memento mori

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Aoat2cqpBI

lost in time, lost in space,
fuck the world, fuck the days

days spend worrying would we make it
days spend worrying what we were

screw their labels screw their feelings

their thoughts misguided, caskets sealing

fuck all the noise and the doubt and the peace

we will go hard on this world our inner sanctum release

and peace will befall us and silence will come

but just for this one night ill just go numb


remember the days that i said that i loved you

remember the time that you werent alone

remember my feelings and the heart that i gave

now forget all of that and be finally saved


passive peaceful protest to passive plethora of sheep
morning makes memories too majestically magnificently deep
and what will we do while we weightlessly row
in a collective chaotic canal of connected concepts, ironic

ironic that a mind that just wanted magnificent peace
is forced to suffer eternally burning up piece by piece
ironic how loneliness feels like a door with no key
looking through so many hoping that just one fits me

ironic how even when i was sure i found the perfect one
i manage to lose it and burn it and throw it into the sun
ironic how nothing can save me and i dont even care
ironic how losing the key made me stop thinking its fair

i joked about karma owing me while knowing its not there
and yet maybe one day it will repay me and give some to spare
maybe one day ill be happy and be at peace with no noise
or maybe one day ill be the target of that which destroys

remember the darkness within us

remember how i did not bring any light

remember how i wanted to revel in shadow

remember how by leaving i wallow

and know that my darkness only grew stronger

know that my hate only grew deeper

know that my apathy comes from pain

pain that  becomes anger becomes hate becomes noise i
no longer avoid it or want it gone i
revel in it burning it up till im done
done with life and done with pain
done with inner sanctum slain

i wont ever die fuck that

but i will forever bring noise closer to my habitat

peaceful protest to inner sanctum near
no longer lovely instead bringing fear
psychopathy pathologically practicing pain
apathy analytically analyzing ail
constant eternal flux of soul
and only music now removes fire from coal

remember your pain

remember to surpass it

remember to leave darkness be

remember to let them see

let them see who you are you beautiful thing
piece of art carved in soul go sing!
sing to these people you angel fallen
but fallen not into hell crestfallen
at most. wings may be scorched
but your face is still perfect and body unharmed
chin up, shoulders up, spirit up stay calmed

and remember to leave the darkness
and remember to forget me
and remember to stay happy
fuck your past fuck karma be your own destiny
take control as you do so often
stop panicking over every doubt lost in
worry and fear and paranoia eternal
release yourself from prison internal

no solutions are given no do this fix that

none of them work we both know that

but remember my words and my peace

remember how to let the noise cease

youre no longer a wolf but not near to a sheep
but now what you sowed so graciously you must reap
take the fruit of a tree built upon rain
growing from soot that was key to pain
ashes fertilize soil, burning helps growth
and as we spiral and coil it helps us both

remember how you thought i cared too much?

remember how you were afraid as such?

remember how i couldnt ever say no

well its because i wished you well you know