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- 00:00:58,917 --> 00:01:03,268
- <i>When I was a
- child, we would go to this cove</i>
- 2
- 00:01:03,292 --> 00:01:06,518
- <i>under the cliffs
- called Hope Gap.</i>
- 3
- 00:01:06,542 --> 00:01:12,184
- <i>When the tide was out, these
- little rock pools appeared.</i>
- 4
- 00:01:12,208 --> 00:01:16,792
- <i>And in the pools were
- tiny sea creatures.</i>
- 5
- 00:01:22,833 --> 00:01:25,684
- <i>My mother would sit
- on the rocks and wait</i>
- 6
- 00:01:25,708 --> 00:01:27,500
- <i>for me while I explored.</i>
- 7
- 00:01:29,458 --> 00:01:34,518
- I never asked myself
- what she was thinking
- 8
- 00:01:34,542 --> 00:01:36,375
- or if she was happy.
- 9
- 00:01:38,750 --> 00:01:40,792
- You don't, do you?
- 10
- 00:02:10,792 --> 00:02:14,684
- A lonely impulse of
- delight is it Gary.
- 11
- 00:02:14,708 --> 00:02:15,393
- How is that?
- 12
- 00:02:15,417 --> 00:02:16,394
- Oh, it's you, Grace.
- 13
- 00:02:16,418 --> 00:02:18,601
- It's a poem, WB Yeats.
- 14
- 00:02:18,625 --> 00:02:21,309
- Always with the
- poetry, eh, Grace.
- 15
- 00:02:21,333 --> 00:02:26,000
- Nor law, nor duty bade
- me fight, nor public men,
- 16
- 00:02:26,042 --> 00:02:31,018
- nor cheering crowds, a
- lonely impulse of delight
- 17
- 00:02:31,042 --> 00:02:34,059
- drove to this tumult
- in the clouds.
- 18
- 00:02:34,083 --> 00:02:36,559
- Oh, bollocks.
- 19
- 00:02:36,583 --> 00:02:40,851
- I balanced all,
- brought all to mind.
- 20
- 00:02:40,875 --> 00:02:44,643
- The years to come seemed
- a waste of breath.
- 21
- 00:02:44,667 --> 00:02:49,393
- A waste of breath, the
- years behind in balance
- 22
- 00:02:49,417 --> 00:02:52,184
- with this life, this death.
- 23
- 00:02:55,000 --> 00:02:55,602
- Good day?
- 24
- 00:02:55,626 --> 00:02:58,684
- Uh, much the usual.
- 25
- 00:02:58,708 --> 00:03:01,643
- How was your day, Grace?
- 26
- 00:03:01,667 --> 00:03:02,518
- Was?
- 27
- 00:03:02,542 --> 00:03:03,394
- Oh, yeah.
- 28
- 00:03:03,418 --> 00:03:07,059
- <i>I did our walk to Hope Gap.</i>
- 29
- 00:03:07,083 --> 00:03:09,143
- I haven't done it for ages.
- 30
- 00:03:09,167 --> 00:03:12,351
- Remember how Jamie used
- to love going there?
- 31
- 00:03:12,375 --> 00:03:15,601
- Yes, of course.
- 32
- 00:03:15,625 --> 00:03:19,042
- Sometimes I miss him so much.
- 33
- 00:03:30,042 --> 00:03:32,268
- Did you make me a cup of tea?
- 34
- 00:03:32,292 --> 00:03:34,268
- I thought you had one?
- 35
- 00:03:34,292 --> 00:03:36,042
- It's gone cold.
- 36
- 00:03:40,083 --> 00:03:43,976
- Why is it you only ever
- drink half your tea I wonder.
- 37
- 00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:45,893
- I wonder that, too.
- 38
- 00:03:45,917 --> 00:03:49,934
- Ah, I suppose it's because
- I don't like things to end.
- 39
- 00:03:49,958 --> 00:03:52,184
- You're a non-completer.
- 40
- 00:03:52,208 --> 00:03:53,393
- Oh, am I?
- 41
- 00:03:53,417 --> 00:03:55,101
- Are you a completer?
- 42
- 00:03:55,125 --> 00:03:56,934
- Up to a point.
- 43
- 00:03:56,958 --> 00:04:00,309
- Can one complete
- anything up to a point?
- 44
- 00:04:00,333 --> 00:04:01,333
- I don't think so.
- 45
- 00:04:02,417 --> 00:04:05,268
- Well, I do wish
- Jamie would come home.
- 46
- 00:04:05,292 --> 00:04:06,059
- It's been months.
- 47
- 00:04:06,083 --> 00:04:06,935
- He's got his own life.
- 48
- 00:04:06,959 --> 00:04:12,518
- Well, of course, he has,
- but why doesn't it include us?
- 49
- 00:04:12,542 --> 00:04:13,518
- Are you Wiki-ing?
- 50
- 00:04:13,542 --> 00:04:14,394
- Yes.
- 51
- 00:04:14,418 --> 00:04:17,018
- <i>You never complete that.</i>
- 52
- 00:04:17,042 --> 00:04:20,417
- <i>You can't complete Wikipedia.</i>
- 53
- 00:04:24,542 --> 00:04:31,708
- <i>Napoleon marched 450,000
- men across the Neman.</i>
- 54
- 00:04:31,750 --> 00:04:34,809
- <i>Less than 20,000 came back.</i>
- 55
- 00:04:34,833 --> 00:04:40,143
- <i>The surprisingly large number
- of the officers kept diaries.</i>
- 56
- 00:04:40,167 --> 00:04:42,684
- <i>Over 150 have survived.</i>
- 57
- 00:04:42,708 --> 00:04:47,208
- Remarkable, really given the
- conditions on the retreat.
- 58
- 00:04:48,958 --> 00:04:52,434
- As the men dropped
- in the intense cold,
- 59
- 00:04:52,458 --> 00:04:56,768
- they were stripped of
- clothing by their own comrades
- 60
- 00:04:56,792 --> 00:05:01,875
- and left naked in
- the snow still alive.
- 61
- 00:05:03,500 --> 00:05:06,434
- It was a kind of
- survival strategy.
- 62
- 00:05:06,458 --> 00:05:10,518
- In extremest, men can be cruel.
- 63
- 00:05:10,542 --> 00:05:11,476
- Is that wrong?
- 64
- 00:05:11,500 --> 00:05:12,500
- Do we blame them?
- 65
- 00:05:12,542 --> 00:05:16,768
- Would any of us have
- behaved any better?
- 66
- 00:05:16,792 --> 00:05:17,958
- Robbie?
- 67
- 00:05:20,458 --> 00:05:21,684
- I wouldn't have stripped them.
- 68
- 00:05:21,708 --> 00:05:26,226
- You'd have left them to
- die with their clothes on?
- 69
- 00:05:26,250 --> 00:05:27,102
- Yes.
- 70
- 00:05:27,126 --> 00:05:30,268
- Out of compassion or modesty?
- 71
- 00:05:30,292 --> 00:05:35,184
- It's really hard getting
- people's clothes off.
- 72
- 00:05:35,208 --> 00:05:36,351
- So it is.
- 73
- 00:05:37,917 --> 00:05:42,809
- Well, it's been a while,
- and I was thinking.
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- 00:05:42,833 --> 00:05:44,226
- Oh, thank you, Jamie.
- 75
- 00:05:44,250 --> 00:05:47,518
- Are you sure you can manage?
- 76
- 00:05:47,542 --> 00:05:48,227
- I'll tell Grace.
- 77
- 00:05:48,251 --> 00:05:50,643
- She'll be so pleased.
- 78
- 00:05:50,667 --> 00:05:53,750
- Some time after
- lunch on Saturday.
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- 00:05:55,708 --> 00:05:57,226
- When men were wounded
- or frostbitten
- 80
- 00:05:57,250 --> 00:06:01,101
- and men could no longer walk,
- orders were given to carry
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- 00:06:01,125 --> 00:06:03,601
- them on the baggage wagons.
- 82
- 00:06:03,625 --> 00:06:05,393
- This slowed the wagons
- down, of course,
- 83
- 00:06:05,417 --> 00:06:08,309
- and reduced the chances
- that the baggage train
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- 00:06:08,333 --> 00:06:10,726
- would make it to Smolensk.
- 85
- 00:06:10,750 --> 00:06:15,851
- So the wagon drivers looked out
- for especially rotted ground
- 86
- 00:06:15,875 --> 00:06:18,559
- and then drove fast over
- it so that the wounded
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- 00:06:18,583 --> 00:06:23,518
- would be jolted off the wagons
- without anyone noticing.
- 88
- 00:06:23,542 --> 00:06:28,101
- Once left behind on the
- road, they froze to death.
- 89
- 00:06:28,125 --> 00:06:31,583
- This was understood
- to be an accident.
- 90
- 00:06:33,292 --> 00:06:36,583
- Nobody looked back.
- 91
- 00:06:36,625 --> 00:06:38,417
- Nobody looked back.
- 92
- 00:06:40,583 --> 00:06:44,351
- I have been here before.
- 93
- 00:06:44,375 --> 00:06:45,726
- What's that?
- 94
- 00:06:45,750 --> 00:06:51,476
- My anthology, that's
- what I should call it.
- 95
- 00:06:51,500 --> 00:06:53,351
- The idea is whatever
- you're going through,
- 96
- 00:06:53,375 --> 00:06:56,958
- someone's been through it
- before you, put it into words.
- 97
- 00:06:57,000 --> 00:07:00,143
- It's the first line
- of a poem by Rossetti.
- 98
- 00:07:00,167 --> 00:07:01,434
- What is?
- 99
- 00:07:01,458 --> 00:07:03,684
- I have been here before.
- 100
- 00:07:03,708 --> 00:07:06,476
- Jamie's coming for the weekend.
- 101
- 00:07:06,500 --> 00:07:08,393
- Jamie's coming?
- 102
- 00:07:08,417 --> 00:07:11,893
- Some time after
- lunch on Saturday.
- 103
- 00:07:11,917 --> 00:07:13,684
- How do you know?
- 104
- 00:07:13,708 --> 00:07:15,893
- We spoke on the phone.
- 105
- 00:07:15,917 --> 00:07:17,101
- He rang you?
- 106
- 00:07:17,125 --> 00:07:17,625
- Why?
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- 00:07:17,667 --> 00:07:19,268
- To say he was coming.
- 108
- 00:07:19,292 --> 00:07:20,684
- Why did he ring you?
- 109
- 00:07:20,708 --> 00:07:21,394
- I don't know.
- 110
- 00:07:21,418 --> 00:07:23,934
- He does sometimes.
- 111
- 00:07:23,958 --> 00:07:25,792
- Does he?
- 112
- 00:07:28,250 --> 00:07:30,851
- When was the last
- time Jamie came home?
- 113
- 00:07:30,875 --> 00:07:31,727
- April was it?
- 114
- 00:07:31,751 --> 00:07:34,708
- He's got his own life to live.
- 115
- 00:07:46,167 --> 00:07:47,643
- Hi, it's Kelly.
- 116
- 00:07:47,667 --> 00:07:48,893
- I can't come to
- the phone right now
- 117
- 00:07:48,917 --> 00:07:50,476
- but please leave me
- a message and I'll
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- 00:07:50,500 --> 00:07:53,059
- call you back as soon as I can.
- 119
- 00:07:53,083 --> 00:07:54,434
- Hi, Kelly.
- 120
- 00:07:54,458 --> 00:07:55,518
- It's Jamie.
- 121
- 00:07:55,542 --> 00:07:58,268
- I'm away over the weekend.
- 122
- 00:07:58,292 --> 00:07:59,667
- I'll be back by 6:00 on Sunday.
- 123
- 00:07:59,708 --> 00:08:03,101
- If you're around, it'd
- be great to see you.
- 124
- 00:08:03,125 --> 00:08:04,417
- OK, bye.
- 125
- 00:08:31,667 --> 00:08:32,726
- Hello, stranger.
- 126
- 00:08:32,750 --> 00:08:34,893
- Hello, Mom.
- 127
- 00:08:34,917 --> 00:08:36,726
- Hello, stranger.
- 128
- 00:08:36,750 --> 00:08:39,809
- Hello, Mom.
- 129
- 00:08:39,833 --> 00:08:41,184
- Jamie.
- 130
- 00:08:41,208 --> 00:08:41,917
- Dad.
- 131
- 00:08:41,958 --> 00:08:43,351
- Jamie, Jamie.
- 132
- 00:08:43,375 --> 00:08:44,351
- Thanks for coming.
- 133
- 00:08:44,375 --> 00:08:45,268
- How was your journey?
- 134
- 00:08:45,292 --> 00:08:46,185
- Not bad.
- 135
- 00:08:46,209 --> 00:08:47,518
- I got the 3:46.
- 136
- 00:08:47,542 --> 00:08:48,227
- Running late.
- 137
- 00:08:48,251 --> 00:08:49,601
- Only just made the
- connection at Lewis.
- 138
- 00:08:49,625 --> 00:08:52,226
- Can't trust the
- trains these days.
- 139
- 00:08:52,250 --> 00:08:55,458
- <i>I'll just... I'll
- drop my stuff off.</i>
- 140
- 00:09:37,917 --> 00:09:39,434
- Do you think he's happy?
- 141
- 00:09:39,458 --> 00:09:42,518
- I think he's happy
- in that flat of his.
- 142
- 00:09:42,542 --> 00:09:44,268
- Do you?
- 143
- 00:09:44,292 --> 00:09:45,060
- All on his own?
- 144
- 00:09:45,084 --> 00:09:47,059
- Well, there's that, of course.
- 145
- 00:09:47,083 --> 00:09:50,601
- But he has it the
- way he wants it.
- 146
- 00:09:50,625 --> 00:09:52,018
- No washing up to speak of.
- 147
- 00:09:52,042 --> 00:09:56,018
- You use a plate, wash it, and
- there it is ready to use again.
- 148
- 00:09:56,042 --> 00:09:57,518
- You do not run out of
- milk because you're
- 149
- 00:09:57,542 --> 00:09:59,559
- the only one drinking
- it, so you know how much
- 150
- 00:09:59,583 --> 00:10:00,560
- there is left in the fridge.
- 151
- 00:10:00,584 --> 00:10:03,809
- Just little things, I
- know, but they have value.
- 152
- 00:10:03,833 --> 00:10:06,893
- Well, you sound
- as if you envy him.
- 153
- 00:10:06,917 --> 00:10:07,394
- No.
- 154
- 00:10:07,418 --> 00:10:11,226
- Well, I don't think it's good
- for anyone, hiding in a hole,
- 155
- 00:10:11,250 --> 00:10:14,059
- having everything
- always be the same.
- 156
- 00:10:14,083 --> 00:10:16,559
- Jamie, are you going to be long?
- 157
- 00:10:16,583 --> 00:10:17,726
- Not long.
- 158
- 00:10:17,750 --> 00:10:21,726
- Let's have candles to
- celebrate Jamie coming home.
- 159
- 00:10:21,750 --> 00:10:22,934
- Yes, why not.
- 160
- 00:10:22,958 --> 00:10:28,101
- <i>Next week, we'll have
- been married 29 years.</i>
- 161
- 00:10:28,125 --> 00:10:30,667
- Yes, I suppose we will.
- 162
- 00:10:32,333 --> 00:10:35,143
- Do you have something in mind?
- 163
- 00:10:35,167 --> 00:10:36,684
- What do you mean?
- 164
- 00:10:36,708 --> 00:10:39,309
- Well, where we
- go out for dinner.
- 165
- 00:10:39,333 --> 00:10:43,643
- If that's what you'd want.
- 166
- 00:10:43,667 --> 00:10:45,500
- No, it isn't.
- 167
- 00:10:45,542 --> 00:10:46,583
- It isn't?
- 168
- 00:10:46,625 --> 00:10:47,042
- No.
- 169
- 00:10:47,083 --> 00:10:48,309
- All right,
- then we won't go out.
- 170
- 00:10:48,333 --> 00:10:49,809
- Oh, for God's sake, Edward.
- 171
- 00:10:49,833 --> 00:10:50,810
- Did I say something wrong?
- 172
- 00:10:50,834 --> 00:10:53,393
- <i>Well, I say will we go out
- for dinner on our anniversary</i>
- 173
- 00:10:53,417 --> 00:10:57,476
- <i>and you say if that's what you
- want and I say it isn't and you</i>
- 174
- 00:10:57,500 --> 00:10:58,394
- <i>say then we won't.</i>
- 175
- 00:10:58,418 --> 00:11:01,559
- <i>But I do want to go out for
- dinner on our anniversary.</i>
- 176
- 00:11:01,583 --> 00:11:02,768
- Why do you think I suggested it?
- 177
- 00:11:02,792 --> 00:11:03,644
- Then why say you don't?
- 178
- 00:11:03,668 --> 00:11:06,268
- Because I don't want to do
- it because I want to do it.
- 179
- 00:11:06,292 --> 00:11:09,393
- I want to do it because
- you want to do it.
- 180
- 00:11:09,417 --> 00:11:10,851
- So do you want to do it?
- 181
- 00:11:10,875 --> 00:11:11,519
- Yes.
- 182
- 00:11:11,543 --> 00:11:13,143
- So will you book somewhere?
- 183
- 00:11:13,167 --> 00:11:13,852
- Yeah.
- 184
- 00:11:13,876 --> 00:11:16,809
- Not that awful
- place you chose last year.
- 185
- 00:11:16,833 --> 00:11:19,684
- Maybe you should make booking.
- 186
- 00:11:19,708 --> 00:11:23,250
- Do I have to do everything?
- 187
- 00:11:25,583 --> 00:11:28,018
- Will you be coming to mass
- in the morning, Jamie?
- 188
- 00:11:28,042 --> 00:11:31,601
- Mom, you know I
- don't do that anymore.
- 189
- 00:11:31,625 --> 00:11:32,684
- Why not?
- 190
- 00:11:32,708 --> 00:11:34,351
- Have you stopped
- believing in God?
- 191
- 00:11:34,375 --> 00:11:35,851
- More or less.
- 192
- 00:11:35,875 --> 00:11:36,394
- Why?
- 193
- 00:11:36,418 --> 00:11:39,434
- Is it because of all the
- suffering in the world?
- 194
- 00:11:39,458 --> 00:11:40,851
- That's a part of it, yes.
- 195
- 00:11:40,875 --> 00:11:43,476
- But don't you
- see, that's exactly
- 196
- 00:11:43,500 --> 00:11:45,059
- why there has to be a God.
- 197
- 00:11:45,083 --> 00:11:47,559
- If this world was all there
- is, how could we bear it?
- 198
- 00:11:47,583 --> 00:11:50,476
- Edward, explain why God
- allows the suffering.
- 199
- 00:11:50,500 --> 00:11:55,434
- <i>It's, um... it's about
- free will, isn't it.</i>
- 200
- 00:11:55,458 --> 00:11:56,476
- Jamie knows all this.
- 201
- 00:11:56,500 --> 00:11:57,476
- No, no, go on.
- 202
- 00:11:57,500 --> 00:11:58,018
- Explain.
- 203
- 00:11:58,042 --> 00:11:58,977
- I do know the arguments.
- 204
- 00:11:59,001 --> 00:12:00,476
- No, but if you understood
- properly, you'd believe.
- 205
- 00:12:00,500 --> 00:12:02,643
- Look, as far as I
- can see, the world's
- 206
- 00:12:02,667 --> 00:12:06,434
- a frightening place where
- things happen that aren't fair,
- 207
- 00:12:06,458 --> 00:12:09,268
- and there isn't really
- any meaning to any of it.
- 208
- 00:12:09,292 --> 00:12:12,018
- And in the end, we
- all get wiped out.
- 209
- 00:12:12,042 --> 00:12:13,434
- We can't bear that,
- so we invent God
- 210
- 00:12:13,458 --> 00:12:17,476
- and heaven to reassure ourselves
- it'll all work out in the end.
- 211
- 00:12:17,500 --> 00:12:19,309
- I don't think that's
- a bad thing to do.
- 212
- 00:12:19,333 --> 00:12:22,393
- I just happen to
- think it's not true.
- 213
- 00:12:22,417 --> 00:12:24,518
- You're wrong.
- 214
- 00:12:24,542 --> 00:12:25,519
- Tell him, Edward.
- 215
- 00:12:25,543 --> 00:12:26,893
- Tell him what?
- 216
- 00:12:26,917 --> 00:12:27,852
- That God exists.
- 217
- 00:12:27,876 --> 00:12:31,518
- You can't tell
- people a thing like.
- 218
- 00:12:31,542 --> 00:12:33,226
- God's not information.
- 219
- 00:12:33,250 --> 00:12:36,851
- God's a conviction.
- 220
- 00:12:36,875 --> 00:12:38,518
- It's like love.
- 221
- 00:12:38,542 --> 00:12:39,893
- You don't tell love.
- 222
- 00:12:39,917 --> 00:12:40,976
- You feel love.
- 223
- 00:12:41,000 --> 00:12:43,434
- That's right.
- 224
- 00:12:43,458 --> 00:12:45,643
- That's just how it is.
- 225
- 00:12:45,667 --> 00:12:46,227
- Coffee?
- 226
- 00:12:46,251 --> 00:12:48,476
- Yes, I'd like that.
- 227
- 00:12:48,500 --> 00:12:51,750
- I can't bear to think
- you're unhappy, Jamie.
- 228
- 00:12:51,792 --> 00:12:53,393
- I'm not unhappy.
- 229
- 00:12:53,417 --> 00:12:54,019
- I'm fine.
- 230
- 00:12:54,043 --> 00:12:55,684
- No, all on your own?
- 231
- 00:12:55,708 --> 00:12:57,434
- I'm fine, Mom.
- 232
- 00:12:57,458 --> 00:12:58,060
- All right.
- 233
- 00:12:58,084 --> 00:12:59,768
- Fine isn't the same as happy.
- 234
- 00:12:59,792 --> 00:13:01,268
- Well, who's happy?
- 235
- 00:13:01,292 --> 00:13:02,060
- Fine's fine.
- 236
- 00:13:02,084 --> 00:13:05,434
- No, we're happy,
- aren't we, Edward?
- 237
- 00:13:05,458 --> 00:13:07,476
- Yes, we're fine.
- 238
- 00:13:07,500 --> 00:13:09,643
- I hope you don't mind, but I'm
- 239
- 00:13:09,667 --> 00:13:10,768
- under big pressure at work.
- 240
- 00:13:10,792 --> 00:13:12,476
- I thought I'd give
- it a couple of hours
- 241
- 00:13:12,500 --> 00:13:13,768
- before I call it a night.
- 242
- 00:13:13,792 --> 00:13:16,333
- Whatever you want, darling.
- 243
- 00:13:49,333 --> 00:13:51,684
- I don't think I'll make
- mass tomorrow morning.
- 244
- 00:13:51,708 --> 00:13:54,101
- I've got all the
- coursework papers to mark.
- 245
- 00:13:54,125 --> 00:13:58,101
- I'd rather get it
- done while I'm fresh.
- 246
- 00:13:58,125 --> 00:14:01,101
- We are happy, aren't we?
- 247
- 00:14:01,125 --> 00:14:03,518
- Why Wouldn't We be?
- 248
- 00:14:03,542 --> 00:14:08,684
- Sometimes I think
- we don't really talk.
- 249
- 00:14:08,708 --> 00:14:09,851
- What do you mean talk?
- 250
- 00:14:09,875 --> 00:14:13,625
- You know, talk
- the way people do.
- 251
- 00:14:16,333 --> 00:14:19,851
- It's like magic, isn't it?
- 252
- 00:14:19,875 --> 00:14:22,518
- You see, we don't talk.
- 253
- 00:14:22,542 --> 00:14:25,018
- What?
- 254
- 00:14:25,042 --> 00:14:27,143
- I say things.
- 255
- 00:14:27,167 --> 00:14:28,184
- WhY don't you say things?
- 256
- 00:14:28,208 --> 00:14:30,268
- What do you want me to say?
- 257
- 00:14:30,292 --> 00:14:31,060
- Anything.
- 258
- 00:14:31,084 --> 00:14:32,143
- Whatever comes into your head.
- 259
- 00:14:32,167 --> 00:14:36,101
- <i>Well, I've become fascinated
- by the eyewitness accounts</i>
- 260
- 00:14:36,125 --> 00:14:37,060
- <i>of the retreat from Moscow.</i>
- 261
- 00:14:37,084 --> 00:14:39,309
- Ugh, that's not talking.
- 262
- 00:14:39,333 --> 00:14:40,726
- That's Wiki-ing.
- 263
- 00:14:40,750 --> 00:14:43,042
- I mean talk, you and me.
- 264
- 00:14:47,458 --> 00:14:49,625
- Is this what you want?
- 265
- 00:14:51,792 --> 00:14:52,727
- No.
- 266
- 00:14:52,751 --> 00:14:55,851
- If this isn't what
- you want, then what is?
- 267
- 00:14:55,875 --> 00:14:57,559
- I know I annoy you sometimes.
- 268
- 00:14:57,583 --> 00:14:59,393
- No, that's about how I feel.
- 269
- 00:14:59,417 --> 00:15:00,851
- I want to know how you feel.
- 270
- 00:15:00,875 --> 00:15:02,934
- Feel about what?
- 271
- 00:15:02,958 --> 00:15:06,726
- What would make you happier?
- 272
- 00:15:06,750 --> 00:15:08,726
- I suppose if you were happy.
- 273
- 00:15:08,750 --> 00:15:11,000
- No, no, talk about you.
- 274
- 00:15:12,708 --> 00:15:14,268
- <i>I don't want anything special.</i>
- 275
- 00:15:14,292 --> 00:15:16,184
- But you do want something?
- 276
- 00:15:16,208 --> 00:15:20,184
- There's something two people
- can have that we haven't
- 277
- 00:15:20,208 --> 00:15:22,893
- got that you wish we had.
- 278
- 00:15:22,917 --> 00:15:23,519
- Yes.
- 279
- 00:15:23,543 --> 00:15:24,684
- What is it?
- 280
- 00:15:24,708 --> 00:15:25,893
- I don't know how to explain.
- 281
- 00:15:25,917 --> 00:15:31,518
- <i>Well... think of a
- word, any word, the first</i>
- 282
- 00:15:31,542 --> 00:15:33,226
- word comes to your head.
- 283
- 00:15:33,250 --> 00:15:34,143
- Sunny.
- 284
- 00:15:34,167 --> 00:15:34,685
- Sunny?
- 285
- 00:15:34,709 --> 00:15:36,059
- <i>It's only one word.
- There's others.</i>
- 286
- 00:15:36,083 --> 00:15:37,309
- All right give me
- some other words.
- 287
- 00:15:37,333 --> 00:15:38,684
- <i>- I don't want to do this.
- - Why not?</i>
- 288
- 00:15:38,708 --> 00:15:39,644
- I'll only make it worse.
- 289
- 00:15:39,668 --> 00:15:40,893
- How will it make things worse?
- 290
- 00:15:40,917 --> 00:15:42,184
- Because whatever
- I say will be wrong.
- 291
- 00:15:42,208 --> 00:15:43,893
- Well, it can't be
- wrong if it's true.
- 292
- 00:15:43,917 --> 00:15:44,602
- Or not enough.
- 293
- 00:15:44,626 --> 00:15:45,768
- What do you mean not enough?
- 294
- 00:15:45,792 --> 00:15:49,309
- I think you want
- something I haven't got.
- 295
- 00:15:49,333 --> 00:15:51,101
- What?
- 296
- 00:15:51,125 --> 00:15:55,518
- I always somehow feel
- that I'm in the wrong.
- 297
- 00:15:55,542 --> 00:15:57,351
- I don't care about
- who's right or wrong.
- 298
- 00:15:57,375 --> 00:15:58,809
- <i>I just want you to be there.
- Here.</i>
- 299
- 00:15:58,833 --> 00:15:59,559
- I am... I am here.
- 300
- 00:15:59,583 --> 00:16:00,268
- No, you're not.
- 301
- 00:16:00,292 --> 00:16:00,934
- I am here.
- 302
- 00:16:00,958 --> 00:16:01,644
- No, you're not.
- 303
- 00:16:01,668 --> 00:16:03,934
- It's like somehow you've sneaked
- away when I wasn't looking.
- 304
- 00:16:03,958 --> 00:16:06,601
- I don't know how else to put it.
- 305
- 00:16:06,625 --> 00:16:07,435
- What are you doing?
- 306
- 00:16:07,459 --> 00:16:10,809
- I'm putting out
- the breakfast things.
- 307
- 00:16:10,833 --> 00:16:12,708
- Put that down.
- 308
- 00:16:15,250 --> 00:16:16,625
- Look at me.
- 309
- 00:16:20,500 --> 00:16:22,268
- You say you don't tell love.
- 310
- 00:16:22,292 --> 00:16:22,935
- You feel love.
- 311
- 00:16:22,959 --> 00:16:25,393
- But how am I to know
- if you never say it.
- 312
- 00:16:25,417 --> 00:16:26,934
- It's just assumed.
- 313
- 00:16:26,958 --> 00:16:27,935
- It's just there.
- 314
- 00:16:27,959 --> 00:16:32,726
- Even so, just to
- help me, please say it.
- 315
- 00:16:32,750 --> 00:16:33,851
- I can't now.
- 316
- 00:16:33,875 --> 00:16:35,143
- It wouldn't mean anything.
- 317
- 00:16:35,167 --> 00:16:35,769
- Why not?
- 318
- 00:16:35,793 --> 00:16:38,143
- I'd only be saying it
- because you asked me to say it.
- 319
- 00:16:38,167 --> 00:16:38,852
- I don't mind.
- 320
- 00:16:38,876 --> 00:16:40,059
- This is childish, Grace.
- 321
- 00:16:40,083 --> 00:16:40,601
- Say it!
- 322
- 00:16:40,625 --> 00:16:41,477
- Why are you doing this?
- 323
- 00:16:41,501 --> 00:16:42,893
- Why are you making
- everything into a problem?
- 324
- 00:16:42,917 --> 00:16:44,101
- This isn't anything
- to do with me.
- 325
- 00:16:44,125 --> 00:16:45,125
- This is your problem.
- 326
- 00:16:45,709 --> 00:16:48,101
- Don't ever say that to me again.
- 327
- 00:16:48,125 --> 00:16:48,935
- You're part of this.
- 328
- 00:16:48,959 --> 00:16:52,000
- You're involved whether
- you like it or not.
- 329
- 00:16:58,000 --> 00:16:59,809
- Do something.
- 330
- 00:16:59,833 --> 00:17:02,042
- Say something.
- 331
- 00:17:02,083 --> 00:17:03,851
- If you hate me, say you hate me.
- 332
- 00:17:03,875 --> 00:17:05,018
- Say you want to leave me.
- 333
- 00:17:05,042 --> 00:17:06,226
- Say you want to kill me.
- 334
- 00:17:06,250 --> 00:17:08,393
- Tell me something real.
- 335
- 00:17:08,417 --> 00:17:10,434
- I'm tired.
- 336
- 00:17:10,458 --> 00:17:12,226
- I want to go to bed.
- 337
- 00:17:12,250 --> 00:17:14,792
- We'll talk about
- it in the morning.
- 338
- 00:17:57,708 --> 00:17:59,309
- What happened?
- 339
- 00:17:59,333 --> 00:18:01,726
- I did it.
- 340
- 00:18:01,750 --> 00:18:05,226
- Were you going for him again?
- 341
- 00:18:05,250 --> 00:18:06,227
- He should fight back.
- 342
- 00:18:06,251 --> 00:18:07,893
- Is that what you want,
- a fight?
- 343
- 00:18:07,917 --> 00:18:09,934
- I want a reaction.
- 344
- 00:18:09,958 --> 00:18:11,851
- I want a real marriage.
- 345
- 00:18:11,875 --> 00:18:14,184
- What is he so afraid of?
- 346
- 00:18:14,208 --> 00:18:16,018
- Why does he walk away from me?
- 347
- 00:18:16,042 --> 00:18:16,935
- Because you go for him.
- 348
- 00:18:16,959 --> 00:18:20,351
- Oh, I don't go for him.
- 349
- 00:18:20,375 --> 00:18:22,476
- But I did hit him just now.
- 350
- 00:18:22,500 --> 00:18:23,601
- Oh, Mom.
- 351
- 00:18:23,625 --> 00:18:25,184
- What else am I to do?
- 352
- 00:18:25,208 --> 00:18:26,434
- How else am I to
- get through to him?
- 353
- 00:18:26,458 --> 00:18:29,893
- I feel like if I can only
- give him a big enough shock,
- 354
- 00:18:29,917 --> 00:18:30,810
- he'll wake up.
- 355
- 00:18:30,834 --> 00:18:33,601
- Well, hitting him won't help.
- 356
- 00:18:33,625 --> 00:18:35,309
- What do you think I should do?
- 357
- 00:18:35,333 --> 00:18:38,434
- I think you should
- be nicer to him.
- 358
- 00:18:38,458 --> 00:18:39,458
- Nicer?
- 359
- 00:18:42,125 --> 00:18:42,935
- You sound like Edward.
- 360
- 00:18:42,959 --> 00:18:45,351
- I think you should
- stop going for him.
- 361
- 00:18:45,375 --> 00:18:46,684
- You said that already.
- 362
- 00:18:46,708 --> 00:18:48,059
- You don't listen, do you?
- 363
- 00:18:48,083 --> 00:18:50,893
- <i>Yes, well, we've all
- seen what a great success</i>
- 364
- 00:18:50,917 --> 00:18:53,083
- <i>you've made of your love life.</i>
- 365
- 00:18:55,958 --> 00:18:57,393
- Oh, I'm sorry, darling.
- 366
- 00:18:57,417 --> 00:18:59,018
- I'm sorry.
- 367
- 00:18:59,042 --> 00:19:00,143
- I didn't mean it.
- 368
- 00:19:00,167 --> 00:19:03,559
- Actually you didn't know
- anything about my love life.
- 369
- 00:19:03,583 --> 00:19:04,477
- Don't I?
- 370
- 00:19:04,501 --> 00:19:06,917
- Have you got a secret
- wife somewhere?
- 371
- 00:19:06,958 --> 00:19:07,644
- Secret children?
- 372
- 00:19:07,668 --> 00:19:09,851
- You don't have to have a
- family to have a love life.
- 373
- 00:19:09,875 --> 00:19:13,143
- You must admit there's
- something odd about you living
- 374
- 00:19:13,167 --> 00:19:15,309
- alone in that flat at your age.
- 375
- 00:19:15,333 --> 00:19:17,893
- Lots of people live alone.
- 376
- 00:19:17,917 --> 00:19:20,601
- Edward envies you, you know.
- 377
- 00:19:20,625 --> 00:19:21,102
- Oh?
- 378
- 00:19:21,126 --> 00:19:22,309
- Yes, he'd love to
- live in your flat
- 379
- 00:19:22,333 --> 00:19:26,125
- and do the same thing at
- the same time Every day.
- 380
- 00:19:29,042 --> 00:19:31,684
- It's what I rescued him from.
- 381
- 00:19:31,708 --> 00:19:33,476
- Don't try rescuing me.
- 382
- 00:19:33,500 --> 00:19:35,226
- I do worry about you.
- 383
- 00:19:35,250 --> 00:19:37,601
- I worry about you.
- 384
- 00:19:37,625 --> 00:19:38,144
- Why?
- 385
- 00:19:38,168 --> 00:19:39,684
- Because Edward and I
- have these little rows.
- 386
- 00:19:39,708 --> 00:19:42,809
- I'm just trying to keep
- well out of the line of fire.
- 387
- 00:19:42,833 --> 00:19:44,143
- You know I love him,
- don't you.
- 388
- 00:19:44,167 --> 00:19:47,184
- Doesn't mean anything if we
- quarrel from time to time.
- 389
- 00:19:47,208 --> 00:19:50,018
- Oh, throw the
- breakfast things around?
- 390
- 00:19:50,042 --> 00:19:53,143
- Well, I tipped the table up.
- 391
- 00:19:53,167 --> 00:19:54,476
- Had to do something.
- 392
- 00:19:55,126 --> 00:19:56,601
- I thought maybe you'd
- thrown them at him?
- 393
- 00:19:56,625 --> 00:19:59,768
- No, wouldn't do
- that, not cutlery.
- 394
- 00:20:00,418 --> 00:20:02,184
- I'm relieved to hear it.
- 395
- 00:20:02,208 --> 00:20:05,268
- I would have cleared it
- up if you hadn't done it.
- 396
- 00:20:05,292 --> 00:20:08,018
- Well, it's was done now.
- 397
- 00:20:08,042 --> 00:20:10,726
- Thank you, darling.
- 398
- 00:20:10,750 --> 00:20:11,352
- Thank you.
- 399
- 00:20:11,376 --> 00:20:13,976
- I'll see you in
- the morning then.
- 400
- 00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:17,351
- I think I may go to early mass.
- 401
- 00:20:17,375 --> 00:20:18,768
- You want me to wake you?
- 402
- 00:20:18,792 --> 00:20:19,352
- No.
- 403
- 00:20:19,376 --> 00:20:20,559
- No, let me sleep.
- 404
- 00:20:20,583 --> 00:20:23,018
- All right then, darling.
- 405
- 00:20:23,042 --> 00:20:26,125
- Good night.
- 406
- 00:21:12,208 --> 00:21:17,434
- <i>Glory to God in the
- highest and on earth, peace</i>
- 407
- 00:21:17,458 --> 00:21:19,768
- <i>is a peaceful of good will.</i>
- 408
- 00:21:19,792 --> 00:21:26,851
- <i>We praise you, we bless you,
- we adore you, we glorify you.</i>
- 409
- 00:21:26,875 --> 00:21:30,476
- <i>We give you thanks
- for your great glory.</i>
- 410
- 00:21:30,500 --> 00:21:34,768
- <i>Lord God, heavenly
- King, oh God almighty</i>
- 411
- 00:21:34,792 --> 00:21:37,976
- <i>father, Lord Jesus Christ...</i>
- 412
- 00:21:38,000 --> 00:21:40,851
- <i>Only God himself, Lord God...</i>
- 413
- 00:21:40,875 --> 00:21:45,018
- <i>Lamb of God, son
- of Father, you take</i>
- 414
- 00:21:45,042 --> 00:21:47,268
- <i>away the sins of the world.</i>
- 415
- 00:21:47,292 --> 00:21:50,601
- <i>Have mercy on us.</i>
- 416
- 00:21:50,625 --> 00:21:52,958
- <i>Have mercy on us.</i>
- 417
- 00:22:00,625 --> 00:22:04,018
- When do you have to go?
- 418
- 00:22:04,042 --> 00:22:05,934
- After lunch?
- 419
- 00:22:05,958 --> 00:22:09,726
- Right away after lunch.
- 420
- 00:22:09,750 --> 00:22:12,018
- Three-ish.
- 421
- 00:22:12,042 --> 00:22:16,268
- I don't suppose you could
- stay on a little longer?
- 422
- 00:22:16,292 --> 00:22:18,268
- I'd rather not really.
- 423
- 00:22:18,292 --> 00:22:19,309
- Why?
- 424
- 00:22:19,333 --> 00:22:23,309
- It's just that things
- are coming to a head.
- 425
- 00:22:23,333 --> 00:22:26,309
- I thought it might be better
- for Grace if you were here.
- 426
- 00:22:26,333 --> 00:22:28,601
- What do you mean
- coming to a head.
- 427
- 00:22:28,625 --> 00:22:32,726
- Well, I suppose
- you heard last night.
- 428
- 00:22:32,750 --> 00:22:35,393
- She's not that
- all the time is she?
- 429
- 00:22:35,417 --> 00:22:37,934
- No.
- 430
- 00:22:37,958 --> 00:22:40,917
- Better that I'm here for what?
- 431
- 00:22:43,542 --> 00:22:45,625
- I'm going to leave.
- 432
- 00:22:50,667 --> 00:22:51,268
- I'm sorry.
- 433
- 00:22:51,292 --> 00:22:52,227
- I can't make Grace happy.
- 434
- 00:22:52,251 --> 00:22:55,250
- I've tried, but I'm
- the wrong person.
- 435
- 00:22:56,625 --> 00:23:03,684
- Also, ridiculous as it may
- sound, I've fallen in love.
- 436
- 00:23:03,708 --> 00:23:04,227
- What?
- 437
- 00:23:04,251 --> 00:23:06,976
- It's not what I expected either.
- 438
- 00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:09,976
- Jesus, Dad,
- how did this happen?
- 439
- 00:23:10,000 --> 00:23:13,101
- Her name's Angela.
- 440
- 00:23:13,125 --> 00:23:17,208
- She's the mother
- of a boy at school.
- 441
- 00:23:17,250 --> 00:23:20,726
- He's been having problems,
- and I've been helping him.
- 442
- 00:23:20,750 --> 00:23:22,309
- Oh, God.
- 443
- 00:23:22,333 --> 00:23:24,851
- Sorry, I didn't
- mean it like that.
- 444
- 00:23:24,875 --> 00:23:26,851
- Only what about Mom?
- 445
- 00:23:26,875 --> 00:23:30,101
- She'll be better off without me.
- 446
- 00:23:30,125 --> 00:23:32,726
- I don't give her what she wants.
- 447
- 00:23:32,750 --> 00:23:36,393
- I didn't realize until
- I got to know Angela.
- 448
- 00:23:36,417 --> 00:23:39,143
- With Angela, it's easy.
- 449
- 00:23:39,167 --> 00:23:41,476
- The way I am seems to suit her.
- 450
- 00:23:41,500 --> 00:23:47,309
- With Grace, everything
- I do is wrong.
- 451
- 00:23:47,333 --> 00:23:51,809
- I'm nervous and clumsy.
- 452
- 00:23:51,833 --> 00:23:53,583
- I annoy her.
- 453
- 00:23:55,292 --> 00:23:57,101
- Does she know anything?
- 454
- 00:23:57,125 --> 00:23:59,708
- Not about Angela, no.
- 455
- 00:24:02,917 --> 00:24:05,309
- So it'll come out of nowhere.
- 456
- 00:24:05,333 --> 00:24:08,167
- Well, hardly nowhere.
- 457
- 00:24:10,042 --> 00:24:11,476
- It's been getting
- worse and worse.
- 458
- 00:24:11,500 --> 00:24:14,351
- Several times, she's
- talked about separation.
- 459
- 00:24:14,375 --> 00:24:15,352
- She doesn't mean it.
- 460
- 00:24:15,376 --> 00:24:16,434
- Then why does she say it.
- 461
- 00:24:16,458 --> 00:24:19,643
- She feels there's something
- not real about her marriage.
- 462
- 00:24:19,667 --> 00:24:20,684
- Well, you she could be right.
- 463
- 00:24:20,708 --> 00:24:23,583
- But I don't think
- she wants to be right.
- 464
- 00:24:30,667 --> 00:24:35,708
- That's why I was hoping you
- could stay on a bit longer.
- 465
- 00:24:46,750 --> 00:24:50,851
- Why didn't you change your mind?
- 466
- 00:24:50,875 --> 00:24:51,519
- I'm sorry.
- 467
- 00:24:51,543 --> 00:24:53,101
- It's all gone too far.
- 468
- 00:24:53,125 --> 00:24:54,851
- Oh, God.
- 469
- 00:24:54,875 --> 00:24:58,143
- She'll still have you.
- 470
- 00:24:58,167 --> 00:25:00,018
- Sorry.
- 471
- 00:25:00,042 --> 00:25:04,018
- I don't know that I can do this.
- 472
- 00:25:04,042 --> 00:25:08,768
- Well, I have to tell her soon.
- 473
- 00:25:08,792 --> 00:25:11,684
- What will you do, move out?
- 474
- 00:25:11,708 --> 00:25:12,518
- Yes.
- 475
- 00:25:12,542 --> 00:25:13,477
- When?
- 476
- 00:25:13,501 --> 00:25:17,643
- Well, the plan
- was soon, very soon.
- 477
- 00:25:17,667 --> 00:25:19,476
- Well, you don't mean today.
- 478
- 00:25:19,500 --> 00:25:23,101
- Angela felt why drag it out.
- 479
- 00:25:23,125 --> 00:25:24,393
- No, you can't.
- 480
- 00:25:24,417 --> 00:25:27,309
- You have to break it
- to her more gently.
- 481
- 00:25:27,333 --> 00:25:29,500
- How do I do that?
- 482
- 00:25:31,250 --> 00:25:34,143
- She'll be back from church
- soon and I'm going to tell her
- 483
- 00:25:34,167 --> 00:25:38,559
- and then I'm going to leave.
- 484
- 00:25:38,583 --> 00:25:43,018
- You can be with her for a while
- and still be away by 4:00.
- 485
- 00:25:43,042 --> 00:25:47,976
- I know the trains can
- be very slow on Sunday.
- 486
- 00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:51,250
- This is why you
- asked me to come down.
- 487
- 00:25:56,625 --> 00:25:58,809
- Have you packed a bag?
- 488
- 00:25:58,833 --> 00:26:00,601
- Just the basics.
- 489
- 00:26:00,625 --> 00:26:03,167
- So it's already happened.
- 490
- 00:26:12,333 --> 00:26:13,185
- How long will it take?
- 491
- 00:26:13,209 --> 00:26:16,934
- I don't want to be
- here when you do it.
- 492
- 00:26:16,958 --> 00:26:21,184
- Give me half an hour.
- 493
- 00:26:21,208 --> 00:26:23,518
- Half an hour then.
- 494
- 00:26:23,542 --> 00:26:24,917
- Right.
- 495
- 00:27:11,042 --> 00:27:13,559
- Ha, Jamie not up?
- 496
- 00:27:13,583 --> 00:27:16,018
- He's gone out for a walk.
- 497
- 00:27:16,042 --> 00:27:17,851
- A walk by himself.
- 498
- 00:27:17,875 --> 00:27:21,559
- He never goes for
- a walk by himself.
- 499
- 00:27:21,583 --> 00:27:23,559
- A cup of tea?
- 500
- 00:27:23,583 --> 00:27:24,394
- Toast?
- 501
- 00:27:24,418 --> 00:27:25,750
- Please.
- 502
- 00:27:27,542 --> 00:27:32,518
- You know how we say in the
- mass, Lord have mercy on us.
- 503
- 00:27:32,542 --> 00:27:33,643
- I found myself counting.
- 504
- 00:27:33,667 --> 00:27:36,559
- <i>We asked for mercy 17 times.</i>
- 505
- 00:27:36,583 --> 00:27:41,393
- Nine times in the curia alone,
- of course, three times in agnus
- 506
- 00:27:41,417 --> 00:27:44,934
- dei, and it kept popping
- up everywhere else.
- 507
- 00:27:44,958 --> 00:27:48,643
- I think it may have a
- sort of hypnotic effect,
- 508
- 00:27:48,667 --> 00:27:49,602
- all that asking for mercy.
- 509
- 00:27:49,626 --> 00:27:53,542
- After a while, it begins to
- strike you maybe you need it.
- 510
- 00:28:00,917 --> 00:28:03,309
- I know I go for you sometimes.
- 511
- 00:28:03,333 --> 00:28:06,018
- I'll try to stop.
- 512
- 00:28:06,042 --> 00:28:08,559
- Really all I want
- is reassurance.
- 513
- 00:28:08,583 --> 00:28:11,184
- All right.
- 514
- 00:28:11,208 --> 00:28:12,809
- Hmm?
- 515
- 00:28:12,833 --> 00:28:17,042
- Just to know that we're going
- through this thing together.
- 516
- 00:28:30,583 --> 00:28:34,542
- It's not really working is it?
- 517
- 00:28:36,750 --> 00:28:38,976
- What did you say?
- 518
- 00:28:39,000 --> 00:28:40,851
- It's not really working.
- 519
- 00:28:40,875 --> 00:28:42,809
- Thank God.
- 520
- 00:28:42,833 --> 00:28:44,434
- You do see it.
- 521
- 00:28:44,458 --> 00:28:46,518
- What's happened to us?
- 522
- 00:28:46,542 --> 00:28:50,458
- I think what you said is true.
- 523
- 00:28:50,500 --> 00:28:51,684
- I've been walking away.
- 524
- 00:28:51,708 --> 00:28:53,851
- I've been avoiding things.
- 525
- 00:28:53,875 --> 00:28:55,393
- Thank God.
- 526
- 00:28:55,417 --> 00:28:56,601
- You're saying it at last.
- 527
- 00:28:56,625 --> 00:29:01,351
- I suppose I felt I can't
- give you what you want,
- 528
- 00:29:01,375 --> 00:29:06,143
- so I felt like I'm not
- very useful person really,
- 529
- 00:29:06,167 --> 00:29:06,935
- for you at least.
- 530
- 00:29:06,959 --> 00:29:10,559
- I seem to annoy you
- and do things wrong.
- 531
- 00:29:10,583 --> 00:29:14,143
- That makes me feel, well,
- not much good really.
- 532
- 00:29:14,167 --> 00:29:18,143
- So I try not to talk about
- it, which only makes it worse.
- 533
- 00:29:18,167 --> 00:29:19,851
- Thank God.
- 534
- 00:29:19,875 --> 00:29:21,768
- You understand.
- 535
- 00:29:21,792 --> 00:29:23,958
- I've been praying for this.
- 536
- 00:29:25,042 --> 00:29:29,101
- I think the truth we're
- different kinds of people.
- 537
- 00:29:29,125 --> 00:29:32,000
- It may just be that we don't
- work very well together.
- 538
- 00:29:32,042 --> 00:29:32,685
- But we can.
- 539
- 00:29:32,709 --> 00:29:35,934
- If we understand each other
- and are real with each other
- 540
- 00:29:35,958 --> 00:29:36,644
- and if you...
- 541
- 00:29:36,668 --> 00:29:39,643
- If we have the will to
- make it work, it'll work.
- 542
- 00:29:39,667 --> 00:29:40,310
- I know it.
- 543
- 00:29:40,334 --> 00:29:42,309
- I'm not sure I have that will.
- 544
- 00:29:42,333 --> 00:29:43,310
- Well, you have to.
- 545
- 00:29:43,334 --> 00:29:48,934
- Marriages only work because
- both people want them to work.
- 546
- 00:29:48,958 --> 00:29:50,393
- I'm not sure I want that.
- 547
- 00:29:50,417 --> 00:29:53,351
- You're not sure you
- want our marriage to work?
- 548
- 00:29:53,375 --> 00:29:54,976
- Edward, listen to me.
- 549
- 00:29:55,000 --> 00:29:56,268
- This is terribly important.
- 550
- 00:29:56,292 --> 00:29:59,518
- You must will or
- marriage, or it'll die.
- 551
- 00:29:59,542 --> 00:30:00,643
- There's no in between.
- 552
- 00:30:00,667 --> 00:30:03,476
- It's either alive, or it's dead.
- 553
- 00:30:03,500 --> 00:30:05,851
- What if it's dead?
- 554
- 00:30:05,875 --> 00:30:07,643
- Then we go our separate ways.
- 555
- 00:30:07,667 --> 00:30:10,059
- No one can live in
- a dead marriage.
- 556
- 00:30:10,083 --> 00:30:15,101
- Maybe that's what we should
- do, go our separate ways.
- 557
- 00:30:15,125 --> 00:30:17,143
- But it isn't dead.
- 558
- 00:30:17,167 --> 00:30:20,184
- Do you think it's dead?
- 559
- 00:30:20,208 --> 00:30:21,185
- Well, I don't.
- 560
- 00:30:21,209 --> 00:30:23,643
- It's not dead for me.
- 561
- 00:30:23,667 --> 00:30:24,351
- I'm your wife.
- 562
- 00:30:24,375 --> 00:30:25,144
- You're my husband.
- 563
- 00:30:25,168 --> 00:30:26,351
- You can say anything
- you want to me,
- 564
- 00:30:26,375 --> 00:30:28,458
- anything in the whole world.
- 565
- 00:30:34,958 --> 00:30:39,018
- I want to leave.
- 566
- 00:30:39,042 --> 00:30:39,893
- Leave?
- 567
- 00:30:39,917 --> 00:30:40,810
- Yes.
- 568
- 00:30:40,834 --> 00:30:42,875
- Leave to go where?
- 569
- 00:30:47,667 --> 00:30:51,309
- There's someone else.
- 570
- 00:30:51,333 --> 00:30:53,750
- Someone else?
- 571
- 00:30:53,792 --> 00:30:55,375
- I'm sorry.
- 572
- 00:30:58,875 --> 00:31:01,559
- How can there be
- some... someone else?
- 573
- 00:31:01,583 --> 00:31:03,309
- What someone else?
- 574
- 00:31:03,333 --> 00:31:06,184
- A parent at school.
- 575
- 00:31:06,208 --> 00:31:07,893
- You don't know...
- 576
- 00:31:07,917 --> 00:31:10,167
- What parent at school?
- 577
- 00:31:12,208 --> 00:31:15,351
- Her name's Angela Walker.
- 578
- 00:31:15,375 --> 00:31:16,352
- I didn't mean it to happen.
- 579
- 00:31:16,376 --> 00:31:20,684
- It was an accident,
- but it's happened.
- 580
- 00:31:20,708 --> 00:31:22,601
- An accident?
- 581
- 00:31:22,625 --> 00:31:24,250
- How was it an accident?
- 582
- 00:31:25,417 --> 00:31:29,958
- I met her to talk
- over her son's problems.
- 583
- 00:31:31,375 --> 00:31:33,101
- She told me about
- the situation at home
- 584
- 00:31:33,125 --> 00:31:38,643
- and that the boy's father
- left a year or so ago.
- 585
- 00:31:38,667 --> 00:31:41,726
- She became quite emotional.
- 586
- 00:31:41,750 --> 00:31:49,750
- And I said what I could, and
- that's how we became close.
- 587
- 00:31:51,333 --> 00:31:53,143
- Became close?
- 588
- 00:31:53,167 --> 00:31:54,351
- Yes.
- 589
- 00:31:54,375 --> 00:31:55,958
- How close?
- 590
- 00:31:58,083 --> 00:31:59,309
- No.
- 591
- 00:31:59,333 --> 00:32:01,559
- I don't want to hear it.
- 592
- 00:32:01,583 --> 00:32:05,101
- When did this accident happen?
- 593
- 00:32:05,125 --> 00:32:07,143
- About a year ago.
- 594
- 00:32:07,167 --> 00:32:09,167
- A Year ago?
- 595
- 00:32:10,583 --> 00:32:13,167
- And you went on just the same?
- 596
- 00:32:15,750 --> 00:32:17,875
- I should've told you before.
- 597
- 00:32:17,917 --> 00:32:22,184
- But it's not an accident.
- 598
- 00:32:22,208 --> 00:32:24,476
- You're doing it.
- 599
- 00:32:24,500 --> 00:32:27,101
- You don't have to do it.
- 600
- 00:32:27,125 --> 00:32:28,476
- You can stop doing it.
- 601
- 00:32:28,500 --> 00:32:29,934
- I'm sorry.
- 602
- 00:32:29,958 --> 00:32:31,226
- I can't.
- 603
- 00:32:31,250 --> 00:32:34,059
- You're not free?
- 604
- 00:32:34,083 --> 00:32:36,250
- Don't you realize that?
- 605
- 00:32:38,167 --> 00:32:40,018
- This woman may have
- lost her husband,
- 606
- 00:32:40,042 --> 00:32:43,934
- but that doesn't give her
- the right to take mine.
- 607
- 00:32:43,958 --> 00:32:45,559
- Edward, this is ridiculous.
- 608
- 00:32:45,583 --> 00:32:46,352
- You must see that.
- 609
- 00:32:46,376 --> 00:32:49,309
- Or are you just doing
- this to give me a fright,
- 610
- 00:32:49,333 --> 00:32:52,184
- make me behave better?
- 611
- 00:32:52,208 --> 00:32:53,708
- No.
- 612
- 00:32:55,667 --> 00:32:57,934
- Does Jamie know?
- 613
- 00:32:57,958 --> 00:32:58,935
- Some of it.
- 614
- 00:32:58,959 --> 00:33:00,375
- I told him at breakfast.
- 615
- 00:33:00,417 --> 00:33:02,226
- You told Jamie?
- 616
- 00:33:02,250 --> 00:33:04,809
- I know this is all a shock.
- 617
- 00:33:04,833 --> 00:33:09,226
- But I do truly believe you'll
- come to see it's for the best.
- 618
- 00:33:09,250 --> 00:33:11,351
- For the best?
- 619
- 00:33:11,375 --> 00:33:13,476
- I'm no good for you,
- Grace.
- 620
- 00:33:13,500 --> 00:33:15,643
- I didn't give you what you want.
- 621
- 00:33:15,667 --> 00:33:20,643
- You don't give me what I want
- because you're not even trying.
- 622
- 00:33:20,667 --> 00:33:22,851
- You found a way to
- sneak out of it.
- 623
- 00:33:22,875 --> 00:33:24,309
- Well, I won't let you.
- 624
- 00:33:24,333 --> 00:33:26,643
- I'm sorry.
- 625
- 00:33:26,667 --> 00:33:28,018
- <i>I've made up... I've
- made up my mind.</i>
- 626
- 00:33:28,042 --> 00:33:31,601
- Well, you'll have to
- unmake it, won't you?
- 627
- 00:33:31,625 --> 00:33:33,934
- This decision involves me.
- 628
- 00:33:33,958 --> 00:33:35,226
- You have to consult me.
- 629
- 00:33:35,250 --> 00:33:36,268
- Don't do this, Grace.
- 630
- 00:33:36,292 --> 00:33:37,227
- It'll only make it worse.
- 631
- 00:33:37,251 --> 00:33:40,768
- <i>You can't just walk
- away after 29 years.</i>
- 632
- 00:33:40,792 --> 00:33:41,519
- You have to try.
- 633
- 00:33:41,543 --> 00:33:45,184
- I have tried for 29 years.
- 634
- 00:33:45,208 --> 00:33:46,768
- No.
- 635
- 00:33:46,792 --> 00:33:47,644
- Don't say that.
- 636
- 00:33:47,668 --> 00:33:49,018
- You don't mean that.
- 637
- 00:33:49,042 --> 00:33:51,684
- No.
- 638
- 00:33:51,708 --> 00:33:52,934
- No, I don't mean that.
- 639
- 00:33:52,958 --> 00:33:57,559
- But you know how it's been.
- 640
- 00:33:57,583 --> 00:34:05,583
- <i>I... look, Edward,
- we had Tunbridge.</i>
- 641
- 00:34:11,583 --> 00:34:18,809
- <i>We... when Jamie was little,
- those years at Tunbridge,</i>
- 642
- 00:34:18,833 --> 00:34:20,809
- they were good years.
- 643
- 00:34:20,833 --> 00:34:22,684
- You mustn't take it all.
- 644
- 00:34:22,708 --> 00:34:23,560
- You mustn't.
- 645
- 00:34:23,584 --> 00:34:24,851
- You'll kill me.
- 646
- 00:34:24,875 --> 00:34:30,083
- When Jamie was little,
- they were good years.
- 647
- 00:34:55,292 --> 00:34:57,833
- Come here, darling.
- 648
- 00:35:02,333 --> 00:35:03,500
- Oh.
- 649
- 00:35:08,708 --> 00:35:11,351
- All right.
- 650
- 00:35:11,375 --> 00:35:12,684
- You win.
- 651
- 00:35:12,708 --> 00:35:14,184
- I'm sorry.
- 652
- 00:35:14,208 --> 00:35:16,684
- I won't go for you ever again.
- 653
- 00:35:16,708 --> 00:35:17,477
- Just don't leave.
- 654
- 00:35:17,501 --> 00:35:18,809
- You know it won't work.
- 655
- 00:35:18,833 --> 00:35:19,519
- Yes, it will.
- 656
- 00:35:19,543 --> 00:35:20,601
- We'll make it work.
- 657
- 00:35:20,625 --> 00:35:21,144
- Grace
- 658
- 00:35:21,168 --> 00:35:23,851
- I just want a chance
- to put things right.
- 659
- 00:35:23,875 --> 00:35:25,643
- That's fair, isn't it?
- 660
- 00:35:25,667 --> 00:35:28,268
- You owe me that at least.
- 661
- 00:35:28,292 --> 00:35:28,977
- Sit down.
- 662
- 00:35:29,001 --> 00:35:31,309
- Finish your breakfast.
- 663
- 00:35:31,333 --> 00:35:33,292
- I have finished.
- 664
- 00:36:12,958 --> 00:36:14,851
- It's me.
- 665
- 00:36:14,875 --> 00:36:17,726
- I'm on my way.
- 666
- 00:36:17,750 --> 00:36:19,393
- He won't leave, will he?
- 667
- 00:36:19,417 --> 00:36:21,434
- He's just doing
- this to frighten me.
- 668
- 00:36:21,458 --> 00:36:22,893
- I think... I think he'll leave.
- 669
- 00:36:22,917 --> 00:36:25,851
- Can you tell me
- something else please?
- 670
- 00:36:25,875 --> 00:36:27,309
- I don't know what to say.
- 671
- 00:36:27,333 --> 00:36:28,934
- Say it won't happen.
- 672
- 00:36:28,958 --> 00:36:31,351
- Say there's something I can do.
- 673
- 00:36:31,375 --> 00:36:34,893
- Darling boy, tell me
- what it is I'm to do
- 674
- 00:36:34,917 --> 00:36:36,143
- and I'll do it for you.
- 675
- 00:36:36,167 --> 00:36:37,434
- It's all right.
- 676
- 00:36:37,458 --> 00:36:40,167
- I'll be all right in a minute.
- 677
- 00:40:30,375 --> 00:40:34,893
- <i>That forecast much of the
- country, plenty of sunshine</i>
- 678
- 00:40:34,917 --> 00:40:36,125
- <i>around...</i>
- 679
- 00:40:39,417 --> 00:40:44,518
- <i>Lush patchworks of
- green, mesmerizing shades</i>
- 680
- 00:40:44,542 --> 00:40:52,476
- <i>of blue, hills, dales,
- rivers, and streams.</i>
- 681
- 00:40:52,500 --> 00:40:55,018
- <i>Our countryside is
- rich in landscapes</i>
- 682
- 00:40:55,042 --> 00:40:57,667
- <i>just waiting to be explored.</i>
- 683
- 00:42:37,667 --> 00:42:40,226
- Very unusual, Jamie.
- 684
- 00:42:40,250 --> 00:42:42,351
- That's rather precipitous.
- 685
- 00:42:42,375 --> 00:42:44,309
- Work up an amor for Jamie?
- 686
- 00:42:44,333 --> 00:42:46,208
- Cheers.
- 687
- 00:42:49,292 --> 00:42:52,434
- So how are things with Kelly?
- 688
- 00:42:52,458 --> 00:42:53,934
- Kylie.
- 689
- 00:42:53,958 --> 00:42:54,935
- Not good.
- 690
- 00:42:54,959 --> 00:42:58,143
- She's acting kind of elusive.
- 691
- 00:42:58,167 --> 00:42:59,684
- Elusive?
- 692
- 00:42:59,708 --> 00:43:00,393
- That's not good.
- 693
- 00:43:00,417 --> 00:43:01,394
- I don't know what it means.
- 694
- 00:43:01,418 --> 00:43:03,018
- It means she never shows up.
- 695
- 00:43:03,042 --> 00:43:05,184
- I mean it, Jamie,
- you deserve better.
- 696
- 00:43:05,208 --> 00:43:05,935
- I Wish.
- 697
- 00:43:05,959 --> 00:43:07,851
- Can I give you a tip?
- 698
- 00:43:07,875 --> 00:43:08,394
- Sure.
- 699
- 00:43:08,418 --> 00:43:13,518
- OK, sometimes you can come
- across as like unreachable,
- 700
- 00:43:13,542 --> 00:43:14,643
- like your clothes.
- 701
- 00:43:14,667 --> 00:43:15,560
- What's that about?
- 702
- 00:43:15,584 --> 00:43:16,601
- I'm tired.
- 703
- 00:43:16,625 --> 00:43:17,477
- This thing with my mom.
- 704
- 00:43:17,501 --> 00:43:21,018
- She's having a hard time and
- I'm going home every weekend.
- 705
- 00:43:21,042 --> 00:43:24,934
- My clad walked out on
- my mom, I'd kill him.
- 706
- 00:43:24,958 --> 00:43:26,059
- I hadn't thought of that.
- 707
- 00:43:26,083 --> 00:43:28,268
- Look, what I'm
- saying about Kelly...
- 708
- 00:43:28,292 --> 00:43:28,810
- Kylie
- 709
- 00:43:28,834 --> 00:43:30,601
- Is... Kylie...
- 710
- 00:43:30,625 --> 00:43:35,934
- <i>Maybe... maybe you just
- went there for her enough.</i>
- 711
- 00:43:48,417 --> 00:43:51,143
- When did you last see her?
- 712
- 00:43:51,167 --> 00:43:51,894
- Sunday.
- 713
- 00:43:51,918 --> 00:43:53,268
- How was she?
- 714
- 00:43:53,292 --> 00:43:54,060
- Not good.
- 715
- 00:43:54,084 --> 00:43:56,226
- Does she know you're meeting me?
- 716
- 00:43:56,250 --> 00:43:58,309
- No, but she wanted
- me to see you.
- 717
- 00:43:58,333 --> 00:43:59,809
- She has a message for you.
- 718
- 00:43:59,833 --> 00:44:00,310
- Oh?
- 719
- 00:44:00,334 --> 00:44:04,351
- I am to say you owe it to
- her to give her another chance.
- 720
- 00:44:04,375 --> 00:44:07,042
- You did this out of the blue
- without consulting her or
- 721
- 00:44:07,083 --> 00:44:09,601
- warning her, and there it is.
- 722
- 00:44:09,625 --> 00:44:10,476
- I'm sure you know.
- 723
- 00:44:10,500 --> 00:44:11,269
- BS.
- 724
- 00:44:11,293 --> 00:44:14,101
- She wants you to go
- back for a trial period,
- 725
- 00:44:14,125 --> 00:44:15,643
- and if it doesn't work out
- 726
- 00:44:15,667 --> 00:44:16,268
- I can't.
- 727
- 00:44:16,292 --> 00:44:16,893
- I've gone.
- 728
- 00:44:16,917 --> 00:44:17,727
- I'm not coming back.
- 729
- 00:44:17,751 --> 00:44:22,851
- I'll do anything I can to
- help, but I'm not coming back.
- 730
- 00:44:22,875 --> 00:44:24,059
- I'm sorry.
- 731
- 00:44:24,083 --> 00:44:24,935
- Right.
- 732
- 00:44:24,959 --> 00:44:28,559
- Do you want a tea or a...
- 733
- 00:44:28,583 --> 00:44:29,893
- Or an ice cream?
- 734
- 00:44:29,917 --> 00:44:31,143
- Fine.
- 735
- 00:44:31,167 --> 00:44:33,893
- I might have a
- Cornetto, something
- 736
- 00:44:33,917 --> 00:44:38,101
- about being by the sea.
- 737
- 00:44:38,125 --> 00:44:40,208
- One of them please.
- 738
- 00:44:44,792 --> 00:44:46,101
- That's two pounds.
- 739
- 00:44:46,125 --> 00:44:47,643
- Two pounds?
- 740
- 00:44:47,667 --> 00:44:50,393
- Really?
- 741
- 00:44:50,417 --> 00:44:52,726
- Thank you.
- 742
- 00:44:52,750 --> 00:44:55,309
- I hardly ever use
- cash these days.
- 743
- 00:44:55,333 --> 00:44:56,102
- Why ever not?
- 744
- 00:44:56,126 --> 00:44:58,708
- It's all contactless now.
- 745
- 00:45:00,917 --> 00:45:03,476
- It's all contactless now, yes.
- 746
- 00:45:03,500 --> 00:45:05,768
- Well, there it is.
- 747
- 00:45:05,792 --> 00:45:08,268
- Thing is I really
- don't know how Mom's
- 748
- 00:45:08,292 --> 00:45:10,268
- going to make it through this.
- 749
- 00:45:10,292 --> 00:45:18,268
- Both Angela and I think
- the less contact I have,
- 750
- 00:45:18,292 --> 00:45:21,684
- the sooner she'll move on.
- 751
- 00:45:21,708 --> 00:45:25,018
- Yes, well, of course,
- that doesn't mean I won't
- 752
- 00:45:25,042 --> 00:45:26,434
- do everything I can to help.
- 753
- 00:45:26,458 --> 00:45:29,934
- That's the part I
- really don't understand.
- 754
- 00:45:29,958 --> 00:45:35,018
- You seem to care for
- her so much and now not.
- 755
- 00:45:35,042 --> 00:45:39,833
- Yes, it's not easy to explain.
- 756
- 00:45:42,083 --> 00:45:43,934
- There was a time,
- wasn't there?
- 757
- 00:45:43,958 --> 00:45:46,559
- Yes, yes, of course.
- 758
- 00:45:46,583 --> 00:45:50,226
- I always thought you
- were rather proud of her.
- 759
- 00:45:50,250 --> 00:45:55,684
- She is remarkable in her way.
- 760
- 00:45:55,708 --> 00:45:59,726
- I suppose I was half dazzled
- by her in the beginning.
- 761
- 00:45:59,750 --> 00:46:01,351
- She was quite dazzling.
- 762
- 00:46:01,375 --> 00:46:06,601
- You looked happy in
- all the old photographs.
- 763
- 00:46:06,625 --> 00:46:09,601
- You were happy.
- 764
- 00:46:09,625 --> 00:46:15,167
- I suppose we were and then not.
- 765
- 00:46:16,750 --> 00:46:20,434
- You know what she
- calls my Wiki-ing?
- 766
- 00:46:20,458 --> 00:46:21,227
- Yes.
- 767
- 00:46:21,251 --> 00:46:23,934
- If you make a mistake
- in a Wikipedia article,
- 768
- 00:46:23,958 --> 00:46:26,351
- you can do what they
- call reverse it.
- 769
- 00:46:26,375 --> 00:46:34,059
- You just click history, and
- then you just click undo.
- 770
- 00:46:34,083 --> 00:46:35,768
- Dad.
- 771
- 00:46:35,792 --> 00:46:39,643
- By the way, I should have said
- I've changed my phone number.
- 772
- 00:46:39,667 --> 00:46:40,934
- I had to.
- 773
- 00:46:40,958 --> 00:46:42,268
- Is she calling?
- 774
- 00:46:42,292 --> 00:46:43,643
- Every day.
- 775
- 00:46:43,667 --> 00:46:44,851
- Saying what?
- 776
- 00:46:44,875 --> 00:46:45,476
- Nothing.
- 777
- 00:46:45,500 --> 00:46:46,269
- She never spoke.
- 778
- 00:46:46,293 --> 00:46:48,518
- I recognize the sound
- of her breathing.
- 779
- 00:46:48,542 --> 00:46:50,750
- You recognize.
- 780
- 00:46:54,292 --> 00:46:56,934
- I'll give you the
- new number if you...
- 781
- 00:46:56,958 --> 00:46:58,934
- Just text me, Dad.
- 782
- 00:46:58,958 --> 00:47:00,768
- OK.
- 783
- 00:47:00,792 --> 00:47:02,518
- You won't...
- 784
- 00:47:02,542 --> 00:47:03,893
- No.
- 785
- 00:47:03,917 --> 00:47:05,458
- Fine.
- 786
- 00:47:07,917 --> 00:47:09,726
- I should be getting...
- 787
- 00:47:09,750 --> 00:47:10,269
- Going...
- 788
- 00:47:10,293 --> 00:47:13,059
- She'll be waiting for me so...
- 789
- 00:47:13,083 --> 00:47:17,417
- Well then keep in touch.
- 790
- 00:47:46,042 --> 00:47:47,708
- Mom?
- 791
- 00:47:49,958 --> 00:47:53,184
- How long have you
- been sitting here?
- 792
- 00:47:53,208 --> 00:47:55,250
- I have no idea.
- 793
- 00:48:00,125 --> 00:48:02,226
- Just like Edward.
- 794
- 00:48:02,250 --> 00:48:02,769
- What?
- 795
- 00:48:02,793 --> 00:48:05,476
- Making tea so you
- don't have to talk.
- 796
- 00:48:05,500 --> 00:48:09,768
- We get our tea,
- and then we talk.
- 797
- 00:48:09,792 --> 00:48:11,917
- You've seen him.
- 798
- 00:48:13,625 --> 00:48:15,833
- Alone or with her?
- 799
- 00:48:18,250 --> 00:48:19,934
- Just him.
- 800
- 00:48:19,958 --> 00:48:21,143
- I never met her.
- 801
- 00:48:21,167 --> 00:48:22,393
- I'd have told you.
- 802
- 00:48:22,417 --> 00:48:25,101
- Did you give him my message?
- 803
- 00:48:25,125 --> 00:48:26,768
- Yes.
- 804
- 00:48:26,792 --> 00:48:28,018
- Says he can't come back.
- 805
- 00:48:28,042 --> 00:48:29,167
- Won't.
- 806
- 00:48:38,833 --> 00:48:40,393
- What's this?
- 807
- 00:48:40,417 --> 00:48:43,143
- What does it look like?
- 808
- 00:48:43,167 --> 00:48:44,559
- And in the knife drawer.
- 809
- 00:48:44,583 --> 00:48:47,268
- And on the phone message pad.
- 810
- 00:48:47,292 --> 00:48:51,184
- <i>And... and in the
- pocket of his coat.</i>
- 811
- 00:48:51,208 --> 00:48:52,185
- What for?
- 812
- 00:48:52,209 --> 00:48:57,684
- I don't know I suppose
- because while I was writing
- 813
- 00:48:57,708 --> 00:48:59,893
- them and hiding them
- in all the places
- 814
- 00:48:59,917 --> 00:49:02,851
- where he might find
- them, it made me
- 815
- 00:49:02,875 --> 00:49:05,708
- think it really could happen.
- 816
- 00:49:10,708 --> 00:49:13,083
- He really would come back.
- 817
- 00:49:24,667 --> 00:49:32,667
- And then when he found them,
- he couldn't go away again.
- 818
- 00:49:42,833 --> 00:49:44,559
- So he told you he won't.
- 819
- 00:49:44,583 --> 00:49:46,018
- Yes.
- 820
- 00:49:46,042 --> 00:49:48,184
- What did you say to that?
- 821
- 00:49:48,208 --> 00:49:50,601
- Well, what could I say?
- 822
- 00:49:50,625 --> 00:49:52,684
- You could say you bastard, you
- 823
- 00:49:52,708 --> 00:49:54,559
- murderer, you home wrecker.
- 824
- 00:49:54,583 --> 00:49:55,227
- Well, I didn't.
- 825
- 00:49:55,251 --> 00:49:56,851
- Why not?
- 826
- 00:49:56,875 --> 00:49:59,601
- Do you think he's entitled
- to do what he's doing?
- 827
- 00:49:59,625 --> 00:50:01,809
- That's not for me to judge.
- 828
- 00:50:01,833 --> 00:50:02,435
- Why not?
- 829
- 00:50:02,459 --> 00:50:05,184
- If you saw a man beating a
- woman to death in the street,
- 830
- 00:50:05,208 --> 00:50:08,768
- would you walk on by, say
- that's not for me to judge?
- 831
- 00:50:08,792 --> 00:50:09,644
- That's not how it is.
- 832
- 00:50:09,668 --> 00:50:10,976
- This is a murder, Jamie.
- 833
- 00:50:11,000 --> 00:50:15,476
- Just because there's no blood,
- don't think it's not a murder.
- 834
- 00:50:15,500 --> 00:50:17,309
- He's murdering a marriage.
- 835
- 00:50:17,333 --> 00:50:20,518
- Marriages don't bleed,
- but it's still murder.
- 836
- 00:50:20,542 --> 00:50:22,292
- I don't think it
- helps to talk like that.
- 837
- 00:50:22,333 --> 00:50:26,684
- Tell me how to
- talk so it does help.
- 838
- 00:50:26,708 --> 00:50:28,393
- Marriages break down.
- 839
- 00:50:28,417 --> 00:50:29,269
- It happens all the time.
- 840
- 00:50:29,293 --> 00:50:30,643
- Nobody wants it to
- happen but it does,
- 841
- 00:50:30,667 --> 00:50:31,644
- and we have to live with it.
- 842
- 00:50:31,668 --> 00:50:33,143
- Oh, what sort of talk is that?
- 843
- 00:50:33,167 --> 00:50:35,851
- Children are starving
- to death all the time,
- 844
- 00:50:35,875 --> 00:50:37,476
- but it doesn't
- make it all right.
- 845
- 00:50:37,500 --> 00:50:38,352
- But we live with it.
- 846
- 00:50:38,376 --> 00:50:40,184
- Not if it was my child.
- 847
- 00:50:40,208 --> 00:50:42,809
- Not if it was you.
- 848
- 00:50:42,833 --> 00:50:45,643
- If it was you starving
- to death, I'd let
- 849
- 00:50:45,667 --> 00:50:47,893
- myself die first to save you.
- 850
- 00:50:47,917 --> 00:50:49,434
- Do you doubt that?
- 851
- 00:50:49,458 --> 00:50:49,935
- No.
- 852
- 00:50:49,959 --> 00:50:55,018
- Well, this is my marriage,
- and I'll do anything to save it.
- 853
- 00:50:55,042 --> 00:50:57,542
- And I'm asking you to help me.
- 854
- 00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:01,852
- It's what he does.
- 855
- 00:51:01,876 --> 00:51:03,393
- He won't look at me.
- 856
- 00:51:03,417 --> 00:51:05,268
- I'm not him, Mom, all right.
- 857
- 00:51:05,292 --> 00:51:10,643
- Well, you're walking
- away just like he did.
- 858
- 00:51:10,667 --> 00:51:13,684
- He actually walked away.
- 859
- 00:51:13,708 --> 00:51:18,059
- Trot, trot, trot down the road.
- 860
- 00:51:18,083 --> 00:51:20,143
- Stupid suitcase.
- 861
- 00:51:20,167 --> 00:51:21,768
- Have you got a suitcase?
- 862
- 00:51:21,792 --> 00:51:22,934
- I'm here, aren't I?
- 863
- 00:51:22,958 --> 00:51:26,226
- But you want to walk away.
- 864
- 00:51:26,250 --> 00:51:28,351
- You do, don't you?
- 865
- 00:51:28,375 --> 00:51:29,268
- I can't.
- 866
- 00:51:29,292 --> 00:51:30,269
- Why not?
- 867
- 00:51:30,293 --> 00:51:34,184
- 'Case something happens
- to me, you feel guilty?
- 868
- 00:51:34,208 --> 00:51:35,851
- Nothing's going to happen to me.
- 869
- 00:51:35,875 --> 00:51:37,643
- That's what I can't bear.
- 870
- 00:51:37,667 --> 00:51:40,601
- When you're alone,
- things stop happening.
- 871
- 00:51:40,625 --> 00:51:42,518
- That's because you stay in.
- 872
- 00:51:42,542 --> 00:51:43,352
- I wish you wouldn't.
- 873
- 00:51:43,376 --> 00:51:46,059
- I should go out more,
- should I?
- 874
- 00:51:46,083 --> 00:51:47,559
- Join a book group.
- 875
- 00:51:47,583 --> 00:51:49,726
- It beats sitting on the stairs.
- 876
- 00:51:49,750 --> 00:51:50,685
- What was that about?
- 877
- 00:51:50,709 --> 00:51:53,101
- I was going up or coming down.
- 878
- 00:51:53,125 --> 00:51:55,059
- I don't remember.
- 879
- 00:51:55,083 --> 00:51:58,143
- I just thought what
- difference does it make.
- 880
- 00:51:58,167 --> 00:52:00,476
- I might as well just stop here.
- 881
- 00:52:00,500 --> 00:52:02,917
- Where you can see the door?
- 882
- 00:52:05,375 --> 00:52:09,125
- Yeah, it's rather
- clever of you, Jamie.
- 883
- 00:52:11,083 --> 00:52:13,476
- Is that why you don't go out?
- 884
- 00:52:13,500 --> 00:52:18,417
- Because you think maybe he'll
- walk back through that door?
- 885
- 00:52:20,708 --> 00:52:22,351
- He might.
- 886
- 00:52:22,375 --> 00:52:23,792
- Mom.
- 887
- 00:52:30,333 --> 00:52:30,852
- Come on.
- 888
- 00:52:30,876 --> 00:52:33,726
- Let's get you out of here.
- 889
- 00:52:36,875 --> 00:52:41,143
- He told me he's decided
- you can have the house.
- 890
- 00:52:41,167 --> 00:52:43,684
- Oh, has he.
- 891
- 00:52:43,708 --> 00:52:46,184
- I suppose he thinks that
- makes everything all right.
- 892
- 00:52:46,208 --> 00:52:48,393
- Think he really wants
- to do what he can.
- 893
- 00:52:48,417 --> 00:52:51,559
- So he told you I
- could have the house.
- 894
- 00:52:51,583 --> 00:52:52,102
- Yes.
- 895
- 00:52:52,126 --> 00:52:53,559
- Well, he hasn't told me.
- 896
- 00:52:53,583 --> 00:52:54,643
- He wanted me to tell you.
- 897
- 00:52:54,667 --> 00:52:57,184
- I don't care what he wanted.
- 898
- 00:52:57,208 --> 00:52:59,601
- If he wants to make
- arrangements that affect me,
- 899
- 00:52:59,625 --> 00:53:01,809
- he can come and
- talk to me himself.
- 900
- 00:53:01,833 --> 00:53:04,934
- I won't have him using
- you as a messenger boy.
- 901
- 00:53:04,958 --> 00:53:09,458
- Can't stand the way he does
- all this without consulting me.
- 902
- 00:53:09,500 --> 00:53:10,893
- Why isn't it working?
- 903
- 00:53:10,917 --> 00:53:12,684
- He's changed his number.
- 904
- 00:53:12,708 --> 00:53:14,684
- He's changed his number.
- 905
- 00:53:14,708 --> 00:53:15,352
- He told me.
- 906
- 00:53:15,376 --> 00:53:16,893
- So he's got a new number.
- 907
- 00:53:16,917 --> 00:53:17,435
- Yes.
- 908
- 00:53:17,459 --> 00:53:19,018
- Have you got it?
- 909
- 00:53:19,042 --> 00:53:20,518
- No.
- 910
- 00:53:20,542 --> 00:53:21,934
- Don't be silly, Jamie.
- 911
- 00:53:21,958 --> 00:53:22,935
- Of course, you have.
- 912
- 00:53:22,959 --> 00:53:24,851
- I could always tell
- when you were lying.
- 913
- 00:53:24,875 --> 00:53:26,559
- I can't give it to you.
- 914
- 00:53:26,583 --> 00:53:27,310
- Why not?
- 915
- 00:53:27,334 --> 00:53:29,143
- He asked me not
- to give it to you.
- 916
- 00:53:29,167 --> 00:53:31,018
- Well, I ask you
- to give it to me.
- 917
- 00:53:31,042 --> 00:53:32,059
- I'm not going to, all right.
- 918
- 00:53:32,083 --> 00:53:34,851
- I don't see why you always
- have to get your own way.
- 919
- 00:53:34,875 --> 00:53:35,644
- Get my own way?
- 920
- 00:53:35,668 --> 00:53:37,226
- You think I get my own way?
- 921
- 00:53:37,250 --> 00:53:40,101
- I think it'd be a bad
- idea to give you his number.
- 922
- 00:53:40,125 --> 00:53:42,643
- Well, that's not
- for you to judge
- 923
- 00:53:42,667 --> 00:53:44,851
- as you're so fond of saying.
- 924
- 00:53:44,875 --> 00:53:45,560
- I'm grown up.
- 925
- 00:53:45,584 --> 00:53:47,101
- I'm not a criminal or a lunatic.
- 926
- 00:53:47,125 --> 00:53:49,875
- I wish to be able to
- contact my husband.
- 927
- 00:53:49,917 --> 00:53:51,143
- No.
- 928
- 00:53:51,167 --> 00:53:53,684
- I think you'd better go.
- 929
- 00:53:53,708 --> 00:53:54,393
- Go on, leave.
- 930
- 00:53:54,417 --> 00:53:55,227
- It's what you want.
- 931
- 00:53:55,251 --> 00:53:58,351
- You can't help, so
- why don't you just go?
- 932
- 00:53:58,375 --> 00:53:59,227
- You're no use to me.
- 933
- 00:53:59,251 --> 00:54:00,559
- You've taken his side.
- 934
- 00:54:00,583 --> 00:54:02,434
- You've left me already
- just like he has.
- 935
- 00:54:02,458 --> 00:54:04,309
- Well, if I'm to be
- alone, I'd rather
- 936
- 00:54:04,333 --> 00:54:07,559
- be alone and not have you
- dangling about pitying me
- 937
- 00:54:07,583 --> 00:54:08,643
- and patronizing me.
- 938
- 00:54:08,667 --> 00:54:09,309
- Go on leave.
- 939
- 00:54:09,333 --> 00:54:10,101
- Why do you do this?
- 940
- 00:54:10,125 --> 00:54:10,977
- Do What?
- 941
- 00:54:11,001 --> 00:54:12,143
- I've not done anything.
- 942
- 00:54:12,167 --> 00:54:13,059
- I've not left him.
- 943
- 00:54:13,083 --> 00:54:13,769
- He's left me.
- 944
- 00:54:13,793 --> 00:54:14,893
- Go and tell him not to do this.
- 945
- 00:54:14,917 --> 00:54:15,810
- I can't bring him back.
- 946
- 00:54:15,834 --> 00:54:17,768
- You don't know that.
- 947
- 00:54:17,792 --> 00:54:19,684
- Have you tried?
- 948
- 00:54:19,708 --> 00:54:20,560
- You go on seeing him.
- 949
- 00:54:20,584 --> 00:54:22,934
- That means you let him
- think he has your approval.
- 950
- 00:54:22,958 --> 00:54:24,958
- Mom, he's in love!
- 951
- 00:56:11,250 --> 00:56:14,958
- What you need is a sugar high.
- 952
- 00:56:22,375 --> 00:56:24,601
- There, life flooding back?
- 953
- 00:56:24,625 --> 00:56:27,934
- I should feed one
- of these to my mom.
- 954
- 00:56:27,958 --> 00:56:31,226
- She still in a bad way?
- 955
- 00:56:31,250 --> 00:56:35,226
- It's bad what your dad did.
- 956
- 00:56:35,250 --> 00:56:37,518
- Oh, he... he wasn't happy.
- 957
- 00:56:37,542 --> 00:56:38,519
- I knew that.
- 958
- 00:56:38,543 --> 00:56:41,101
- They must have
- loved each other once?
- 959
- 00:56:41,125 --> 00:56:43,792
- Yeah, way back.
- 960
- 00:56:45,333 --> 00:56:51,101
- <i>We used... we used to do this
- thing when I was little where</i>
- 961
- 00:56:51,125 --> 00:56:54,476
- we'd stand in a line,
- and I'd be in the middle
- 962
- 00:56:54,500 --> 00:57:00,184
- and then my mom would hold one
- my dad would hold the other...
- 963
- 00:57:00,208 --> 00:57:03,125
- And they'd swing
- me between them.
- 964
- 00:57:06,667 --> 00:57:09,601
- All moms and dads do it.
- 965
- 00:57:09,625 --> 00:57:15,434
- <i>Their kids, they just swing...
- Swing me along between them.</i>
- 966
- 00:57:15,458 --> 00:57:16,269
- Sorry.
- 967
- 00:57:16,293 --> 00:57:17,750
- Jamie.
- 968
- 00:57:17,792 --> 00:57:18,394
- You know me.
- 969
- 00:57:18,418 --> 00:57:19,476
- If I cry, I'm crying for myself.
- 970
- 00:57:19,500 --> 00:57:21,434
- I just didn't care
- enough about anyone else.
- 971
- 00:57:21,458 --> 00:57:22,601
- That's not true.
- 972
- 00:57:22,625 --> 00:57:24,434
- You got me at Krispy Kreme.
- 973
- 00:57:24,458 --> 00:57:26,309
- So what's up?
- 974
- 00:57:26,333 --> 00:57:27,476
- Is this about me?
- 975
- 00:57:27,500 --> 00:57:28,684
- I'm not the one who's crying.
- 976
- 00:57:28,708 --> 00:57:31,351
- I'm not the one who's been left.
- 977
- 00:57:31,375 --> 00:57:32,833
- Aren't you?
- 978
- 00:57:35,292 --> 00:57:36,559
- OK, OK.
- 979
- 00:57:36,583 --> 00:57:39,934
- Still seeing your
- mom every weekend?
- 980
- 00:57:39,958 --> 00:57:41,851
- Until she can cope on her own.
- 981
- 00:57:41,875 --> 00:57:45,143
- When do you stop going?
- 982
- 00:57:45,167 --> 00:57:46,601
- Not so often anyway.
- 983
- 00:57:46,625 --> 00:57:50,643
- How is she going to feel then?
- 984
- 00:57:50,667 --> 00:57:52,768
- Not great.
- 985
- 00:57:52,792 --> 00:57:55,934
- How are you going to feel then?
- 986
- 00:57:55,958 --> 00:57:57,184
- Me?
- 987
- 00:57:57,208 --> 00:58:00,125
- Jess thinks you're
- still holding on.
- 988
- 00:58:03,583 --> 00:58:05,083
- Am I?
- 989
- 00:58:41,958 --> 00:58:46,559
- It's some papers
- I'm supposed to sign.
- 990
- 00:58:46,583 --> 00:58:47,893
- I don't know what.
- 991
- 00:58:47,917 --> 00:58:51,875
- Jamie, I'm not going to do it.
- 992
- 00:58:53,583 --> 00:58:56,018
- No... he can ask me himself.
- 993
- 00:58:56,042 --> 00:59:01,143
- He can come here, and
- we'll sign together.
- 994
- 00:59:01,167 --> 00:59:03,184
- Yes, I'm coping.
- 995
- 00:59:03,208 --> 00:59:04,625
- Sunday then.
- 996
- 00:59:18,042 --> 00:59:21,768
- 30 years ago, I was
- standing on a platform
- 997
- 00:59:21,792 --> 00:59:26,393
- in Charing Cross Station waiting
- to get on a train to Tunbridge.
- 998
- 00:59:26,417 --> 00:59:30,934
- And I saw a man walking down
- the platform who I thought
- 999
- 00:59:30,958 --> 00:59:31,644
- was my father.
- 1000
- 00:59:31,668 --> 00:59:34,934
- And I raised my arm
- and called, father.
- 1001
- 00:59:34,958 --> 00:59:37,059
- And with my arm
- still in the air,
- 1002
- 00:59:37,083 --> 00:59:41,268
- I remembered that my father
- had died four months earlier.
- 1003
- 00:59:41,292 --> 00:59:47,476
- The man, a complete
- stranger, walked on by.
- 1004
- 00:59:47,500 --> 00:59:48,934
- The train came in.
- 1005
- 00:59:48,958 --> 00:59:52,684
- I got into a carriage, and
- the train left Charing Cross.
- 1006
- 00:59:52,708 --> 00:59:56,893
- The other person in the
- carriage was a young woman.
- 1007
- 00:59:56,917 --> 01:00:01,768
- She was looking at me as
- if she was sorry for me.
- 1008
- 01:00:01,792 --> 01:00:04,809
- I realized I had
- tears on my cheeks.
- 1009
- 01:00:04,833 --> 01:00:07,434
- What is it she said.
- 1010
- 01:00:07,458 --> 01:00:08,269
- Oh, nothing I said.
- 1011
- 01:00:08,293 --> 01:00:10,893
- I mistook a man for
- my father who's dead.
- 1012
- 01:00:10,917 --> 01:00:17,601
- And she said you must want
- to see him again very much.
- 1013
- 01:00:17,625 --> 01:00:19,101
- My father was a reserved man.
- 1014
- 01:00:19,125 --> 01:00:23,143
- I don't remember him
- ever embracing me.
- 1015
- 01:00:23,167 --> 01:00:26,601
- Somehow when this young
- woman said these words to me,
- 1016
- 01:00:26,625 --> 01:00:31,559
- I knew that all my life
- I'd wanted his embrace
- 1017
- 01:00:31,583 --> 01:00:35,143
- and that now it
- would never come.
- 1018
- 01:00:35,167 --> 01:00:41,101
- I began to weep, continued
- weeping I should say.
- 1019
- 01:00:41,125 --> 01:00:43,601
- And the young woman
- recited some lines
- 1020
- 01:00:43,625 --> 01:00:50,684
- from a poem I'd never heard
- and never forgotten since.
- 1021
- 01:00:50,708 --> 01:00:51,644
- Stay for me there.
- 1022
- 01:00:51,668 --> 01:00:56,684
- I will not fail to meet
- thee in that hollow veil.
- 1023
- 01:00:56,708 --> 01:00:59,393
- And think not much of my delay.
- 1024
- 01:00:59,417 --> 01:01:02,184
- I am already on the way.
- 1025
- 01:01:02,208 --> 01:01:06,750
- It's by Henri King on
- the death of his wife.
- 1026
- 01:01:07,667 --> 01:01:11,917
- How did that young woman in the
- train know what I was feeling?
- 1027
- 01:01:14,542 --> 01:01:16,226
- It was your mother.
- 1028
- 01:01:16,250 --> 01:01:19,559
- Of course, it was Grace.
- 1029
- 01:01:19,583 --> 01:01:20,893
- And I was on the wrong train.
- 1030
- 01:01:20,917 --> 01:01:21,769
- It was the fast train.
- 1031
- 01:01:21,793 --> 01:01:22,809
- It never stopped at my station.
- 1032
- 01:01:22,833 --> 01:01:26,292
- We were halfway to Dover
- before I realized it.
- 1033
- 01:01:27,458 --> 01:01:33,018
- The truth is I made a
- mistake about Grace right
- 1034
- 01:01:33,042 --> 01:01:35,184
- at the beginning, and she
- made a mistake about me.
- 1035
- 01:01:35,208 --> 01:01:39,601
- We thought we were like
- each other, and we weren't.
- 1036
- 01:01:39,625 --> 01:01:40,394
- I didn't know it.
- 1037
- 01:01:40,418 --> 01:01:42,643
- I did my best to be who
- she wanted me to be,
- 1038
- 01:01:42,667 --> 01:01:45,500
- but I didn't know
- who I was myself.
- 1039
- 01:01:48,875 --> 01:01:56,309
- All it took was Angela's
- hand on my arm, her touch.
- 1040
- 01:01:56,333 --> 01:01:59,042
- It was me she touched.
- 1041
- 01:02:01,708 --> 01:02:09,708
- No demands, no
- expectations, just love.
- 1042
- 01:02:12,542 --> 01:02:18,917
- All those years ago,
- I got on the wrong train.
- 1043
- 01:02:24,417 --> 01:02:26,518
- I've always liked your flat.
- 1044
- 01:02:26,542 --> 01:02:27,893
- Does it still suit you?
- 1045
- 01:02:27,917 --> 01:02:29,875
- It does the job?
- 1046
- 01:02:35,708 --> 01:02:40,476
- Why do people have to
- have such big houses?
- 1047
- 01:02:40,500 --> 01:02:43,417
- One needs so little really.
- 1048
- 01:02:47,917 --> 01:02:50,726
- Mom says you want
- her to sign something.
- 1049
- 01:02:50,750 --> 01:02:51,269
- Yes.
- 1050
- 01:02:51,293 --> 01:02:54,268
- It is better to have
- things sorted out.
- 1051
- 01:02:54,292 --> 01:02:55,309
- She wants to do it with you.
- 1052
- 01:02:55,333 --> 01:02:57,184
- She says you'll sign the
- papers if you do it together.
- 1053
- 01:02:57,208 --> 01:03:01,184
- She wants to make a scene,
- but I won't be drawn in, Jamie.
- 1054
- 01:03:01,208 --> 01:03:01,935
- There's no point.
- 1055
- 01:03:01,959 --> 01:03:03,143
- She says she'll behave herself.
- 1056
- 01:03:03,167 --> 01:03:05,768
- If she wants
- us to sign together,
- 1057
- 01:03:05,792 --> 01:03:07,934
- it had better be the
- solicitor's office.
- 1058
- 01:03:07,958 --> 01:03:09,476
- But it's the last time.
- 1059
- 01:03:09,500 --> 01:03:15,018
- Tell her if you can.
- 1060
- 01:03:15,042 --> 01:03:16,518
- The last time.
- 1061
- 01:03:21,625 --> 01:03:23,833
- Come on, puppy.
- 1062
- 01:03:41,125 --> 01:03:46,643
- They shall grow not old
- as we that are left gold.
- 1063
- 01:03:46,667 --> 01:03:50,851
- I shall not wear them
- nor the years come down.
- 1064
- 01:03:50,875 --> 01:03:55,768
- After going down on the
- sun and in the morning,
- 1065
- 01:03:55,792 --> 01:03:57,393
- we will remember them.
- 1066
- 01:03:57,417 --> 01:03:59,976
- We will remember them.
- 1067
- 01:04:37,834 --> 01:04:39,476
- Oh, hello, Jamie.
- 1068
- 01:04:39,500 --> 01:04:40,185
- You've come.
- 1069
- 01:04:40,209 --> 01:04:41,351
- Hello.
- 1070
- 01:04:41,375 --> 01:04:42,934
- Who are you?
- 1071
- 01:04:42,958 --> 01:04:44,768
- Isn't he adorable.
- 1072
- 01:04:44,792 --> 01:04:45,602
- He's so affectionate.
- 1073
- 01:04:45,626 --> 01:04:49,309
- Oh, he does me more good
- than all my tranquilizers.
- 1074
- 01:04:49,333 --> 01:04:50,601
- What's his name?
- 1075
- 01:04:50,625 --> 01:04:52,518
- Eddie.
- 1076
- 01:04:52,542 --> 01:04:53,684
- Come here, Eddie.
- 1077
- 01:04:53,708 --> 01:04:54,394
- Come here, boy.
- 1078
- 01:04:54,418 --> 01:04:56,583
- Mother, you can't
- call him Eddie.
- 1079
- 01:04:56,625 --> 01:04:58,143
- Why not?
- 1080
- 01:04:58,167 --> 01:04:58,935
- His name is Edward.
- 1081
- 01:04:58,959 --> 01:05:01,809
- <i>Just... well, it's
- such a give away.</i>
- 1082
- 01:05:01,833 --> 01:05:03,768
- What does it give away?
- 1083
- 01:05:03,792 --> 01:05:05,559
- Look, I'm training him.
- 1084
- 01:05:05,583 --> 01:05:07,268
- Look.
- 1085
- 01:05:07,292 --> 01:05:09,684
- Stay, Edward.
- 1086
- 01:05:09,708 --> 01:05:10,227
- Stay.
- 1087
- 01:05:10,251 --> 01:05:11,559
- Mom, it's so embarrassing.
- 1088
- 01:05:11,583 --> 01:05:13,893
- Oh, good boy.
- 1089
- 01:05:13,917 --> 01:05:14,394
- Why?
- 1090
- 01:05:14,418 --> 01:05:15,851
- I'm not embarrassed.
- 1091
- 01:05:15,875 --> 01:05:18,226
- Why should you be embarrassed?
- 1092
- 01:05:22,333 --> 01:05:25,643
- Have you gone back
- to your anthology?
- 1093
- 01:05:25,667 --> 01:05:26,684
- Oh, no.
- 1094
- 01:05:26,708 --> 01:05:28,976
- I'm not doing that anymore.
- 1095
- 01:05:29,000 --> 01:05:29,852
- That's a pity.
- 1096
- 01:05:29,876 --> 01:05:31,601
- Thought it sounded good.
- 1097
- 01:05:31,625 --> 01:05:32,310
- No, you didn't.
- 1098
- 01:05:32,334 --> 01:05:33,768
- You thought it gave
- me something to do.
- 1099
- 01:05:33,792 --> 01:05:35,809
- Well, we all need
- something to do.
- 1100
- 01:05:35,833 --> 01:05:39,042
- There's no disgrace in that.
- 1101
- 01:05:39,083 --> 01:05:40,268
- So how are you?
- 1102
- 01:05:40,292 --> 01:05:42,018
- How's your love life?
- 1103
- 01:05:42,042 --> 01:05:42,644
- Private.
- 1104
- 01:05:42,668 --> 01:05:47,518
- Uh, so you're still on your own.
- 1105
- 01:05:47,542 --> 01:05:50,768
- Lunch is going to be very basic.
- 1106
- 01:05:50,792 --> 01:05:52,393
- Wonder why.
- 1107
- 01:05:52,417 --> 01:05:53,934
- Why you haven't found anyone.
- 1108
- 01:05:53,958 --> 01:05:55,184
- You look perfectly normal.
- 1109
- 01:05:55,208 --> 01:05:56,643
- This isn't about me.
- 1110
- 01:05:56,667 --> 01:05:58,309
- Yes, it is.
- 1111
- 01:05:58,333 --> 01:05:59,726
- If you're no good
- at making people
- 1112
- 01:05:59,750 --> 01:06:00,934
- love you, that's
- my fault, isn't it?
- 1113
- 01:06:00,958 --> 01:06:04,643
- Or Edward's fault for being
- such a sneaking sniveling
- 1114
- 01:06:04,667 --> 01:06:05,519
- excuse for a man.
- 1115
- 01:06:05,543 --> 01:06:07,434
- I wish you wouldn't do that.
- 1116
- 01:06:07,458 --> 01:06:09,018
- I wish he wouldn't do that.
- 1117
- 01:06:09,042 --> 01:06:11,851
- Maybe I should take
- some of this post to Dad.
- 1118
- 01:06:11,875 --> 01:06:12,852
- It looks quite important.
- 1119
- 01:06:12,876 --> 01:06:16,851
- If he wants them, he
- can come and get them.
- 1120
- 01:06:16,875 --> 01:06:19,833
- It was Remembrance
- Day service today.
- 1121
- 01:06:19,875 --> 01:06:22,809
- It was very moving, you know.
- 1122
- 01:06:22,833 --> 01:06:26,268
- I found myself thinking about
- the two wars and the wives
- 1123
- 01:06:26,292 --> 01:06:29,018
- and the mothers waiting
- at home and the telegrams
- 1124
- 01:06:29,042 --> 01:06:32,393
- from the war office telling
- them that their husbands
- 1125
- 01:06:32,417 --> 01:06:35,184
- and sons were dead.
- 1126
- 01:06:35,208 --> 01:06:39,101
- I thought how terrible
- that must have been.
- 1127
- 01:06:39,125 --> 01:06:45,518
- And yet it was somehow easier to
- bear than losing Edward the way
- 1128
- 01:06:45,542 --> 01:06:46,435
- I've lost him.
- 1129
- 01:06:46,459 --> 01:06:49,768
- And then all at once I saw it.
- 1130
- 01:06:49,792 --> 01:06:50,934
- This is our war.
- 1131
- 01:06:50,958 --> 01:06:54,559
- This is what makes widows
- and orphans nowadays.
- 1132
- 01:06:54,583 --> 01:07:00,184
- Only there aren't any graves
- or Remembrance Day services.
- 1133
- 01:07:00,208 --> 01:07:02,726
- We're not allowed to mourn.
- 1134
- 01:07:02,750 --> 01:07:06,333
- So you see I'm not
- really coping after all.
- 1135
- 01:07:09,917 --> 01:07:10,851
- Come on, Eddie.
- 1136
- 01:07:10,875 --> 01:07:11,394
- Come on.
- 1137
- 01:07:11,418 --> 01:07:12,893
- Let's go, Eddie.
- 1138
- 01:07:12,917 --> 01:07:14,684
- Come on.
- 1139
- 01:07:14,708 --> 01:07:17,059
- There it is.
- 1140
- 01:07:17,083 --> 01:07:19,726
- Good boy.
- 1141
- 01:07:19,750 --> 01:07:20,226
- Boy.
- 1142
- 01:07:20,250 --> 01:07:20,894
- Let's go.
- 1143
- 01:07:20,918 --> 01:07:22,083
- Come on.
- 1144
- 01:07:24,542 --> 01:07:27,476
- <i>Mrs. Axton, Mr.
- Whitacomb's expecting you.</i>
- 1145
- 01:07:27,500 --> 01:07:29,434
- Has my father arrived?
- 1146
- 01:07:29,458 --> 01:07:30,185
- Not yet.
- 1147
- 01:07:30,209 --> 01:07:31,351
- I'll take you through.
- 1148
- 01:07:31,375 --> 01:07:33,476
- We don't allow
- dogs in the office.
- 1149
- 01:07:33,500 --> 01:07:34,310
- I'm so sorry.
- 1150
- 01:07:34,334 --> 01:07:35,351
- How sorry?
- 1151
- 01:07:35,375 --> 01:07:36,019
- I'm sorry?
- 1152
- 01:07:36,043 --> 01:07:37,143
- My goodness.
- 1153
- 01:07:37,167 --> 01:07:38,268
- You are sorry.
- 1154
- 01:07:38,292 --> 01:07:39,559
- Never mind.
- 1155
- 01:07:39,583 --> 01:07:40,726
- It'll pass.
- 1156
- 01:07:40,750 --> 01:07:43,167
- If you'd like to follow me.
- 1157
- 01:07:46,583 --> 01:07:49,101
- Thank you for coming in.
- 1158
- 01:07:49,125 --> 01:07:51,101
- Oh, I'm... I'm Peter Whitacomb.
- 1159
- 01:07:51,125 --> 01:07:53,143
- I'm acting for your
- husband in this matter.
- 1160
- 01:07:53,167 --> 01:07:56,851
- <i>Mr. Axton wishes everything
- to be done properly.</i>
- 1161
- 01:07:56,875 --> 01:07:57,560
- Do take a seat.
- 1162
- 01:07:57,584 --> 01:07:59,309
- You may be able to
- do everything legally,
- 1163
- 01:07:59,333 --> 01:08:01,518
- but I don't see how
- you can do it properly.
- 1164
- 01:08:01,542 --> 01:08:03,059
- Mom, you promised.
- 1165
- 01:08:03,083 --> 01:08:03,977
- All right.
- 1166
- 01:08:04,001 --> 01:08:05,976
- I'll behave myself.
- 1167
- 01:08:06,000 --> 01:08:07,143
- I'm so sorry.
- 1168
- 01:08:07,167 --> 01:08:07,769
- Am I late.
- 1169
- 01:08:07,793 --> 01:08:09,018
- Oh, who's this?
- 1170
- 01:08:09,042 --> 01:08:10,309
- Come, Edward.
- 1171
- 01:08:10,333 --> 01:08:10,810
- What?
- 1172
- 01:08:10,834 --> 01:08:12,059
- Not you.
- 1173
- 01:08:12,083 --> 01:08:12,559
- Come.
- 1174
- 01:08:12,583 --> 01:08:13,184
- Come here.
- 1175
- 01:08:13,208 --> 01:08:13,935
- Come here, boy.
- 1176
- 01:08:13,959 --> 01:08:15,934
- Good boy.
- 1177
- 01:08:15,958 --> 01:08:16,684
- Sit.
- 1178
- 01:08:16,708 --> 01:08:17,643
- Good boy.
- 1179
- 01:08:17,667 --> 01:08:18,477
- Sit.
- 1180
- 01:08:18,501 --> 01:08:19,768
- Good boy.
- 1181
- 01:08:19,792 --> 01:08:21,184
- Hello, I'm here, too.
- 1182
- 01:08:21,208 --> 01:08:22,268
- Hello, hello, hello.
- 1183
- 01:08:22,292 --> 01:08:23,102
- How are you, Grace?
- 1184
- 01:08:23,126 --> 01:08:24,750
- Fine, fine, fine.
- 1185
- 01:08:24,792 --> 01:08:26,268
- Thank you for this, Peter.
- 1186
- 01:08:26,292 --> 01:08:27,934
- Shall we proceed.
- 1187
- 01:08:27,958 --> 01:08:28,685
- By all means.
- 1188
- 01:08:28,709 --> 01:08:31,684
- This is the summary of
- the financial agreement.
- 1189
- 01:08:31,708 --> 01:08:36,059
- This is the deed signing over
- the house into your sole name,
- 1190
- 01:08:36,083 --> 01:08:36,727
- Mrs. Axton.
- 1191
- 01:08:36,751 --> 01:08:38,559
- This is the application
- for the decree.
- 1192
- 01:08:38,583 --> 01:08:43,934
- All you have to do is
- sign by the yellow tags.
- 1193
- 01:08:43,958 --> 01:08:45,059
- Hah.
- 1194
- 01:08:45,083 --> 01:08:46,434
- What happens if I don't?
- 1195
- 01:08:46,458 --> 01:08:51,059
- Then this agreement is set
- aside, and we start again.
- 1196
- 01:08:51,083 --> 01:08:52,809
- But I have to see
- in your interest
- 1197
- 01:08:52,833 --> 01:08:55,101
- that this is a very
- good settlement.
- 1198
- 01:08:55,125 --> 01:08:57,059
- No court would
- give half as much.
- 1199
- 01:08:57,083 --> 01:09:00,226
- You get the entire value
- of the family home.
- 1200
- 01:09:00,250 --> 01:09:00,934
- Stop it.
- 1201
- 01:09:00,958 --> 01:09:01,477
- Mom.
- 1202
- 01:09:01,501 --> 01:09:03,684
- How can he sit there and say
- that I get the entire value
- 1203
- 01:09:03,708 --> 01:09:07,768
- of the family home when the
- entire value of the family home
- 1204
- 01:09:07,792 --> 01:09:10,143
- is precisely what's
- being taken from me.
- 1205
- 01:09:10,167 --> 01:09:11,601
- I knew this wouldn't work.
- 1206
- 01:09:11,625 --> 01:09:12,309
- Yes, it will.
- 1207
- 01:09:12,333 --> 01:09:13,185
- I'm being business like.
- 1208
- 01:09:13,209 --> 01:09:18,934
- No more references to sneaking
- two-faced marital treachery.
- 1209
- 01:09:18,958 --> 01:09:22,018
- So this settlement you
- and Edward come up with,
- 1210
- 01:09:22,042 --> 01:09:24,684
- do I get more than
- I'd get if he died?
- 1211
- 01:09:24,708 --> 01:09:25,893
- If he died?
- 1212
- 01:09:25,917 --> 01:09:27,018
- Yes.
- 1213
- 01:09:27,042 --> 01:09:28,143
- Well, no.
- 1214
- 01:09:28,167 --> 01:09:29,684
- As things stand, if
- your husband died,
- 1215
- 01:09:29,708 --> 01:09:32,684
- you'd get the house,
- your joint savings,
- 1216
- 01:09:32,708 --> 01:09:34,893
- and a full widow's pension.
- 1217
- 01:09:34,917 --> 01:09:39,184
- And if we get a
- divorce, I get less?
- 1218
- 01:09:39,208 --> 01:09:39,727
- Yes.
- 1219
- 01:09:39,751 --> 01:09:43,184
- So it would be better
- for me if you were dead?
- 1220
- 01:09:43,208 --> 01:09:43,894
- But I'm not.
- 1221
- 01:09:43,918 --> 01:09:45,934
- It would be better in every way.
- 1222
- 01:09:45,958 --> 01:09:49,208
- If I have to manage
- without you, I'd...
- 1223
- 01:09:49,250 --> 01:09:50,309
- I'd rather be a widow.
- 1224
- 01:09:50,333 --> 01:09:54,434
- Awidow has so much more
- status than a left woman.
- 1225
- 01:09:54,458 --> 01:09:56,226
- I could put flowers
- on your grave
- 1226
- 01:09:56,250 --> 01:09:58,518
- and remember all the
- good times we had
- 1227
- 01:09:58,542 --> 01:10:02,351
- and look forward to seeing
- you again in heaven.
- 1228
- 01:10:02,375 --> 01:10:04,893
- Reunited as they put
- on the gravestones.
- 1229
- 01:10:04,917 --> 01:10:07,809
- Only as things stand,
- there's no grave.
- 1230
- 01:10:07,833 --> 01:10:10,601
- You've poisoned all my
- memories, and when we meet again
- 1231
- 01:10:10,625 --> 01:10:13,309
- in the next world,
- they'll be bloody Angela
- 1232
- 01:10:13,333 --> 01:10:14,184
- clogging the place out.
- 1233
- 01:10:14,208 --> 01:10:14,977
- Angela was right.
- 1234
- 01:10:15,001 --> 01:10:16,184
- I shouldn't have agreed to this.
- 1235
- 01:10:16,208 --> 01:10:18,434
- Sit.
- 1236
- 01:10:18,458 --> 01:10:20,083
- Fuck Angela.
- 1237
- 01:10:24,375 --> 01:10:25,559
- Sorry, Mr. Whitacomb.
- 1238
- 01:10:25,583 --> 01:10:28,143
- He makes me do these things.
- 1239
- 01:10:28,167 --> 01:10:30,000
- It's the way he walks away.
- 1240
- 01:10:30,042 --> 01:10:30,935
- It drives me mad.
- 1241
- 01:10:30,959 --> 01:10:32,934
- Is there any point
- going on with this?
- 1242
- 01:10:32,958 --> 01:10:34,143
- Is there any point?
- 1243
- 01:10:34,167 --> 01:10:37,268
- Yes, there's a point.
- 1244
- 01:10:37,292 --> 01:10:39,226
- Look at Jamie.
- 1245
- 01:10:39,250 --> 01:10:41,059
- He's our son.
- 1246
- 01:10:41,083 --> 01:10:42,684
- He's part you and part me.
- 1247
- 01:10:42,708 --> 01:10:43,851
- We made him.
- 1248
- 01:10:43,875 --> 01:10:47,059
- We joined together,
- and we made him.
- 1249
- 01:10:47,083 --> 01:10:49,518
- Now you know as well
- as I do that the church
- 1250
- 01:10:49,542 --> 01:10:50,684
- says marriage is a bond.
- 1251
- 01:10:50,708 --> 01:10:56,101
- It cannot be dissolved, and
- that's why it makes people.
- 1252
- 01:10:56,125 --> 01:10:59,143
- You can get lawyers to put
- whatever you want on paper,
- 1253
- 01:10:59,167 --> 01:11:01,934
- but you're still my
- husband and Jamie's father.
- 1254
- 01:11:01,958 --> 01:11:04,601
- And you will be until
- the clay you die.
- 1255
- 01:11:04,625 --> 01:11:05,768
- I know your view.
- 1256
- 01:11:05,792 --> 01:11:07,351
- This isn't a view.
- 1257
- 01:11:07,375 --> 01:11:08,226
- This is how it is.
- 1258
- 01:11:08,250 --> 01:11:08,852
- Foryou.
- 1259
- 01:11:08,876 --> 01:11:12,309
- No, not just for
- me, for everybody.
- 1260
- 01:11:12,333 --> 01:11:14,351
- You can't invent
- a private reality.
- 1261
- 01:11:14,375 --> 01:11:15,060
- Nor can you.
- 1262
- 01:11:15,084 --> 01:11:16,893
- Mine isn't a private reality.
- 1263
- 01:11:16,917 --> 01:11:18,434
- Well, then nor is mine.
- 1264
- 01:11:18,458 --> 01:11:20,184
- Yes, it is.
- 1265
- 01:11:20,208 --> 01:11:20,894
- Isn't it, Jamie?
- 1266
- 01:11:20,918 --> 01:11:21,934
- Don't ask me to take sides.
- 1267
- 01:11:21,958 --> 01:11:23,684
- Don't ask you to take sides
- 1268
- 01:11:23,708 --> 01:11:24,685
- between reality and madness?
- 1269
- 01:11:24,709 --> 01:11:28,559
- That's what it is, deciding when
- you're married when you're not
- 1270
- 01:11:28,583 --> 01:11:30,226
- whenever it happens to suit you.
- 1271
- 01:11:30,250 --> 01:11:31,309
- It's madness and chaos.
- 1272
- 01:11:31,333 --> 01:11:33,851
- If you're not going
- to sign the papers,
- 1273
- 01:11:33,875 --> 01:11:35,143
- I might as well leave.
- 1274
- 01:11:35,167 --> 01:11:36,726
- I'm sorry about this, Peter.
- 1275
- 01:11:36,750 --> 01:11:40,268
- Everybody keeps saying
- they're sorry, but none of you
- 1276
- 01:11:40,292 --> 01:11:41,144
- are sorry, not one bit.
- 1277
- 01:11:41,168 --> 01:11:42,351
- Mom, you're making a mistake.
- 1278
- 01:11:42,375 --> 01:11:44,059
- Am I, darling?
- 1279
- 01:11:44,083 --> 01:11:45,101
- Tell me what I should do?
- 1280
- 01:11:45,125 --> 01:11:47,143
- I think you should
- sign the papers.
- 1281
- 01:11:47,167 --> 01:11:50,018
- You still don't see it do you?
- 1282
- 01:11:50,042 --> 01:11:51,851
- No one sees it.
- 1283
- 01:11:51,875 --> 01:11:57,851
- <i>Maybe I... maybe I do live
- in my own private reality.</i>
- 1284
- 01:11:57,875 --> 01:12:00,726
- I don't care about any of this.
- 1285
- 01:12:00,750 --> 01:12:03,809
- I don't care about money.
- 1286
- 01:12:03,833 --> 01:12:06,559
- It's really very simple.
- 1287
- 01:12:06,583 --> 01:12:10,726
- <i>I... I love you, Edward,
- whether I want to or not.</i>
- 1288
- 01:12:10,750 --> 01:12:15,958
- And I never thought in a million
- years you'd stop loving me.
- 1289
- 01:12:19,708 --> 01:12:22,059
- I just... now I feel
- 1290
- 01:12:22,083 --> 01:12:27,518
- I don't know... hurt.
- 1291
- 01:12:27,542 --> 01:12:30,309
- You understand?
- 1292
- 01:12:30,333 --> 01:12:31,144
- I know you do.
- 1293
- 01:12:31,168 --> 01:12:32,500
- Yes.
- 1294
- 01:12:34,708 --> 01:12:35,559
- Yes.
- 1295
- 01:12:35,583 --> 01:12:36,559
- I hate this.
- 1296
- 01:12:36,583 --> 01:12:37,394
- I hate hurting you.
- 1297
- 01:12:37,418 --> 01:12:42,476
- I'd give anything not to
- have, but I can't help it.
- 1298
- 01:12:42,500 --> 01:12:43,934
- I'm sorry.
- 1299
- 01:12:43,958 --> 01:12:44,727
- It's happened now.
- 1300
- 01:12:44,751 --> 01:12:47,809
- <i>It's just... it's just
- happened, and I'm sorry.</i>
- 1301
- 01:12:47,833 --> 01:12:48,958
- It's...
- 1302
- 01:12:51,625 --> 01:12:52,352
- Grace is right.
- 1303
- 01:12:52,376 --> 01:12:54,292
- There's nothing to sign.
- 1304
- 01:13:05,583 --> 01:13:07,458
- I'm so sorry.
- 1305
- 01:13:12,625 --> 01:13:15,018
- Your turn to say
- you're sorry, too.
- 1306
- 01:13:15,042 --> 01:13:16,917
- Actually, I
- regret that we've
- 1307
- 01:13:16,958 --> 01:13:18,684
- not been able to
- reach a mutually
- 1308
- 01:13:18,708 --> 01:13:19,934
- satisfactory agreement.
- 1309
- 01:13:19,958 --> 01:13:20,935
- That's what I'm here for.
- 1310
- 01:13:20,959 --> 01:13:22,684
- A mutually
- satisfactory agreement?
- 1311
- 01:13:22,708 --> 01:13:24,393
- Yes, where possible.
- 1312
- 01:13:24,417 --> 01:13:27,143
- Who are you, Nelson Mandela?
- 1313
- 01:13:27,167 --> 01:13:28,851
- Mom, time to go.
- 1314
- 01:13:28,875 --> 01:13:30,559
- Yes, it's time to go.
- 1315
- 01:13:30,583 --> 01:13:32,309
- That's what time it is.
- 1316
- 01:13:32,333 --> 01:13:33,726
- Time to go.
- 1317
- 01:13:33,750 --> 01:13:34,435
- Come on, Eddie.
- 1318
- 01:13:34,459 --> 01:13:35,667
- Let's go.
- 1319
- 01:13:41,333 --> 01:13:46,101
- Once left behind on
- the road, they froze to death.
- 1320
- 01:13:46,125 --> 01:13:50,726
- This was understood
- to be an accident.
- 1321
- 01:13:50,750 --> 01:13:52,851
- Nobody looked back.
- 1322
- 01:13:52,875 --> 01:13:57,667
- By abandoning the weak,
- the strong survived.
- 1323
- 01:14:00,292 --> 01:14:03,934
- It may seem brutal,
- but what's the point
- 1324
- 01:14:03,958 --> 01:14:06,250
- of everyone ending up dead?
- 1325
- 01:14:12,125 --> 01:14:13,667
- Mom.
- 1326
- 01:14:18,083 --> 01:14:19,934
- Mom.
- 1327
- 01:14:19,958 --> 01:14:21,083
- Hey.
- 1328
- 01:14:57,583 --> 01:14:58,708
- Mom.
- 1329
- 01:15:00,875 --> 01:15:02,208
- You all right?
- 1330
- 01:15:04,083 --> 01:15:07,208
- Can we... please.
- 1331
- 01:15:20,833 --> 01:15:26,167
- Let's do the old walk
- down to Hope Gap.
- 1332
- 01:15:39,417 --> 01:15:42,851
- I used to love coming here.
- 1333
- 01:15:42,875 --> 01:15:45,125
- It's like my secret world.
- 1334
- 01:15:49,875 --> 01:15:51,143
- Why you look at me like that?
- 1335
- 01:15:51,167 --> 01:15:53,601
- Trying to think
- how I can help you.
- 1336
- 01:15:53,625 --> 01:15:55,768
- Oh, I'll be all right.
- 1337
- 01:15:55,792 --> 01:15:57,768
- You'll be fine.
- 1338
- 01:15:57,792 --> 01:15:58,893
- That's what we say.
- 1339
- 01:15:58,917 --> 01:16:00,809
- Let's not say that anymore.
- 1340
- 01:16:00,833 --> 01:16:01,602
- What's the point?
- 1341
- 01:16:01,626 --> 01:16:03,125
- Let's not pretend.
- 1342
- 01:16:03,167 --> 01:16:06,559
- Neither of us are
- all right, are we?
- 1343
- 01:16:06,583 --> 01:16:08,934
- Not really.
- 1344
- 01:16:08,958 --> 01:16:10,893
- What is it?
- 1345
- 01:16:10,917 --> 01:16:15,059
- There are one or two
- things going wrong for me
- 1346
- 01:16:15,083 --> 01:16:16,809
- in a minor sort of way.
- 1347
- 01:16:16,833 --> 01:16:18,851
- Is it work or the other thing?
- 1348
- 01:16:18,875 --> 01:16:20,268
- It's the other thing.
- 1349
- 01:16:20,292 --> 01:16:20,768
- Oh.
- 1350
- 01:16:20,792 --> 01:16:21,476
- What is it?
- 1351
- 01:16:21,500 --> 01:16:22,144
- Why?
- 1352
- 01:16:22,168 --> 01:16:23,351
- It's what you said.
- 1353
- 01:16:23,375 --> 01:16:26,643
- Seems I'm not very good
- at making people love me.
- 1354
- 01:16:26,667 --> 01:16:29,143
- How could anyone not love you?
- 1355
- 01:16:29,167 --> 01:16:32,059
- I think I'm a
- bit un-forthcoming.
- 1356
- 01:16:32,083 --> 01:16:32,977
- Like Edward.
- 1357
- 01:16:33,001 --> 01:16:34,601
- Probably.
- 1358
- 01:16:34,625 --> 01:16:36,601
- You must get over it, darling.
- 1359
- 01:16:36,625 --> 01:16:37,435
- You must forth come.
- 1360
- 01:16:37,459 --> 01:16:40,934
- Well, it doesn't
- seem to be very easy.
- 1361
- 01:16:40,958 --> 01:16:42,476
- But you do want to.
- 1362
- 01:16:42,500 --> 01:16:48,434
- I want all the usual
- things, and it doesn't happen.
- 1363
- 01:16:48,458 --> 01:16:49,684
- There was someone,
- but it doesn't
- 1364
- 01:16:49,708 --> 01:16:50,851
- seem to have quite worked out.
- 1365
- 01:16:50,875 --> 01:16:53,351
- It seems I'm the problem.
- 1366
- 01:16:53,375 --> 01:16:56,851
- Like me?
- 1367
- 01:16:56,875 --> 01:16:57,394
- Sorry.
- 1368
- 01:16:57,418 --> 01:16:58,643
- I shouldn't be
- talking about myself.
- 1369
- 01:16:58,667 --> 01:17:00,476
- No, it makes a change.
- 1370
- 01:17:00,500 --> 01:17:04,684
- Would you mind if I prayed for
- you for things to work out?
- 1371
- 01:17:04,708 --> 01:17:05,185
- No.
- 1372
- 01:17:05,209 --> 01:17:07,809
- If it works, will you
- start believing again?
- 1373
- 01:17:07,833 --> 01:17:10,184
- If it doesn't, will you stop?
- 1374
- 01:17:10,208 --> 01:17:10,685
- No.
- 1375
- 01:17:10,709 --> 01:17:12,976
- I couldn't even if I
- wanted to, which I do.
- 1376
- 01:17:13,000 --> 01:17:17,143
- If I could only stop believing,
- then I could get out, which
- 1377
- 01:17:17,167 --> 01:17:20,809
- I longed to do night and day.
- 1378
- 01:17:20,833 --> 01:17:21,810
- Please don't get out.
- 1379
- 01:17:21,834 --> 01:17:25,500
- Well, I really just
- want to fall asleep, Jamie.
- 1380
- 01:17:25,542 --> 01:17:26,185
- No more waking.
- 1381
- 01:17:26,209 --> 01:17:28,601
- It's the waking
- that hurts so much.
- 1382
- 01:17:28,625 --> 01:17:32,476
- That moment coming out
- of a confusion of dreams
- 1383
- 01:17:32,500 --> 01:17:34,684
- and you think maybe
- it's not true.
- 1384
- 01:17:34,708 --> 01:17:38,268
- Maybe he's lying
- there after all.
- 1385
- 01:17:38,292 --> 01:17:42,167
- You turn your head on the
- pillow, there's no one there.
- 1386
- 01:17:44,167 --> 01:17:47,476
- I know I should say
- come and live with me...
- 1387
- 01:17:47,500 --> 01:17:48,434
- No, it's all right.
- 1388
- 01:17:48,458 --> 01:17:49,144
- I don't want to.
- 1389
- 01:17:49,168 --> 01:17:52,976
- I think I'm just
- a bit frightened.
- 1390
- 01:17:53,000 --> 01:17:56,476
- Of my unhappiness?
- 1391
- 01:17:56,500 --> 01:17:59,476
- Yeah.
- 1392
- 01:17:59,500 --> 01:18:01,750
- It frightens me, too.
- 1393
- 01:18:07,333 --> 01:18:10,542
- I wanted to do it, you know.
- 1394
- 01:18:12,958 --> 01:18:15,476
- You won't?
- 1395
- 01:18:15,500 --> 01:18:18,042
- Can't make any promises.
- 1396
- 01:18:20,292 --> 01:18:28,018
- In that horror the solicitor's
- office, that was my last shot.
- 1397
- 01:18:28,042 --> 01:18:32,351
- If you did, would
- you tell me first?
- 1398
- 01:18:32,375 --> 01:18:34,934
- I don't know.
- 1399
- 01:18:34,958 --> 01:18:36,559
- Do you want me to?
- 1400
- 01:18:36,583 --> 01:18:39,184
- Well, I'm the one who'd
- have to clear after you.
- 1401
- 01:18:39,208 --> 01:18:41,559
- Oh, yes, I suppose so.
- 1402
- 01:18:41,583 --> 01:18:42,435
- Hadn't thought of that.
- 1403
- 01:18:42,459 --> 01:18:45,518
- Now I want to say
- something different.
- 1404
- 01:18:45,542 --> 01:18:49,042
- I want you to know
- that I do understand.
- 1405
- 01:18:50,167 --> 01:18:55,393
- After all, suppose it was cancer
- and you were in unbearable pain
- 1406
- 01:18:55,417 --> 01:18:59,643
- and dying only
- too slowly, what...
- 1407
- 01:18:59,667 --> 01:19:01,893
- Then I'd say end
- it now wouldn't I?
- 1408
- 01:19:01,917 --> 01:19:02,769
- Out of my love for you.
- 1409
- 01:19:02,793 --> 01:19:06,184
- So if your life hurts you so
- much that you want to end it,
- 1410
- 01:19:06,208 --> 01:19:08,101
- I won't stop you.
- 1411
- 01:19:08,125 --> 01:19:15,059
- Out of my love you,
- only just tell me.
- 1412
- 01:19:15,083 --> 01:19:17,268
- Don't let it be a surprise.
- 1413
- 01:19:17,292 --> 01:19:19,458
- Give me time to say goodbye.
- 1414
- 01:19:21,583 --> 01:19:26,226
- You must've known some sad
- dark times to say that to me.
- 1415
- 01:19:26,250 --> 01:19:30,684
- I can't ask you to live for me.
- 1416
- 01:19:30,708 --> 01:19:35,643
- But we each have to
- carry our own burden.
- 1417
- 01:19:35,667 --> 01:19:36,809
- You're like to explorer.
- 1418
- 01:19:36,833 --> 01:19:39,226
- You're further down the road.
- 1419
- 01:19:39,250 --> 01:19:40,434
- You've gone on ahead.
- 1420
- 01:19:40,458 --> 01:19:41,934
- So if after a while you
- don't go on anymore,
- 1421
- 01:19:41,958 --> 01:19:47,143
- then I'll know that the road
- is too hard and for too long.
- 1422
- 01:19:47,167 --> 01:19:50,875
- I'll know that in the
- end, the unhappiness wins.
- 1423
- 01:19:51,958 --> 01:19:59,958
- But if you do go on and bear
- it, terrible as it is, then
- 1424
- 01:20:00,000 --> 01:20:02,518
- I'll know that
- however bad it gets,
- 1425
- 01:20:02,542 --> 01:20:05,958
- I can last it out because
- you did before me.
- 1426
- 01:20:09,042 --> 01:20:14,500
- My darling boy,
- how you've grown up.
- 1427
- 01:20:39,625 --> 01:20:41,768
- This is very grand.
- 1428
- 01:20:41,792 --> 01:20:42,851
- I'm paying.
- 1429
- 01:20:42,875 --> 01:20:45,768
- I'm not even sure I know
- what any of this means.
- 1430
- 01:20:45,792 --> 01:20:47,559
- What's brandade?
- 1431
- 01:20:47,583 --> 01:20:48,268
- What's kimchi?
- 1432
- 01:20:48,292 --> 01:20:48,977
- Have the lamb.
- 1433
- 01:20:49,001 --> 01:20:52,226
- You don't think I should
- be a bit more adventurous?
- 1434
- 01:20:52,250 --> 01:20:54,351
- Two of the Welsh lamb please.
- 1435
- 01:20:54,375 --> 01:20:55,250
- All right, Yep.
- 1436
- 01:20:55,292 --> 01:20:55,917
- Thank you.
- 1437
- 01:20:55,958 --> 01:20:57,125
- Thanks.
- 1438
- 01:20:59,917 --> 01:21:00,685
- How is she?
- 1439
- 01:21:00,709 --> 01:21:05,059
- She started volunteering for
- something called Friendline.
- 1440
- 01:21:05,083 --> 01:21:08,393
- It's for people who reached
- the end of the line.
- 1441
- 01:21:08,417 --> 01:21:11,226
- The end of the line, dear God.
- 1442
- 01:21:11,250 --> 01:21:12,476
- She's doing all right.
- 1443
- 01:21:12,500 --> 01:21:14,476
- You didn't have to worry.
- 1444
- 01:21:14,500 --> 01:21:16,851
- Or feel guilty.
- 1445
- 01:21:16,875 --> 01:21:21,226
- I didn't think any of us have
- as much control over our lives
- 1446
- 01:21:21,250 --> 01:21:21,935
- as we pretend.
- 1447
- 01:21:21,959 --> 01:21:25,143
- Angela says Grace
- and I weren't suited,
- 1448
- 01:21:25,167 --> 01:21:27,143
- and I should have
- left years ago.
- 1449
- 01:21:27,167 --> 01:21:27,977
- Why didn't you?
- 1450
- 01:21:28,001 --> 01:21:30,893
- It never really
- seemed an option.
- 1451
- 01:21:30,917 --> 01:21:33,351
- Do you think I should?
- 1452
- 01:21:33,375 --> 01:21:35,500
- I think if you were
- going to leave now,
- 1453
- 01:21:35,542 --> 01:21:38,476
- you should have left earlier
- if you see what I mean.
- 1454
- 01:21:38,500 --> 01:21:39,185
- I didn't know.
- 1455
- 01:21:39,209 --> 01:21:42,601
- If I had to blame you
- for anything, it would be that.
- 1456
- 01:21:42,625 --> 01:21:43,560
- For not leaving earlier?
- 1457
- 01:21:43,584 --> 01:21:47,559
- For going on being nice and
- making cups of tea and letting
- 1458
- 01:21:47,583 --> 01:21:48,893
- her think that you were happy.
- 1459
- 01:21:48,917 --> 01:21:51,226
- For not getting angry
- when she went for you.
- 1460
- 01:21:51,250 --> 01:21:54,518
- For not telling you
- what you really wanted.
- 1461
- 01:21:54,542 --> 01:21:57,434
- For not letting them know
- what it felt like to be you.
- 1462
- 01:21:57,458 --> 01:22:00,434
- Oh, Jamie, you don't
- know how hard that is.
- 1463
- 01:22:00,458 --> 01:22:01,144
- Don't I?
- 1464
- 01:22:01,168 --> 01:22:03,934
- But I think she knew even so.
- 1465
- 01:22:03,958 --> 01:22:05,351
- I don't.
- 1466
- 01:22:05,375 --> 01:22:07,976
- Right up until the
- day you left, she
- 1467
- 01:22:08,000 --> 01:22:09,518
- thought you adored each other.
- 1468
- 01:22:09,542 --> 01:22:10,934
- It's complicated, you know.
- 1469
- 01:22:10,958 --> 01:22:16,393
- You can love somebody and want
- to leave them at the same time.
- 1470
- 01:22:16,417 --> 01:22:19,518
- When you say she adored
- me, no, that wasn't me.
- 1471
- 01:22:19,542 --> 01:22:22,809
- That was someone she invented,
- the Edward she wanted.
- 1472
- 01:22:22,833 --> 01:22:25,601
- And she never really forgave
- me for not being him.
- 1473
- 01:22:25,625 --> 01:22:30,101
- It made me feel like I
- was always in the wrong...
- 1474
- 01:22:30,125 --> 01:22:31,934
- In the wrong but innocent.
- 1475
- 01:22:31,958 --> 01:22:34,351
- Now I feel what
- I've done is right,
- 1476
- 01:22:34,375 --> 01:22:39,893
- but I feel guilty because
- I'm happy and she isn't.
- 1477
- 01:22:39,917 --> 01:22:41,875
- That's my crime.
- 1478
- 01:22:45,458 --> 01:22:46,227
- What's that?
- 1479
- 01:22:46,251 --> 01:22:50,101
- That is the lamb's fry.
- 1480
- 01:22:50,125 --> 01:22:54,268
- Lamb's fry what?
- 1481
- 01:22:54,292 --> 01:22:55,768
- Yes, go on.
- 1482
- 01:22:55,792 --> 01:22:57,934
- <i>I'm still listening.</i>
- 1483
- 01:22:57,958 --> 01:23:00,601
- That's OK.
- 1484
- 01:23:00,625 --> 01:23:01,643
- That's what we're here for, yes.
- 1485
- 01:23:01,667 --> 01:23:04,934
- So not only did he
- walk out on my birthday,
- 1486
- 01:23:04,958 --> 01:23:06,684
- taking the bottle of
- champagne I brought
- 1487
- 01:23:06,708 --> 01:23:09,184
- to celebrate my
- birthday, he also
- 1488
- 01:23:09,208 --> 01:23:13,309
- left me for Jeffrey, who
- was the first boyfriend
- 1489
- 01:23:13,333 --> 01:23:15,101
- to walk out on me.
- 1490
- 01:23:15,125 --> 01:23:15,935
- Typical men.
- 1491
- 01:23:15,959 --> 01:23:17,518
- I mean, what was he thinking?
- 1492
- 01:23:17,542 --> 01:23:20,226
- Men don't think or feel.
- 1493
- 01:23:20,250 --> 01:23:22,059
- They have no feelings at all.
- 1494
- 01:23:22,083 --> 01:23:24,809
- <i>I'm still listening.</i>
- 1495
- 01:23:32,708 --> 01:23:34,750
- <i>Friendline.</i>
- 1496
- 01:23:37,167 --> 01:23:38,684
- Yes.
- 1497
- 01:23:38,708 --> 01:23:42,375
- No, I really do want to hear it.
- 1498
- 01:23:42,417 --> 01:23:44,934
- Oh, the cliffs.
- 1499
- 01:23:44,958 --> 01:23:48,309
- I've been into all that myself.
- 1500
- 01:23:48,333 --> 01:23:49,559
- They look vertical,
- but they're not.
- 1501
- 01:23:49,583 --> 01:23:54,518
- They have bumps sticking out,
- and you hit them as you fall.
- 1502
- 01:23:54,542 --> 01:23:58,934
- Well, exactly, it
- isn't fair, is it?
- 1503
- 01:23:58,958 --> 01:24:00,726
- Do you know what's
- even more unfair,
- 1504
- 01:24:00,750 --> 01:24:04,809
- at least if you
- believe what I believe?
- 1505
- 01:24:04,833 --> 01:24:06,476
- Your life is so
- unbearable you decide
- 1506
- 01:24:06,500 --> 01:24:11,143
- to end it, the next thing
- you know you've gone to hell.
- 1507
- 01:24:11,167 --> 01:24:12,417
- Honestly.
- 1508
- 01:24:54,125 --> 01:24:56,768
- My friend on the
- phone lines is gay.
- 1509
- 01:24:56,792 --> 01:25:00,059
- Turns out he's been
- left just like me.
- 1510
- 01:25:00,083 --> 01:25:02,268
- So we talk about what
- it's like and how
- 1511
- 01:25:02,292 --> 01:25:06,083
- men are all selfish pigs
- and how is one to cope.
- 1512
- 01:25:06,125 --> 01:25:08,018
- Oh, and I told
- him all about you.
- 1513
- 01:25:08,042 --> 01:25:09,768
- He said you're probably gay.
- 1514
- 01:25:09,792 --> 01:25:10,769
- He did.
- 1515
- 01:25:10,793 --> 01:25:12,518
- You're not, are you?
- 1516
- 01:25:12,542 --> 01:25:14,351
- No, not as it happens.
- 1517
- 01:25:14,375 --> 01:25:18,059
- You could be refusing
- to admit your true nature.
- 1518
- 01:25:18,083 --> 01:25:19,101
- Do you want me to be gay.
- 1519
- 01:25:19,125 --> 01:25:22,518
- Oh, I just want you to be happy.
- 1520
- 01:25:22,542 --> 01:25:23,726
- There's a good boy.
- 1521
- 01:25:23,750 --> 01:25:26,934
- Let's show him your new trick.
- 1522
- 01:25:26,958 --> 01:25:29,226
- Die, Edward, die.
- 1523
- 01:25:29,250 --> 01:25:30,559
- Oh.
- 1524
- 01:25:30,583 --> 01:25:32,601
- There, isn't he clever?
- 1525
- 01:25:32,625 --> 01:25:34,143
- Wouldn't it be
- something if I could
- 1526
- 01:25:34,167 --> 01:25:35,851
- get the real Edward to do that?
- 1527
- 01:25:35,875 --> 01:25:36,685
- What, make him die?
- 1528
- 01:25:36,709 --> 01:25:39,684
- Well, roll about
- on the ground a bit.
- 1529
- 01:25:39,708 --> 01:25:42,309
- Oh, there's my beautiful boy.
- 1530
- 01:25:42,333 --> 01:25:46,500
- Is this dog your
- husband or your son?
- 1531
- 01:25:46,542 --> 01:25:47,333
- Why?
- 1532
- 01:25:47,375 --> 01:25:48,060
- Are you jealous?
- 1533
- 01:25:48,084 --> 01:25:49,351
- No, this is an
- improvement on the way
- 1534
- 01:25:49,375 --> 01:25:50,559
- you were talking
- a few weeks ago.
- 1535
- 01:25:50,583 --> 01:25:53,226
- And how is I talking
- a few weeks ago?
- 1536
- 01:25:53,250 --> 01:25:56,184
- All that stuff
- about getting out.
- 1537
- 01:25:56,208 --> 01:25:57,893
- Oh, yes.
- 1538
- 01:25:57,917 --> 01:25:59,893
- Yes, well, I've
- moved on from that.
- 1539
- 01:25:59,917 --> 01:26:03,893
- The thing about unhappiness
- is after a while,
- 1540
- 01:26:03,917 --> 01:26:07,559
- it stops being interesting.
- 1541
- 01:26:07,583 --> 01:26:10,893
- Did I tell you I've gone
- back to my anthology?
- 1542
- 01:26:10,917 --> 01:26:14,393
- See I've been collecting
- the poems under headings...
- 1543
- 01:26:14,417 --> 01:26:19,059
- Feeling lonely, death of a
- loved one, that sort of thing.
- 1544
- 01:26:19,083 --> 01:26:21,851
- Only really good
- poems, of course.
- 1545
- 01:26:21,875 --> 01:26:23,018
- No greeting cards nonsense.
- 1546
- 01:26:23,042 --> 01:26:26,101
- Marriage breakdown,
- that's a big one.
- 1547
- 01:26:26,125 --> 01:26:28,583
- And feeling you're a failure.
- 1548
- 01:26:28,625 --> 01:26:30,851
- That's huge.
- 1549
- 01:26:30,875 --> 01:26:32,583
- Can I?
- 1550
- 01:26:36,500 --> 01:26:38,476
- What do you plan
- to do with this?
- 1551
- 01:26:38,500 --> 01:26:40,601
- It's a sort of
- constellation system.
- 1552
- 01:26:40,625 --> 01:26:44,476
- Something bad happens to you,
- you look it up in my anthology.
- 1553
- 01:26:44,500 --> 01:26:45,559
- Right, I...
- 1554
- 01:26:45,583 --> 01:26:46,227
- I get that.
- 1555
- 01:26:46,251 --> 01:26:48,958
- I mean, how are you going to
- get people to know about it?
- 1556
- 01:26:49,000 --> 01:26:50,809
- Well, it's going
- to be a book I hope.
- 1557
- 01:26:50,833 --> 01:26:53,018
- This should be a website, Mom.
- 1558
- 01:26:53,042 --> 01:26:54,601
- It's perfect for the internet.
- 1559
- 01:26:54,625 --> 01:26:56,351
- You could have a
- search bar, and you
- 1560
- 01:26:56,375 --> 01:26:57,726
- could type in feeling lonely.
- 1561
- 01:26:57,750 --> 01:27:02,559
- And then it would give you
- links to poems about loneliness.
- 1562
- 01:27:02,583 --> 01:27:03,809
- How would it do that?
- 1563
- 01:27:03,833 --> 01:27:04,769
- Well, that's easy.
- 1564
- 01:27:04,793 --> 01:27:06,268
- That's what I do Every day.
- 1565
- 01:27:06,292 --> 01:27:10,042
- The hard part is this,
- is building the database.
- 1566
- 01:27:10,083 --> 01:27:12,934
- No, it's not a database.
- 1567
- 01:27:12,958 --> 01:27:14,643
- It's an anthology.
- 1568
- 01:27:14,667 --> 01:27:16,684
- Can you expand it?
- 1569
- 01:27:16,708 --> 01:27:17,726
- You want more?
- 1570
- 01:27:17,750 --> 01:27:18,768
- Much more.
- 1571
- 01:27:18,792 --> 01:27:19,269
- Oh.
- 1572
- 01:27:19,293 --> 01:27:23,268
- I know more poems if that's
- what you mean, hundreds more.
- 1573
- 01:27:23,292 --> 01:27:25,018
- What are you going to call it?
- 1574
- 01:27:25,042 --> 01:27:29,184
- I'm thinking of calling it
- "I Have Been Here Before."
- 1575
- 01:27:29,208 --> 01:27:30,309
- That's rather the
- point, you see.
- 1576
- 01:27:30,333 --> 01:27:32,643
- Others have been through
- these things before us.
- 1577
- 01:27:32,667 --> 01:27:36,601
- I don't know why that should
- be comforting, but it is.
- 1578
- 01:27:36,625 --> 01:27:38,268
- Because they survived?
- 1579
- 01:27:38,292 --> 01:27:39,768
- Some did.
- 1580
- 01:27:39,792 --> 01:27:41,059
- Some didn't.
- 1581
- 01:27:41,083 --> 01:27:45,351
- It's the first line
- of a poem by Rossetti.
- 1582
- 01:27:45,375 --> 01:27:46,226
- Do you know it?
- 1583
- 01:27:46,250 --> 01:27:46,727
- No.
- 1584
- 01:27:46,751 --> 01:27:48,809
- Do you want
- me to say it for you?
- 1585
- 01:27:48,833 --> 01:27:51,125
- Yes, I'd like that.
- 1586
- 01:27:51,167 --> 01:27:53,851
- I have been here before.
- 1587
- 01:27:53,875 --> 01:27:57,268
- When or how, I cannot tell.
- 1588
- 01:27:57,292 --> 01:28:00,226
- I know the grass
- beyond the door,
- 1589
- 01:28:00,250 --> 01:28:05,476
- the keen sweet smell,
- the sighing sound,
- 1590
- 01:28:05,500 --> 01:28:08,351
- the lights around the shore.
- 1591
- 01:28:08,375 --> 01:28:11,934
- You have been mine before.
- 1592
- 01:28:11,958 --> 01:28:15,268
- How long ago, I may not know.
- 1593
- 01:28:15,292 --> 01:28:19,351
- Butjust when at
- that swallow saw,
- 1594
- 01:28:19,375 --> 01:28:24,268
- your neck turned so
- some veil did fall.
- 1595
- 01:28:24,292 --> 01:28:26,643
- I knew it all of yore.
- 1596
- 01:28:26,667 --> 01:28:33,708
- Has this been thus before, and
- shall not thus times eddying
- 1597
- 01:28:33,750 --> 01:28:38,101
- flight still with our
- lives, our loves restore
- 1598
- 01:28:38,125 --> 01:28:41,726
- in death's despite
- and day and night
- 1599
- 01:28:41,750 --> 01:28:45,208
- yield one delight once more?
- 1600
- 01:28:51,625 --> 01:28:52,750
- Edward.
- 1601
- 01:28:54,583 --> 01:28:55,310
- It's so dull.
- 1602
- 01:28:55,334 --> 01:28:56,476
- What are you doing here,
- Grace?
- 1603
- 01:28:56,500 --> 01:28:59,934
- Is this really how
- you want to live?
- 1604
- 01:28:59,958 --> 01:29:01,934
- This is at Angela's house.
- 1605
- 01:29:01,958 --> 01:29:05,476
- Yes, Angela.
- 1606
- 01:29:05,500 --> 01:29:06,185
- Where is she?
- 1607
- 01:29:06,209 --> 01:29:07,268
- I don't want a row.
- 1608
- 01:29:07,292 --> 01:29:08,851
- Grace, I won't stand for it.
- 1609
- 01:29:08,875 --> 01:29:09,394
- No.
- 1610
- 01:29:09,418 --> 01:29:11,893
- I don't want a row either.
- 1611
- 01:29:11,917 --> 01:29:14,500
- I came to bring you these.
- 1612
- 01:29:16,042 --> 01:29:21,083
- But maybe you don't
- want them anymore.
- 1613
- 01:29:23,125 --> 01:29:27,934
- So all along, you wanted
- to live like this.
- 1614
- 01:29:27,958 --> 01:29:30,143
- Why didn't you tell me?
- 1615
- 01:29:30,167 --> 01:29:32,893
- You must feel all those
- years with me were
- 1616
- 01:29:32,917 --> 01:29:35,250
- another life, another planet.
- 1617
- 01:29:36,542 --> 01:29:41,934
- We did have a marriage, didn't
- we, on that other planet?
- 1618
- 01:29:41,958 --> 01:29:46,167
- And now you're living
- a different life.
- 1619
- 01:29:51,208 --> 01:29:52,976
- You must be Angela.
- 1620
- 01:29:53,000 --> 01:29:54,101
- Yes, that's right.
- 1621
- 01:29:54,125 --> 01:29:55,601
- She just walked in.
- 1622
- 01:29:55,625 --> 01:29:57,083
- Yes.
- 1623
- 01:29:57,125 --> 01:30:01,125
- I don't think I really
- believed you existed.
- 1624
- 01:30:03,292 --> 01:30:06,184
- Please sit.
- 1625
- 01:30:06,208 --> 01:30:07,893
- No.
- 1626
- 01:30:07,917 --> 01:30:09,167
- Not staying.
- 1627
- 01:30:12,417 --> 01:30:14,184
- What did you think
- you were doing?
- 1628
- 01:30:14,208 --> 01:30:14,727
- Grace
- 1629
- 01:30:14,751 --> 01:30:16,559
- I mean,
- what gave you the right.
- 1630
- 01:30:16,583 --> 01:30:17,268
- That's enough.
- 1631
- 01:30:17,292 --> 01:30:18,144
- It's all right, Edward.
- 1632
- 01:30:18,168 --> 01:30:19,667
- I can speak for myself.
- 1633
- 01:30:23,458 --> 01:30:30,083
- I think I thought there
- was three unhappy people.
- 1634
- 01:30:34,208 --> 01:30:36,167
- And now there's only one.
- 1635
- 01:30:47,167 --> 01:30:48,958
- Yes, I see.
- 1636
- 01:30:59,958 --> 01:31:04,726
- Grace, Grace, can't we...
- 1637
- 01:31:04,750 --> 01:31:07,143
- Can't we be friends?
- 1638
- 01:31:07,167 --> 01:31:10,309
- Friends, uh, no.
- 1639
- 01:31:10,333 --> 01:31:12,184
- I don't think so.
- 1640
- 01:31:12,208 --> 01:31:16,101
- It all went on too
- long, didn't it?
- 1641
- 01:31:16,125 --> 01:31:17,667
- I Wish...
- 1642
- 01:31:19,542 --> 01:31:21,268
- You wish we'd never met?
- 1643
- 01:31:21,292 --> 01:31:23,059
- No, of course, not.
- 1644
- 01:31:23,083 --> 01:31:23,934
- I do.
- 1645
- 01:31:23,958 --> 01:31:24,519
- I do.
- 1646
- 01:31:24,543 --> 01:31:26,309
- I wish we'd never met.
- 1647
- 01:31:26,333 --> 01:31:31,934
- I'd wish I'd never loved
- you, but we did and I do
- 1648
- 01:31:31,958 --> 01:31:33,101
- I did.
- 1649
- 01:31:33,125 --> 01:31:36,893
- And now I have to
- try and let you go.
- 1650
- 01:31:36,917 --> 01:31:39,934
- Don't think too badly of me.
- 1651
- 01:31:39,958 --> 01:31:43,768
- I try not to
- think of you at all.
- 1652
- 01:31:43,792 --> 01:31:46,809
- I'm getting quite good
- at it during the day.
- 1653
- 01:31:46,833 --> 01:31:50,518
- But at night, I dream about you.
- 1654
- 01:31:50,542 --> 01:31:53,226
- Unfair, isn't it?
- 1655
- 01:32:44,375 --> 01:32:48,643
- All right, so it's
- called "I've Been Here Before."
- 1656
- 01:32:48,667 --> 01:32:50,768
- You type into the search bar.
- 1657
- 01:32:50,792 --> 01:32:54,268
- <i>Anything... love, life,
- death, anything you like.</i>
- 1658
- 01:32:54,292 --> 01:32:57,726
- It turns out someone
- else thought it long ago.
- 1659
- 01:32:57,750 --> 01:32:59,518
- You're not the only
- one, so maybe you
- 1660
- 01:32:59,542 --> 01:33:01,018
- can make it through after all.
- 1661
- 01:33:01,042 --> 01:33:02,393
- That's what I want to hear.
- 1662
- 01:33:02,417 --> 01:33:04,101
- How I can make it
- through after all.
- 1663
- 01:33:04,125 --> 01:33:09,042
- You want hope, we've got hope.
- 1664
- 01:33:11,292 --> 01:33:14,101
- "Say Not the Struggle
- Nought Availeth."
- 1665
- 01:33:14,125 --> 01:33:16,958
- It's my mom's favorite.
- 1666
- 01:33:18,833 --> 01:33:22,726
- Say not the
- struggle nought availeth.
- 1667
- 01:33:22,750 --> 01:33:25,768
- The labor and the
- wounds are vain.
- 1668
- 01:33:25,792 --> 01:33:28,893
- The enemy faints
- not nor faileth.
- 1669
- 01:33:28,917 --> 01:33:33,059
- And as things have
- been, they remain.
- 1670
- 01:33:33,083 --> 01:33:36,309
- For while, the tired
- waves vainly breaking
- 1671
- 01:33:36,333 --> 01:33:41,018
- seem here no painful
- inch gain far back
- 1672
- 01:33:41,042 --> 01:33:44,518
- through creeks and
- inlets making come
- 1673
- 01:33:44,542 --> 01:33:48,101
- silent flooding in the main.
- 1674
- 01:33:48,125 --> 01:33:52,476
- And not by eastern windows
- only when daylight comes
- 1675
- 01:33:52,500 --> 01:33:54,434
- comes in the light.
- 1676
- 01:33:54,458 --> 01:34:00,268
- In front, the sun
- climbs slow, how slowly.
- 1677
- 01:34:00,292 --> 01:34:04,875
- But westward look,
- the land is bright.
- 1678
- 01:34:15,875 --> 01:34:19,018
- <i>I began
- by thinking I could save you,</i>
- 1679
- 01:34:19,042 --> 01:34:22,934
- <i>but in the end, all I
- can do is honor you.</i>
- 1680
- 01:34:22,958 --> 01:34:29,643
- <i>My mother, first among women,
- my warmth and my comfort,</i>
- 1681
- 01:34:29,667 --> 01:34:36,976
- <i>my safety, my pride, you're
- the one I want to please.</i>
- 1682
- 01:34:37,000 --> 01:34:40,042
- You're the one I
- want to applaud me.
- 1683
- 01:34:45,292 --> 01:34:53,292
- <i>My father, first among men, my
- teacher and myjudge, the man.</i>
- 1684
- 01:34:55,125 --> 01:34:56,958
- I know I will become.
- 1685
- 01:35:06,792 --> 01:35:07,727
- You grow older now.
- 1686
- 01:35:07,751 --> 01:35:13,184
- You'll still ahead of me
- as you'll always be forever
- 1687
- 01:35:13,208 --> 01:35:15,333
- further down the road.
- 1688
- 01:35:19,417 --> 01:35:23,167
- Forgive me for needing
- you to be strong forever.
- 1689
- 01:35:27,083 --> 01:35:30,625
- Forgive me for fearing
- your unhappiness.
- 1690
- 01:35:33,750 --> 01:35:36,684
- As you suffer, so
- I shall suffer.
- 1691
- 01:35:36,708 --> 01:35:39,542
- As you endure, so
- I shall endure.
- 1692
- 01:35:41,542 --> 01:35:43,851
- Hold my hands and
- walk the old walk
- 1693
- 01:35:43,875 --> 01:35:48,934
- one last time then let me go.
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