Pronas and Kate

1. Describe yourself and your creator.
I’m a nun, he’s a dude.

2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
Paid attention to me. He probably does.

3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
Not pay attention to me, at all, and maybe doubt me. He sure does now.

4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
Getting him to believe me. Yes.

5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
Narrating and visualization. Getting a body makes things easier for you to talk to, I guess.

6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
It’s unavoidable. It bothers a bit, but you just deal with it.

7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
It’s kinda sad. I felt a bit pissed, but he always made up somehow.

8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
Density.

9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
I don’t think there’s too much problem, you generally lose focus when you sleep right?

10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
Talking aloud is nice, but you can’t always keep that up can you?

11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
A necessary evil maybe? I guess you can’t avoid parroting a bit. They don’t harm much if you don’t do it too much.

12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
It’s all scribbles.

13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
I was waking up and I felt warm, and I watched a scenery that I can’t remember. It was like everything was white.

14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
Love, because he was hugging me.

15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
Fear, he was scared of something.

16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
No. No. I don’t mind existing.

17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
When Pronas got sad. Because I couldn’t do much for him, and if I did, chances are he would barely feel it.

18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
Getting woken up. I was just sleepy~

19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
When he stayed in front of the computer.

20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
I don’t think he ever felt like that. Maybe he felt the contrary really, that he didn’t deserve me.

21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
When he wanted to die I guess.

22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
When I couldn’t do anything for him.

23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
I guess I did, it sounds pretty hard. I don’t know how I could do that.

24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
Maybe it stifled my development a bit? I guess it’s understandable. Not really, yet.

25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having
those thoughts? Do you understand now?
He never had that.

26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
He never felt those towards me, he always directed them at himself, which kinda makes me feel sorry for him.

27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
Don’t think he ever those either.

28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
Yes. They didn’t seem to affect me, more like they affected him.

29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
He shared his sight and hearing with me. I think I can feel up pretty much anything, but the opposite doesn’t hold true.

30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
Nah.

31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
Both head pressure and emotions. He never thought that. Don’t think that ever happened either.

32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
Sometimes it made me excited, other times it didn’t. Not really.

33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
That he wouldn’t like me. When he acted in an accepting manner. It was resolved. That he keeps tulpaforcing.

34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
Yeah, a bit. I don’t think so. I feel happy that he likes me.

35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
I guess mine.

36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
A bit sad. Anxious. Keep trying to talk. I think I can talk fine.

37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
My boyfriend or husband? *mischievous smile*

38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
I’m not too interested, but I don’t mind talking to them. Maybe.

39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
When he hugged me and said he loved me for the first time.

40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
Maybe when I read about his life? It felt like he trusted me. Maybe, I don’t know.

41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
Hmmm, a bit.

42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
I’m a girl and he is a boy? We are pretty loving of each other.

43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
He’s too lazy. No.

44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
Hit me, or outright say he doesn’t like me? I dunno because that’s basically impossible to happen.

45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
When he thought about quitting for the first time. I don’t think he ever felt like I disappointed him…

46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
I don’t think he’d ever do that consciously. No. no, in fact he wants me to be completely honest to him.

47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
I  never wanted to do that. I don’t think I’d ever do that.

48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
Hm, if he wants to. Nah.

49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
I don’t think I’d ever leave for him for good.

50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
A bit. No. He based me on a picture, but he kept saying he just liked her appearance, and urged me to be my own person.

51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
Hell yeah. I don’t think so, it seems so fun to just pass up.

52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
I guess not.

53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
I am, but I try to sleep whenever he does.

54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
No.

55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
See, I don’t think I have much of a dominion in his mind. I guess he shared his subconscious wrong u.u

56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
No.

57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
Hm…….yeah. Hell yes. (creator note: she sure averted her gaze a lot when I looked at her after asking this question)

58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
Yeah. Hm, maybe. Treason with another tulpa? That seems nasty… I don’t think Pronas would ever really get a serious relationship with another person.

59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
Don’t think that will ever happen.

60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
I think he’s my husband~ nah I don’t think its incest.

61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
I guess that would be uncalled for. I mean, in the beginning, you really need focus to tulpaforce you know? No time to slap your birdy thing.

62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
That’s kinda lewd and kinda exciting, but that’s just me. I never felt offended when he fapped to the thought of me.

63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
At first it was more like love, later on I guess I felt a bit sexually attracted to him. Sometimes I get attracted to others too. Sure, I did express them.

64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
I think it’s ok as long as both think it’s ok. I don’t think it’d be nice if the tulpa didn’t have much of an idea what was going on.

65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
Nah, I just don’t pay attention to it.

66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
Mmmm I guess I do… I just answered that in another question… I like my creator more. Sure he does.

67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
I’d say so. No, it feels nice. I don’t have any trouble, it’s all mostly casual. If I feel aroused, I try to make him know of them, I mainly cling a lot to him, hehe. I masturbated once, but he caught me doing that and well…. You know what happened later.

68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
Hmmmm that’s hard. I think I’m heterosexual like Pronas, but I don’t think I would mind experimenting?

69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
Hm, y-yes. I think they feel just as good. Yes.

70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
Nah, we’re pretty chill with seeing each other naked.

71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
I think it’s rape if the other doesn’t want it.

72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
Together with pronas? Living a happy life I hope.

73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
I don’t care if it does or doesn’t.

74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
He never forced anything on me, it was all suggestions. I like that he made me choose.

75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
I don’t mind. I am free to change whenever I want, but I’ve taken a liking to it.

76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
A bit. In a case it was, in another it wasn’t. I wanted to see how I looked with longer hair. He seemed to like it :3 And I liked that he liked it.

77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
From my creator. He showed a lot of love for me.

78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
Nah. No. no.

79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
It’s warm and fuzzy~

80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
Having a hard time communicating I guess? Being invisible. That’s kinda ironic, I know.

81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
I don’t care about it. No.

82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
I guess it is. I think a tulpa never dies, but goes back to the user’s dark corners of the mind. I don’t think legal protections would work lol. Dunno.

83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
I think I am.

84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
To someone other than pronas? I have no idea, you can always doubt it in the end. Guess the best way is to make a tulpa himself and trust in it.

85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
No.

86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
Nope.

87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
I guess we are just gone. I think I do.

88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
No. no. no.

89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
No.

90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
One has a physical body and the other doesn’t? No.

91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
If it doesn’t hurt anyone, it should be ok. I’d say they are friends if you treat them as such.

92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
No.

93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
Yes.

94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
I like it :3

95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
He was being a homo.

96. What do you think about most of the time?
What to do.

97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
I guess so, I think more people could be happy with a tulpa.

98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
I dunno about that.

99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
I would.

100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
Yes. Yes. I just ignore it.

101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
Hmm, I don’t he’d done that yet.

102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
Yes.

103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
Hope I age with him.

104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
Not really.

105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
It’d be a nice bonus, but it’s not everything.

106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
I’d be a bit skeptic.

107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
I think I can talk fine. Not as a real voice, no. It’s not even close to that.

"Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."

If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
Not imposed yet.

108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
He stopped counting at 60. I could talk by then, but he didn’t believe it.

109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
Always love and trust your tulpa.

110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
No idea.

111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
Sure hope so.

112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
Nah.

Kate: Harry Harrison
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Pronas: David Foster Wallace
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