[3/29/2012 11:34:28 PM] stardust: tell me about the area where you live
[3/29/2012 11:34:31 PM] stardust: where you used to live
[3/29/2012 11:34:36 PM] stardust: all the houses youve lived in
[3/29/2012 11:38:25 PM] nobody: i live in Tacoma Wa its like a smaller version of seattle. Lot more chill too, still a small city. first house i lived in was a 2 floor house on a side street off a busy street. lived in the bedroom with the biggest window. when paige was born that became her room and i got the smaller room. still had a nice window though. then a couple years ago i moved back into the bigger room. then mom kicked me out. now im living in this apartment, in this tiny plain room with no window.
[3/29/2012 11:38:29 PM] nobody: thats bout it
[3/29/2012 11:41:52 PM] nobody: <.<
[3/29/2012 11:42:31 PM] stardust: im thinking
[3/29/2012 11:46:06 PM] stardust: you lived in same house whole life, until you got kicked out...just recently?
[3/29/2012 11:47:46 PM] nobody: yes
[3/29/2012 11:49:45 PM] stardust: did your mom always treat you like that?
[3/29/2012 11:49:51 PM] stardust: even when you were real young
[3/29/2012 11:49:54 PM] nobody: yes
[3/29/2012 11:50:07 PM] nobody: for as long as i can remember
[3/29/2012 11:55:21 PM] nobody: <.<
[3/29/2012 11:56:57 PM] stardust: i dont know where to start
[3/29/2012 11:57:04 PM] stardust: theres a lot i wnat to talk about
[3/29/2012 11:57:43 PM] stardust: how far is your appt from your school
[3/29/2012 11:58:02 PM] stardust: and how far away is your old house, from your appt
[3/29/2012 11:58:58 PM] nobody: 15 min to school
[3/29/2012 11:59:01 PM] nobody: 10 min to house
[3/29/2012 11:59:12 PM] nobody: max
[3/29/2012 11:59:19 PM] stardust: tacoma washington
[3/29/2012 11:59:28 PM] stardust: why does everyone say you live in seattle
[3/29/2012 11:59:41 PM] nobody: because thats what i tell them
[12:00:01 AM] nobody: but i told u tacoma because I dont think it matters
[12:00:16 AM] nobody: if you knmow my actual location
[12:00:29 AM] nobody: you wouldnt do anything with it
[12:01:07 AM] stardust: what about your childhood
[12:01:12 AM] stardust: did you have friends
[12:01:19 AM] nobody: no
[12:01:23 AM] stardust: did you play any sports
[12:01:27 AM] nobody: no
[12:01:30 AM] stardust: ballet, dance, gymnastics
[12:01:36 AM] nobody: no
[12:01:40 AM] stardust: anything
[12:01:48 AM] nobody: gymnastics yea but not really
[12:01:55 AM] nobody: just a couple classes at the y
[12:02:06 AM] nobody: same with swimming and soccer and rock climbing
[12:02:15 AM] nobody: but i was never really serious about any of that
[12:02:21 AM] nobody: didnt make any friends from it
[12:02:57 AM] nobody: however i was serious with orchestra. and since i went to church youth group a lot as a kid i made friends there
[12:05:17 AM] stardust: what did you do with your time , as a child
[12:05:26 AM] stardust: apparently you stayed inside
[12:05:38 AM] nobody: yea
[12:05:44 AM] nobody: i was never given any toys
[12:05:53 AM] nobody: so i used things i found around the house
[12:05:55 AM] nobody: buttons
[12:06:06 AM] nobody: things that tie off bread bags
[12:06:11 AM] nobody: clips
[12:06:18 AM] nobody: bits of broken toys
[12:06:28 AM] nobody: string
[12:06:32 AM] stardust: what about christmas , and your birthday
[12:06:35 AM] nobody: well u get the picture
[12:06:47 AM] nobody: i dont remember
[12:06:57 AM] nobody: clothes, books
[12:07:02 AM] nobody: about 1 or2  toys
[12:07:08 AM] nobody: but no name brand things
[12:07:08 AM] stardust: so , you had toys
[12:07:26 AM] nobody: yea but i never remember playing with them
[12:07:31 AM] nobody: i have maybe 5
[12:07:34 AM] stardust: i cant believe you played with fucking string
[12:07:46 AM] nobody: i drew a lot
[12:08:03 AM] nobody: i always asked for notebooks and pens and drawing pads
[12:08:05 AM] nobody: each year
[12:08:24 AM] stardust: what did you draw
[12:08:29 AM] nobody: i got used to not playing with toys
[12:08:36 AM] nobody: i drew people
[12:08:38 AM] nobody: nature
[12:08:43 AM] stardust: did , you have a bike?
[12:08:51 AM] nobody: yes
[12:08:56 AM] nobody: but i dont ride anymore
[12:08:59 AM] stardust: where did you go with it
[12:08:59 AM] nobody: its too scary
[12:09:05 AM] nobody: i didnt go anywhere with it
[12:09:09 AM] stardust: wtf is too scary
[12:09:13 AM] nobody: mom scared me too much
[12:09:23 AM] nobody: i never when anywhere farther than around the block
[12:09:30 AM] nobody: never crossing a street
[12:09:45 AM] nobody: i got in an accident once and hurt my thumb
[12:09:58 AM] nobody: ever since then i havent rode my bike
[12:10:05 AM] nobody: i was scared id hurt myself again
[12:10:29 AM] nobody: something else you might want to note
[12:10:31 AM] nobody: uh
[12:10:41 AM] nobody: when i did play with my toy things
[12:10:45 AM] nobody: like the buttons and such
[12:10:57 AM] nobody: I would always pretend they were in a classroom setting
[12:11:06 AM] nobody: and there was always idk the runt you could say
[12:11:09 AM] nobody: that got beat up
[12:11:17 AM] nobody: I liked this character the most
[12:11:25 AM] nobody: like he was the main character of the story
[12:11:30 AM] nobody: but he never didnt get hurt
[12:11:47 AM] nobody: he was always being physically or emotionally tortured by his classmates
[12:11:54 AM] nobody: and it was always a guy
[12:12:08 AM] nobody: i thought it was fun to torture him
[12:12:15 AM] nobody: i didnt think of myself as him at all
[12:12:26 AM] nobody: remember we r talkin bout buttons here
[12:12:28 AM] nobody: : P
[12:12:30 AM] nobody: but yea
[12:13:24 AM] stardust: a beautiful imagination
[12:13:34 AM] nobody: :3
[12:13:39 AM] stardust: so you were the boy
[12:13:47 AM] stardust: or you had a natural hatred of boys
[12:13:51 AM] nobody: that got tortured no.
[12:13:53 AM] nobody: and idk
[12:13:59 AM] nobody: i just liked to torture it
[12:14:05 AM] nobody: but i felt like the boy was my friend
[12:14:13 AM] nobody: it was fun because he was so helpless
[12:14:20 AM] nobody: of course i didnt want him to get hurt
[12:14:23 AM] nobody: he was my friend
[12:14:27 AM] nobody: but i couldnt help myself
[12:14:31 AM] nobody: it was too fun
[12:14:58 AM] nobody: i found his way of surviving through it all very
[12:15:02 AM] nobody: inspiring perhaps
[12:15:27 AM] nobody: and because of story books I thought that a boy part would best represent this way of being able to survive
[12:15:40 AM] nobody: perhaps i thouht of myself as the button when i was bullied in school
[12:15:47 AM] nobody: and I reflected that in my playtime
[12:15:53 AM] nobody: by becoming the bully
[12:16:04 AM] nobody: because I knew i could come up with the worst things
[12:16:11 AM] nobody: worse than i would ever have to endure
[12:16:16 AM] nobody: and I marvelled at how
[12:16:19 AM] nobody: even in all his pain
[12:16:25 AM] nobody: and anguish
[12:16:33 AM] nobody: the button seemed to survive through it all
[12:16:37 AM] nobody: and so did i
[12:16:40 AM] nobody: :3
[12:16:52 AM] nobody: if that makes any sense
[12:17:06 AM] stardust: so, mr.button was you
[12:17:20 AM] nobody: i didnt think of himself as me back then
[12:17:27 AM] nobody: he was a character with a similar life as me
[12:17:32 AM] nobody: but yea he was basically
[12:17:39 AM] nobody: a much harsher reflection
[12:17:44 AM] nobody: of what i was dealing with in school
[12:18:16 AM] nobody: and at home
[12:18:27 AM] stardust: your always letting people be perverts to you
[12:18:33 AM] stardust: and what you did with mr.button
[12:18:38 AM] stardust: is the same
[12:18:45 AM] nobody: how
[12:19:13 AM] stardust: your perverting your mind, ... to "protect yourself"
[12:19:37 AM] stardust: the same way, you take your life to an extreme
[12:19:49 AM] stardust: by living mr.buttons life
[12:19:51 AM] nobody: i wasnt perverting my mind with mr button
[12:19:58 AM] nobody: I was reflecting my life in a way
[12:20:03 AM] nobody: i could control the agression
[12:20:11 AM] nobody: and make it much harsher to mr button
[12:20:17 AM] nobody: to see if he could survive
[12:20:21 AM] nobody: which he always did
[12:20:34 AM] nobody: in the same way
[12:20:36 AM] stardust: well, i mean... your always tring to get guys to , want more... to tell you what More they would do to you
[12:20:44 AM] nobody: i watch a bunch of gore porn and stuff
[12:20:54 AM] nobody: and it really turns me on when the victim
[12:20:58 AM] nobody: endures all the pain
[12:21:03 AM] nobody: and has to survive through it
[12:21:09 AM] nobody: weird yuh?
[12:21:21 AM] stardust: your telling yourself you have to be , the victum
[12:21:28 AM] stardust: the whore
[12:21:36 AM] nobody: well perhaps
[12:21:39 AM] nobody: i need to see
[12:21:43 AM] nobody: how much i can survive
[12:21:48 AM] nobody: i want to be strong
[12:21:58 AM] nobody: but in the process ive made myself weak
[12:22:00 AM] nobody: i think
[12:22:19 AM] nobody: i needed to be strong
[12:22:25 AM] nobody: because of my mother
[12:22:28 AM] nobody: and school
[12:22:39 AM] nobody: mom wouldnt let me cry you know
[12:22:45 AM] nobody: I had to let it out somehow
[12:22:51 AM] nobody: or convince myself i didnnt need to cry
[12:22:56 AM] nobody: i took the latter option
[12:23:06 AM] stardust: so, you were not allowed to vent anger
[12:23:12 AM] stardust: so you turned it inside
[12:23:15 AM] nobody: i wasnt allowed to cry
[12:23:16 AM] nobody: or scream
[12:23:19 AM] nobody: especially scream
[12:23:20 AM] stardust: i know
[12:23:32 AM] nobody: she was allowed to scream though
[12:24:34 AM] stardust: its obvious , she used you as taget for All of her anger
[12:25:01 AM] stardust: negative emotions
[12:25:23 AM] stardust: so, being the victum your whole childhood
[12:25:36 AM] stardust: you feel you cant take your feeling out on others
[12:25:47 AM] stardust: so you , let people treat you like whore
[12:25:53 AM] stardust: so you can continue what you mother did
[12:26:06 AM] nobody: 3:
[12:26:10 AM] nobody: its tru
[12:26:18 AM] nobody: i hate talking about my emotions
[12:26:22 AM] nobody: its really hard
[12:26:32 AM] stardust: so, just like when you were a child
[12:26:35 AM] nobody: I have an instinctual happiness at school
[12:26:39 AM] nobody: I cant be sad
[12:26:44 AM] stardust: you look for people , to block your emotions from yourself
[12:26:50 AM] nobody: and I can't say no
[12:27:11 AM] nobody: i let people treat me badly
[12:27:14 AM] stardust: instinctual happiness?
[12:27:15 AM] nobody: i feel i deserve it
[12:27:18 AM] nobody: and yea
[12:27:29 AM] nobody: when someone asks how im doing
[12:27:35 AM] nobody: ill say im great
[12:27:45 AM] nobody: even if im having the worst day of my life
[12:27:54 AM] nobody: and ill look at them
[12:27:58 AM] nobody: without thinking
[12:28:03 AM] nobody: with the hugest grin
[12:28:12 AM] nobody: Inside i want to tell them what im thinking
[12:28:22 AM] nobody: but its all blocked down deep
[12:28:28 AM] nobody: and I soon forget about it
[12:28:34 AM] nobody: and wallow in fake happiness
[12:28:46 AM] nobody: till i get to the house apartment or wtf
[12:28:49 AM] nobody: and then i remember
[12:28:54 AM] nobody: how sad i really am
[12:29:40 AM] nobody: i dont want to burden anyone
[12:29:44 AM] nobody: with my emotions
[12:29:47 AM] nobody: its selffish
[12:29:59 AM] nobody: i only deserve pain and sadness
[12:30:01 AM] nobody: punishment
[12:30:05 AM] nobody: im a terrible person
[12:30:11 AM] stardust: no no no
[12:30:22 AM] stardust: you think being selfish is wrong?
[12:30:39 AM] nobody: yes
[12:30:56 AM] nobody: mother always told me i was so entitled to things
[12:30:59 AM] nobody: that was wrong
[12:31:02 AM] stardust: oh god, i forgot ppl actually believed in that , selfish /unselfish philosophy
[12:31:18 AM] stardust: selfish / selfless
[12:31:25 AM] stardust: you have a self
[12:31:27 AM] stardust: a soul
[12:31:34 AM] stardust: so , if your selfless
[12:31:42 AM] stardust: you will be destroying yourself,
[12:31:53 AM] stardust: its a horrible morality
[12:32:06 AM] stardust: when someone wants you to do something, and they say
[12:32:13 AM] stardust: your being selfish, punch them in the face
[12:32:37 AM] nobody: no 3:
[12:32:41 AM] nobody: i should help others
[12:32:59 AM] stardust: selfish , doesent mean only think of yourself
[12:33:09 AM] stardust: you have to think of yourself, or you will be a zombie
[12:33:15 AM] stardust: unconcious
[12:33:37 AM] stardust: so, you think about yourself... and help others , based on if they deserve it
[12:33:39 AM] nobody: wha tdo you think i am now
[12:33:40 AM] nobody: lol
[12:33:56 AM] nobody: i never think of myself
[12:34:03 AM] nobody: everything i do is for otherpoeple
[12:34:10 AM] nobody: even if i dont want to do something
[12:34:12 AM] nobody: ill do it
[12:34:16 AM] stardust: i know, its the philosophy of a whore
[12:34:19 AM] stardust: or of a zombie
[12:34:25 AM] stardust: to only help other ppl
[12:34:33 AM] nobody: i hate whoring for people
[12:34:37 AM] nobody: I hate getting naked
[12:34:44 AM] nobody: which is why i deserve it
[12:34:54 AM] nobody: its a punishment in a way
[12:35:12 AM] nobody: and since ive associated punishment with pleasure
[12:35:16 AM] nobody: and sadness with joy
[12:35:22 AM] nobody: well
[12:35:28 AM] nobody: yea
[12:36:37 AM] nobody: im sorry for saying all of this 3:
[12:36:45 AM] nobody: im sorry for saying sorry ;-;
[12:36:53 AM] nobody: mom doesnt like it when i say sorry
[12:37:03 AM] nobody: then i dont know what to say
[12:37:11 AM] nobody: then she demands me to speak
[12:37:17 AM] stardust: your afraid to have any thought , any honest feeling
[12:37:18 AM] nobody: but all i can think of is im sorry
[12:37:24 AM] nobody: and im to afraid to talk
[12:37:30 AM] nobody: and then she punishes me more
[12:37:33 AM] nobody: for not talking
[12:37:36 AM] stardust: because you associate every honest feeling with the pain your mother would give you
[12:38:11 AM] nobody: i dont know what to do
[12:38:13 AM] nobody: ;-;
[12:38:16 AM] nobody: im sorry
[12:38:19 AM] nobody: ;;;;--;;;
[12:38:42 AM] stardust: you hate getting naked for people?
[12:38:48 AM] nobody: yes
[12:39:05 AM] stardust: and all the rest of the stuff, that goes along with the punishment your giving yourself?
[12:39:14 AM] nobody: yes
[12:39:56 AM] stardust: you dont know what to do
[12:39:59 AM] stardust: what do you want to do
[12:40:05 AM] stardust: after knowing all this
[12:40:09 AM] nobody: i want to die
[12:40:11 AM] stardust: what do you want
[12:40:12 AM] stardust: ugh
[12:40:15 AM] stardust: no
[12:40:22 AM] nobody: i dont know what to want
[12:40:27 AM] nobody: i dont know what i want
[12:40:32 AM] nobody: i dont know whats good and whats bad
[12:40:44 AM] nobody: isnt punishing myself good because i deserve it?
[12:40:51 AM] nobody: shouldnt i want to punish myself
[12:40:56 AM] nobody: i want to be good
[12:41:05 AM] stardust: its about being happy
[12:41:11 AM] stardust: not "good"
[12:41:18 AM] nobody: ill be happy if i cum
[12:41:37 AM] stardust: no, thats senseless
[12:41:50 AM] stardust: a personality , and lifegoals are what you need
[12:41:56 AM] nobody: its a proven scientific fact it releases more dopamine
[12:42:21 AM] stardust: i dont care how much science claims to know
[12:42:24 AM] stardust: a soul is infinite
[12:42:26 AM] nobody: orgasm always increases dopamine levels resulting in a short sense of euphoria
[12:42:38 AM] stardust: euphoria is not happiness
[12:42:50 AM] nobody: it the only happiness i can find these days
[12:42:57 AM] nobody: im afraid to think
[12:43:02 AM] nobody: because i might find out
[12:43:08 AM] nobody: how depressing life is
[12:43:18 AM] stardust: life isent depressing
[12:43:44 AM] stardust: you dont need to worry
[12:43:44 AM] nobody: yes it is
[12:43:48 AM] stardust: im here
[12:43:55 AM] stardust: your honored, im talking to you
[12:44:05 AM] stardust: it shows i think your intelligent
[12:44:07 AM] nobody: 3:
[12:44:17 AM] nobody: you are too good to talk to me
[12:44:26 AM] nobody: im nothing but a filthy whore
[12:44:51 AM] stardust: your soul is petrified
[12:44:57 AM] stardust: that is all
[12:45:04 AM] stardust: its driven you to do silly things
[12:45:35 AM] nobody: ;-;
[12:45:38 AM] nobody: im scared
[12:45:44 AM] nobody: please dont throw me away
[12:46:13 AM] stardust: what do you mean
[12:46:38 AM] nobody: dont give up on me
[12:46:44 AM] nobody: im sorry
[12:46:52 AM] nobody: o.o and im sorry for being sorry
[12:46:53 AM] nobody: gah
[12:47:00 AM] nobody: i dont know what to say
[12:47:04 AM] nobody: ;-;
[12:47:06 AM] nobody: im
[12:47:08 AM] stardust: no i wont
[12:47:10 AM] nobody: 3:
[12:48:00 AM] stardust: i will only leave if you become too depressing to be around
[12:48:07 AM] stardust: if more nudes of you come out
[12:48:13 AM] nobody: none will
[12:48:13 AM] stardust: or something like that
[12:48:18 AM] nobody: i promise
[12:48:25 AM] nobody: ive become able to say no to it
[12:48:35 AM] nobody: even though its extremely depressing
[12:48:37 AM] stardust: since when
[12:48:45 AM] nobody: since a couple months back
[12:48:58 AM] stardust: lol, no
[12:49:06 AM] stardust: you got naked for andre a couple of days ago
[12:49:12 AM] nobody: since the last nnude pic posted
[12:49:23 AM] nobody: no new nudes have been taken
[12:49:27 AM] stardust: and a couple of days ago, you were whoreself on cam
[12:49:38 AM] nobody: its not nearly as bad
[12:49:48 AM] nobody: i say no to most things
[12:49:57 AM] nobody: but it makes me feel bad to do so
[12:49:57 AM] stardust: i meant , getting naked for ppl... dressing in skimpy clothes
[12:50:16 AM] stardust: your mom , hurt you... dont let it destroy yourlife
[12:50:22 AM] stardust: the people you surrender to
[12:50:30 AM] stardust: deserve nothing from you
[12:50:45 AM] nobody: they deserve everything
[12:50:48 AM] nobody: why wouldnt they
[12:50:54 AM] nobody: im worse than dirt
[12:51:05 AM] nobody: it makes me feel bad to not do things
[12:51:10 AM] nobody: even though i know im human
[12:51:17 AM] nobody: i feel like im an object
[12:51:28 AM] nobody: when people ask me to do things
[12:51:32 AM] nobody: i should do them
[12:51:35 AM] nobody: when i dont
[12:51:37 AM] nobody: i m bad
[12:51:43 AM] nobody: it makes me upset to be bad
[12:51:48 AM] nobody: i want to be good
[12:51:55 AM] nobody: but i cant
[12:51:59 AM] nobody: because
[12:52:07 AM] nobody: I need to say no to things
[12:53:07 AM] stardust: yes, youve learned
[12:53:08 AM] stardust: through great pain
[12:53:13 AM] stardust: to , say yes to everything
[12:53:40 AM] nobody: i dont want to disappoint people
[12:53:42 AM] nobody: its scary
[12:53:47 AM] nobody: i dont want people to get mad
[12:53:54 AM] nobody: please dont get mad at me
[12:53:56 AM] nobody: im sorry
[12:53:58 AM] stardust: you feel they have the same power your mom has
[12:54:02 AM] nobody: 3:
[12:54:09 AM] stardust: if you dont do what they want
[12:54:24 AM] stardust: the same pain your mom gives you, they will give
[12:54:43 AM] nobody: ;-;
[12:55:02 AM] nobody: im sorry
[12:55:07 AM] nobody: ive been bad
[12:55:09 AM] nobody: im sorry
[12:55:11 AM] nobody: please
[12:55:14 AM] stardust: your mom is almost out of yourlife now
[12:55:17 AM] stardust: no more tears
[12:55:27 AM] stardust: no more holding your ears, rocking bak and forth
[12:55:52 AM] nobody: its too much
[12:55:56 AM] nobody: i cant do it
[12:56:02 AM] nobody: its too frightening
[12:56:10 AM] nobody: even now im holding in my tear
[12:56:11 AM] nobody: s
[12:56:21 AM] stardust: what scares you
[12:56:21 AM] nobody: im too afraid to make a sound
[12:56:30 AM] nobody: nobody can hear me cry
[12:56:36 AM] nobody: i cant cry
[12:56:40 AM] stardust: mute yourself
[12:56:50 AM] nobody: no i mean
[12:56:56 AM] nobody: the walls here are thin
[12:57:06 AM] nobody: even if i were muted itd be the same
[12:57:27 AM] stardust: hmm
[12:57:38 AM] stardust: try and cry qeuitly
[12:57:47 AM] stardust: you can always cry in your car in the morning
[12:58:00 AM] nobody: i never let a sound come out
[12:58:10 AM] nobody: only tears streak down my cheecks
[12:58:17 AM] nobody: im too afraid to make a noise
[12:58:31 AM] nobody: its because i couldnt let mom hear me
[12:58:36 AM] nobody: she would punish me
[12:58:39 AM] stardust: you are afraid of having to explain why you are crying
[12:58:49 AM] stardust: and of course, you think , your mom might find out
[12:58:53 AM] stardust: that you found out
[12:58:56 AM] stardust: found out
[12:59:05 AM] nobody: 3:
[12:59:05 AM] stardust: that shes evil and has hurt you
[12:59:09 AM] stardust: emotionally scarred you
[12:59:23 AM] stardust: and almost caused you to live in hell
[12:59:28 AM] stardust: forevor
[12:59:33 AM] nobody: 33:
[12:59:44 AM] stardust: ill make sure your moms guilt catches up to her
[12:59:53 AM] stardust: thats my promise
[12:59:53 AM] nobody: <.<
[12:59:56 AM] nobody: how
[1:00:12 AM] stardust: ill say, what you are too afraid to say
[1:00:28 AM] nobody: what is that
[1:00:50 AM] stardust: explain to her , all the things shes done , and how theyve affected you
[1:00:59 AM] nobody: no
[1:01:04 AM] nobody: i cant
[1:01:10 AM] nobody: pleas edont make me
[1:01:17 AM] nobody: D:
[1:01:31 AM] nobody: please
[1:01:40 AM] nobody: ;-;
[1:01:43 AM] nobody: i cant do it
[1:02:02 AM] stardust: has it caused you pain, getting naked for so many people
[1:02:12 AM] stardust: and then the persona youve had to act out
[1:02:19 AM] nobody: yes ;-;
[1:02:27 AM] stardust: its your moms fault
[1:02:47 AM] nobody: i cant tell her what ive done
[1:02:57 AM] nobody: she would make my life a nightmare
[1:03:00 AM] stardust: the reason you were too petrified to move, when those boys accosted you
[1:03:06 AM] stardust: was becuz of her
[1:03:20 AM] nobody: i
[1:03:26 AM] nobody: i cant let her know
[1:03:29 AM] nobody: what she did
[1:03:41 AM] nobody: she would make my life so much worse
[1:03:44 AM] stardust: you just have to understand yourself
[1:03:49 AM] nobody: shell find a way
[1:03:57 AM] stardust: i promise , ill say all this to her, whenever i can
[1:04:00 AM] stardust: ill crush her
[1:04:03 AM] stardust: :)
[1:04:06 AM] nobody: how
[1:04:14 AM] nobody: will u find her to tell her
[1:04:25 AM] stardust: i will visit you eventually
[1:04:36 AM] stardust: and ill have a lill chat with her
[1:04:42 AM] nobody: oh please dont
[1:04:51 AM] nobody: please
[1:04:52 AM] stardust: yes
[1:04:55 AM] stardust: i will
[1:04:57 AM] nobody: nooo you cant
[1:04:59 AM] nobody: ;-;
[1:05:01 AM] nobody: please
[1:05:13 AM] nobody: she could do so many terrible things to you
[1:05:17 AM] nobody: you dont understand
[1:05:21 AM] stardust: oh like what
[1:05:30 AM] nobody: have you thrown in jail
[1:05:34 AM] stardust: wow
[1:05:35 AM] nobody: have you sued
[1:05:37 AM] stardust: how is that
[1:05:42 AM] nobody: any number of things
[1:05:47 AM] nobody: shed find a way
[1:05:52 AM] nobody: she would
[1:05:59 AM] nobody: she would trick you
[1:06:03 AM] stardust: lol
[1:06:07 AM] stardust: no one tricks me
[1:06:12 AM] nobody: she would make you think shee was a good mommy
[1:06:15 AM] nobody: and i was a bad kid
[1:06:17 AM] nobody: i
[1:06:22 AM] stardust: i would see you first
[1:06:22 AM] nobody: please dont believe her
[1:06:28 AM] nobody: please
[1:06:29 AM] stardust: reasure myself
[1:06:40 AM] nobody: what if i am a bad kid
[1:06:43 AM] nobody: i am a bad kid
[1:06:51 AM] nobody: mom was only trying to help me
[1:06:59 AM] nobody: she was only doing what was best
[1:07:10 AM] stardust: no, they kept you inside
[1:07:10 AM] nobody: ;-;
[1:07:22 AM] stardust: made you afraid , to go further than around the corner
[1:07:34 AM] stardust: made you feel inferior your whole life
[1:07:49 AM] nobody: yes