Blade says
I'm sorry for going off on you both
and making a spetacle of it in faction chat
however I stand by some of the points I brought to light
I hope you've both learned from last night's experience
if you haven't, please do a little reading on PW classes/builds/FC
I'm not going to be ridiculously angry at you anymore
but I am very
very
disappointed
Viper is a family faction
When you see me ask someone to do something that's beneficial to their health
I'd like to be backed up about it
I'd like to go to bed
having faith in the people I've let into my family will do what I hope they will
G u m b y ™ says
Thanks.
Blade says
Sinz, I shouldn't have to worry about you like you're a little girl
yet I end up having to anyway then preaching like an angry father when you don't do what I ask
You asked me to start eating better
G u m b y ™ says
Im sorry for being over dramatic. And making drama.
Blade says
I'd like to see you try to take care of yourself better too, it's not a one way street
I'm sorry for retaliating against you
when I feel my position of power/authority is threatened I get on the defensive and I will try to knock you down a few steps
G u m b y ™ says
I know its not right of me, and I know it isnt the best way to handle it. But when I get talked down on when im talking calmy and nicely I dont like it.
I try.
Really
REALLY hard to make you like me as it is.
You know me Jinx.
You know my shitty self esteem.
Blade says
I know
G u m b y ™ says
I honestly dont feel you like me.
I dont.
Blade says
and you understand I'm aggressive as Hell
I do like you
you just made me angry sassing
And I love you Sinz, but you should honestly know things that apparentely you haven't
G u m b y ™ says
When I sit here and try really hard to be friends with you. And to make it so you trust me.
Blade says
I feel partly to blame
so I'm cracking down on your learning, we're going to start reviewing things more
otaku_works@cebridge.net says
If you hadn't noticed, I've been starting characters in different classes to learn about them...
Blade says
You have, but you've still got more to learn
you're getting near end game
I have to make you start expanding your horizons on learning
the FC situation was okay for someone like Ashley to not get
G u m b y ™ says
Jinx, I want you to know I feel scared to come to you about how Im feeling.
Blade says
though she could do with some reading too
G u m b y ™ says
I felt I should tell you.
I get scared when I feel something
because if I tell you it could potentially start a fight.
I dont want to feel like that, I shouldnt have to feel scared to come to you.
Blade says
A good way to do that is to speak through Haji
G u m b y ™ says
I am.
Blade says
Haji is my pacifest usually
G u m b y ™ says
I went to haji and started venting and I feel 100x better now.
Blade says
Sinz and I are both tempermental
G u m b y ™ says
I hate fighting with you.
I hate feeling nervous about telling you "Hey, that hurt my feelings."
I have to do that with my parents. And I hate it.
Blade says
You'll have to either calmly approach me about it
G u m b y ™ says
I really really REALLY dont like walking on eggshellls
Blade says
in whispers
DON'T make me think you're trying to instigate me/question my authority
G u m b y ™ says
I try to do that.
Which is why i clarify that im not trying to fight
Im just telling you how i feel
otaku_works@cebridge.net says
Friendship isn't built on authority ya know. Just saying.
Blade says
Yes
but like it or not
I am the faction leader
when you start on the attack on me in the middle of faction chat
it causes a bad effect
otaku_works@cebridge.net says
You started that one, not me.
Blade says
I started that one fueled by Ashley
G u m b y ™ says
I know Jinx. I try to tell you outside PW
I only retaliated because I got attitude when I felt I didnt deserve it.
Blade says
That's because it was public
Sorry but i've got a dick and ego to match it, I will try to alpha male it and not be backed down
I don't know how to be gentle or easy about those things
G u m b y ™ says
I know its hard for you with your temper Jinx, but could you maybe try to work on telling me/Sinz/whoever to take it to msn or whispers instead of lashing out at us..?
Blade says
I was never taught hwo
otaku_works@cebridge.net says
He's not gonna do that.
G u m b y ™ says
You know me Jinx, I hate fighting. But if it comes down to it I will talk back.
Blade says
All my life I've been around abusive, angry, screaming older men
G u m b y ™ says
Okay but that doesnt mean you cant try to change it now. D:
Blade says
I never realize I'm acting like they are till I sit back after it's done and just think
G u m b y ™ says
I want to help.
I really do.
I sat here.
And cried because i felt like I did not matter.
And as over dramatic as that may sound.
Its how  felt.
how i*
Blade says
If you and Sinz didn't matter I wouldn't have apologized
or even considered you worth fussing at
Iw ould have booted you both
and never looked back
you unfortunately know I know how to say goodbye to people I'm zero impressed with
G u m b y ™ says
yeah.
I know.
Blade says
I don't like that part about me but sometimes it's saved my ass
there's people I miss a bit
but won't go back
Don't let yourselves become on that list
I'm doing my damnest not to let you be on that list
do your part and make it easier on me
G u m b y ™ says
I try not to. Its hard when if I make the tiniest mistake I get knocked back down to zero
Blade says
That's because you're not working with much to begin with
You were doing good though lately
I was impressed I admit
I was even shocked
G u m b y ™ says
Why? because Im playing PW?
Blade says
Because you're playing PW and being social with us
G u m b y ™ says
Im an insane social butterfly once i come out of my shell.
I talk your ear off.
Blade says
I was really proud of Sinz too
probably why it hurt me so bad about last night which led me to over-react
G u m b y ™ says
I was talking to Sinz and the others earlier
About how ocne I get high enough
otaku_works@cebridge.net says
I was just cocky.
G u m b y ™ says
Im going to want to FC
All.
the time
All the time
every dau
*y
Blade says
a seeker would be nice for pulls
we have one who can be your 'sensei' when she's back
G u m b y ™ says
But, if you could do me a huge favor. I'd really appreciate if you let me know Im not being a bother.
I know that sounds annoying.
Blade says
you're only being a bother when you back talk me in fac chat
>>
G u m b y ™ says
yeah i apoogize.
and i only back talk when i get treated meanly D:
its a two way street hun
You cant expect me to just sit back and take abuse...
I did that enough with Jiji. D:
And my family.
I dont like coming to the one place I go to get away from it all and dealing with it there.
Blade says
I'll work on learning to not be so abusive
G u m b y ™ says
I would really really like that.
Blade says
faction leaders shouldn't be so aggressive as I am
G u m b y ™ says
Ive tried not to be so sensitive.
I try and shrug certain things off :<
Blade says
and Sniz you know I hate the quiet
otaku_works@cebridge.net says
Yeah I know.
Blade says
are you gonna sit here sulking instead of trying to talk this out?
otaku_works@cebridge.net says
I was letting Ai get out the things she was saying.
G u m b y ™ says
Im good, so you can speak now Sinz
otaku_works@cebridge.net says
That's the other thing. I dunno what to say.
G u m b y ™ says
I had that problem when he first brought me in
I didnt know what tosay either.
Because part of me was still angry.
And thought it was unfair that even after I apoligized I got told to let it go because it doesnt matter what i say basically. D:
But I decided being angry was pointless
Blade says
I did't mean it like that
I meant stop discussing it in fac chat
G u m b y ™ says
And a waste of the very little energy as it is.
Blade says
cause withotu telling you I was gonna bring it into msn
G u m b y ™ says
*very little energy I have
Blade says
XD /thinks you're psychic
G u m b y ™ says
Nooo sorry hun
Also
I have a bit of a shorter temper
Just fyi.
Im sick
Blade says
I've got kids bugging me and behind me atm
watching megamind
mad cause I won't let them touch my new Wii
G u m b y ™ says
Nice.