Snowman 10:11 pm
    But also I meant to tell you.
    I'm finally developing my own opinions on sexuality and my faith and
    Guys it was interesting I realized I don't have to always go along with my parent's beliefs on sexuality
    I can think whatever I want :0
    It's very shocking and freeing 80

 Snowman 10:11 pm
    Not that my parent's have ever forced anything but I realized, I can do what I want???
    It's my mind.
    And I can make my own decisions, what i support, what I belive in.
    It's a very interesting feeling for a girl who always went along with what m y parent's said.
    There was a lot of conflict in MYSELF if I disagred with them
    They were always pretty good?? LIke I always have agred with them
    But recently I would beat myself up if I didn't!

 Spades Slick 10:12 pm
    omg I shed a tear

 Snowman 10:12 pm
    And tonight I realized, I don't have to. My parent's are great.
    But I can believe what I want.

 Spades Slick 10:12 pm
    you're growing up

 Snowman 10:12 pm
    I am. I'm not like
    TOSSES FAITH ANDIDEAS ABOUT POLITICS AND SEXUALITIES AND THE GOVERNMENT AND PEOPLE OUT THE WINDOW
    But I'm like, wow, I can think different things??
    And I realized tonight that
    crap I'm crying sorry um
    My entire life, I've always wanted to like
    Spread good cheer, and be a 'good Christian' and make people realize not all of them are close minded
    I just wanted to help people
    and I fell into a depression and I hated myself

 Snowman 10:13 pm
    17 years wasted on what? I've turned into a mess.
    Tonight I realized, I'm nto a mess.
    People listen to me.
    I have my beliefs and opinioons.
    People LIKE AND RESPECT ME.
    I'm not a failure !

    I didn't fail at what I wanted to do.

 Spades Slick 10:14 pm
    iiiiiiiiiiiii told you counseling would be good and so did dj

 Snowman 10:14 pm
    I'm alright, and everything is going to be fine because I'm remebering what I've wanted to be and realizing everything is good.
    I know I know.
    Hehehehe.
    I'm so excited you don't even know
    And I realized like...
    Wow.
    God has a plan for my life. I have a plan for my life.
    My family loves and supports me.
    My friend's don't hate me.
    They've helped me through all these steps, everything.
    They never hated me , and they stuck through it all.
    And I've lost a few, but so what? That's life.
    I'm here now and I'm still breathing and I'm happy.

 Spades Slick 10:15 pm
    Good.