Honesty

Very tough to know where I stand in this world when people actively act against what they say about me... If i'm so wonderful, why am I treated like I'm completely worthless?
I tell people I'm worthless, they insist I'm not
and then, ultimately, I am discarded
because I am worthless
stop fucking lying to me, world
see, I'm trying to protect myself...stop fucking halting my protection process and sending me back to square one. Let me believe I am worthless. It is the only working defense I have against your bullshit.
Is it so hard to go
"Look, you are ultimately - in the long run - worthless.. and I am going to walk out of your life eventually, but for the time being, I have a use for you" (Maybe a less crude version of this, but you get the idea)
yeah, I guess it is, because then you'd have to admit what a piece of shit you are... but at least you'd be honest. and that's more important than anything in the entire world.
Honesty trumps love, or at least what we as society believe love is