RELAPSE?!

Covet: -Cadence made her way into the building, heading for the elevator. Once inside she hit the button for her floor and leaned against the wall,her bag squishing between her and it.  Closing her eyes she let out a sigh. She'd been treading on eggshells since the dance, something itching at her that wasn't right, but she really didn't want to get into it with Remy again. She walked up to her apartment door and pulled her keys out of her bag, unlocking the door as she went inside.-
Tsaaq: Remy had been face down on the couch while Issues blared through his phone speakers, coming down from the presumed wicked high he had earlier in the day. His head lifted when the door opened. He hoisted his body up so he could sit up, rubbing his hands on his raven head. "Where the fuck have you been?" He grumbled.
Covet: -She hung her bag up and stared at him, giving him a look- At my Brothers, and getting Christmas shopping done. I'd ask you the same question, but I think it's pretty obvious. -she told him pointing to him on the couch, walking in and around into the kitchen.-  Has Strangles been fed recently? -Her question was a bit muffled as she ducked under the counter to get Hashie fed.-
Tsaaq: "Uhhhh." He grumbled and pulled off his glasses, honestly attempting to remember. "Earlier this morning and shit." Remy replied in a mumble. He turned his body and watched her going into the kitchen. "I've been knocked out for most of the day." He slurred and winced, stretching out his arms.
Covet: -She brought her head up, barely hearing what he said through his mumble and sleepiness- What?  -she shook her head and went to the cage, seeing the snake with a bulge where the mouse would be-  Thank you, Jeez, Enjoying your Day off and vacation that much huh? -she asked him, going back to the fridge grabbing a soda out.-
Tsaaq: He nodded as he pushed off the couch. "Yeah..." Remy trailed off as he sluggishly walked into the kitchen grabbingwhatever soda had been in her grasp and drinking most of it down in long gulps. He gasped for air and looked over to her, holding the bottle out to Cadence. "Gotta mentally prepare for home or whatever."
Covet: -She stared at her hand, then at him as he chugged it down, blinking a few times before tilting her head to the side.- Wow...you're welcome...-Taking it back from him, she tipped it back getting a small gulp. She tossed the can in the trash, then leaned against the counter- Think it's going to be that bad? -she asked him-
Tsaaq: He belched a little and covered the side of his mouth. "With my dick dad and my annoying sister and no mom? Yeah, it'll be bad." Remy answered as he stepped away from her to peek into the fridge.
Covet: So if it's going to be so bad, then why even go? Sounds like you'd have much more fun doing whatever here. -she said ignoring his gross MAN-eurisms.-
Tsaaq: "Cause if I don't I'll get shit, which is even more annoying." Remy answered dismissively. "Sasha knows we're out of school if I don't show up he'll know it's because I'm pissed at him and then it'll just be annoying drama so I should just hate him in person so at least I don't have to deal with some brand new fuckery from him." Remy explained as he closed the fridge and turned to look at her again.
Covet: -She furrowed her brow together- Remind me again why you are so mad at him again? -Her question was innocent enough, as she watched him close the fridge-
Tsaaq: Remy had glared at her for a moment. "Because he took mom away." He replied in a monotone. "He made her go into that fucking rehab place and he did it while I was away and didn't tell me because he knew it was fucking wrong."
Covet: -she blinked at him again, then moved her hands to her temples- Okay, but you of all people should realize how much good Rehab can do for a person. It did good for you, didn't it? -she asked him bluntly.- So what if he did it while you were away, sometimes you can't wait for those things, and maybe he knew how you'd react about it. You have to look at how much good it's going to do her, I don't think your dad would have done it, just to piss you off, or because it was wrong.
Tsaaq: "No! He's just an asshole who wants to control everyone and every time one of us doesn't fit his stupid normalcy mold he puts us away until he thinks we do!" He argued loudly and went to stomp away. "And yeah rehab worked for me but that's cause I needed help, and I was willing to accept it. My mom has been okay all these fucking years and all of the sudden Sasha thinks she needs help? No. I know my Jacqueline, she was probably pissed." He panted and raked his fingers through his hair while pacing.
Covet: I'm sure she was, but how do you know she didn't need help? You were willing to accept it, after you nearly killed yourself, and didn't have any other options. You should have gotten help LONG before that. -she uncrossed her arms, and put them up the air.- That being said, she's going to come back a better person. So I don't understand the reason for being this pissed. Aside from the fact that you had no say in it.
Tsaaq: Remy let out an angry chuckle and raised his hand to Cadence. "You just don't get it." He said condescendingly and went to walk back towards the couch. "She probably feels betrayed or some shit, by everyone. Just like how I did. It isn't fair. Fuck Sasha, he's always mister 'ohh nooo, something's wrong BETTER OVER REACT!"
Covet: Or maybe I get it better than you do. -she retorted back to him, putting her hands on her hips- But I don't think he over reacted, You fucking OD'd....she's been an alcoholic for years, from what I've gathered from you....those are real issues...I think your Dad would just like to keep both you and your mom in his life. I'm sure he'd like to keep Hayley too, so it's a good think I stopped her from what she was about to do at Thanksgiving.
Covet: *thing
Tsaaq: He rolled his eyes at her and faced away while aiming to crawl onto the couch. He paused and got back up, practically storming back over to her. "What the fuck are you talking about?" Remy asked skeptically.
Covet: -She watched him storm back over to her, and she crossed her arms- I dunno if I should tell you now, not if you are going to over-react. Huh..seems like you and your Dad might have more in common than you thought.
Tsaaq: "I am not over reacting." He said, breathing in and out to try and calm himself but just looking more angry. "And we don't. I'm not like him. He's a fuck."
Covet: And people haven't said the same about you? Apples don't fall far from their tree's babe. -she said to him- But I'm not telling you until I can believe you aren't over reacting. I took care of it, and I hope the right people know, now to help her.
Tsaaq: Remy glared silently at Cadence before going to walk away again. "Whatever, I don't care what's happening with that whiny cunt anyways." He said as he plopped onto the couch. "She probably became a prostitute or something, whatever who cares? She's annoying."
Covet: Or it's something a bit more serious and that kind of attitude isn't going to help her. -Cadence said in a more serious tone- Granted she's a young woman with a lot of shit going on, so I could see her view of it being an easy way out. -she shrugged- But I'm not about to have that on my conscience. All I will say is that it's a good damn thing, you went out for your walk on Thanksgiving, or I wouldn't have even thought about going back downstairs.
Tsaaq: He turned his head to glance back her. "Yeah, everyday I'm more and more thankful I took that walk on Thanksgiving." He whispered and turned around, patting around the pillows and cushions to find his box of cigarettes. "If she was going to run away and cry over Adam not loving her I really don't feel bad, she's always been like that. Crying over shit when she should just shut up and let it fester into mental illness."
Covet: -Cadence couldn't believe what she was hearing and shook her head- Wow, Are you really that insensitive when it comes to your own family? She wasn't going to run away...She was going to drink bleach and try to kill herself. -she told him flatly, sounding pissed.- So if that's really your wish, congrats, it's a possibility it's already came true.  I just didn't realize that you were this disconnected with your own family. -she shook her head and went for her room, flinging open the door so it slammed back against the wall.-
Tsaaq: He continued looking for his cigarettes before lifting his head and staring in disbelief. "So she tried to kill herself? Really? What? Was she really craving attention THAT badly. It couldn't be anything else. She already knows all the shit with Jay. Any other reason would be fucked up?" He spoked angrily as she pulled the door open, going after her. "I'm not disconnected. This is how I work. That's why Hayley needs to get with the program and stop crying about everything!"
Covet: I doubt it was for the attention. Nobody else knew she was going to do it. She didn't say anything to anyone, or post it anywhere. But yeah...with all the shit with Jay, you'd think people would be more sympathetic to this. -she said the last part more pointedly at him.- No this is how you used to work...back when you were on...-she stopped and stared at him then shook her head- I swear to fucking God....Where the hell is it...It all makes fucking sense now...before I thought you'd just hit a downer streak because it was Birthday Blues or something, and it's only gotten worse since Thanksgiving, and then there's the twitching and fast talking....I can't believe I didn't make the connection sooner. God I'm such a fucking idiot. Where is it Remy? -she stared at him shaking her head, giving him an incredulous look-
Tsaaq: He had been hyperventilating with rage while she spoke. "You shut the fuck up, she's being a big fucking ba-" He cut himself off, red in the face. "Don't you fucking talk to me about sympath-" He continued to stop his sentences short before his face sank. "I don't know what the fuck you're talking about." Remy said sternly, grinding his teeth as she yelled. "It's no where." He said quietly when she asked. "I SAID IT'S FUCKING NO WHERE. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO HEAR?" Remy started to scream.
Covet: -She shook her head watching his face turn bright red as he got angrier- Bullshit. You know exactly what I am talking about, otherwise you wouldn't have said it's nowhere. -she told him walking up to him to push her finger into his chest- Everything makes sense when you put THAT SHIT in as a factor. So, do you want to lie to my face again? -she told him, staring right at him, letting her eyes bore into him-
Tsaaq: Remy stayed quiet for a moment while staring down at her. "You want me to say it's up my nose or some shit? In my veins?" He asked her loudly before trying to calm himself again. "I have it under control." He said softly as combed his hair back with his fingers. "I'm not addicted like I was before. I just need it to distract myself that's all." Remy began speaking in a weak tone. "I miss her, I miss my mom. And I don't know what to do about my sister, okay? A few bumps of coke makes all those things go away. Even if its only for like six hours."
Covet: -Her jaw set as he told her, she shook her head- Do you? Because your recent attitude change, and just...everything with you lately...it seems to be doing more harm than good. -she sighed and put her arms down looking at him feeling heart broken for him- I understand the need for distraction, but c'mon. There are better ways to deal with it. -she bit the inside of her cheek- Hell, I'm here...you can talk to me. I can do my best to help, and if I can't, we can get you the help.
Tsaaq: He put his hands on his waist and exhaled hard. "I can't help Hayley. She was the strong one." Remy paused and swallowed hard. "And now? I hate seeing her. Seeing what's become of her. This world has really beaten her down you know? And not even counting all the shit I don't know about." He shrugged his shoulders and cleared his throat to fight tears cause manly. "And yeah, I can see it. And I hate it. I hate seeing me inside of her. That's all I see." Remy whispered. "I need my mom more than she needs me that's how it's always been. And even though I know she's sick I still need her. I'm used to just thinking that when I come home I'll be able to be around her. I don't have that anymore. And I don't know how long I won't." Remy sighed and wrapped his arms around Cadence's shoulders and leaned against her. "I need it Cadence." He strained to whisper.
Covet: -Cadence wrapped her arms around him and drug him off to the bed so they could sit down.- Why don't you tell me these things. That way I can help you make more sense of all of this. I can't imagine all of this is easy for either of you. -she said with a sigh and pulled him in close to run her hands through his hair- It's okay. She's going to come back, you will always have her, she just needs to get better. But Cocaine isn't a replacement for your mom, or your sister.  Neither of them are gone, just...lost. And if you can be strong, for them. That might be the light they need. -she said trying to say the right things to help comfort him. Inside she was running through all of the, FUCK FUCK FUCK WHAT DO I DO'S-
Tsaaq: He sat down with and let out a burdensome sigh then put his face in his hands as he leaned forward. "I don't know... I had an emotional overload." He muttered, not looking up. "How could I be a light to anybody?" Remy asked as he finally lifted his head to look at Cadence.
Covet: Because people who go through shit, do that all the time. It's never stopped them. If anything they've become even more of an inspiration. Hayley has taken her cues from you over the years, on what's acceptable and what isn't. I think she might be hurting for her big brother more than she would ever admit. And your Mom. If you can do it, She can. She's always been there to support you, even if it wasn't in the best of ways at times, You could be her rock in this, especially if she does feel betrayed by your Dad. -she told him, running her hands along his back.- But I don't like that you are turning to your old demons. It scares me more than it pisses me off.
Tsaaq: "Yeah... It scares me too." He whispered after she spoke. He kept his eyes on her and frowned a bit. Remy sat up and cleared his throat once more cause fuck tears. "I just never thought shit would get this bad you know?" He pulled his glasses off his face for a moment. "Cadence I'm sorry, I'm promise I'm gonna stop. I shouldn't have relapsed in the first place." Remy scoffed a little at himself.
Covet: -She could hear the change in his voice right before he cleared his throat- I didn't think it would either. I thought you would have come to me sooner, so we could avoid a relapse. But it's always been a concern at the back of my mind, because it is does happen. -Cadence took a deep breath and watched him, trying to keep her own emotions from getting the better of her.- I need you to keep this promise. It means more than anything to me right now. -she told him in a very serious tone-  You're the only person besides my brother that I have left. Which means, you mean a lot to me, in my little closed world, and it would kill me if you followed the same path you've already tried to take.
Tsaaq: He stared intently at Cadence, licking his lips as he lowered his head again. "I don't know what the fuck was going through my head when I did it." He muttered, taking her hand into his. "It may feel like I can control myself but, I don't know. I almost died the last time I did this shit. You'd think that would scare me away." He half scolded himself. "I don't want to hurt you Cadence. You're my everything." Remy said softly.
Covet: I would hope it would have been enough to scare you away from it. But I've also learned that cocaine is one of the hardest substances to kick. -she squeezed his hand and looked back at him- Just Promise me you will let me help...let me in...don't push me away like Steph did. I don't want to be controlling or nosey like I was with her. -she said blinking back more stupid eye moisture.-  You are mine too. - Cadence looked back at him and wrapped her arms back around his torso, burrying her face into his gangly chest- I accept that we are fucked up for life, but lets not make it any worse than we have to for ourselves.
Tsaaq: ((hey dont talk shit about his skinny chest!))
Covet: [She likes his skinny chest XD]
Covet: [It reminds her that she got rid of the meat heads]
Tsaaq: "I promise." Remy said in a low voice and a serious expression. He rested his head against her while patting her gently. "Hey, it's okay." Remy murmured softly and laid on his back with her still latched onto him, staring up at the ceiling. "We just need sleep, sleep will help everything. Right?" He asked playfully as he continued to stroke her head.
Covet: -She nodded her head, not wanting to let him go- Yeah, I hope so.  And tomorrow we'll talk about what steps we take next in all this. Kay? -her voice was muffled as she spoke, she pulled away so she could get undressed down to her undies and nothing else to sleep in.- I'm sorry it took me so long to notice. I was so caught up in my own shit. I should have asked you where your head was weeks ago. -Cadence climbed into bed, pulling back the covers for him-
Tsaaq: Remy shook his head and watched her get undressed. "Yeah, I'm totally looking forward to it." He chuckled awkwardly then wrapped his arms around her once they both had been under the blankets. "Don't blame yourself, I'm the one who fucked up. Thanks for not breaking it off completely." Remy whispered as he closed his eyes and cuddled close to her and fell asleep and stuff.
Covet: I couldn't do that, not when you need someone. That'd only push you to do something even worse. -she pulled his arms around her tightly as she let out a soft sigh, wracking her brain on how to best handle this tomorrow. But that was tomorrow and right now she just wanted to sleep and do the cuddle things-