[email protected]: i am so mad right now
[email protected]: i told Jack i was nervous that what would happen would happen when i was put on the prozac and he reassured me, he said he'd stick by me, and he fucking abandoned me like a worthless DOG
Charlotte: I see
[email protected]: i told him that BEFORE i went on the prozac
[email protected]: cause i knew it could happen cause it happened again
[email protected]: happened the last time*
Charlotte: what could happen again?
[email protected]: that i could sink into a depression when i was put on the meds
Charlotte: that doesn't make sense, I thoguht they were supposed to prevent that?
[email protected]: it takes 4-6 weeks for the drug to take full effect
Charlotte: I see
Charlotte: well
Charlotte: in 4-6 weeks try again
[email protected]: no he shot me down
[email protected]: so fuck him
Charlotte: okay don't try again then
[email protected]: breaks my fucking heart again
[email protected]: i know you get down too, char, come to me before you go to him
Charlotte: why?
[email protected]: i don't want him doing to you what he did to me
Charlotte: i've been down before, while takling to him
[email protected]: i don't think he gets autism though
[email protected]: how we fixate
Charlotte: I don't even know if i'm autistic tbh, really I think I'm just not social with most people
Charlotte: but do you want to know what he dumped you and not me, even though I have copmlained to him before?
[email protected]: not social, fixation, the rocking, you have many markers
[email protected]: yeah cause im whiny
Charlotte: well I've been whiney, the difference is that I'm not attention seeking, giult tripping, or whining constantly for days
Charlotte: you're not ging to be able to find someone who puts up with you for very long if you dn't change that about yourself.
[email protected]: are you talking to jaden?
are you talking to jaden?
Charlotte: no
[email protected]: ok
Charlotte: well
Charlotte: I talked to him a bit
Charlotte: but the conversation died pretty much as soon as it started
Charlotte: as usual
[email protected]: yea, i know. it happens sometimes
[email protected]: did you tell him i was being annoying?
Charlotte: I dno't believe those were my exact words
[email protected]: well that's what he told me
Charlotte: okay
Charlotte: are you denying that you'r ebeing annoying?
[email protected]: no, but i wish you'd just come to me, not gone to someone as young as jaden
Charlotte: eh he brought you up
[email protected]: still, he's a kid
[email protected]: if you have something to say to me, say it to me, im sick of hearing shit from third-parties
Charlotte: I didn't want to
[email protected]: it makes me feel degraded
Charlotte: because then something like this would happen
Charlotte: and you'd probably get more annoyed
[email protected]: i woulda just said good bye
[email protected]: now im hurt
Charlotte: I don't believe you
Charlotte: you find it impossible t let things die
[email protected]: its what i said last night, didn't i?
Charlotte: and you keep saying "i've changed I've changed"
Charlotte: yet here we are again
Charlotte: yeah
Charlotte: when I was trying to help
[email protected]: you're being too cold about it
Charlotte: now that I don't care and arguing with you, you're just holding ont it
Charlotte: whatever
Charlotte: I don't care
Charlotte: keep whining
Charlotte: see where it gets you
Charlotte: tell me if it's worth it
[email protected]: i can't help it
[email protected]: im overloaded
[email protected]: my head is killing me
[email protected]: but then i told you before i get whiny when im overloaded
Charlotte: then go lie down or smething
Charlotte: just stop whining
Charlotte: nobody wants to hear it
Charlotte: constantly
Charlotte: for days
Charlotte: you're pushign everyone away including myself
Charlotte: if it goes on like this much longer I'm not going to be here for you.
Charlotte: You're not even trying to improve yoruself
Charlotte: you're just making excuses