Jolan'tru Fvillhu tr'Hlaveen,

This communication is by no means simple for me to write. Let me first tell
you the tale of how I came to be a lloannen'galae officer. My youth before the
Kiitha, I trained to be a Priestess of the Ihhuein as my hru'nanov was before
me and her ri'nanov before her and many more.  I had taken my full vows and
lived a life guided by the purity of the Ihhuein and spent my youth teaching
the ways of the Elements and attending to the spiritual needs of my hfihar.
After the Shiar joined the Galaxy alliance, I called to serve the Kiitha and
soon was traded to lloannen'galae.

lloannen'galae sent me to additional schooling on Terrha and did their best to
create in me an officer that would be beneficial to both the Shiar and
lloannen'galae.  When the Shiar's succession bill passed, orders were coming
to all former Shiar officers... every one.  Yet, I had no orders to return
home. Orders never came, lloannen'galae brought me on fully.  At first, I
thought that perhaps the Tal'Shiar had a plan and that I would be left and
scooped up one day in the future.

I prepared myself for this day, but that day never came.  Then one day in
2393, the greatest tragedy that could possibly strike happened.  Not only had
I learned that my family had been murdered on the d'Mnhiea Outpost but as were
over 1,500 of my rian... most devastatingly... I heard you were. When tr'Aegis
took power, the Shiar changed.  It was no longer the great Shiar I was proud
of.  tr'Aegis was not the great leader that you were and several of my rian
from s'Tei as well as myself had decided we would not serve this man.  So in
lloannen'galae we stayed and vang'radams s'Tei became, now as I hear barely
even a noble hfihar and muted in the Dehuit.  There were open threats from
tr'Aegis that s'Tei were vang'radams and were no better than the Yikh we were
living and serving amongst.

Twelve years rekkai.

Twelve years have I spent within Galaxy Alliance space.  Twelve years my soul
weeped for my home on ch'Rihan.  Twelve years my heart ached for the company
of a fellow Rihannsu.  Elements forgive my bluntness, but twelve years have I
lived and believed I would live till death without taking a hru'fir or bearing
children of Rihannsu blood.

If I were asked yesterday, "lhhei do you feel that you are a vang'radam?"  By
the Elements, my Mnhei'sahe would have me say no. I serve no fake Fvillhu and
am not a citizen of an Shiar that leaves a coward opportunist like tr'Aegis in
power.  Yesterday rekkai, had you asked me if I were proud of how I lived my
life.  I would have told you ie, I am proud. Everything I surrounded myself
with in my private life was a celebration and reminder of the twins and the
Elements.

Twelve years rekkai have I remained the deeply spiritual Rihannha that I was
as a Priestess. Twelve years ago, I prayed for your safe passage to
Vor'ta'vor.  Twelve years ago, mnhei'sahe demanded I be my own Rihannsu by any
means possible, but never under a coward like tr'Aegis.

Yesterday is not Today rekkai.  Today, was the day that you rekkai forced me
to look upon the past twelve years with quite a different eye.  Today I wept.
Today, was the day that you rekkai turned my life into a dichotomy. Today you
offered Amnesty and I watched the acting leaders of the Tal'Shiar and the
Galae forgive me of my treason and opened your arms to take me as a rian once
more.

I will not dishonour with lies Fvillhu.  Your legend deserves more respect
than that, which is why I tell you that my heart is torn.  Twelve years rekkai
have I spent with the lloannen'galae and I was treated like one of them.
Regardless of tensions with the Empire under tr'Aegis, they took me in.
Twelve years have I been treated like family within lloannen'galae.

Though as I sit out here, so many lightyears away... I cannot help but ask
myself what do I do?  Do I go home, to the home of my ancestors and my blood
or do I stay where my career and the past twelve years of my life has been.
Perhaps it is only a question because I am here now. I face that which I am to
give up and ch'Rihan is just as far away as it has been for twelve years when
I believed I would never feel her again.

That is why rekkai, I beg upon the Elements that you allow me to return to
ch'Rihan without making a commitment to stay.  If you permit it and allow me
safe passage both ways then I vow to you this.  If I set foot on ch'Rihan and
know that it is time to stay, I will stay without hesitation and join the
galae or any service requested upon me by yourself rekkai.  Yet, if I go back
to the lloannen'galae, I accept that I am no longer Rihannsu and will drop all
right to be s'Tei called.  I will be one without a hfihar forever and should
you meet me in battle, my life is yours.

Please consider my request.
lhhei Ael'Ihhuein i-Mhiessan t'Tei