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- What if I told you, that I love CSGO, but I hate playing it?
- That one of the game that I love most slowly turned into my bane and came so
- close to almost driving me insane. The game that could give me hours of enjoyment
- a day slowly faded to gray and on occasion made me question why I even played?
- But I never stopped.
- Albert Einstein once said: "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
- and expecting the results to change" See, for a long time I believed my actions
- in a community so large I couldn't even begin to fathom wouldn't have a butterfly
- effect on the other players in my faction.
- We never saw it coming.
- From the moment we downloaded the game and typed in our fps name we thought
- of and chosen. Little did we know we opened up a world that would cause us to feel
- like we're going through the motions. None of us knew when we started that very first match,
- and I know you will remember it, I know you can remember this how that match would start
- something did spark something embedded inside of us.
- That desire to win.
- Victory was something we'd strive for and we logged on every night for. The game was beautiful,
- magic, and it just so happened that there wasn't any toxcity, no team compilation that was better,
- because every player was innocent, and we didn't know the difference between who uses a p90
- and AK, so daily we'd see people failing
- cause they tried using the Deagle for the first time
- But we didn't care, that we could ignore, because we were too busy trying to get that AWP we've
- been saving for. So as a result, they'd throw, and we'd throw. But somehow, eventually after what
- seemed like an eternity we had that one game were we got our first VICTORY and it made it
- all worth it
- All the frustration, the lack of team communication and the times we lost our patience didn't matter
- because that one victory was the defining moment signaling that we have improved and we savored every
- second of it, we'd come out on top somehow nothing could stop us now the battle was won, it was over,
- DONE
- We were so happy.
- But through this hardship, is where it all started, even now I can't grasp it, because I don't know where
- we went wrong but somewhere along the line we decided that getting a kill was more important than our teammates.
- Playing this game went from an uphill struggle to improve to a downward spiral of abuse. At what stage did we
- decide that we were any better, like we haven't made the same mistake, but instead
- of showing some patience we become filled with hatred, now if I ever see a player raging at someone failing
- I can feel my heart breaking because I know that, that person we've been labeling as toxic is someone we created,
- and I hate it. And recently, I can't seem to get a single game where a team will treat each other decently,
- it's eatin me knowing when I log onto cs just to see people teasing and criticizing each other just because
- someone had a disagreement.
- I've already got five enemies on the other side, why should I have to deal with four more on mine just because
- of that one awp Shot i missed. People talk about this community like they're not a part of it,
- but we are and there's not masking it, if csgo were a living thing, we'd be a heart of it, and
- our heartbeat has stopped, so right now I'm jump starting it.
- I love CSGO but hate playing it.
- You want a reason to change? Take a pick, my reason is plain as this: I wanna get that feeling back,
- playing a match with complete strangers but feeling like I'm playing with people who are the exact same
- as me. So let's bring that back, I miss feeling that.
- You have to be the change you wish to see in the world, so change.
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