn't think about him.

1133
01:12:50,533 --> 01:12:54,204
And tomorrow
I'm going on my first date.

1134
01:13:01,419 --> 01:13:03,755
Henry.
Hmm?

1135
01:13:05,548 --> 01:13:09,719
Love... it's a chemical
reaction that comes and goes.

1136
01:13:10,804 --> 01:13:15,183
Here's the good news:
So is heartbreak.

1137
01:13:15,266 --> 01:13:17,185
Your brain adjusts.

1138
01:13:17,268 --> 01:13:20,647
Your body chemistry
changes back to normal.

1139
01:13:23,441 --> 01:13:24,984
It's all a waste of time.

1140
01:13:25,068 --> 01:13:27,237
(QUIETLY)
Oh, no.

1141
01:13:29,114 --> 01:13:30,406
Hey.

1142
01:13:32,700 --> 01:13:35,453
Would you take it
all back if you could?

1143
01:13:39,040 --> 01:13:40,542
You can't.

1144
01:13:42,544 --> 01:13:44,546
She's a part of you now.

1145
01:13:46,047 --> 01:13:48,091
(CRICKETS CHIRPING)

1146
01:14:20,123 --> 01:14:21,124
(LIGHTER CLICKS)

1147
01:14:36,097 --> 01:14:38,641
(NIGHT BIRDS CHIRPING)

1148
01:14:43,646 --> 01:14:44,686
BOTH: Are you trying to...

1149
01:14:44,731 --> 01:14:46,774
Are you gonna copy me
this whole time? Okay.

1150
01:14:46,858 --> 01:14:50,320
CORA: No, but I actually have
a real question. Wait.

1151
01:14:50,403 --> 01:14:51,946
You can't do that.
What's over there?

1152
01:14:52,030 --> 01:14:53,031
(CHUCKLES) I did it.

1153
01:14:53,114 --> 01:14:54,490
(LAUGHS) I did it.

1154
01:14:55,783 --> 01:14:57,535
LA: Where you going?

1155
01:14:57,619 --> 01:14:59,454
Um... I don't know.

1156
01:14:59,537 --> 01:15:01,623
Just don't want to watch this.

1157
01:15:02,916 --> 01:15:04,542
Wow.

1158
01:15:04,626 --> 01:15:06,920
You just can't be happy
for anybody else. Boo.

1159
01:15:07,003 --> 01:15:08,880
Don't even... don't
do that. (LAUGHS)

1160
01:15:08,963 --> 01:15:10,131
Don't do that.

1161
01:15:18,056 --> 01:15:19,140
(PHONE CHIMES)

1162
01:15:23,061 --> 01:15:24,062
(PHONE CLICKS)

1163
01:15:39,869 --> 01:15:40,870
Whoa.

1164
01:15:43,998 --> 01:15:45,250
- MAN: Watch it!
- (HORN HONKS)

1165
01:15:45,333 --> 01:15:47,877
Oh!
GIRL: Whoa, did you see that?

1166
01:15:59,722 --> 01:16:01,975
(WATER DRIPPING)

1167
01:16:04,435 --> 01:16:07,272
(GRACE SOBBING)

1168
01:16:07,355 --> 01:16:08,356
Grace?

1169
01:16:14,445 --> 01:16:16,155
(PANTING) Are you okay?
I need to...

1170
01:16:16,239 --> 01:16:18,199
- I need to tell you.
- What? What do you need?

1171
01:16:18,283 --> 01:16:19,284
I need to tell you.

1172
01:16:19,367 --> 01:16:22,036
- What?
- I need to say it, Dom.

1173
01:16:22,120 --> 01:16:23,204
I need to say it, Dom.

1174
01:16:23,288 --> 01:16:24,414
(SOBBING)
Okay, say it.

1175
01:16:24,497 --> 01:16:25,957
It should have been me.

1176
01:16:26,040 --> 01:16:28,167
It should have been me.
(SOBBING)

1177
01:16:28,251 --> 01:16:29,585
It should have been me.

1178
01:16:29,669 --> 01:16:31,629
No. No.
It should have been me.

1179
01:16:31,713 --> 01:16:33,423
Yes, you fucking asshole!

1180
01:16:33,506 --> 01:16:35,258
It was my fault!

1181
01:16:35,341 --> 01:16:36,801
No, it wasn't,
Grace. Yes, it was.

1182
01:16:36,884 --> 01:16:39,512
- No, it wasn't.
- You told me to stop teasing you.

1183
01:16:39,595 --> 01:16:40,596
You told me.

1184
01:16:40,680 --> 01:16:43,266
(SOBBING) You told me,
and I didn't listen.

1185
01:16:43,349 --> 01:16:45,268
I didn't listen.
It's okay.

1186
01:16:45,351 --> 01:16:46,936
I just wanted to make you laugh.

1187
01:16:47,020 --> 01:16:49,480
- It's okay. It's okay.
- But you told me to stop.

1188
01:16:49,564 --> 01:16:51,232
Oh, I'm sorry.
It's all right.

1189
01:16:51,316 --> 01:16:53,943
I'm sorry. I'm sorry!

1190
01:16:54,027 --> 01:16:55,778
It's okay.
It's okay.

1191
01:16:55,862 --> 01:16:58,114
(SOBBING)

1192
01:16:58,197 --> 01:16:59,824
It's okay.

1193
01:17:01,617 --> 01:17:03,703
(SOBBING CONTINUES)

1194
01:17:08,207 --> 01:17:10,376
(PANTING)

1195
01:17:24,140 --> 01:17:25,808
(SOBS)

1196
01:17:29,312 --> 01:17:30,813
(SNIFFLES)

1197
01:17:34,650 --> 01:17:38,404
I felt him swerve.

1198
01:17:40,323 --> 01:17:42,408
And I knew, in that
fraction of a second,

1199
01:17:42,492 --> 01:17:44,327
that we were gonna crash.

1200
01:17:48,915 --> 01:17:53,002
And my last thought before it happened was,
"Shit."

1201
01:17:56,756 --> 01:18:01,177
The last thought I was about to
have in my entire life was, "Shit."

1202
01:18:07,475 --> 01:18:08,851
I didn't think about Dom.

1203
01:18:08,935 --> 01:18:11,604
I didn't even think about him.

1204
01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:12,897
(SOBS)

1205
01:18:14,941 --> 01:18:17,902
Does that make me
a bad person, Henry?

1206
01:18:19,779 --> 01:18:22,532
No.
(SOBS)

1207
01:18:22,615 --> 01:18:24,033
Makes you a person.

1208
01:18:26,911 --> 01:18:29,414
I wonder what he was
thinking about.

1209
01:18:30,540 --> 01:18:33,126
I wonder what
his last thought was.

1210
01:18:36,921 --> 01:18:39,257
He was thinking
about you, Grace.

1211
01:18:41,551 --> 01:18:42,844
Guarantee it.

1212
01:18:47,390 --> 01:18:48,891
(SNIFFLES)

1213
01:18:54,021 --> 01:18:56,107
(WATER CONTINUES DRIPPING)

1214
01:19:04,782 --> 01:19:06,993
(CANE THUMPING)

1215
01:19:46,199 --> 01:19:47,575
(SNIFFLES)

1216
01:20:19,315 --> 01:20:20,733
(SNIFFLES)

1217
01:20:37,416 --> 01:20:39,919
I was gonna marry him
in that dress.

1218
01:21:11,117 --> 01:21:13,536
(ELECTRICITY CRACKLING,
WHOOSHING)

1219
01:21:24,505 --> 01:21:26,632
(GEARSHIFT CLICKS)
(ENGINE IDLING)

1220
01:21:30,636 --> 01:21:32,930
No, you keep it.
It's cold out.

1221
01:22:15,348 --> 01:22:17,933
(STUDENTS CHATTERING)

1222
01:22:18,017 --> 01:22:19,477
SHARMA: Quick announcement,
everyone.

1223
01:22:19,560 --> 01:22:21,841
If I might have everyone's
attention for a moment, please.

1224
01:22:21,896 --> 01:22:23,939
- (CHATTERING STOPS)
- Thank you.

1225
01:22:24,023 --> 01:22:27,818
So, I wanted to let you know
that Grace Town has decided

1226
01:22:27,902 --> 01:22:29,403
to take some time
off from school

1227
01:22:29,487 --> 01:22:31,405
to deal with
some personal issues.

1228
01:22:31,489 --> 01:22:35,618
And, um, when she returns,
she'd prefer to focus on her studies

1229
01:22:35,701 --> 01:22:37,536
rather than the newspaper.

1230
01:22:37,620 --> 01:22:39,246
I'm sure we'll all
miss her very much,

1231
01:22:39,330 --> 01:22:40,706
but, uh,
it does sound like

1232
01:22:40,790 --> 01:22:43,542
this is the best decision
for her at this time.

1233
01:22:43,626 --> 01:22:45,711
I know this news might
come as a disappointment,

1234
01:22:45,795 --> 01:22:48,214
but I want you to know
that I have the utmost faith

1235
01:22:48,297 --> 01:22:49,423
in this group of people.

1236
01:22:49,507 --> 01:22:52,385
(ECHOING, FADING)
to produce three stellar issues.

1237
01:22:58,265 --> 01:23:00,434
(BIRDS CHIRPING)

1238
01:23:01,852 --> 01:23:04,090
- (ELECTRICITY CRACKLING)
- HENRY: When you're a teenager,

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the chemicals in your brain
drive you to make decisions

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that rip you away from
the safety of your childhood

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and drag you into
the wilderness of adulthood.

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A friend once told me
that adults are just

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scarred kids
who were lucky enough

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to make it out of
teenage limbo alive.

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I urge you to go outside

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and look at the world
through that prism.

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Look at your parents,
your older siblings.

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Look at strangers
you pass on the street.

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Look at them and imagine that,
at one point in their lives,

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they too walked these halls.

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They too felt
the unbearable loneliness,

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the absolute
unbearable powerlessness

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and darkness of being young.

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Number two!

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(STUDENTS CHEERING)

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This is three.

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(STUDENTS CHEERING)

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HENRY: We tend to think
of scars as ugly or imperfect...

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as things
we want to hide or forget.

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But they never go away.

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- (TYPING)
- As I write this,

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my last editorial...

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(READING)

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I finally understand

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that scars are not reminders
of what's been broken,

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but rather
of what's been created.

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(SCHOOL BELL RINGING)

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(CHATTERING)

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Hey.
Hey.

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(QUIETLY)
Let's...

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Congratulations.

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Yeah, you too.

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Thank you.
Yeah.

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Where are you off to next year?

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I'm gonna go to Bennington.

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It's a school in Vermont.

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It's good for writing.
Nice.

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What are you doing?

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Uh, I'm taking a year off.

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Just continuing therapy.

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Oh.

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Yeah, I was never gonna
be ready until I was...

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ready, you know?

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Of course you know.

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Yeah.

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I have to go find
my words again.

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Yeah.

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You will.

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I just want to say...

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you are an extraordinary
collection of atoms, Henry Page.

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(BREATHES DEEPLY)

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(SIGHS)

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("TAKE CARE"
BY BEACH HOUSE PLAYING)

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(LAUGHTER)

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Hey, is that Hankard?

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Hankard!
Hankard!

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Let's go.

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Um, I think I'm gonna walk.

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Gonna walk?

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Hey, whoa.

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I'm gonna walk too.

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<i>♪ Feel this burning
Love of mine ♪</i>

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01:28:22,256 --> 01:28:25,426
<i>♪ It's no good
Unless it's real... ♪</i>

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It's a long walk.
Want some company?

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Yeah, I do.

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<i>♪ Wild-eyed turning ♪</i>

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01:28:32,766 --> 01:28:37,688
<i>♪ Till we're running from it ♪</i>

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01:28:39,314 --> 01:28:43,902
<i>♪ I'd take care of you ♪</i>

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01:28:45,779 --> 01:28:50,284
<i>♪ If you'd ask me to ♪</i>

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<i>♪ In a year or two ♪</i>

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01:28:59,960 --> 01:29:01,503
<i>♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪</i>

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01:29:29,740 --> 01:29:33,619
<i>♪ You say swimming in the lake ♪</i>

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<i>♪ We'll come across a snake ♪</i>

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<i>♪ It is real
And then it's fake ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Feel its heartbeat ♪</i>

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01:29:47,633 --> 01:29:50,803
<i>♪ Feel what you heat ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Far so fast
It feels too late ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'd take care of you ♪</i>

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<i>♪ If you'd ask me to ♪</i>

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<i>♪ In a year or two ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:30:43,647 --> 01:30:46,191
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:30:56,577 --> 01:30:59,830
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:31:09,548 --> 01:31:13,093
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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01:31:14,469 --> 01:31:19,183
<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:31:22,561 --> 01:31:25,689
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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01:31:27,441 --> 01:31:32,154
<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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01:31:32,237 --> 01:31:35,490
<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:31:35,574 --> 01:31:38,702
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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01:31:40,495 --> 01:31:45,292
<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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01:31:45,375 --> 01:31:48,503
<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:31:48,587 --> 01:31:51,256
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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01:31:53,300 --> 01:31:58,222
<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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01:31:58,305 --> 01:32:01,516
<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:01,600 --> 01:32:04,478
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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01:32:06,480 --> 01:32:11,276
<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:11,360 --> 01:32:14,529
<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:14,613 --> 01:32:17,616
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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01:32:19,534 --> 01:32:24,289
<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:24,373 --> 01:32:27,584
<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:27,668 --> 01:32:30,837
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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01:32:32,339 --> 01:32:37,261
<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:37,344 --> 01:32:40,555
<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:40,639 --> 01:32:43,350
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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01:32:45,560 --> 01:32:50,274
<i>♪ I'll take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:50,357 --> 01:32:53,527
<i>♪ Take care of you ♪</i>

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01:32:53,610 --> 01:32:55,612
<i>♪ That's true ♪</i>

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(SONG FADES)