Guys, as you have probably read in the title, this is my last video. This is my last video, guys, because I'm quitting. I'm officially quitting, my brothers and sisters. It's not easy to say. It's not easy to think about it, but I've actually thought about it a lot.

I really don't know what else I should do, my friends. I don't know how I'm supposed to proceed. The journey is going in a different direction, and I'm just going to list you some of the reasons why I decided this.

The first reason is my health. My health is terrible. My health started… I started losing my health two years ago in the autumn after I started doing all those 30-hour live streams, 24-hour live streams. I did two years ago, I did a 30-hour live stream, and then the same day I did 28, and before that I had done a bunch of 24-hour streams. I just messed up. I just messed up. Sorry, guys.

Ever since, I have been living with pain each day. My brain is just constantly dizzy—lack of sleep, migraines. It's just getting worse. It's all my fault. I don't know. I just ruined my health. I just work too much. I really love working where I work, but I'm not asking for any sympathy, guys. This is 100% my fault. I'm never going back, I promise. You have my word, guys. I'm not asking for any sympathy. It's just that the journey ends here.

My health is just really bad. I took a day, I took a two-week break, but it didn't help, my friends. It just didn't help. I mean, it helped, but then after I started working again this Tuesday… I was playing my best Tuesday, and during that Tuesday I had a terrible migraine. I was dizzy. I couldn't focus at all. It was just so painful. Each day is just so painful.

So I need to quit, my friends. I don't know… it's just that my health is absolutely not good. And the more I stay streaming, making videos, the more I'll just go crazy or just die. I don't know. I need to focus on the future. I need to begin with a healthy mind, and I just don't see a future in my work as a content creator. I just spend so much energy. I give everything I have every single stream, every video, but my brain just can't take it anymore.

You have no idea how many times I've gone to the hospital because of a terrible, terrible headache. It's terrible, guys. I just can't continue. I just can't continue like that. I'm sorry.

So, the first reason is health. My brain, it's just so, so, so painful. Even though I'm doing so well in shorts content, on Twitch, and our Discord is so active, and people invite me to tournaments… I just can't anymore. I really can't. The journey comes to an end here, guys. It breaks my heart. It really breaks my heart. This is the most difficult decision I have ever made. I guess I couldn't sleep all night because I don't want to make this decision, but I know this is the right choice. I know for my future, because I can't continue like that.

The second reason, guys, is money. I don't earn anything. I don't earn anything, guys. You have no idea. Every single month I have to count my cents to pay my editors because I make amazing edits. I have to count my cents to pay my bills. I don't win any money. On Twitch, I don't get absolutely almost any subs. When those angels donate, it's really nice, but Twitch gets 50%. So my daily… my monthly Twitch earnings are like $300 on average. Yeah, when I stream for 30 hours, I had like $1,000, but who cares? It's just one live stream. I can't do such live streams anymore. I stream for two hours and I'm already feeling like dying.

Yeah, I have absolutely no money. Yes, my sponsor left me. April has been just so difficult. It has been absolutely so difficult, guys. This is almost impossible. But I kept on going, my brothers and sisters. It's almost impossible to make a living, to be honest. Even if I can make a living… I was today, I was walking just here and there to try to figure out what I should do, and I said, "Okay, I'm starting to earn money. I'm promoting the chess mine and other stuff, and things might get better. I'm almost completing a course which I won't be able to finish." But then I said, even if I earn money, my health is terrible. My health is terrible. I just can't continue, guys. Even if I earn money, if I'm so rich and I make a living, I say I can't. It's such hell. I just can't.

The third reason, my brothers and sisters, is like almost not a reason, but it's still some kind of a reason, is that I think I'm not good enough. I tried for three years. I made so many videos. I made 2k videos on YouTube, my brothers and sisters. 2k on YouTube. And yeah, shorts are doing so well, but my longer videos are just not doing well, and that's my only income. I don't think I'm that good as a content creator. I give all. I'm very honest with people, but I wouldn't have quit because I'm not good enough, because I can improve. But there is a small reason why I quit, because I don't think that I can do really good in content creation. I just lack skills. I don't know. I don't know. I should have done much better. I think I've done much better, guys.

But yeah, I can't anymore. And I really… it breaks my heart, guys, because this is my last video. And what I'm going to do, I don't know. I'll start working something, guys. Maybe go back to programming. But if my migraines are because of computers, then I won't. Or I'll just go start working.

I'm going to miss you so much, guys. It has been such a journey. It has been such a journey with the Alien Gambit, guys. I mean, I can be happy because I gave chess two OP gambits: Alien Gambit and Martian Gambit. Martian Gambit has no reputation, even though it's rare. I gave you guys two gambits. I gave you laugh. I gave you truth. I gave you honesty. I gave you integrity, I hope. And I was always true to myself. Ouch.

Yeah, I was always true to myself. It's just that this year has been so painful to me health-wise. I started the year with four consecutive months being constantly sick, sweating, no energy, just sick. This didn't… terrible happened in my life personally. I just was almost facing insanity anymore. I don't know. Just not a good time.

But yeah, my first year with Alien Gambit, my second year with Martian Gambit, and our third year we… we quit. But yeah, I'm sorry, guys. But I'm never going back. Never going back. Because even if I make money, as I said, my health is not… I ruined my health. It's 100% my fault. Nobody is to blame. I worked too much. Worked way too much.

That's it, guys. This is the last video. I'm sorry it was sad, but I just need to take a proper goodbye with you guys because we spent three years together. We laughed together, we cried together, and I hope we spread peace, love, and happiness. But I'm never going back. This is a final decision, guys. I'll do a stream, and after that, I'm never going back. I'll just continue with my life. I will keep going to the gym, keep working out, and keep taking care of myself. And I'll work some job, maybe programming, maybe not. But I can't… I'll die. I'll either die or go crazy. You have no idea. Every single day is just so much pain.

All right, guys. That's it. I love you so much. It has been a really interesting journey, and I just want to say for the very last time… sorry, guys. I just love, love, love what I do so much. It's just me, but it is what it is.

My legacy, I bless you guys all. Take care.