When I went to my first public highschool after years of non public, a jump from 200 kids max to like 2000, it was so jarring, an when I first started they had this one kid show me around, this was a 6'6 350 pound big, mean ass lookin white dude, an so when I actually started goin there I saw him at lunch, an I attached myself like a leech, I followed him an he wasn't too keen about it, I hijacked an jumped right into his whole friend group an sat at their table at lunch, but I would for the most part never say really much of anythin, just enough for my presence not to be too weird, I eventually phased right into it, I was like a ghost, one of the kids was this lil mexican dude with a lazy eye, an he was decently chill, as I integrated more into the group I started hangin out outside of school an meetin other ppl, one of these ppl was the lil mexican guys cousin, she was a very pretty girl, with the sweetest personality ever, I was struck by her, I would talk her up whenever I could, we were hangin out at the apartments pool an we were playin chicken, it's the game where ur on each others shoulders an u try an hold up the person while they knock the other people down, so she's literally on my shoulders, bare booty touchin em, cash an prizes right on my neck, the very next day after that, im in class, hav to goto the bathroom an as im goin thru the halls/open field area thing, she comes down the stares an is cryin, im like hey hey wuts wrong talk to me, an shes like my bf broke up with me, an im like oh no on the outside but inside im like oh shit, an she asks me like, am I ugly is there somethin wrong with me, an im like no ur beautiful an wonderful bla bla all that shit right, shes like thank u, hugs me, I thought we had a real moment, I walked away all happy, the very next day, school ends, im walkin home with my friend an I see her, an shes back with the dude, all happy an smiley, an shes like doin 1 of our inside jokes an shit, an im just fuckin dead right there, the emotion drained out of my face, I am a soulless husk noddin an fake smilin until she an the dude leave, an well needless to say I stopped bein friends with all those ppl, ghosted the fuck out of em, not that they really cared, I was just the quiet kid at the table that never contributed too much