Bawwww

Tsaaq: ((I'm hurrrrr!))
Covet: [I am also here, I was afk washing dishes.]
Tsaaq: ((No problemo.))
Covet: -Cadence pulled up to Tony's apartment complex and parked her vechile. She patted the pockets of her coat and double checked that she had her phone, silver case and lighter. She tucked her keys away as well before heading in and making her way  up the stairs to his floor, knocking on the door when she got there. Cadence figured if she didn't answer it, she'd walk in. She had Tony's permission to do that much.-
Tsaaq: Hayley had been sitting on the couch, staring at the television while her feet were draped with a blanket. She heard Hera meow from under the couch before she slinked out and hopped beside Hayley. She sighed and scratched behind the kitty's ear before hearing a knock. Hayley looked at Hera then stood up to go towards the door, awkwardly pulling it open. "Yeah?" She said softly then rose her eyebrows seeing it had been Cadence.
Covet: -Cadence gave Hayley a slight wave- Hey, Can I come in? -she asked her- I was just bored sitting at home, and Tony said you were here by yourself. Figured what the hell. -she told her giving her a smile.-
Tsaaq: She stared blankly at her at first then pouted a bit. "Um. Okay?" She shrugged and pulled the door all the way open and walked away from it so she could sit on the couch again. She picked Hera up and placed her in her lap so that she could pet her aimlessly.
Covet: -Cadence watched her and walked in, closing the door behind her. She walked around and sat down next to her on the couch, and let out a sigh.- So I'm not even going to pretend to sugar coat this and make it something it's not. I came over to check on you. Remy told me about the party the other night. He's really worried about you, and he feels like shit about everything that's went down. -she told her- But I know talking about it isn't something that you necessarily want to do. So, Instead...I brought a couple of joints, I figured we could smoke it out, and if you want to talk, awesome, and if not I'm here  regardless. -Cadence told her leaning back, pulling the silver case out of her hand.-
Tsaaq: Hayley hugged her cat tight, making it squeal. She remained silent while Cadence spoke. She opened her mouth to interject but decided against it anyways. "You can smoke if you want. I don't really feel like smoking weed..." Hayley trailed off, sounding somber. "That party was stupid." She murmured to herself and continued to cradle Hera. "I don't even know why I was even there."
Covet: -Cadence put the case back in her pocket- You were there because everyone there, was trying to show you that they cared. It was kind of sweet. I'm sorry you didn't enjoy it. -she told her frowning- They don't like seeing you down and upset. Especially if it means you're still having all the negative thoughts.
Tsaaq: "It didn't feel like they cared, the only person talking to me was Remy... And Tony I guess. But I'm pretty sure he just feels bad for me." Hayley said with a frown, lowering her head. "I know they don't want to see me down, that's why I stay here by myself so I don't bother anybody." She sighed, petting the cat again as she looked away.
Covet: -She frowned- So what's got you so down?  Still the same stuff? -Cadence asked her after listening to her.- I know getting out of a hole isn't exactly easy. But you can't just sit here being sad. That's not going to help either. Are you happy here with Tony?
Tsaaq: She tightened her lips against each other a moment, letting Hera spring from her grasp and probably run to hang out with Ryder. "Shit just keeps happening." Hayley answered. "That's why I hate when people say things will get better because they don't. They just get worse." She murmured. She shrugged her shoulders. "Not really but it's not cause I don't like him, he's just an asshole. That's who he is. He told me I can stay here. Again, probably cause he feels bad for me."
Covet: What's gotten worse? -she asked her and sighed then shook her head- Okay, but how is he treating you. I get that he's an asshole, but just because you need a place to stay doesn't mean that you need to sit in misery.
Tsaaq: "My life." She crossed her arms over her chest as she slouched. "And it doesn't matter, I'd sit and be miserable somewhere else. It wouldn't make a difference. At least here it's convenient." Hayley shrugged once more, keeping her face turned away. "I don't know, sometimes he's nice and most of the time he acts like he's annoyed with me." She replied, rubbing the side of her forehead.
Covet: -Cadence watched her and listened.- Well yeah, I imagine he's just as frustrated as the rest of us. We want to help, but we're getting nothing back. What would it take for you to be happy? Realistic or unrealistic I don't care. List it out. -she told her changing the pace of the conversation a little bit.-
Tsaaq: ((Sorry Im fighting with people right now.))
Covet: [It's all good XD]
Tsaaq: ((Who the fuck was that))
Tsaaq: ((Anyways give me like fifteen.))
Covet: [I dunno...they are still here...XD]
Covet: I can't boot]
Covet: [TYT]
Tsaaq: ((Damn it Pey and ty xD))
Covet: [Woot It left]
Tsaaq: ((OKAY TIME TO POST))
Covet: [woot!]
Tsaaq: Hayley bit the inside of her cheek. She shrugged and played with the hem of her shirt. "I don't know..." She trailed off. "I'm sorry I'm bad at being cooperative but it's really hard when you have nothing to look forward to." Hayley said while fighting a frown. She glanced at Cadence for a moment. "I can't think of what would make me happy because regardless I'd probably find a way to ruin it. That's all this whole shitty span of time has shown me."
Covet: -Cadence nodded- You can't help it. I get that. So we've got to find thing for you to look forward to. They don't have to be big things, But you are going to have to be open to at least trying to be positive. That aside. Do you want to talk to someone professional? -she asked her ignoring the negative statements she'd made. Cadence looked over at her with a serious tone to her voice.-
Tsaaq: "How can I be postive when there's nothing to be positive about?" Hayley scoffed, getting a little frustrated as she looked down again. "What would talking to someone professional do?" She asked.
Covet: Help you find things to be positive about. Medication to help combat the overwhelming sadness. Believe it or not Doctors aren't bad people. -Cadence responded to her- It's not a bad thing to see someone who can help you understand you. I go, Remy goes. Does it take it all magically away no, but does it help make life bareable. You bet. -she said softly.-
Tsaaq: She pursed her lips as she stared straight ahead. "It's too late for all that shit." Hayley muttered. "I wish people would realize that leaving me alone is the best thing they can do." She got up from the couch and went towards the kitchen. "I was going to leave. I would've done it for everyone. I didn't know where I was going or what I was going to do when I got there but at least I would be gone." She called out as she glanced in the fridge, getting herself a water. "But I stayed because of Tony. And now I wish I didn't. Now I don't know what to do." She stormed back over to the couch. "I'm just stuck in this cycle of shit and nothingness. And I'm pretty sure nobody understands because all they tell me to do is to just be happy, like I choose to feel this way or something."
Covet: I'm not asking you to be happy, Hayley. I'm asking you to find a new lease on life basically. Offing yourself is the cowards way out. That's completely giving up. You've got plenty of people to stay for. You think it would make it easier for everyone? If you killed yourself, you would crush Remy. After Jay doing that, you're his baby sister. And I mean this with the best heart, but that fool would probably do the same to follow after you to make sure you were okay. -Cadence told her getting a bit frustrated. She took a deep breath and calmed her voice.-  I know you are stuck, and I'm sure there are more people out there than you think that know how being stuck in that cycle of shit  feels. But you can break it. You just have to be willing to pick yourself up one more time.
Tsaaq: "There's just too much shit that's happened." She grumbled. "I can't keep fighting anymore. I'm tired of trying, I'm just tired." Hayley sighed before taking a sip from her water and putting it on the coffee table. She put her hands over her face a groaned. "I don't want to talk about this anymore." Hayley whimpered a bit before lowering her hands. "This is where I belong, alone and miserable. That's how I feel." She said softly.
Covet: Well I hate to break it to you, but You aren't alone. You might be miserable, but You aren't alone. So please don't forget that. -she told her- But how hard is it to swallow a pill every day. One that could help you feel less tired, Help you make clearer headed choices. How hard is it to talk, for as long as we have been sitting here talking. Even if it's the same stuff over and over. That's what they are paid to do. -she put her hands up and nodded- But you don't want to talk about it anymore. Just please don't do anything harmful. -Cadence asked her as a last ditch effort reminder.-
Tsaaq: She frowned as she turned to look at Cadence. She moved her body on the couch to face her and blinked slowly. "Remy is in all that shit and he's still pissy and miserable. How much can it really help?" Hayley said angrily. "And since when does he care in general? So yeah it's totally okay for me to be sad but once I don't feel like I want to be alive anymore suddenly he becomes a human being and doesn't want me to off myself?" She continued to interrogate. "Talking is hard because I don't want people to judge me, yeah they're doing that regardless but I really don't feel like adding on. When I do talk about shit I just sound whiny anyways. And I'm pretty sure everybody would feel a lot better if I weren't around."
Covet: Since he realized how big of a douchebag he's kind of been. Especially to you. Ever since we found out that your Dad put your Mom in Rehab, he's been back on Cocaine. He's doing really good about quiting it, and even told the doctor that he relapsed. Then I told him about what happene with you at Thanksgiving and since then he's been really concerned. I am too. I know it's affected both of you. -She watched her turn away.- Okay but that's the point of going to someone professional. They don't get to judge. They are paid to listen to you whether you are whiny or angry or hitting on them. But they also have to remain professional. Nobody would feel better, Hayley. We would all feel worse, because it'd be like we failed you.
Tsaaq: She crossed one leg over the other heatedly. "I can't fucking believe him." She muttered with a shake of her head. "I don't want to talk to a professional. If I tell you I won't kill myself will you stop making me feel guilty?" Hayley asked her. "I know you don't mean to but whenever people do this all it does is make me feel guilty." She lowered her head.
Covet: Believe me I'm pretty sure those same words came out of my mouth when I figured it out. -she sighed and nodded- I'm sorry I wasn't trying to make you feel guilty for any thing. I just want to help. I apologize for making you feel like that. I just know you have a lot going for you, and you also have a lot on you plate. If there was any way I could help...um...un burden you. I would. Remy would too in a heartbeat. -she ran a hand through her hair and went to get up.-  I should probably leave. I really just wanted to check in on you, both for mine and Remy's sake. You've got options and people are looking out for you. Don't forget that. Kay? -she told her giving her a soft smile.-
Tsaaq: "It's not your fault, it's me." Hayley sighed and frowned a bit, wiping her eyes before any tears could fall from them. She inhaled deeply and tried to keep a straight face. "Okay." She muttered as she bit the inside of her cheek and gave Cadence a nod. She got up as well, going towards the door to open it for her. "I should probably feed my cat." Hayley said awkwardly.
Covet: -Cadence walked to the door and gave her a hug, wrapping her arms around her in a comforting way.- I don't have to leave if you want me to stay until Tony gets here. -she said to her, noticing the awkwardness and the tear hiding.- We don't have to talk about anything. We can just watch something and order something to eat. I just figured I'd been taxing on you enough. -She told her standing there by the door.-
Tsaaq: Hayley pouted and took the hug before pulling away. "I don't like it when he leaves me here alone..." She trailed off but tried to play it off like it wasn't as upsetting as it actually was to her. "I don't know when he's getting back or anything." Hayley said additionally as she leaned on the wall near the door. "We have DVDs and Netflix, well... Tony does."
Covet: -Cadence nodded- Alright. I can stay.  We can watch whatever. Have you checked out Jessica Jones at all? As weird as it sounds, it's pretty good. Nerdy for sure, but it's about this bad ass chick, who has to go up against the bad guy who can control people with his words. -She suggested, thinking maybe it'd inspire her or some bullshit, I don't know  XD. She started to kick her boots off and took her vest off, intending to get into some sort of relaxation mode.-
Tsaaq: ((My god lmao))
Covet: [XD]
Tsaaq: "I haven't watched that yet." She replied as she speed walked into the hallway. "He sounds sort of like that bastard Thaddeus." Hayley said to herself bitterly. "Hey, animals!" Hayley called out with no response. She sputtered and went into the kitchen and went to put shit in the bowls anyways cause living things usually needed food to survive and that's when the assholes came out from where ever they were hiding. She went back to her couch and slouched as she grabbed the remote.
Covet: -Cadence chilled on the couch kicking her feet up as Hayley feed le animals.- I haven't either. But the reviews for it are pretty good, I guess. What could it hurt, beats watching some Kardashian bullshit. -she said with a laugh.-
Tsaaq: Hayley scoffed a little as she shook her head. "I don't watch their shit regardless." She muttered as she watched the TV switch to the Netflix menu. "The only good thing about those broads are their shelf asses. Anything besides that is just extra."
Covet: Yeah, and even those are fake about them. -she laughed and watched her flip through the menu.- To much money being put to too much pointless use. -she rolled her eyes and pulled her phone out- I better let Remy know what I'm up to so he doesn't expect me home when I'm not.
Tsaaq: She started up the show and shifted on the couch with her arms crossed. "If I had money like that I'd buy an ass too though." She shrugged and looked over to Cadence before sighing. "Okay, if it'll help him not go crazy."
Covet: Eh, I think I might buy the trainer to get my ass into shape, rather than have an implant put in. -she nodded her head- It will. I showed up late last week and he had to deal with our new roomate. He just about slipped up. I got home just in time. -Cadence leaned back into the pillows and watched the show once she was done sending off the message.-
Tsaaq: "Oh yeah, Steph told me she moved out and shit." Hayley muttered awkwardly and slouched a little more in her spot on the couch. "Yeah I know he probably hates her or whatever. He doesn't take roommates very well, as his across-the-hall-mate I would know." She shook her head a little.
Covet: Yeah, well I had to move on from Steph. Jade seems pretty cool though. I don't have an issue with her. Strange that Remy wouldn't take kindly to her. She's korean, I think. And strangely enough she still wants to live there at the apartment. So hopefully they figure there shit out. -she said looking back to the screen.-
Tsaaq: She shook her head again. "I don't know if it's a territorial thing in his balls but he just doesn't like people he has to share a living space with." Hayley shrugged her shoulders and glanced at the tv.
Covet: Ugh... Well until that place is paid off, I need someone else there to help pay rent. So he's just going to have to get over it or with the lottery. -she said shaking her head.- I doubt he's even seen her in the last week. Jade's like a crazy ninja. Just silent and comes out of nowhere.
Tsaaq: "He's not going to get over it, This is Remy we're talking about when has he ever gotten over anything ever?" She asked. "He can't even stand Sylvester in his room at home. Sylvester is a cat, a cat damn it. He did nothing to no one besides want treats." She said with a sputter of her lips. "
Covet: He doesn't mind your guys' dog. He said that much himself. And he Doesn't mind Hashie at my place. They are kind of bros I think. -she shrugged-
Tsaaq: Hayley sputtered her lips. "That's because Petey is his dog. He made that very clear when mom and dad brought him home." She waved her hand at Cadence. "He loves Petey, it's all the kitties he's mean to." Hayley pouted. "Well maybe he likes Hashie cause he hasn't know him forever." She said.
Covet: Ahh, gotcha. Yeah it could be that. -Cadence said with a nod- Now he loves Strangles. but Strangles pretty much chills in his cage unless Remy or I have him out.  -she kept watching the show and chilled and all that jazz until Tony got there, Cause I need to get Sean up, then I wants sleeps x.x]
Tsaaq: ((You can goooo. I'm watching Pulp Fiction and shiz.))