Pastebin Monday 9/30/19

Pastebin Monday 9/30/19

*Last week i made another pastebin to serve as a mini diary. I was missing some sort of purpose in life and started writing this in order to figure out what was wrong and improve my level of happiness. Now this also serves as a log of me fulfilling my goals, or whatever i want to do from last week if i got around to it. If u have any tips or advice let me know.tyty

*This will be like summaries and events of importance/interesting thoughts that happened each day of the week for me. At the end, I'll give like a little analysis and thoughts of what i've decided to do next.

Prologue:
My normal routine of classes, walking, and gaming hasnt changed much. Im getting into a consistent routine and i feel as if I dont have as many deeper thoughts as i did when i was feeling more down. I still have some other stuff that i talk about at the very end though. It was my birthday this week, i also started being healthier and joining a lot of money giveaways because i need money lol. Overall i am improving but i wouldnt call this peak, and if it were, i would definitely like to improve more.

Monday:
I tried to make this a day mostly about school work. I did a decent job about getting things done. I'm pretty sue its because I decided to do work on campus instead of at home. Will probably do that now when i have a large work load. I bought a lottery ticket for tomorrow. If i had all of that money i would probably give some to save the earth, then just take my time finishing school and going on trips with my friends. No time for games at the end of the day was tired so i went to sleep.

Tuesday:
After classes, I have new found motivation to hang out with more of my friends. Made plans to go to la next weekend and hang out with a few other people. Saved some money so i can go big with one of my foodie friends down there. Oh it was also my birthday today. Didnt win the lottery on my bday unfortunately. I decided to have junkfood today. Honestly not great lol. It tastes good for a bit but after eating too much it hurt my stomach. If i do eat pizza again, im gonna have to share with more than just 1 person. Had a good night with the boys.

Wednesday:
Woke up today and decided that I would a bit harder to get fit again. Not sure how much far in shape i want to get but i dont want to like get gorilla muscles, would prefer to keep more of a cutie pie physique. Did a pretty rough workout for today aside from my normal routine. Spent some time with school work and gaming then slept.

Thursday:
School took most of the early time. Played some games and decided to go to school smashfest at night. It was fun seeing the kiddos. I enjoyed more of melee than ultimate though. Ultimate at my school is in a weird scenario where i dont agree with how a lot of it is run, but i am also in the minority about the issues. Even if i decide to not come to tourneys or just not take it seriously, its nice to hang out. I reunited with some other friends today. Big fan of just hanging out and doing whatever other people want to do i guess. I dont really have any desires accept to be with them.

Friday:
Once again, the day that I have nothing to do and am just waiting for everyone else to be free. Last week i said i wanted to find something else to do like a new hobby or something. Didnt end up doing that cuz today i didnt really feel empty or anything. BUt still i dont think i did anything. I was going to do a hard workout but i underestimated how out of shape i was. put myself out of commission for a few days lol. Spent a lot of time thinking but it would be better writing those thoughts in the epilogue. I hung out with another friend group for most of the night, and some interesting events occurred. Dont know how much i should go on about this but what happened does bother me a bit. At this point tho, it means nothing to me so I'll just ignore it for now, unless someone else tries to bring me into it again.

Saturday and Sunday:
Lazy weekend again Played some games, did some school. Over the week i have been experimenting more with cooking cuz im trying to get back into health mode. Im one of the kids that have always hated veggies but im trying to get to like some stuff now. Did some experiments with onions and carrots and celery. I think im good with onions and celery. Carrots still need some work. Maybe if i were to be more of a soup cooker i could make some stuff how i like them. Too much time and effort for me though. At night, we finally P'ed (played certain game with certain friend).
*Does this have a weird connotation and may lead to thinking P is something its not? Oh well.
Good time although we didnt finish I didnt finish.
Same thing for both days. just hung out with friends mostly so i was having a good time.

Epilogue:
Overall this week felt like i was happy. some days if i was just feeling ok, my thoughts were its ok to be ok right now because i have now planned a guaranteed good day in the future. I think the dream will be to never have this happen again. Although its fine to be an 8/10, thats not a 11/10. Whats missing from realizing my dream goal is money though. Money wont be a problem in the future but if i were to have money now, then i could always be a 10/10. If i was ever down i could just go to somewhere or something or someone that would lift me up. and i could also do the same for all of my friends. Thats the reason why i retweet a bunch of give away stuff and played the lottery. Never having to worry and always being able to better the lives of everyone i care for would be nice. My other large thought about this week was this. I dont do anything. I dont know what to do. I also feel like i have no time to do anything. I dont know why i ahve this feeling. I gotta look for something more fulfilling i think rather than just looking for something i like. I like to watch shows and play games or whatever. But i need to find another thing that i love to do. Thats another reason ive been indulging myself in other peoples company and planned to go on a trip this weekend. I would do this forever but i dont have the resources to do so. Maybe one day I'll get lucky. for now goals for next week are, eat well, sleep well, work hard. Cant really go more indepth on my goals are because i dont really know what else to do. I guess im still in a lost phase right now but im happier than before so as long as i am improving i wont complain.

P.S.
There have been a lot of kind words sent my way so thanks for everyone. Also thanks for people with tips and advice on stuff if u have anymore whether it be life related or even just how to cook those freaking carrots, it would be nice. tyty.