I don't feel too bad about the last trip. I enjoyed it and I am glad that you enjoyed it, I just thought it could have been better, i guess.

I would guess this trip will make things more awkward rather than less but you never know. I hope you do not quit discord or anything over it, but once again, I hope that you do whatever you feel you need to do in order to be happy.

I don't really know how i feel about the idea of being physical either. It probably depends on the degree. There is some apprehension and of course a lot of uncomfortable awkwardness but despite that I am still open to the idea of trying it and seeing how it goes. I don't have a lot of desire to engage in those sorts of things but its not like i am really put off by the idea either, and it is nice to experience new things.

I feel like there is more to express but I am pretty tired emotionally and notihng else is coming easily so i will leave it at that for now. If there's anything you want to ask me or to have me clarify my feelings on and etc. then feel free to do so, and I'll do the same for you.