✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:19 PM
Uh idk if that makes sense
I think I deflect with humor a lot and lovey dovey and sarcasm
To pretend I’m okay
Zen - Today at 2:20 PM
i mean, yeah, probably, when you're pushing people away it's natural to do that i think, deflection
but i think you took a big step honestly just telling me the stuff that was on your mind
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:20 PM
Ya
Zen - Today at 2:20 PM
how do you feel about it rn
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:20 PM
It feels weird kinda
Weird but okay
Vulnerable but you feel safe rn
Zen - Today at 2:21 PM
i know you don't trust that i like you, but try and just let this fact, the fact that i've been here with you now for like a while
sink in a bit
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:21 PM
Ya
I do see it
And realize
Zen - Today at 2:21 PM
good, i'm glad
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:21 PM
You’ve been consistently open to talking with me
Zen - Today at 2:21 PM
ya
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:21 PM
You feel safe to me
Zen - Today at 2:21 PM
good :blush:
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:21 PM
Like I said
Like I can say things
Be “real” broken Mary
Zen - Today at 2:22 PM
yeah dude, i mean, honestly... those are the people i connect with
the ones i feel like mesh with my understanding of myself and my world
in the sense that like, i will b eopen with you if you're open with me i guess
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:23 PM
I have very deep thoughts and feelings about the world
I just don’t open them up very often
Zen - Today at 2:23 PM
it's worth looking at them
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:23 PM
I question things and think about things a lot. But sometimes I just scratch the superficial
For fear of being misinterpreted or disliked I guess
Zen - Today at 2:24 PM
yeah that's more or less what i was going to say too
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:26 PM
Mhmm
People like superficial Mary though
She is fun
She is good times and loving and flirty and carefree
Deep Mary is moody and difficult
Zen - Today at 2:27 PM
you don't have to be all one or all the other
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:27 PM
Ya
Zen - Today at 2:27 PM
like you can have good times and rainbows, but like, you need rain for a rainbow
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:28 PM
Idk now to bring deep Mary out/ and show people
I guess I do like I am now
Zen - Today at 2:28 PM
idk, for me it's like learning how to say what's actually on my mind to the people i think are ok to listen
and to do that i test the waters
but i am a lot more forthcoming than most people, so i may be a little biased
hey you ok if i pop out for like 15 mins
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:30 PM
Ya I am okay
Zen - Today at 2:30 PM
ok brb
i'm back
i got lunch
i was hungry
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:45 PM
Food is goo
Good
Not goo lol
Well food could also be goo
Zen - Today at 2:54 PM
i got snacks too ^.^
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:54 PM
What did you get
Zen - Today at 2:56 PM
well i WANTED sushi
but they didn't have the roll i wanted
so i got turkey and cheese on a baguette w/terra chips
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 2:57 PM
That sounds yummy
Zen why you so far
I feel like we’d be good irl friends
Zen - Today at 3:00 PM
i know man i wish i were in cali, to see you and maggie and moony and owl etc
all the peoples
we could hang and watch grey's and get stoned o.o
no one wants to watch grey's with me when it's new :sob:
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 3:03 PM
I can’t because I’m behind
It was nice to watch with moony the one night
Zen - Today at 3:03 PM
so hey ok i was thinking, and i don't want you to go into a tailspin, but i don't think you should continue or go back to head support, what are your thoughts
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 3:03 PM
It felt kinda real
Zen - Today at 3:03 PM
rabb.it is fun
we'll do that more
✨princessmary✨ - Today at 3:04 PM
I don’t think I have time for it ya
To be it
Zen - Today at 3:04 PM
ok, yeah, i sort of distilled that that's what you were saying