Future?...

Right, so... Today I've had a bit of a think about what I feel like I should do in order to try and move on with my life.

I feel like I should move far away from home, so my parents cannot easily get to me to interfere with my life.

Historically, when i haver had friends round, completely normal. Afterwards, interrogations, moaning, complaining... you name it.

What im scared of at the moment is finding work and accomodation if I was to move away.

Ideally, I'd move somewhere along the south coast. Thew few times I've been there has been a nice breath of fresh air for me. Away from city life.
And honestly, I'd be closer to the sea. The sea is strange... jsut staring at it, listening to it, there's a strange sense of comfort
about it, that lets you empty your mind... I suppose its like being alone somewhere staring at a starlit sky at night. Serene?

Regardless... I need a new start in life. I'm not happy with any aspect of my life right now.

I cannot find housing where I am now, everyone wants like 300 quid a week in WGC. and what's mroe infuriating is that the only
financially viable vacancies for housing here where I am now is for Female Professionals or female students.
Not bad for a world thats supposedly abolished sexism~

I've got no idea how any of this would work, or how I'd make them happen. But I feel like there's no other option except remain here
feeling very unhappy and wanting to slit my throat with a rusty bread knife.

I've never managed to get employed outside of friends of family, so I've not any confidence in my ability to get employed. And I;m
not sure i ever want to return to a front of house customer service role.

I wouldn't be able to deal with difficult customers the way I am now. And I'm rather jaded and lack enthusiasm for a role like that.

I need something that requires me to think. the job I do right now is so braindead even a chimpanzee could manage it. its repetetive
boring and downright miserable and rather degrading. I've had several mental reasons for getting sent home in this role.

What do you guys think? What should I do? and how do I do it?

I've even considered maybe moving to America but... Not with that leader... I wouldn't trust him with even 1 cent, nebver mind all the taxpayers money of the U.S.A.

But I'd rather live my life as an openly gay man in a gun wielding, deeply christian state than remain here in what is effectively
a mental torture chamber.

That may sound extreme to you guys but thats genuinely how I feel.