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ok so whenever u get a chance to read this i gotta just get this off my chest even tho its like 3 am lol: dude what happened to "sorting things out" and "there needs to be an understanding" honestly. last time i checked, talking shit about someone behind their back with other people while not even giving them a platform to defend themselves isn't sorting things out or trying to make people understand anything. It just seems like incredibly obvious bias at this point. Btw you also keep putting words in my mouth i didn't say, i never said people were ganging up on me lol idk where this whole "srg thinks hes getting ganged up on" mentality has come from but it honestly doesn't paint any of you in a better light. My point was that what people deem as annoying and unfunny is both subjective and arbitrary, for example i find both flares and justin incredibly annoying, doesn't mean im gonna go on a massive tirade on them bc what they deem as funny doesn't line up with my tastes in humor so i automatically take offense to what they say and start lashing out for no reason lol. when i rejoined the server tbh i was just borderline trolling at that point bc i find it incredibly amusing how easily some people get annoyed over me just calling ppl bad when im blatantly not even gonna back my statement up (obvious troll at that point.) and just continue to keep proving my point by calling ME annoying when i could easily say the same to them. But i guess my opinions and feelings are less important than theirs for some reason (nice bias lol.) Like seriously when rewer posted that hes having a bad day and that he has to put up with my retardation, that sounded like probably one of the most self-centered things i've heard someone say online dude. What isn't to say that im having a bad day and this is my stress relief. What is to say that either one of us is aware of how we are feeling deep down, especially when none of us are good at conveying that type of shit anyway. What is to say that maybe i think im funny and im just doing this shit to make ppl who find me humorous laugh (like kanming) and not everyone else. He automatically disregards the feelings of not only me but also anyone else i may be effecting or directing my statements towards to, like his own personal feelings are the only thing that matter, and anything i do is a personal attack on his feelings to make him feel even more shit than he already is. like ok dude lol just lol. thats srsly self-centered bro. Like i said before i take basically any insults or joke headed my direction with a grain of salt bc at the end of the day they aren't that important to me. I thought the least everyone else could do is do the same (not to mention they been doing it for months anyway lol) and sure u bring up a valid point with the whole "if ur a problem they why should they have to deal with you", but again thats just a rly self-centered way of looking at things, not only that but i could apply that same statement to literally anyone who annoys me or doesn't line up with my arbitrary sense of humor in the slightest, so its just a dumb argument when u look deeper into it. anyway none of this pointless drama is the reason for me writing this. mainly its just that im disappointed in u bro, bc sure i take ppls words not so seriously, but actions speak louder than words bro, when u try to sweet talk me in pms but then go immediately talk behind my back without even inviting me back first so i can try and rationalize with anyone. Thats just so two-faced dude like thats probably worse than the shit ken did bc at least ken was extremely bad at doing it and not even that good of a friend to begin with. Like you can criticize me for being insensitive or whatever you want but thats just borderline manipulative ngl. Like if you wanna view me as an autist and group me in with ppl like varhii for some reason and act like im having an emotional breakdown and being an obnoxious twat then fine go ahead, but at least say it directly, not in messages buried deep before i could join back in. You of all people should know i would not give a single fuck whether u said it to me or not, so why you go and say ur gonna resolve everything and try to make people understand right before u hop back into discord and start agreeing with people that im obnoxious, and my favorite one "a more articulate iban" lol like iban would even come close to the shit i do, not just in articulation but everything else. It's just rly telling bro i wanna let u know face to face that even if u want to pin me as the bad guy in this situation (and even if you're right, which is debatable) you're still in the wrong as well, so yeah. also bonus points if u block me or send this very personal talk to you to someone else. which btw considering how petty some other people in the server are (blocking me but still reading my messages like lol ok) and considering what you have done i wouldn't put past you either at this point. So yeah, btw this took me like 10 minutes to type so if ur gonna meme about it and poke fun and say im obese and have no fun, then dont. i mean theres other things i'd like to touch on like the fact that ur gonna let someone who hasn't even been around for like 2 months ban me over him being annoyed by me, btw im pretty sure kief removed my role so this could happen anyway so nice, glad he could contribute to all of this. but this shit is getting way too long at this point anyway and im not sure how fast u read so i dont wanna take up like half an hour of ur time for no reason lol. but like yeah if you value other people in the server over me even tho i've known u longer than most, and we been bros ever since, im fine with that but like just tell me, bc like i said im not gonna be offended just bc my arbitrary value in ur head is lower or higher than someone elses. Honestly the whole reason the server was created was bc of manipulative snakes like ken. Not sure why ur following the same path but ye thats the end of this holy shit this is so fucking long dude.