The moment I heard the confession of love, what should be called the shock through the whole body of Subaru?

From the top of the head to the toe of the foot, the illusion that lightning penetrated through struck Subaru.
A feeling that boils as the blood in the blood vessels in the body boils to the emotional feeling of the skin like whole body pores have opened. Vermillion dyed from the neck to the beating of the high chest, Subaru retreats with a rough expiration.

As it is, you can not stand in this place.
When I stand here, my breath will arrive. My fingertips will arrive.
If the reason does not open the distance within pushing the instinct, the brakes will not work.
If it does so, Subaru will be swept away by "love" -.

"Stop……"

"I love you"

"please stop……"

"I continue to love you, only you, forever"

"I'm telling you to stop - but! -"

Swinging his head and paying his arms, Subaru diverts his consciousness from a hot gaze that entangles.
Still, the expression of Satella in front is not visible to Subaru. Therefore, Subaru does not know what kind of heat her gaze is looking at and watching Subaru.
Even though it should be, the hot beating to hit Subaru's breasts did not seem to stop quite at once.

Subaru kept his heart in mind by consciously suppressing them, raising voices desperately, and pointing out refusing to spit out blood.
Literally, unless we continue to strive to preserve consciousness, we are confident that the root of our existence will be distorted. It was a fantastic imagination, too.

Satera stood standing still behind Subaru who acted as revealing such refusal, disgusting so much and hitting that fact.
I can not understand its invisible expression, its expression wrapped in the dark veil. Although it should not be understood, in Subaru Satellite knows that he was hurt by the words of the current Subaru, and would have dared to turn his eyes off. Somewhere in my mind I want to gently stroke my hair, apply words of comfort to my grievous profile, whisper my love and make me smile.

Even though I have denied so much, my heart has continued to appeal "Let's Love" Satella.

"Sama ... ... What are you !? what did I put in my body? Like the seed of" returning to death ", are you taking anything to manipulate my mind !?"

Subaru hits Satella with his mind that does not obey his will, its distrust.
My heart that I came here and began to show a reaction beyond understanding abruptly. If a witch with supernatural power interferes with his strong feelings, that's too bad.

Distorting a person's mind at will, such as - it is the lowest action of a man or less.

For Natsuki / Subaru, the first light that we got in this world is "love for Emilia".
For Subaru who was not even able to rely on fumbling, there was an obligation to Emilia who first extended his hand in a dilemma, and a memory that was saved even by the wearing heart was saved now without fading her It keeps keeping.
While being overwhelmed by the loop's repetition of "death" as a starting point, while struggling with solitary conflicts, overcoming various difficulties, things that I want to protect and important are increasing and words in their interaction with them Subaru has increased the things that Subaru has accumulated through his thoughts.
It is no longer a lie to say that only Emilia's thought is the driving force now.
But for Natsuki / Subaru the first light was Emilia, though. Satera forces Subaru to "romance" equivalent to what Emilia holds.

In spite of the words interchanged, the warmth that we touched, the time we spent together, and the bonds we had accumulated, we are trying to rob the "affection" only despite the relationship between each other.

Do not say this to be hideous, what you say.

"You, Ekidona ... ... I am doing it! Here is ... here ... Here it is all they can not understand! I am tired of it!"

Subaru raises a voice without hiding disgust, to a witch of white hair standing behind the witch who can not see the face standing in front.
Both Satella, which forces affection without content, and Ekidona, which tries to get others involved with curiosity that can never be sympathized with an ordinary person, are both monsters beyond Subaru's understanding.

"It is out of the question to be with it, even if you treat it as a witch, from a moment it is a vulgar existence below a witch, although it is not wrong to judge that it can not be understood."

"Let me get out of my way, I'm swinging I am kind, I will forget your viciousness ... ... Alright there is nothing meaning to be here.Please go out outside, I am already involved with you I do not want to be fit! "

Cursing the words of Ekidna, while holding a head Subaru pleads for release from the castle of a dream.
I do not want to have another second before Satella and Ekidona. There are so many things to do about Subaru, and it is not the case that we are increasing the contents here now.
For myself who are smart and not universal, there is a limit to the content that can be processed. Although the obstacles that have already exceeded their tolerance limits are standing up, why is the problem added next to next?

"I will not borrow your hands, I will deal with all of the problems outside - that's fine! From the beginning I should do that ..."

"Well, repeat to death, making people cry," excuse me for excuses "This is amazing."

To the Subaru which arranges the words of a break, Minerva, who's arms up, told me so to make a nose. When Subaru gazes with just the line of sight, Minerva gets its clear face red,

"What, are you going to reply something?"

"There is something to do with you, whether it hurts, it suffers, it gets scratched, wears down, it wears out, it's all my problem, it is a matter of truth to you Haha "

"The side to say is comfortable, because you are prepared for pain and pain and painful, you do not have to worry. As the meat breaks and the bone breaks as blood spits out, as the side watching it thinks what you are thinking Even the excuses can be used all the time that I am responsible for the toughest place "

"What did you say……!?"

"If you take on a flashy wound that you can see better than anyone and you can see it, you will not have to tell anyone who receives small wounds in the aftermath of your action, because you are the most painful Because you are the most painful, because you are the hardest person ... ... It's natural to contain the weak sounds around you. "

Subaru also strikes Minerva as his indignation will accumulate in his mouth, Minerva will become stronger. I can not but refute with Subaru, as it is said to be full of malice.

"I do! Would you like to say that I am drunk by the tragedy to enclose everyone's words! I wonder if my current dead end is doing for that directing !?"

"Separately, that's not the case, but the conclusion is cowardly that" I do not want to hurt anyone more than anyone. "I do not think how ekidona's belly blackness is, and I can not understand the circumference of Satella, but ... I , Your distortion is much worse than a witch. "

"----"

"From anything, from the way I live by hitting everything that gets scratched, your way of living is a natural enemy rather than a counterpart - this girl does not pay too much for that."

Piercing a small fist against Subaru, Minerva tells his stomach roughly. Then I added a little misunderstanding to the end of the word, and its blue eyes were directed to Satella standing side by side.
Satella who is standing all the time keeps silence for a while since Subaru's insults are bathed in. Neither affirm nor denial will not display intention to the current exchange. As I miss that thing, Minerva faintly narrowed my eyes.

But, for now Subaru does not care about fluctuations in their emotions.

"I feel bad ... ... can not pay off ...?"

Capturing Minerva's verbal tail, the Subaru's shoulder looking downwards trembles small. Shiver trembled soon and Subaru was laughing when he raised his face.
It was way too foolish and I could not help laughing.

"Why is it so bad, anything bad, why did I choose to do this kind of way, why did I come to do distorted thinking that you said. Way of thinking, if it is from what I can have is a natural consequence - maybe so "

"----"

"You guys! I did it like this!"

Subaru cracks anger against Satella trying to escape from responsibility by shouting and keeping silence.
Subject to accepting "returning to death", using that characteristic to overcome obstacles, Subaru has run through so much while striking various hardships.
Subaru has run through so far, transforming the desperation of 'death' that has been tasted many times as we take it into the soul.

- Experience full of scratches on that Natsuki / Subaru made Subaru arrive at that idea.

"Everything is scratching and suffering! Everything is all I am! It's all alone, everything is okay! I gotta push my teeth and I kill everything with anger and sadness, I feel painful and painful dead Even though, I will not let anyone reach the fingertips of that despair! Only I was hurt from the beginning to the end, so it would be fine! What is wrong!

By repeating "returning to death", you can find out the way to get the best at the end of trial and error. Ekidona said as well. You can not ride on Ekidona's invitation to take that preparedness to satisfy your curiosity, but just continue to challenge similar things like that.
Unlike Echidna, which is trying to make extra detours, Subaru's number of retrials pouring heartfelt into searching for the best way must be far less than going with Ekidona. Of course it was imaginable that it would still be a tremendous number of times. However, it is worth challenging.

If the future without having to hurt anyone is beyond the extended hands of Subaru full of bruises.

"I could not understand, I said I was disgusted, I said somewhere ago: Oh, I was bad, I was bad, there was no lie even for a single piece to that feeling, but I forgotten that. Forgotten, it was a good place to forgive, I am. "

"----"

"There is only one thing I appreciate you from me, thank you for letting me" return to death. "I appreciate only this.If this is not the case I have never protected anything important. I continue to rely on power, so I thank you only for this. "

There is already prepared to continue trying for trial & error.
The options to escape from the fate of being standing in front of my eyes are crushed in the old days.

From that time he was rejected Subaru 's words to take his hand and to escape together.
There are no options to escape. We have to continue fighting. He swore it. She also expects it to Subaru. I believe. Subaru will not run away, keep fighting.
If the man keeping up is Subaru, otherwise Subaru can not continue to be the hero of Rem.

"So, I thank you only for this power you gave me, thanks to anything unclean like me, the situation I got stuck ... ...."

"- DO NOT"

"Situation ... ...."

Sarah muttered something to Subaru who was convulsing so as to exhale the heat accumulated in the chest, as it suddenly broke the silence.
With one end as his ears, Subaru's word's momentum slows. Strengthen your face, Subaru asks for your misunderstanding again.
Now, what have you said? Just like being something that I do not want to hear.

In a breathtaking Subaru, Satella went through a silence for a while, once again.

"- Do not cry, do not hurt, do not suffer, do not make a sad face"

Salla whispered to Subaru as he appealed.
Subaru's heart trembles with passion in its contents. It was anger, it was a surprise, there was not any feelings I could not understand and it was a mix.

"Oh, well ... ... that ... ...."

The vortex of emotion is too big, I do not know what to say.
My throat is obstructed by passion, Subaru opens his mouth and closes, I am amazed at Satela.

Satella still keeps trembling the Subaru's ups and downs.

"So love me."

"け, っ っ く く そ か ... Well, you do, do twist and bend my feelings, so it's only a matter of ultimately doing that to love yourself ... in such a word ..."

"--Wrong"

Saber shakes trembling Subaru's words, shaking his head sideways.
I still can not see the expression. However, in Subaru, the expression of Satella behind that dark book kept us aware of what we were looking at.
- Satera, she now, Subaru.

"- Love yourself more"

I'm sure I'm staring at a kind - hearted face.


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It took a long time to swallow the meaning of the transmitted word and to penetrate it into the brain.
It was the waves of emotional shivering trembling that shaped SUBARU 's heart immediately after they infiltrated the brain.

"What ... ... to say, go ahead"

"... ... Please do not hurt, cherish yourself more"

"I guess you gave me the power to" return to death, "but this power you gave me a way to go ahead and do it."

"- I love you, So also, you also love and protect you"

"If I take this way out of me with my own affection, say what I will leave !!"

Subaru screaming to reject Satela whispering love endlessly, putting his hand on his chest,

"I do not even know! I do not have any power! There is no wisdom, no technology, no special power! There is nothing special There is nothing I have is only" return to death "that you gave If so, then there is only my life to pay me! "

"Do not be sad."

"I'm pretending that it will hurt my eyes as I feel pain, I can do that, it's okay! If only I am painful, I can do that!"

"Do not suffer"

"If I got scratched more than anyone, I would have experienced more than anyone, and if I stumbled so that I could protect everyone, nobody would not feel painful for anyone! I do not want it! "

"do not Cry"

"Whatever happens to me, what do you want to do?" Nobody cares about what happened to someone like me! I wonder how much I felt so bad, if everyone could reach the future without fail , So ... ... "

Because if Subaru does so and keeps on scratching on the front line -

"If anyone will not miss it, if the future will be greeted, then ... ..."

- Moreover, you may lose someone in a place where irrevocable.

"...... There is no rem."

"----"

"If I am smarter, I have more power, I will not spare myself more, if I put my body at the top ... ... it should have been avoided"

The feeling of loss at that time, the feeling of hopelessness ties Natsuki Subaru all the time.
So, Subaru did not think about relying on anyone, he chose to continue to fight with scratches alone. He believed that it was the most correct to do so.

"I do not believe it ... I guess there is any way I can do it ... I do not believe it ..."

"Returning to death" is a means to solve everything.
If I could just use it well, Subaru would not have to lose nothing.
Believe that, let me tell you, if you do not convince yourself that it is necessary to get hurt, why can you challenge again that feeling of hopelessness?

"I ... .... No, I do not want anyone to lose like Rem.

Embracing his head, Subaru rejects everything heard and screams.
If I noticed it, I was getting into the ground unnoticed. Even forgetting to leave Satella, he escapes to his own shell and becomes smaller and Subaru denies sweet whispers.
It is poison. It is toxic. For Subaru, the presence of Satella is a poison that everything is trying to dissolve.

Subaru's heart, which he ought to have sworn, cracks if he can not be frustrated.
The cold despair that plugs in from the cracked gap revives the feeling of loss on that day and makes Subaru's rare heart.

"Children are not there,"

Speechless, I heard a muttering voice.

I cried and came out stubbornly with the conclusion I put out alone, watching Subaru shaking his head unwillingly, the witch who kept silence until then murmured.

"Crying, crying, I am afraid I do not want you to hate it all, hold them all by yourself ...... It's like this"

"----"

"- It is not a child, alone."

In a compassionate voice Sekumet reputed his present Subaru so.
The witches who are silent about Secret's muttering will not deny it.

Its appearance is too, the word of the current "witch of laziness" was too sharp.
The way that Subaru is now is that it seems to be weak and small child enough to be seen and pathetic.

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