Damien Stoneham

[Full name] Damien Stoneham
[Nicknames] Damien Stoner. Dami.
[Preferred name] Dami
[Age] 22
[Gender] Male
[Pronouns] He/him
[Romantic/Sexual orientation] Bisexual (still questioning + closeted)

[Ethnicity] Irish (what if they were like distantly related???)
[Nationality] American
[Place of birth] Atlanta, Georgia
[Date of birth] 11th April
[Occupation] Drug dealer
[Face claim] Angus Cloud
[Backup face claim] n/a (i can't think of anyone that has the same vibe i'm looking for, nobody can match up to THE Angus Cloud)
[Body mods] n/a
[Clothing style] Blue jeans and the most exciting part about his outfits are his jumpers since he loves a colourful jumper. Or else, he'll just go for a simple tracksuit bottom and t-shirt/vest kind of look. Does not really care about fashion that much.

[Personality traits] Sentimental. Impulsive. Attentive. Street smart. Hot headed. Distant. Private. Creative. Easy going. Low maintenance. Crackhead.
[In-depth personality]
Damien tends to feel very strong feelings and so when he cares about something or someone, he gets attached. He tends to be lead by emotion as opposed to reason. It is more common for him to get attached to people than to items and material possessions. As I mentioned before, he is more lead by his emotions than reason and this causes him to behave impulsively and act out as well as this, his BPD causes him to lack control over his emotions. It is because of this that he often gets himself into crappy situations because he blurted something out without thinking first for example. He is that one friend that will buy things just because he saw it and then never use it or that one friend who will run across the road without looking and somehow never get hurt. He tries to be the person that he needs in his life and so he is very attentive and is definitely a listener more than a talker. Having lived by himself for so long, he knows how to look after himself and he knows how to handle difficult or dangerous situations; he also knows how to keep his composure.

Seemingly, the smallest thing can make Damien angry. He is the type to punch a bitch if they say the wrong thing to him and believe me, if you do something to get on the wrong side of him, he will not hesitate to beat your ass. Damien, also tends to be quite withdrawn and tends to keep to himself. He is also a very private person and likes to keep his own private life private. His social media only has no pictures on it and he has quite a small social circle that he likes to keep to. Damien has a very creative mind and this usually comes out in his drawings. He likes to find new and interesting ways to depict parts of his life and when he is not doing anything, he usually has a pencil, paintbrush or spray paint can.

When he is not doing something, he is in a constant state of relaxation. What is the point in doing stuff if you don't have to? He likes to smoke weed and watch movies. It does not take much for him to be in a good mood and you don't need to do much to make him happy; he usually just likes someone's company, even if they don't speak. Damien has times where he just says or does the most random stuff and he will be very serious but people can't help but laugh because of how serious he is.

[Background]
Damien was born and "raised" Atlanta, Georgia. His parents were never together and he was born from a drunken fling. Things seemed to be going well between the couple for the most part, but things were not what they seemed. It turns out that Damien's dad only stayed because his parents told him that he should not leave a pregnant woman because as soon as he was born, his father left. He lived with his mother up until he was 8 years olds. During this time, his mother neglected all of her motherly duties such as caring for him and taking him to school. He stopped going to school when he was six years old meaning that he did not have the basic education that most people his age had.

On his 8th birthday, after begging for a week straight, Damien's mother took him to go an see his father. They all spent the day together and ate food. His mother said that he was going to sleep over at his dad's house, and so Damien got excited. The next day, Damien waited for his mother to pick him up but she didn't come. A week went by, she still hadn't come back. Soon a week turned into a month and a month turned into 5 years.

Dealing with being abandoned was stressful by his mum was stressful and it caused a rift in their relationship as well as his relationship with his father which was never really that good to begin with. His treated him very poorly and it was as if he genuinely did not care for Damien. On a daily basis, he would call Damien names such as 'idiot', 'fool', 'moron' and 'dumb'. Once or twice, it would not be so bad but when it is a daily occurrence for 5 years, it cuts deep. Damien was 13 when his father walked out on him, which would be the second time his father left him and the third time he had been left altogether.

Damien was now living on his own at thirteen years old something he was really not ready for. He met a few guys who were part of the local gang in his area. They noticed his situation and took him under their wing. They would get him cool stuff and hang out with him like he was one of their friends. They would invite him to group hang outs as well. Damien did not know this at the time, but he was actually being groomed. They took advantage of a vulnerable and lonely child in order to get him into the drugs game. Soon enough, they were stashing deliveries in his bag and sending him off to wherever to deliver them.

It quickly became clear to him what they were having him do, he was already in too deep and he had to pay back the gang members for all the gifts they had got him. By the time he had paid the guys back, he was heavily involved and didn't even want to back out, the money he was making was the only thing keeping him from starving and he felt a sense of pride since he was one of their best dealers. Since the gang knew that Damien was living on his own, they decided to move their base to his house, much to Damien's disdain, but unfortunately, he could not say anything.

When Damien was 17, the leader of the gang he was working for, along with a couple of the higher-up members, were killed by a rival gang. He knew everything was about to go to shit and so he managed to steal a decent amount of the drugs that were being kept at his house and ran away. While he was escaping, he was caught by a member of the rival gang. Damien now had a choice, do nothing and be sucked back into the life he hated or fight back; Damien chose the latter. He was looking around for something to fight back with, his eyes caught sight of a gun and so he grabbed it. The gang member seemed unfazed as he saw that Damien's hands were shaking. As he walked closer and reached for something in his pocket, Damien fired, fearing that he was about to pull out a gun. He shot him in the stomach, he died almost instantly. Damien had no time to react to the fact that he just killed someone because he heard more people coming so he just had to go.

He ran to the outskirts of a richer neighbourhood upstate. He knew that this would be his best clientele as a lot of these rich snobs love doing drugs behind the scenes, especially the kids and the politicians. He used the money he had stolen to rent out a small apartment from a shady landlord and began selling his own stash. It was a good business decision to move to this neighbourhood, he had no shortage of clients in this new area so business was good. He has set up base here ever since.

[Likes] Drawing. Painting. Spray painting. Baking. Movies. Smoking weed. House parties.
[Dislikes] School. Talking about his parents. People thinking they know what's best for him. Pity. Drinking. Being underestimated. Insects.
[Hobbies] Watching movies. Learning tricks on his Kendama. Drawing. Baking. Doing haircuts. Spray painting.
[Fears] Fear of abandonment. Entomophobia.
[Strengths] Creative. Go-getter. Driven (when it comes to stuff he cares about). Attentive. Thick skin. Relatable.
[Weaknesses] Impulsive. Hot headed. Distant. Low IQ. Semi-literate.

[Family]
Deborah Raynor / estranged mother
Clifford Stoneham / estranged father

[Okay with a love interest] Yeah~
[Love interest dynamic]
"Flexi dynamic" (i'm sorry but i love that dynamic so much). L/i sees him as more than just a low life drug dealer, sees a more sensitive and intelligent side to him. They bring out his more sensitive side compared to his tougher, more serious side. He gets them to be more confident in themselves and their abilities and worry less about what others think and more about themselves.

"Romeo and Juliet type beat". Damien is a lowlife drug dealer with no education and no future prospects and l/i comes from a reasonably wealthy household with everything going for them. They meet by chance, maybe l/i wants drugs for a party or just to try and they just start talking from there. They bond over common interests and soon enough they are talking all the time however, it has to be in secret since l/i parents would hate to see their child around such company.

"Whirlwind romance". The relationship gets intense quite quickly however it soon fizzles out due to them not working out in the long term.

"Match made in hell". When one drug dealer and one full time drug addict come together, that doesn't sound like it will end well. Nothing good will come out of a relationship like that except for one of them being dependent on the other and growing an unhealthy attachment which is what happened here. Damien is easy access to drugs, when they are both high, nothing else in the world matters

[Platonic dynamics]
"24/7 Stoned". These two do not take life that seriously since they are high most of the time. Never a dull moment between these two and get up to the most random shit when they are with each other. They often don't make the best decisions but who cares, they are having fun and that's all that matters.

"Platonic soulmates". Damien genuinely feels at peace whenever he is around them and he can talk to them about issues that he has without fear of judgement. As cringe as it may sound, the are the sibling that he wish he had and he wishes that he met them earlier on in his life.

"You're not my mum". They are quite close with Damien but they are strongly against him being a drug dealer. Constantly trying to help him find a job, much to the annoyance of Damien and he often gets pissed off at them because he feels that they are looking down on him and trying to baby him and control him. However, when not worrying about what he does for a living, they are really close and hang out a lot. Always trying to stop Damien smoking as it has become a habit for him to just light a blunt out of nowhere.

[Aesthetic] drugs. a pistol. money. smoking with friends. house parties.
[Mental health /10] 6/10

[Mental/medical disorders/illnesses]
1. SEMI-LITERATE. He stopped going to school when he was about 6 years old, his mother did not care enough to take him. At this age, this was a blessing to him; not having to wake up early, not having to do stupid maths or dumb english. However, this started to catch up to him later in life when he realised it would take him a lot longer than other people his age to read stuff and to comprehend text. This was the same with his writing skill and fluency.

2. BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER (BPD). This stemmed from being abandoned by his mother when he was 8 years and then his father when he was 13 years old. He has issues with his perception of people's actions or words and tends to misunderstand people. He also has a habit of acting out impulsively and getting himself into shitty situations. He has a strong fear of abandonment. Furthermore, he really struggles to form strong and healthy relationships and so that is why his relationships don't last more than maybe a month. When alone, he often feels empty and this usually leads him to anything to fill this emptiness, this is usually in the form of drugs.

3. SCHOOL ANXIETY. This developed from when he tried to go back to school to help with his illiteracy however, the environment was difficult to learn in as he was often bullied and made fun of for how slow he was and his inability to read fluently. It got so bad that even thinking of school makes his head spin and makes his palms excessively sweaty. He hates the whole school setting and doesn't see himself going back anytime soon.

[Habits] Biting lip. Rubbing his hand over his head. Cracking knuckles. Bouncing his leg up and down.
[Head cannons/scenes]
- Damien buggin' out on someone for messing up a drug deal
- A high Damien making out with a guy for the first time whilst at a party
- Getting into a fight with someone he doesn't get along and as the fight is about to get physical, Damien pulls out a gun on him
- Someone trying to rob Damien but then he catches the person and basically kidnaps them. Then starts interrogating him and each time they don't answer, he guns bucks them (basically, think Ashtray when interrogating Nate Jacobs' dad)
- Damien beating the shit out of someone (like the scene where Fezco beat the shit out of Nate)

[Extra] n/a
[Playlist]
Miss Summer - Odie
Sober - P!NK
Hold on - The Internet
Stand by me - Ben E. King (🥰)
Pretend - CNCO
Location - Dave, Burna Boy
One love - Justin Bieber (his guilty pleasure song, would die before letting anyone know he likes this song)

[Quotes]
"The only thing I ever done good in is selling drugs, so that's what imma keep doin'"
"If you done lookin' down your nose at me, you can leave"
"I'm just chillin'"
"It's whatever"
"Wassup with you, playboy"

[Password] Sex Education. Elite (even though it is lowkey bad). Sherlock. Blackish. Euphoria.