wild bush

hello
if you are reading this, cool. this is kind of my last note. i sent it to all of my proper friends and cafe. if i missed you, oops haha, but you aren't actually reading it right now so i should stop talking as if i'm chatting to you.
if you got this, i don't know how else to say it.
i give up. i'm sorry, i really am, i wasn't strong enough and i ''lost'' my fight as some would say. please don't be upset, i really just can't do it anymore. i wasn't strong enough at the start, it was bound to happen, just, when was it going to? now, apparently. the 23rd of november. i'm truly disappointed in this world, we lost our respect and peace for one another a long time ago. i'm very sorry, i promise you, i am. but i can't stay here any longer. i kept on telling myself i was fine, but i knew i wasn't. i've never gotten the help i really needed and i was always too much of a coward to do anything. too much of a coward to live in this world. i'm sorry, i really am  i was never able to get the help i needed because i was too scared. i'm sorry i'm doing this, i never wanted to hurt you but this is going to be better for me. i'm just, so fucking sorry. keep on going. i know that's ironic because i'm literally stopping here, but, i promise you, it'll get better. i just wont be around to see it get better. i'm with the stars now.
i really don't want you to feel bad because knowing i've hurt your feelings makes me feel awful, and i really wanted to make up for it because that's not who i wanted to be. you guys helped me so much. if it weren't for you, i wouldn't be here. thank you. and if you are still reading, thank you so much, it means a lot. uh, there's not much else to say.
goodbye, everyone.