(4:35:01 PM) zik: ^_^
(4:35:02 PM) zik: *hug*
(4:35:28 PM) Ottik: *noses*
(4:36:31 PM) zik: plus ive got my cutie deerbabe making me feel better :D
(4:38:06 PM) Ottik: Zik I dun wanna make you feel any worse than you already do
(4:39:09 PM) zik: well i'm recovering so that shouldnt be too big of an issue XD
(4:40:18 PM) Ottik: XD
(4:41:54 PM) Ottik: Im just warning you that things with me and the shep are going well, and there's a pretty good chance we could become an iyem
(4:42:08 PM) zik: :\ damn
(4:42:24 PM) zik: doesnt he live in texas?
(4:42:46 PM) Ottik: Yes
(4:43:30 PM) zik: i thought you didnt wanna do long distance stuff?
(4:44:09 PM) Ottik: Ive fallen pretty hard for hin
(4:44:09 PM) Ottik: Him
(4:44:16 PM) zik: :(
(4:44:47 PM) Ottik: I'm just tring to be honest and straightforward :(
(4:45:14 PM) zik: i know and if i'm being honest and straightforward, it hurts a ton
(4:45:33 PM) Ottik: I know :(
(4:46:34 PM) zik: ...and ditching me for another long distance relationship doesnt make it better at all :\
(4:47:26 PM) zik: [okay i worded that harsh]
(4:49:15 PM) Ottik: Niall you were my first love
(4:49:38 PM) zik: and you were mine
(4:49:40 PM) zik: my first real one
(4:50:58 PM) zik: but it feels awful not only because you just wanted me to fade away but also because you're doing another long distance relationship
(4:51:02 PM) Ottik: I never had any intention of getting into another ldr or getting in a relationship with this person
(4:51:18 PM) Ottik: I don't want you to fade away
(4:52:13 PM) zik: then in that case it's more the guy who had feelings for me forever before we finally started going out decided the long distance thing i was wary of wasn't going to work then decides to do one with someone else
(4:52:14 PM) Ottik: I just don't want to lead you on like I don't have feelings for someone else