11:27	Gumiho	That comment hurt more than you can imagine just because I had already brushed so many others off
11:27	Gumiho	And then the kicker came when you
11:27	Gumiho	you were the one that violated Brian's trust
11:27	Gumiho	and yet you were pre accusing me of doing so
11:27	Gumiho	like wtf
11:27	SandwichChef	I was mostly a sexist joke, though it was at your expense
11:27	Gumiho	it was a combination of little comments that I had brushed off
11:28	SandwichChef	But there are a lot of problems here
11:28	Gumiho	that all of a sudden just made me decide to stop
11:28	Gumiho	because what if you kept it up
11:28	SandwichChef	"Decide to stop"
11:28	Gumiho	Contrary to popular opinion, I do have feelings
11:28	SandwichChef	That's inhuman, monstrous behaviour
11:28	Gumiho	and they do get hurt
11:28	SandwichChef	Feelings prevent one from "deciding to stop"
11:28	Gumiho	although it takes much longer for that to happen
11:28	Gumiho	than for a regular person
11:29	SandwichChef	To me, "deciding to stop" sound like sociopathy or madness. But I have faith that you're not like that, and I'm willing to overlook it.
11:29	Gumiho	I decided to stop being hurt
11:29	Gumiho	by someone that had already hurt me a lot
11:29	Gumiho	and that kept doing it
11:29	SandwichChef	Considering it was never my intention to hurt you, that's the only correct course of action
11:29	Gumiho	disregarding whether it hurt or not
11:29	SandwichChef	You should never have been hurt in the first place
11:30	Gumiho	that's how it seemed to me
11:30	SandwichChef	But if you have to turn your back on someone who means you no harm to "avoid being hurt" what is that but selfish or lazy?
11:30	SandwichChef	We could've talked things out in a peaceful manner
11:30	SandwichChef	Instead you overreacted and ran
11:30	SandwichChef	And now, many moons after the fact, I finally understand why you did what you did, and I'm grateful
11:31	Gumiho	you keep saying you meant me no harm
11:31	Gumiho	but that's not how I see it
11:32	SandwichChef	You're wrong, then
11:32	SandwichChef	I'm not a liar, and you can ask any of my other friends
11:32	SandwichChef	You could even ask Decanter
11:32	SandwichChef	Surely you can believe him
11:32	Gumiho	I mean come on Josh, every time we hung out
11:32	Gumiho	instead of actually hanging out
11:32	Gumiho	you were riddled with jealousy
11:32	SandwichChef	I'm over that, though
11:32	Gumiho	over Decanter speaking to me more
11:32	Gumiho	and I felt bad
11:32	SandwichChef	I'm not even concerned with him like that anymore
11:32	Gumiho	and hurt
11:32	SandwichChef	I moved on
11:32	Gumiho	and I just wanted to hang out
11:33	SandwichChef	It's not that I didn't like you, I just loved him way too much
11:33	Gumiho	But that's not how it looked
11:33	SandwichChef	And now that part of my life is over.
11:33	Gumiho	don't you get it
11:33	SandwichChef	That's the truth, and you have my word
11:33	Gumiho	it looked like the more you loved Decanter
11:33	Gumiho	the more you hated me
11:33	Gumiho	and how was I supposed to feel?
11:33	SandwichChef	I didn't ever really hate you
11:33	SandwichChef	I swear to you
11:34	Gumiho	and it all was just too much with those last two comments
11:34	SandwichChef	I really didn't have anything personal against you, you were just an innocent bystander.
11:34	SandwichChef	Also stop speaking in the past tense
11:34	SandwichChef	We're in the present now
11:34	Gumiho	I was like he hates me and wants me gone
11:34	Gumiho	then I just granted your wish
11:34	SandwichChef	I never hated you or wanted you gone, you were foolish enough to convince yourself of that
11:34	SandwichChef	If I wanted you gone, I would've told you myself in earnest
11:36	Gumiho	well your words led me to believe otherwise
11:36	Gumiho	and that last sexist comment
11:36	SandwichChef	Your interpretation of my words led you to believe otherwise
11:36	SandwichChef	Not my words
11:36	Gumiho	was just the last
11:36	SandwichChef	There's a siginificant difference
11:37	Gumiho	If you're willing to be a friend
11:37	Gumiho	then be one
11:37	Gumiho	and I will reciprocate
11:38	Gumiho	it's a simple as that
11:38	SandwichChef	Very well, you have my word that I'll do my part as a friend.
11:39	SandwichChef	Again, I apologize for accidentally hurting you, until today I had no idea how badly you'd been hurt because you never really explained it to me as such. Communication is the key, honestly.
11:39	SandwichChef	And I forgive you for turning your back on me, I understand that from your perspective it was the reasonable thing to do, and I'm not bitter about it at all
11:39	SandwichChef	I'm not bitter about that, and I'm not bitter about Decanter. I'm also not bitter about jdstroy
11:40	SandwichChef	I'm bitter that people exclude me from EVERYTHING, because they think I am bitter
11:40	SandwichChef	I've grown immensely as a person these past few months
11:40	SandwichChef	I only pray that my friends (including you) can see the fruits of my labour
11:40	Gumiho	I have your word? No more doubts, and jealousy?
11:40	SandwichChef	A tiny bit of doubts are normal for everyone, lol. But definitely no more jealousy
11:41	SandwichChef	Even if I do doubt you though, just a tiny bit, you'll have the benefit of the doubt
11:41	SandwichChef	This is my promise
11:41	SandwichChef	Besides, I have a gf now. I don't have be a third wheel anymore. Double-dates are a possible thing
11:42	SandwichChef	Or even triple-dates
11:44	Gumiho	What if in the future (not that I wish it) you don't have a gf anymore? You sure you won't revert?
11:44	SandwichChef	Yes
11:45	SandwichChef	I stopped being jealous and bitter long before that
11:45	SandwichChef	It was immediately after I had a heart to heart with Decanter telling him that I was disenchanted with him, and explaining what I meant by history repeating itself
11:45	SandwichChef	Also, seeing Dennis in person for the last time kind of really closed that chapter of my life
11:45	SandwichChef	Reading his letters from prison further exacerbated that
11:46	SandwichChef	That part of my life is over, and now that I'm done with childish things, I need to bury them away
11:47	SandwichChef	All I really wanted was a close friend that I could have like an intimate friendship with. Not really a boyfriend, I don't think. What I was in love with was a replacement for Dennis.
11:47	SandwichChef	I was so single-mindedly fixated on that, that it had a deleterious effect on me
11:47	SandwichChef	Once I became cognizant of that, I did what I had to do to move on
11:48	SandwichChef	Besides, I have a lot of close friends who can give me that every once in a while. Brian, Decanter, my mate Foster, Anas, etc.
11:48	Gumiho	I think the problem lies in that you seek that one perfect friendship maybe
11:48	SandwichChef	Well, I gave up on that
11:48	Gumiho	when all of them offer you something good and different
11:48	SandwichChef	Like I said, once I recognized the pattern, I moved on from it
11:48	SandwichChef	I just had to become aware. That awareness was my salvation
11:48	Gumiho	Decanter can't be it by himself, or Brian or JD
11:49	SandwichChef	I know
11:49	SandwichChef	Everyone has strengths and weaknesses, as do I
11:49	Gumiho	Did you realize that Dennis wasn't it either?
11:49	SandwichChef	Yeah
11:50	SandwichChef	He's gonna be my brother until the day we die, but our friendship had a lot of flaws and us living together as we did was a mistake
11:50	SandwichChef	We both harmed each other irreperably
11:50	SandwichChef	But I forgive him, and he forgives me
11:50	SandwichChef	That's what true friendship is, tbh
11:50	SandwichChef	Anyways--
11:51	SandwichChef	You may not realize it. But you've done a great thing for me today. I'm really grateful that you reached out to me, and I'm really grateful that we were able to bury the hatchet.
11:51	SandwichChef	Thank you for that. From the bottom of my heart
11:51	SandwichChef	You may not think I cared for you, but your absence really hurt me a lot
11:51	SandwichChef	I was always worried, and always remorseful
11:54	SandwichChef	Sometimes I express my worry and remorse in a questionable manner though, lol. That's why communication is important.
12:01	Gumiho	Heh no kidding.
12:02	Gumiho	I can't say I will immediately be back to normal, I was hurt and will probably be guarded for some time. Just show me you're my friend and I will reciprocate your sentiments.
12:02	Gumiho	I'm easy to please.
12:02	SandwichChef	So long as we just talk and hang out as normal, you'll immediately see an improvement, I think
12:03	SandwichChef	For starters, you should friend me on Facebook, and tell jdstroy to like he said he would
12:03	SandwichChef	Drove 600 miles, gave him a ride to the airport, and a nigga can't even get a friend request
12:03	SandwichChef	smh
12:03	Gumiho	???
12:03	SandwichChef	I was in Tomball/Houston
12:04	Gumiho	I completely missed the last part
12:04	Gumiho	okay?
12:04	Gumiho	tell jd to like what?
12:04	SandwichChef	Oh, what don't you get?
12:04	SandwichChef	To give me a friend request on Facebook
12:04	Gumiho	ahhh
12:04	Gumiho	okay sorry
12:04	SandwichChef	His rule is that he only friends friends he's met in person
12:04	SandwichChef	And now we've met in person
12:04	Gumiho	I forgot my glasses at home and I'm struggling with my sunglasses
12:05	SandwichChef	Ah, lol. To be honest though, that sentence was pretty ambiguous
12:05	SandwichChef	Looked like it was missing a verb
12:05	Gumiho	which are also prescription but the field of vision is dark af
12:06	Gumiho	Well JD does the fuck he wants to do
12:06	Gumiho	but I'll put in a word
12:06	SandwichChef	Honestly, I haven't bothered him about it myself yet
12:06	SandwichChef	So I could just do that
12:07	SandwichChef	It just came to mind because now you both owe my friend requests, so it was apropos
12:07	Gumiho	on another note
12:07	Gumiho	why you wanna rename your channel?
12:07	SandwichChef	That was a joke at your expense actually.
12:07	SandwichChef	Because you're a fox, but not #foxears
12:07	SandwichChef	That's why JD said "#outfoxed" I think
12:08	SandwichChef	Because the fox went out and never came back
12:08	Gumiho	ha
12:08	Gumiho	that's actually funny
12:08	SandwichChef	Things involving me often are
12:09	Gumiho	erm sure
12:09	SandwichChef	Like I said earlier, it's a matter of perspective
12:09	Gumiho	lol
12:09	SandwichChef	As humans, we often see/hear what we want to, rather than what we ought to.
12:09	Gumiho	okay dude
12:09	SandwichChef	Our feelings, biases, and experiences colour or perception
12:09	SandwichChef	*our perception
12:10	Gumiho	stop driving the point home
12:10	SandwichChef	That sounds a little guilty to me
12:10	SandwichChef	lol
12:12	Gumiho	Not guilty
12:12	Gumiho	but we just talked about it
12:12	Gumiho	and we put it behind
12:13	Gumiho	okay I'm off to lunch and to get my regular glasses because these are giving me a headache
12:13	Gumiho	brb laters