Everything, Everything

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<i>This is my favorite room.</i>

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<i>Most days I love it,</i>

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<i>because I can imagine the glass</i>
<i>falling away and I'm outside.</i>

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<i>I don't leave my house.</i>

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<i>I haven't left my house in 17 years.</i>

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<i>If I went outside, I'd die.</i>

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<i>Sorry to sound morose.</i>

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<i>Irradiators sterilize my clothes.</i>

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<i>I own 100 white T-shirts.</i>

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<i>It's my standard uniform.</i>

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<i>The airlock is a sealed room</i>
<i>surrounding the front door.</i>

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<i>It's airtight.</i>

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<i>Nothing can leak into</i>
<i>the house when the door's open.</i>

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<i>It's not that I don't want to go outside.</i>

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<i>I can't.</i>

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<i>Simple viruses can kill me.</i>
<i>It's like I'm allergic to everything.</i>

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<i>What I eat, what I touch,</i>
<i>they all have consequences.</i>

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<i>I have severe combined immunodeficiency.</i>

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<i>My immune system sucks.</i>

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<i>Here's a drawing to explain.</i>

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<i>In every drop of blood there are</i>
<i>special cells called lymphocytes.</i>

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Hello.

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<i>Some of these lymphocytes</i>
<i>are really good at fighting bad guys,</i>

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<i>like viruses and bacteria.</i>

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<i>But I have SCID, which means I have
way fewer lymphocytes than normal.</i>

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Uh-oh.

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<i>And the ones that I do have,</i>

28
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<i>well, they're not so good at fighting.</i>

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<i>My mom made me join a support group.</i>

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<i>Some of them are really sick.</i>

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<i>Others have a hard time</i>
<i>with social interactions.</i>

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<i>At least I have the Internet.</i>

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<i>I exercise.</i>

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<i>I read a lot of books.</i>

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<i>When I'm done, I write short reviews.</i>

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<i>I take an architecture class online.</i>

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<i>Whenever I make a new model,</i>
<i>I put an astronaut inside.</i>

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<i>I can relate to him.</i>

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<i>I feel like an astronaut, stranded in space.</i>

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<i>Every day feels exactly the same.</i>

41
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<i>Maybe today's different.</i>

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Get off the truck, Olly.

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Hi.

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<i>If you're going to have an illness</i>

45
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<i>that requires someone to constantly</i>
<i>watch if you're still breathing,</i>

46
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<i>it's convenient for</i>
<i>your mother to be a doctor.</i>

47
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<i>I was diagnosed with SCID pretty early.</i>

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<i>My mom figured out what was wrong</i>
<i>with me after eight ear infections</i>

49
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<i>and two cases of pneumonia.</i>

50
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<i>I couldn't gain any weight as a baby.</i>

51
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<i>Most kids don't make it past two years old.</i>

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Doctor Whittier.

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<i>Today's my birthday.</i>

54
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<i>I'm 18.</i>

55
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<i>Which means nothing inside here.</i>

56
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<i>This is the face her patients normally see,</i>

57
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<i>slightly distant, concerned.</i>

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<i>I wonder if they find it comforting.</i>

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<i>I do.</i>

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You didn't have to take the day off.

61
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I always take the day off.

62
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What do you want to do today?

63
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Same thing we always do.

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Spatlit...

65
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What does that say?

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- Spotlight.
- No, it doesn't.

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<i>You're not good at phonetic Scrabble.</i>

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<i>Because it doesn't make any sense.</i>

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You're the one who always wants to play.

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It was your dad's favorite game.

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Did he beat you, too?

72
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Yeah.

73
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But he let me win sometimes.

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<i>- I can't do that.</i>
<i>- Why not?</i>

75
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<i>I'm in love with you.</i>

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<i>Snap out of it!</i>

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<i>I can't.</i>

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I'll get it.

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Stay here.

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<i>And you won't come to the wedding.</i>

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<i>I'll come to the wedding.</i>

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<i>I am telling you, you can't come.</i>

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Hi.

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Um, my mom sent a Bundt. It's not very good.

85
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It's kind of a thing our mom does
every time we move in somewhere.

86
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She'll make us bring one
to the neighbor, so...

87
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It's actually more of, uh, an apology
than an introduction.

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What's she apologizing for?

89
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For moving in.

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Oh, that's nice.

91
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Actually, I can't accept that.

92
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Why not?

93
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It's complicated.

94
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But please thank your mother for me,

95
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and welcome to the neighborhood.

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Is your daughter around?

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<i>So, that's why you came.</i>

98
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- That's not why I came.
- <i>Yeah, it is. Yep.</i>

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No, she isn't.

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You take the Bundt next time.

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<i>Oh, right. Wear it as a hat.</i>

102
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Watch it.

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<i>Madeline, do you want to finish the movie?</i>

104
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I'd rather know
what a Bundt cake tastes like.

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<i>It's dry.</i>

106
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<i>You're not missing out on anything.</i>

107
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No, just everything.

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<i>There's a short list of people
that know I'm alive.</i>

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<i>My mom, my nurse, Carla,</i>
<i>and her daughter, Rosa.</i>

110
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<i>I can't remember Carla not being with us.</i>

111
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<i>She's been working here for 15 years.</i>

112
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<i>Sometimes, I think she's trapped</i>
<i>inside here with me.</i>

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- Morning, Carla.
- Mmm-hmm.

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<i>Feliz cumpleaños.</i>

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Thank you!

116
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Thank you so much.

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Ooh, <i>una nota.</i>

118
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That's terrible.

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Hi, Olly.

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Hi, Maddy.

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<i>I tell myself I won't text back</i>
<i>immediately when Olly texts me.</i>

122
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<i>And then I text back. Immediately.</i>

123
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Are you on house arrest?

124
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Why do you think I'm on house arrest?

125
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'Cause I haven't seen you outside once
since we got here.

126
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Um...

127
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I'm not on house arrest,
but I can't leave the house.

128
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Very mysterious.

129
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Are you a ghost?

130
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'Cause, it would just my luck that
the girl next door is not actually alive.

131
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I'm, like, 98% sure that I'm alive.

132
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Hmm.

133
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So, what is it? Is it a guy?
Are you knocked up?

134
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Oh, my God. Well, what if I was?

135
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I'd be conflicted.

136
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About what?

137
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Do you have a boyfriend?

138
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No. I don't have a boyfriend,
and I'm not pregnant.

139
00:14:03,926 --> 00:14:06,009
Have you spent all day
thinking that I was pregnant?

140
00:14:06,220 --> 00:14:07,256
Yeah, kind of.

141
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I mean, it would have been awkward
flirting with a pregnant girl, so...

142
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Right.

143
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Don't you wanna know if I have a girlfriend?

144
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No.

145
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I'm hurt.

146
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I mean, that stings.

147
00:14:21,736 --> 00:14:22,852
So, where'd you move here from?

148
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Boston, but I'm from New York.

149
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<i>I wanna move back.</i>

150
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I always imagined myself
working in a bakery in New York.

151
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You know, like Nicolas Cage
in that movie, <i>Moonstruck?</i>

152
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No.

153
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"Snap out of it!"

154
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It's from the movie.

155
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Yeah, I figured.

156
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All right, here's a game.
Fast Five Favorites.

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- Okay?
- Okay.

158
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So, book, word, color, vice, person.

159
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Um... Okay. All right. Um...

160
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<i>So, I guess...</i>

161
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Come on. Type faster. Don't think about it.

162
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Okay. All right. <i>The Little Prince.</i>

163
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- Uxorious.
- Ooh.

164
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- Aquamarine.
- Hmm.

165
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I don't have any vices.

166
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And my mom.

167
00:15:09,826 --> 00:15:11,033
Oh, come on. Everyone has vices.

168
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How many vices do you have?

169
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Enough to choose a favorite.

170
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- Your turn.
- All right.

171
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<i>- Lord of the Flies.</i>
- Uh-huh.

172
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- Macabre.
- Okay.

173
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Black.

174
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Uh, petty theft.

175
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And my sister.

176
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<i>Lord of the Flies?</i>

177
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So, you're bleak.

178
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I've been told that I have
a poor outlook on life.

179
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<i>Right.</i>

180
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Are your parents still together?

181
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Um, my dad's dead,

182
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so, no.

183
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Oh.

184
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Whoa, that was really awkward.
I don't know why I made that so...

185
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- I shouldn't have asked.
- No, it's, um...

186
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He died in a car accident with my brother.

187
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I'm sorry.

188
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You don't go to SF Valley High?

189
00:16:04,046 --> 00:16:05,662
No, I don't go to school.

190
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I go online.

191
00:16:08,634 --> 00:16:09,624
Why?

192
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I'm sick.

193
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Oh, are you dying?

194
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Not right now.

195
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Soon?

196
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If I left the house, yeah, probably.

197
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What is it?

198
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It's called severe combined immunodeficiency.

199
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So, it means my body can't fight
bacteria or infections.

200
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Is there a cure?

201
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For common kinds of SCID, yeah.

202
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But I am very uncommon.

203
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You're feeling sorry for me.

204
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You're totally feeling sorry for me.

205
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No, no, no. I, um...

206
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Yeah.

207
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I'm not feeling sorry for you.

208
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- Uh-huh.
- You're alive now.

209
00:16:46,923 --> 00:16:48,255
- You have the Internet.
- Mmm-hmm.

210
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So, I don't feel sorry for you.

211
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Good.

212
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<i>I wish I could meet you in person.</i>

213
00:17:04,815 --> 00:17:06,351
Yeah. Me, too.

214
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Wait, come to the window.

215
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What's so interesting on that laptop?

216
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Um, nothing.

217
00:18:24,478 --> 00:18:25,889
<i>It's not nothing.</i>

218
00:18:26,689 --> 00:18:28,430
Something's making you laugh.

219
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It's just cat videos.

220
00:18:36,449 --> 00:18:37,860
You don't wanna see this one, Carla.

221
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The cat dies.

222
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You're an idiot.

223
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I'm not an idiot.

224
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You are an idiot, and you're not a good liar.

225
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You mean to tell me that the only thing
you could think to say

226
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was that it was a dead cat?

227
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So, you know?

228
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If I didn't know before, I do now.

229
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You're not very good at hiding things.

230
00:19:11,067 --> 00:19:13,354
I see you checking your email
and looking for him out the window.

231
00:19:16,697 --> 00:19:17,687
Maybe he could visit?

232
00:19:19,533 --> 00:19:20,523
<i>Huh.</i>

233
00:19:21,369 --> 00:19:22,905
Teenagers are all the same.

234
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Is that a no?

235
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He'd get decontaminated,
and it would just be for a half hour.

236
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Are you crazy?

237
00:19:29,710 --> 00:19:31,952
Wouldn't you be if you'd been inside
for 18 years?

238
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No.

239
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He'd get decontaminated, and then
he'd sit across the room from me,

240
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like, far, far away.

241
00:19:41,764 --> 00:19:44,051
We can't always get what we want.

242
00:19:44,934 --> 00:19:46,926
<i>Your mother would never let you.</i>

243
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We don't have to tell her.

244
00:19:50,648 --> 00:19:52,765
Is it that easy to lie?

245
00:19:52,942 --> 00:19:54,524
You know, it's easier than I thought.

246
00:19:55,569 --> 00:19:56,559
Huh.

247
00:19:58,781 --> 00:20:02,741
You know what, I'm gonna go home
and look on Rosa's Internet history.

248
00:20:08,249 --> 00:20:09,865
<i>Rosa's the only other person allowed inside,</i>

249
00:20:10,084 --> 00:20:12,371
<i>but she's leaving for Michigan in the fall.</i>

250
00:20:12,586 --> 00:20:15,294
<i>She'll meet new people,</i>
<i>and I'll still be here.</i>

251
00:20:15,506 --> 00:20:16,963
What does he look like?

252
00:20:17,383 --> 00:20:18,373
Rosa.

253
00:20:18,634 --> 00:20:19,624
What?

254
00:20:20,302 --> 00:20:22,339
Okay, I guess he's cute.

255
00:20:23,931 --> 00:20:25,297
I don't believe you.

256
00:20:25,683 --> 00:20:28,517
Yeah, maybe he is a figment
of my imagination.

257
00:20:28,978 --> 00:20:32,892
Just like a really good-looking mirage.

258
00:20:34,150 --> 00:20:36,767
Things are finally getting
interesting for you.

259
00:20:36,986 --> 00:20:37,976
And I'm leaving.

260
00:20:38,779 --> 00:20:40,315
What are you guys talking about?

261
00:20:41,532 --> 00:20:42,568
Nothing.

262
00:20:43,325 --> 00:20:45,157
Come on, Rosa, it's time for us to go home.

263
00:21:13,272 --> 00:21:15,980
<i>Connected to Oliver Bright's iPhone.</i>

264
00:21:52,394 --> 00:21:53,805
I'm right here.

265
00:22:38,232 --> 00:22:40,349
That was way too easy.

266
00:23:01,463 --> 00:23:03,079
Hey, what you looking at?

267
00:23:03,299 --> 00:23:04,460
Nothing.

268
00:23:04,633 --> 00:23:05,623
Is that a new sweater?

269
00:23:05,843 --> 00:23:06,879
Yeah.

270
00:23:08,512 --> 00:23:09,969
Carla irradiated it.

271
00:23:10,180 --> 00:23:11,341
And where'd you get it?

272
00:23:11,557 --> 00:23:12,798
From Rosa.

273
00:23:13,934 --> 00:23:16,051
Mmm, it's nice. You look pretty.

274
00:23:26,405 --> 00:23:28,397
<i>You listen to me.</i>

275
00:23:28,616 --> 00:23:30,949
You stay on your side of the room,

276
00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:32,150
he stay on his.

277
00:23:32,912 --> 00:23:35,199
<i>I already told him the same thing.</i>

278
00:23:35,497 --> 00:23:36,908
What are you talking about?

279
00:23:37,333 --> 00:23:38,869
You stay on your side,

280
00:23:39,084 --> 00:23:40,996
<i>he stays on his.</i>

281
00:23:41,170 --> 00:23:42,502
He's here.

282
00:23:43,172 --> 00:23:44,754
Who's here?

283
00:23:45,841 --> 00:23:46,831
Olly.

284
00:23:53,515 --> 00:23:54,676
Nod if you understand.

285
00:23:54,892 --> 00:23:56,849
I'm worried you're losing your motor skills.

286
00:24:01,815 --> 00:24:02,805
Why?

287
00:24:03,192 --> 00:24:05,149
Because I'm terrible at saying no.

288
00:24:06,904 --> 00:24:08,987
<i>Because you deserve a little something.</i>

289
00:24:10,699 --> 00:24:11,815
Is that what you're gonna wear?

290
00:24:34,598 --> 00:24:35,759
You just gonna stay over there?

291
00:24:36,809 --> 00:24:40,268
Carla said that I had to stay
as far away from you as possible.

292
00:24:41,689 --> 00:24:42,805
Cool.

293
00:24:43,983 --> 00:24:46,191
You're standing really still.

294
00:24:51,657 --> 00:24:53,023
Maybe you should come in.

295
00:24:53,826 --> 00:24:55,067
Yeah. Yeah.

296
00:24:55,285 --> 00:24:56,901
I could do that.

297
00:25:21,270 --> 00:25:23,762
You're really different
than I thought you were gonna be.

298
00:25:24,106 --> 00:25:25,688
I know.

299
00:25:26,483 --> 00:25:27,849
Sexier, right?

300
00:25:29,903 --> 00:25:31,986
I understand, you're nervous.
It's all right, you can admit it.

301
00:25:32,197 --> 00:25:33,278
I am nervous.

302
00:25:33,490 --> 00:25:35,823
All right. Well, so am I.

303
00:25:37,828 --> 00:25:39,990
I like this room.

304
00:25:40,622 --> 00:25:41,738
Yeah.

305
00:25:42,458 --> 00:25:47,294
Um, my mom built it
so that I could feel like I was outside.

306
00:25:47,838 --> 00:25:49,079
Does it work?

307
00:25:49,298 --> 00:25:50,834
Most days.

308
00:25:51,050 --> 00:25:53,042
I have a really excellent imagination.

309
00:25:53,719 --> 00:25:55,802
Princess Madeline in her glass castle.

310
00:25:56,346 --> 00:25:57,678
I'm not a princess.

311
00:25:58,474 --> 00:25:59,555
Good.

312
00:26:00,267 --> 00:26:02,099
Because I'm not a prince.

313
00:26:06,273 --> 00:26:08,481
<i>So, uh, how long have you been sick?</i>

314
00:26:08,650 --> 00:26:09,640
My whole life.

315
00:26:10,235 --> 00:26:13,694
I mean, what would happen
if you went outside?

316
00:26:14,156 --> 00:26:15,943
Probably spontaneous combustion.

317
00:26:16,533 --> 00:26:17,523
We'll stay inside.

318
00:26:17,743 --> 00:26:19,154
Yeah, that's a good idea.

319
00:26:20,079 --> 00:26:21,536
Have you ever left this house?

320
00:26:22,498 --> 00:26:23,534
Uh, no.

321
00:26:25,793 --> 00:26:27,500
Where would you go?

322
00:26:28,504 --> 00:26:29,494
If you could.

323
00:26:29,963 --> 00:26:31,329
The ocean.

324
00:26:31,507 --> 00:26:33,169
The ocean? Why?

325
00:26:33,383 --> 00:26:37,127
Well, it covers 72% of the planet.

326
00:26:37,346 --> 00:26:40,510
And it's approximately 3 miles from here.

327
00:26:40,682 --> 00:26:42,344
And I've never seen it.

328
00:26:42,643 --> 00:26:44,350
It's a bad choice.

329
00:26:44,686 --> 00:26:45,676
Why?

330
00:26:46,063 --> 00:26:47,179
I'm assuming you can't swim.

331
00:26:47,981 --> 00:26:50,064
Yeah, you're right.

332
00:26:50,275 --> 00:26:52,608
But I'd like to try.

333
00:26:53,946 --> 00:26:55,812
I respect the ocean.

334
00:26:56,031 --> 00:27:00,116
I mean, it's beautiful.
It's impersonal, it's murderous.

335
00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:03,202
It's Mother Nature at her finest.

336
00:27:03,372 --> 00:27:04,954
I mean, the point of waves

337
00:27:05,165 --> 00:27:08,203
is to suck your feet out from under you
so that you drown faster.

338
00:27:08,627 --> 00:27:09,743
Right.

339
00:27:12,506 --> 00:27:14,372
Didn't see that dark turn coming.

340
00:27:14,716 --> 00:27:15,957
Yeah, well...

341
00:27:30,357 --> 00:27:31,939
I'm really good at handstands.

342
00:27:32,568 --> 00:27:33,979
Yeah?

343
00:27:42,536 --> 00:27:43,572
What else can you do?

344
00:27:43,787 --> 00:27:45,073
Oh, man.

345
00:27:45,247 --> 00:27:47,864
I'm afraid that's pretty much it.

346
00:28:08,103 --> 00:28:09,685
You didn't touch, right?

347
00:28:09,897 --> 00:28:11,104
No.

348
00:28:11,648 --> 00:28:12,855
No touching.

349
00:28:23,076 --> 00:28:24,567
<i>Your face!</i>

350
00:28:24,786 --> 00:28:26,402
What? Is it red?

351
00:28:27,414 --> 00:28:29,155
I can see it.

352
00:28:30,292 --> 00:28:32,625
You're completely gone
and you barely know him.

353
00:28:33,962 --> 00:28:36,454
I thought you were on our side!

354
00:28:36,673 --> 00:28:38,790
I'm just facilitating.

355
00:28:43,388 --> 00:28:46,381
Do you, um, think I could see him again?

356
00:28:47,434 --> 00:28:48,470
Hmm.

357
00:28:49,478 --> 00:28:52,437
In a week. I wanna make sure you're okay.

358
00:28:55,609 --> 00:28:57,851
What am I supposed to do until then?

359
00:28:58,153 --> 00:28:59,143
Hmm.

360
00:29:00,822 --> 00:29:03,030
When was the last time you posted a review?

361
00:29:04,785 --> 00:29:05,775
Hmm?

362
00:29:40,028 --> 00:29:41,018
Hey, where are you?

363
00:29:41,280 --> 00:29:43,272
<i>Skating in Venice.</i>

364
00:29:43,532 --> 00:29:45,023
<i>Oh, shit.</i>

365
00:29:45,701 --> 00:29:46,862
<i>I'm sorry, Maddy.</i>

366
00:29:47,035 --> 00:29:49,152
No, no, no. You should enjoy that.

367
00:29:49,371 --> 00:29:51,033
For us both.

368
00:29:51,873 --> 00:29:53,705
<i>It's boring without you.</i>

369
00:29:53,875 --> 00:29:55,958
What makes you think
that I'd make it any better?

370
00:29:56,169 --> 00:30:00,288
<i>Well, there are no girls here,</i>
<i>so who am I supposed to show off to?</i>

371
00:30:01,967 --> 00:30:03,674
So, listen, um,

372
00:30:03,885 --> 00:30:06,923
on Tuesday, Carla has the night off,

373
00:30:07,139 --> 00:30:09,802
and my mom's working a double shift,

374
00:30:10,017 --> 00:30:14,261
so I figured maybe you'd come over

375
00:30:14,479 --> 00:30:17,096
and we could watch the fireworks
from the sunroom.

376
00:30:18,567 --> 00:30:20,149
<i>Wait, Tuesday?</i>

377
00:30:20,944 --> 00:30:22,731
<i>That's July Fourth.</i>

378
00:30:23,822 --> 00:30:26,280
Yeah. Do you have plans or something?

379
00:30:26,950 --> 00:30:29,943
<i>No. I'm not very popular.</i>

380
00:30:30,412 --> 00:30:31,698
Lucky for me then, I guess.

381
00:30:34,750 --> 00:30:36,332
So, um, I guess I'll see you then.

382
00:30:36,543 --> 00:30:38,409
<i>All right. I will see you then, Maddy.</i>

383
00:30:38,628 --> 00:30:39,914
Okay, bye, Olly.

384
00:30:40,088 --> 00:30:41,545
<i>Bye.</i>

385
00:30:44,843 --> 00:30:47,426
<i>I don't know how Carla
and I got our wires crossed.</i>

386
00:30:47,637 --> 00:30:50,596
I don't wanna leave you alone tonight.
It's the Fourth of July.

387
00:30:51,391 --> 00:30:53,929
You know, I'll see if someone
can cover for me.

388
00:30:54,144 --> 00:30:55,510
You know, I'll be fine.

389
00:30:55,937 --> 00:30:57,849
- You sure?
- Yeah, I'll be okay.

390
00:30:58,106 --> 00:30:59,096
What are you gonna do?

391
00:30:59,733 --> 00:31:01,975
I guess just read a book or something.

392
00:31:10,786 --> 00:31:13,244
So, calculus is the mathematics of change.

393
00:31:13,455 --> 00:31:17,244
It doesn't necessarily predict the future,
but it does indicate it.

394
00:31:17,793 --> 00:31:18,829
Indicate what?

395
00:31:22,798 --> 00:31:25,336
Well, that people are unpredictable.

396
00:31:28,970 --> 00:31:31,132
I didn't really see you as a math person.

397
00:31:33,266 --> 00:31:34,427
Why not?

398
00:31:35,102 --> 00:31:36,468
I guess 'cause you're in summer school.

399
00:31:38,063 --> 00:31:39,270
Right. Well, that's...

400
00:31:40,982 --> 00:31:42,473
That's just 'cause my dad moves around a lot.

401
00:32:06,049 --> 00:32:07,790
This is an ellipsis.

402
00:32:10,053 --> 00:32:11,715
Does that mean
that we're having an awkward silence

403
00:32:11,930 --> 00:32:13,137
or that you're thinking?

404
00:32:14,266 --> 00:32:15,302
Both.

405
00:32:16,852 --> 00:32:18,013
What are you thinking about?

406
00:32:18,854 --> 00:32:22,689
I'm thinking that we should
probably agree to just be friends.

407
00:32:24,025 --> 00:32:25,641
I don't think
you have that kind of restraint.

408
00:32:26,653 --> 00:32:29,236
Well, my life is
an exercise in restraint, so...

409
00:32:32,200 --> 00:32:33,862
Does this mean
I can't look at your lips anymore?

410
00:32:34,703 --> 00:32:35,739
No.

411
00:32:37,747 --> 00:32:38,737
<i>Your dimple?</i>

412
00:32:38,957 --> 00:32:40,368
I don't have dimples!

413
00:32:40,542 --> 00:32:41,658
Your hair.

414
00:32:41,877 --> 00:32:42,867
Friends!

415
00:32:43,044 --> 00:32:44,410
Ellipsis.

416
00:32:52,888 --> 00:32:54,880
You make me wanna stay in Los Angeles.

417
00:32:55,307 --> 00:32:57,094
Why would you go?

418
00:33:08,570 --> 00:33:10,061
What are you doing?

419
00:33:10,238 --> 00:33:12,150
I'm moving closer to you.

420
00:33:15,535 --> 00:33:16,946
Is that okay?

421
00:33:18,079 --> 00:33:20,071
Yes, it's okay.

422
00:33:22,709 --> 00:33:23,745
Okay.

423
00:33:28,256 --> 00:33:32,296
I should tell you we shouldn't
push our luck, but I can't.

424
00:33:34,137 --> 00:33:35,753
I don't want to.

425
00:33:38,975 --> 00:33:40,432
Are you sure?

426
00:33:45,273 --> 00:33:46,309
Yes.

427
00:33:53,615 --> 00:33:55,231
Hello, Little Prince.

428
00:34:14,553 --> 00:34:16,636
Is it always like that?

429
00:34:17,264 --> 00:34:18,800
It's never like that.

430
00:34:41,913 --> 00:34:44,997
<i>Are you sure you're not sick? You feel fine?</i>

431
00:34:45,834 --> 00:34:47,496
Yeah, I feel fine.

432
00:34:48,837 --> 00:34:52,376
Better than fine, actually.
I feel pretty perfect.

433
00:34:53,300 --> 00:34:55,041
<i>Even though we touched?</i>

434
00:34:56,052 --> 00:34:57,418
We did.

435
00:34:57,637 --> 00:34:59,503
<i>Shared the same breath.</i>

436
00:35:00,181 --> 00:35:02,093
Yeah, we did.

437
00:35:02,767 --> 00:35:03,848
<i>Kissed.</i>

438
00:35:05,478 --> 00:35:08,812
Like I said, perfect.

439
00:35:11,526 --> 00:35:13,358
Hey, goodnight.

440
00:35:13,570 --> 00:35:14,651
<i>Goodnight.</i>

441
00:35:15,405 --> 00:35:19,357
<i>I read once that we change the upper
layers of our skin every two weeks.</i>

442
00:35:20,243 --> 00:35:22,701
<i>But some of our cells don't renew.</i>

443
00:35:22,871 --> 00:35:25,238
<i>They age, and age us.</i>

444
00:35:26,207 --> 00:35:29,075
<i>In two weeks, my lips</i>
<i>will have no memory of kissing Olly.</i>

445
00:35:30,086 --> 00:35:32,794
<i>But my brain will remember.</i>

446
00:35:32,964 --> 00:35:34,796
<i>Yeah, that's right, walk away, Dad.</i>

447
00:35:35,008 --> 00:35:37,298
- <i>Leave it alone, Olly.</i>
- <i>Walk away!</i>

448
00:35:37,510 --> 00:35:38,500
<i>It's not your problem, okay?</i>

449
00:35:38,720 --> 00:35:40,052
<i>It's not my problem? It's not my problem.</i>

450
00:35:40,221 --> 00:35:41,712
<i>You really just say that to me right now?</i>

451
00:35:42,015 --> 00:35:43,005
Stay out of it!

452
00:35:43,224 --> 00:35:44,214
- Stay out of it, huh?
- Yeah.

453
00:35:44,434 --> 00:35:46,266
Stay out of it. How's that?
How's that for staying out of it?

454
00:35:46,478 --> 00:35:48,094
- Really?
- Enough!

455
00:36:00,450 --> 00:36:01,736
Madeline?

456
00:36:05,080 --> 00:36:06,116
<i>Olly!</i>

457
00:36:06,331 --> 00:36:08,072
- Maddy? Maddy, what are you doing?
- Are you okay?

458
00:36:10,377 --> 00:36:11,367
Madeline?

459
00:36:11,628 --> 00:36:12,618
Are you hurt? Are you okay?

460
00:36:12,837 --> 00:36:14,669
I'm okay. What are you doing?
Go back inside! Go!

461
00:36:14,881 --> 00:36:16,497
Madeline! Madeline!

462
00:36:16,883 --> 00:36:18,670
What are you doing?

463
00:36:24,933 --> 00:36:26,424
I don't understand. Why would you do that?

464
00:36:26,601 --> 00:36:28,342
I'm sorry.
I had to make sure that he was okay.

465
00:36:28,561 --> 00:36:29,551
- Did you touch anything?
- No.

466
00:36:29,771 --> 00:36:30,761
Did you touch anything?

467
00:36:30,980 --> 00:36:32,516
No, no. It was less than a minute.

468
00:36:32,732 --> 00:36:34,769
A second is all it takes.

469
00:36:34,943 --> 00:36:36,525
I'm sorry.

470
00:36:36,736 --> 00:36:40,776
Why would you risk your life
for a total stranger?

471
00:36:42,367 --> 00:36:43,858
I'm okay.

472
00:36:47,122 --> 00:36:49,614
He's not a stranger, is he?

473
00:36:52,585 --> 00:36:55,123
We're just friends online.

474
00:36:57,716 --> 00:36:59,503
Online...

475
00:37:03,304 --> 00:37:04,715
How could you?

476
00:37:06,725 --> 00:37:08,387
<i>She's right.</i>

477
00:37:08,601 --> 00:37:13,596
<i>Four hours soaking in an antiseptic bath,</i>
<i>and I could still wake up tomorrow sick.</i>

478
00:37:13,815 --> 00:37:17,434
<i>Four hours trying to remember everything</i>
<i>about being in the world.</i>

479
00:37:18,194 --> 00:37:23,155
<i>I can't remember any of it.</i>
<i>Just Olly yelling at me to go inside.</i>

480
00:37:26,327 --> 00:37:28,785
I'm sorry Olly's in that situation.

481
00:37:29,414 --> 00:37:31,155
No one deserves a father like that.

482
00:37:31,958 --> 00:37:33,824
I'm sorry, too.

483
00:37:36,838 --> 00:37:38,329
Does it look like he's okay?

484
00:37:38,965 --> 00:37:40,922
I don't know.

485
00:37:41,468 --> 00:37:45,633
I could have someone talk to him
and see if he's all right.

486
00:37:46,014 --> 00:37:48,848
I don't think he wants anyone to know.

487
00:37:50,685 --> 00:37:53,052
He was trying to protect his mom.

488
00:37:54,773 --> 00:37:57,937
He doesn't like to talk about everything.

489
00:37:58,693 --> 00:38:00,855
I knew something was different with you.

490
00:38:02,030 --> 00:38:05,865
I should've known what it was
the moment he came offering Bundt cake.

491
00:38:10,538 --> 00:38:12,154
You could've come to me, you know.

492
00:38:12,373 --> 00:38:14,706
I wanted to. I just didn't want to worry you.

493
00:38:16,711 --> 00:38:18,202
What's he like?

494
00:38:20,089 --> 00:38:22,877
Well, he wears black,

495
00:38:24,385 --> 00:38:26,672
all of the time.

496
00:38:29,390 --> 00:38:31,222
But he's not as cynical as he looks.

497
00:38:31,434 --> 00:38:32,720
He needs a haircut.

498
00:38:32,894 --> 00:38:34,055
Yeah, he does.

499
00:38:36,105 --> 00:38:38,017
<i>He's kind.</i>

500
00:38:39,067 --> 00:38:41,559
We're both really sleep deprived

501
00:38:41,778 --> 00:38:44,191
from talking instead of sleeping.

502
00:38:47,700 --> 00:38:50,738
But I'd rather talk to him than sleep.

503
00:38:56,918 --> 00:38:59,251
When I talk to him,

504
00:39:01,214 --> 00:39:03,251
I feel like I'm outside.

505
00:39:11,933 --> 00:39:13,265
He thinks

506
00:39:13,935 --> 00:39:18,521
that I'm funny, smart, and beautiful.

507
00:39:19,148 --> 00:39:20,730
In that order.

508
00:39:21,276 --> 00:39:23,268
As he should.

509
00:39:25,280 --> 00:39:26,691
He sounds wonderful.

510
00:39:26,906 --> 00:39:28,272
Yeah, he is.

511
00:39:29,117 --> 00:39:31,200
I wish you could have more than this.

512
00:39:32,120 --> 00:39:33,782
I know.

513
00:39:43,673 --> 00:39:45,335
I'm sorry.

514
00:39:47,802 --> 00:39:50,169
It's not your fault.

515
00:39:56,144 --> 00:39:59,137
Maui was your dad's favorite place.

516
00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:04,396
<i>You were just a few months old,</i>
<i>before we knew why you were always sick.</i>

517
00:40:04,944 --> 00:40:07,482
I wish I could remember them.

518
00:40:10,158 --> 00:40:13,071
Maybe it'd be easier if I couldn't.

519
00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:21,413
I love you, you know.

520
00:40:22,420 --> 00:40:25,333
More than you even know.

521
00:40:28,009 --> 00:40:30,547
You can't see him again.

522
00:40:32,931 --> 00:40:35,173
I haven't seen him.

523
00:40:46,694 --> 00:40:48,401
Yes, you have.

524
00:41:01,918 --> 00:41:03,159
<i>She was so alone, she needed...</i>

525
00:41:03,378 --> 00:41:05,119
<i>How could you let him into this house?</i>

526
00:41:06,339 --> 00:41:07,420
<i>How could you do this?</i>

527
00:41:07,632 --> 00:41:09,874
<i>How could you invite a stranger in here?</i>

528
00:41:10,051 --> 00:41:11,041
<i>She needed it.</i>

529
00:41:11,260 --> 00:41:13,547
It's not up to you to decide
what she needs. I am her mother!

530
00:41:13,721 --> 00:41:15,053
You shouldn't be her doctor, too.

531
00:41:15,640 --> 00:41:16,721
<i>Excuse me.</i>

532
00:41:16,933 --> 00:41:18,845
<i>Is she sick? Did something happen?</i>

533
00:41:19,060 --> 00:41:22,599
She went outside because of him.
Because of you!

534
00:41:22,814 --> 00:41:25,056
And she's been lying to me for weeks.

535
00:41:27,026 --> 00:41:28,016
You have to go.

536
00:41:28,444 --> 00:41:29,434
<i>Please, Mom.</i>

537
00:41:29,654 --> 00:41:30,770
It won't happen again.

538
00:41:30,989 --> 00:41:32,605
No, it won't.

539
00:41:35,076 --> 00:41:36,567
I'm sorry, Carla.

540
00:41:47,046 --> 00:41:48,207
No.

541
00:41:49,424 --> 00:41:50,631
I'm sorry.

542
00:41:51,426 --> 00:41:52,883
I know this is sad for you both.

543
00:41:53,094 --> 00:41:54,426
It is sad for me, too,

544
00:41:54,637 --> 00:41:57,596
but it is time for Carla to leave, now.

545
00:42:16,451 --> 00:42:18,784
Your temperature is 103.

546
00:42:20,121 --> 00:42:22,829
We have to wait and see if it goes down.

547
00:42:23,041 --> 00:42:25,533
If the fluids and antibiotics work.

548
00:44:29,584 --> 00:44:31,246
I'm not.

549
00:44:48,603 --> 00:44:50,560
Good morning, Madeline.

550
00:44:51,272 --> 00:44:56,643
You may address me as Nurse Janet
or Mrs. Pritchert.

551
00:44:57,111 --> 00:44:59,353
<i>Whichever you prefer.</i>

552
00:45:05,786 --> 00:45:09,154
Words spoken to the air tend to go unheeded.

553
00:45:09,373 --> 00:45:12,832
Words put to paper do not.

554
00:45:47,495 --> 00:45:48,485
I miss Carla.

555
00:45:48,704 --> 00:45:50,491
Well, Carla almost got you killed.

556
00:45:50,831 --> 00:45:52,072
She's my friend.

557
00:45:52,416 --> 00:45:54,203
No, Madeline. Carla was your nurse.

558
00:45:54,418 --> 00:45:56,660
She was supposed to keep you safe,
not endanger your life

559
00:45:56,837 --> 00:45:59,079
by inviting strangers into the house.

560
00:46:00,049 --> 00:46:01,631
Olly isn't a stranger.

561
00:46:03,928 --> 00:46:05,294
He's not yours.

562
00:46:05,680 --> 00:46:06,841
What?

563
00:46:09,475 --> 00:46:11,137
He's not yours.

564
00:46:12,436 --> 00:46:15,895
And maybe he's interested in you now,
but he's out there.

565
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:20,309
And he's gonna meet some girl
and he's gonna be her Olly.

566
00:46:21,696 --> 00:46:23,358
You understand me?

567
00:46:24,699 --> 00:46:27,737
If Carla was your friend,
she would have told you that.

568
00:46:32,873 --> 00:46:34,865
Love can't kill me, Mom.

569
00:46:35,209 --> 00:46:36,871
That's not true.

570
00:46:37,378 --> 00:46:39,461
You were lucky this time.

571
00:46:53,352 --> 00:46:55,719
<i>After what my mom said,
I started imagining this moment</i>

572
00:46:55,938 --> 00:46:57,770
<i>where Olly pulls up in the driveway.</i>

573
00:47:00,276 --> 00:47:02,734
<i>And there's this girl in the truck.</i>

574
00:47:03,696 --> 00:47:06,530
<i>And the girl laughs at something he says.</i>

575
00:47:06,991 --> 00:47:09,825
<i>And puts her hand on his shoulder.</i>

576
00:47:10,119 --> 00:47:12,076
<i>Smiles at him the way I've smiled at him.</i>

577
00:47:12,747 --> 00:47:14,079
<i>I feel silly.</i>

578
00:47:14,290 --> 00:47:17,624
<i>Why would anyone set themselves up</i>
<i>to have a broken heart?</i>

579
00:47:17,835 --> 00:47:20,373
<i>He's going to meet someone who isn't sick.</i>

580
00:47:21,422 --> 00:47:24,506
<i>Someone who can leave her house.</i>

581
00:47:30,723 --> 00:47:32,339
<i>Call him.</i>

582
00:47:33,017 --> 00:47:36,226
I can't. I think my mom's right.

583
00:47:36,437 --> 00:47:38,099
<i>Then don't be a coward.</i>

584
00:47:47,448 --> 00:47:49,155
Pick up.

585
00:47:50,826 --> 00:47:51,987
No.

586
00:47:53,371 --> 00:47:54,452
Pick up!

587
00:47:56,123 --> 00:47:57,113
Hi, Olly.

588
00:47:57,375 --> 00:47:58,456
It's not true.

589
00:47:58,667 --> 00:48:00,283
It is. What kind of future
could you have with me?

590
00:48:00,461 --> 00:48:01,451
I'm trying to protect you.

591
00:48:01,670 --> 00:48:03,787
Protect me? I don't want protection.
I want you.

592
00:48:04,006 --> 00:48:06,669
Well, we can't have everything that we want.

593
00:48:07,426 --> 00:48:08,792
You're not mine.

594
00:48:09,095 --> 00:48:10,461
What does that mean?

595
00:48:10,638 --> 00:48:13,346
There's gonna be another girl,
you'll be her Olly.

596
00:48:13,808 --> 00:48:15,800
There is no other girl.

597
00:48:18,813 --> 00:48:21,897
It's not safe.
I don't really think when I'm around you.

598
00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:23,811
Thinking is overrated.

599
00:48:24,026 --> 00:48:26,268
This isn't going anywhere.

600
00:48:27,738 --> 00:48:29,525
I don't wanna lose you.

601
00:48:29,740 --> 00:48:31,732
<i>I can't even go outside.</i>

602
00:48:32,660 --> 00:48:34,822
What are you really losing?

603
00:49:55,951 --> 00:49:56,941
<i>Dear Mom,</i>

604
00:49:59,330 --> 00:50:01,413
<i>The first thing is that I love you.</i>

605
00:50:01,999 --> 00:50:03,365
<i>You already know that,</i>

606
00:50:03,584 --> 00:50:05,792
<i>but I may not get</i>
<i>the chance to tell you again.</i>

607
00:50:06,504 --> 00:50:10,418
<i>You are smart and strong</i>
<i>and kind and selfless.</i>

608
00:50:14,386 --> 00:50:16,503
<i>Because of you, I've survived this long</i>

609
00:50:16,722 --> 00:50:19,305
<i>and gotten to know</i>
<i>my small part of the world.</i>

610
00:50:21,769 --> 00:50:23,510
<i>But it's not enough.</i>

611
00:50:33,614 --> 00:50:35,776
<i>I'm not doing this just because of Olly.</i>

612
00:50:35,991 --> 00:50:37,823
<i>Or maybe I am.</i>

613
00:50:40,454 --> 00:50:43,037
<i>I found this new part of myself</i>
<i>when I met him.</i>

614
00:50:43,457 --> 00:50:46,370
<i>And the new part doesn't know how</i>
<i>to stay quiet and just observe.</i>

615
00:50:50,005 --> 00:50:52,748
<i>Do you remember when we first read</i>
The Little Prince <i>together?</i>

616
00:50:52,967 --> 00:50:54,583
<i>I was so upset that he died in the end.</i>

617
00:50:56,595 --> 00:50:58,461
<i>I didn't understand how he could choose death</i>

618
00:50:58,639 --> 00:51:01,256
<i>so that he could get back to his rose.</i>

619
00:51:03,227 --> 00:51:05,059
<i>I think I understand it now.</i>

620
00:51:05,271 --> 00:51:06,978
<i>I'm not choosing death.</i>

621
00:51:07,898 --> 00:51:09,810
<i>It's that if I don't go,</i>

622
00:51:09,984 --> 00:51:12,647
<i>I won't really know</i>
<i>what it's like to be alive.</i>

623
00:51:14,613 --> 00:51:15,649
<i>I love you.</i>

624
00:51:15,990 --> 00:51:17,231
<i>Maddy.</i>

625
00:52:44,912 --> 00:52:46,153
Maddy, what the hell's...

626
00:52:48,415 --> 00:52:50,327
Hey. Are you trying to kill yourself?

627
00:52:50,542 --> 00:52:51,658
I've been doing gene therapy.

628
00:52:51,877 --> 00:52:52,913
What are you talking about?

629
00:52:53,754 --> 00:52:56,504
I didn't want to tell you because
I didn't want to get your hopes up.

630
00:52:56,757 --> 00:52:58,749
I mean, I don't want to get my hopes up.

631
00:52:59,259 --> 00:53:01,376
- Gene therapy?
- I've been on a trial.

632
00:53:01,595 --> 00:53:03,211
Remember how I said that
my type of SCID was uncommon?

633
00:53:03,430 --> 00:53:04,420
Yeah.

634
00:53:04,598 --> 00:53:06,430
Well, I'm very common now.

635
00:53:07,351 --> 00:53:08,933
I can go wherever I want.

636
00:53:09,812 --> 00:53:11,474
What, you're not sick anymore?

637
00:53:11,689 --> 00:53:13,430
That's what I'm trying to tell you.

638
00:53:13,607 --> 00:53:15,098
No...

639
00:53:15,984 --> 00:53:17,395
No, I don't believe you. Come on, let's go.

640
00:53:17,945 --> 00:53:20,938
Have I ever lied to you?

641
00:53:21,156 --> 00:53:22,146
No.

642
00:53:22,366 --> 00:53:23,902
So, why would I start now?

643
00:53:25,577 --> 00:53:29,070
Look, if you're not sick, then why
does it look like you're running away?

644
00:53:29,289 --> 00:53:30,450
Well, my mom is still worried.

645
00:53:30,624 --> 00:53:32,661
I knew it was too good to be true.
Just go back inside, come on.

646
00:53:32,876 --> 00:53:34,412
No, Olly, I have to know.

647
00:53:34,628 --> 00:53:35,618
Know what?

648
00:53:35,796 --> 00:53:37,753
I need to know if I'm still sick.

649
00:53:38,549 --> 00:53:41,542
And the only way that
I'll know is if I'm outside.

650
00:53:42,594 --> 00:53:44,551
Will you come with me?

651
00:53:44,763 --> 00:53:45,753
Come with you where?

652
00:53:45,973 --> 00:53:47,214
- Hawaii.
- Hawaii?

653
00:53:47,433 --> 00:53:49,049
I bought plane tickets.

654
00:53:49,977 --> 00:53:50,967
How?

655
00:53:51,645 --> 00:53:54,262
Credit cards are surprisingly easy to get.

656
00:53:54,815 --> 00:53:56,522
You're serious?

657
00:54:00,571 --> 00:54:03,234
What's wrong with Southern California?

658
00:54:06,201 --> 00:54:07,317
- Look, stay here, all right?
- Okay.

659
00:54:07,494 --> 00:54:08,655
Stay here.

660
00:54:22,885 --> 00:54:24,342
Here.

661
00:54:41,820 --> 00:54:42,981
Okay.

662
00:54:48,118 --> 00:54:49,325
Wait.

663
00:54:53,332 --> 00:54:55,369
Just try not to breathe.

664
00:54:56,502 --> 00:54:58,038
Ready?

665
00:54:59,630 --> 00:55:01,337
Just till Friday, okay?

666
00:55:01,548 --> 00:55:02,629
And if anybody asks,

667
00:55:03,217 --> 00:55:04,879
you don't know where I am.

668
00:55:10,265 --> 00:55:11,426
No, I'm fine.

669
00:55:11,642 --> 00:55:13,349
<i>Just be good.</i>

670
00:55:13,560 --> 00:55:15,267
And take care of Mom.

671
00:55:28,742 --> 00:55:30,574
We're going really fast.

672
00:55:31,286 --> 00:55:33,369
I'm going 30.

673
00:55:33,705 --> 00:55:34,695
Is that fast?

674
00:55:34,915 --> 00:55:36,247
No.

675
00:55:37,626 --> 00:55:39,709
Can we go faster?

676
00:55:50,514 --> 00:55:52,631
Madeline? Are you up?

677
00:56:22,713 --> 00:56:23,703
<i>Welcome aboard.</i>

678
00:56:23,881 --> 00:56:25,793
<i>All luggage should fit</i>
<i>in the overhead compartment</i>

679
00:56:25,966 --> 00:56:27,457
<i>or under the seat in front of you.</i>

680
00:56:39,605 --> 00:56:41,187
How you feeling?

681
00:56:41,815 --> 00:56:43,181
Terrified.

682
00:57:06,465 --> 00:57:07,626
You okay?

683
00:57:10,510 --> 00:57:11,967
This is crazy.

684
00:57:14,014 --> 00:57:15,004
Hi.

685
00:57:15,223 --> 00:57:16,213
<i>Aloha.</i>

686
00:57:17,559 --> 00:57:18,549
<i>Aloha.</i>

687
00:57:18,769 --> 00:57:19,759
Don't die.

688
00:57:19,978 --> 00:57:21,765
I'll try not to.

689
00:58:40,892 --> 00:58:41,928
Wow.

690
00:58:52,279 --> 00:58:53,486
Big bed.

691
00:59:07,252 --> 00:59:08,834
I found food.

692
00:59:09,755 --> 00:59:11,587
<i>That's very resourceful.</i>

693
00:59:13,300 --> 00:59:15,087
- Mmm.
- I wanna go in the water.

694
00:59:15,302 --> 00:59:16,292
Okay.

695
00:59:16,470 --> 00:59:18,553
I wanna see a <i>humuhumunukunukuapua'a.</i>

696
00:59:18,764 --> 00:59:19,880
A what?

697
00:59:20,390 --> 00:59:22,302
It's the Hawaiian state fish.

698
00:59:22,517 --> 00:59:23,678
Say it.

699
00:59:23,935 --> 00:59:25,176
You're setting me up to fail.

700
00:59:27,773 --> 00:59:31,437
<i>We have a 10-57.</i>
<i>Any units in the vicinity, please respond.</i>

701
00:59:40,869 --> 00:59:42,360
Where is your brother?

702
00:59:45,165 --> 00:59:46,326
Uh...

703
00:59:46,750 --> 00:59:47,957
Summer school.

704
00:59:48,168 --> 00:59:50,000
I don't think that's true.

705
00:59:50,587 --> 00:59:52,374
I don't know where they are.

706
00:59:53,173 --> 00:59:55,506
I'm asking you for your help.

707
00:59:55,675 --> 00:59:57,007
Where's Madeline?

708
00:59:57,344 --> 00:59:58,551
I'm sorry.

709
01:00:48,770 --> 01:00:49,886
Maddy?

710
01:00:54,442 --> 01:00:55,683
You're in a swimsuit.

711
01:00:56,361 --> 01:00:57,852
Yeah, I am.

712
01:00:58,655 --> 01:00:59,691
It's, um...

713
01:01:02,576 --> 01:01:03,612
It's...

714
01:01:03,827 --> 01:01:04,908
Small.

715
01:01:05,078 --> 01:01:06,159
It's small.

716
01:01:06,663 --> 01:01:07,653
It's small.

717
01:01:07,873 --> 01:01:08,863
Yeah.

718
01:01:10,917 --> 01:01:12,203
- I'll just be out here.
- Yeah. Okay.

719
01:01:20,093 --> 01:01:21,880
Yes!

720
01:01:22,596 --> 01:01:24,679
This umbrella's open over here.

721
01:01:26,099 --> 01:01:29,217
Oh, my God!

722
01:02:01,635 --> 01:02:04,298
Ready? Just lie back. Lay flat. Lay flat.

723
01:03:28,805 --> 01:03:29,795
Uh...

724
01:03:43,945 --> 01:03:45,061
Together?

725
01:03:45,280 --> 01:03:46,316
You know what? Um...

726
01:03:46,531 --> 01:03:48,193
I'll go first. Okay?

727
01:03:49,159 --> 01:03:50,900
Yeah, you go first.

728
01:03:52,162 --> 01:03:54,028
See you at the bottom.

729
01:04:07,761 --> 01:04:08,797
Whoo!

730
01:04:58,478 --> 01:05:01,721
<i>Far as I can tell, she's happy</i>

731
01:05:05,235 --> 01:05:07,943
<i>Livin' with her Macky</i>

732
01:05:11,699 --> 01:05:14,737
<i>So please don't take</i>

733
01:05:16,079 --> 01:05:18,071
<i>My love</i>

734
01:06:14,345 --> 01:06:17,964
It's strange,
'cause I don't even remember them.

735
01:06:20,351 --> 01:06:23,890
I think it's weird to miss something
that you never had.

736
01:06:24,731 --> 01:06:27,064
Or, you know, don't remember having.

737
01:06:28,776 --> 01:06:30,483
Not so weird.

738
01:06:33,823 --> 01:06:36,907
We came here before they died.

739
01:06:37,952 --> 01:06:39,068
And before I got sick.

740
01:06:40,413 --> 01:06:42,496
Well, you're not sick now.

741
01:06:47,629 --> 01:06:48,915
Why would you move?

742
01:06:49,130 --> 01:06:50,246
You asked me that already.

743
01:06:50,507 --> 01:06:52,499
<i>Yeah, but you didn't answer.</i>

744
01:06:55,553 --> 01:06:59,012
My dad is not very good at staying employed.

745
01:07:01,851 --> 01:07:03,934
And my mom feels trapped.

746
01:07:05,063 --> 01:07:06,645
I just don't know why she won't leave him.

747
01:07:06,856 --> 01:07:08,563
Well, have you asked her?

748
01:07:08,775 --> 01:07:09,856
Yeah.

749
01:07:10,068 --> 01:07:12,230
She doesn't talk about it anymore,

750
01:07:12,445 --> 01:07:14,437
but she used to say that,

751
01:07:16,574 --> 01:07:19,066
"You'd understand when you get older

752
01:07:19,911 --> 01:07:22,619
"and when you have your own relationships."

753
01:07:23,790 --> 01:07:25,827
She says love makes people crazy.

754
01:07:26,668 --> 01:07:27,875
Do you believe that?

755
01:07:28,878 --> 01:07:29,868
Do you?

756
01:07:32,382 --> 01:07:35,796
Well, I mean, I'm here
in Hawaii with you, so...

757
01:07:37,554 --> 01:07:38,670
I guess so.

758
01:07:41,474 --> 01:07:43,466
Are you saying you're in love with me?

759
01:07:43,685 --> 01:07:45,142
No. I...

760
01:07:46,437 --> 01:07:48,269
I'm just saying...

761
01:07:51,109 --> 01:07:54,568
I never would have left my house

762
01:07:55,780 --> 01:07:56,987
if it weren't for you.

763
01:08:01,077 --> 01:08:02,818
I love you.

764
01:08:18,052 --> 01:08:19,088
I...

765
01:08:21,014 --> 01:08:23,381
I loved you before I knew you.

766
01:08:44,495 --> 01:08:46,953
So, this is my side. This is...

767
01:08:48,041 --> 01:08:49,031
I like to sleep on the left.

768
01:11:02,425 --> 01:11:03,791
<i>Hey, Maddy.</i>

769
01:11:07,054 --> 01:11:08,761
Maddy, are you okay?

770
01:11:10,641 --> 01:11:12,928
Maddy, what's wrong?

771
01:11:13,686 --> 01:11:15,143
Maddy, are you okay?

772
01:11:15,855 --> 01:11:18,268
Whoa! Okay. All right.

773
01:11:19,066 --> 01:11:20,182
You're burning up.

774
01:11:20,359 --> 01:11:22,476
Maddy? Maddy?

775
01:11:22,695 --> 01:11:24,027
Maddy, can you hear me?

776
01:11:32,914 --> 01:11:33,904
Got it.

777
01:11:40,880 --> 01:11:42,246
Coming through.

778
01:11:42,465 --> 01:11:43,751
We just gotta get her to triage.

779
01:11:43,925 --> 01:11:45,416
Let's take her to Exam 2.

780
01:12:07,114 --> 01:12:08,901
Could you give us a minute?

781
01:12:18,543 --> 01:12:20,079
Madeline?

782
01:12:20,545 --> 01:12:21,956
Madeline?

783
01:12:50,783 --> 01:12:52,445
<i>My heart stopped.</i>

784
01:12:55,121 --> 01:12:57,283
<i>Then it started again.</i>

785
01:12:58,124 --> 01:12:59,956
<i>When I woke up,</i>

786
01:13:00,793 --> 01:13:02,500
<i>he was gone.</i>

787
01:13:10,970 --> 01:13:12,802
No, no, no. Lie down.

788
01:13:12,972 --> 01:13:14,804
Lie down, honey.

789
01:13:16,893 --> 01:13:17,929
Lie down.

790
01:13:19,729 --> 01:13:21,391
Am I okay?

791
01:13:21,606 --> 01:13:22,767
You're going to be.

792
01:14:06,317 --> 01:14:07,307
Are you okay?

793
01:14:07,526 --> 01:14:08,516
Yes.

794
01:14:09,153 --> 01:14:11,361
- Are you sure?
- Yeah. I'm okay, Olly.

795
01:14:12,531 --> 01:14:14,944
It's nice to be able to talk to you again.

796
01:14:15,451 --> 01:14:17,784
I tried to visit,
but your mom wouldn't let me.

797
01:14:17,995 --> 01:14:20,453
Yeah, I'm sorry
I put you through all of that.

798
01:14:20,873 --> 01:14:22,364
I can't do this anymore.

799
01:14:22,541 --> 01:14:24,498
Can't do what?

800
01:14:25,378 --> 01:14:27,415
No more texts.

801
01:14:27,630 --> 01:14:28,871
No more e-mails.

802
01:14:29,048 --> 01:14:31,131
Olly, this is just too hard.

803
01:14:32,259 --> 01:14:34,751
My mom was right, life was better before.

804
01:14:34,971 --> 01:14:36,212
Better for who?

805
01:14:36,430 --> 01:14:37,466
Ellipses.

806
01:14:37,682 --> 01:14:39,344
Don't do this, Maddy.

807
01:14:41,185 --> 01:14:42,266
Ellipses.

808
01:14:42,478 --> 01:14:45,892
Look, my life is better with you in it.

809
01:14:46,065 --> 01:14:47,681
But mine isn't.

810
01:14:49,860 --> 01:14:51,476
You know, I lied before.

811
01:14:52,071 --> 01:14:53,357
<i>About what?</i>

812
01:14:53,531 --> 01:14:55,067
I do feel sorry for you.

813
01:15:20,850 --> 01:15:22,091
<i>Tomorrow,</i>

814
01:15:23,019 --> 01:15:25,136
I am back at the hospital.

815
01:15:26,022 --> 01:15:28,435
Did you find me a good babysitter?

816
01:15:29,400 --> 01:15:32,609
Actually, I've been thinking
maybe you don't need a nurse.

817
01:15:32,945 --> 01:15:35,608
You learned a tough lesson,
and I can't imagine you repeating it.

818
01:15:36,282 --> 01:15:37,489
No.

819
01:15:38,325 --> 01:15:39,532
Good.

820
01:16:44,517 --> 01:16:47,260
<i>I wish you'd talk to me.</i>

821
01:16:47,478 --> 01:16:50,312
<i>I'll never meet anyone like you, Maddy.</i>

822
01:16:50,523 --> 01:16:53,516
<i>You look at the ocean</i>
<i>like it was meant for you.</i>

823
01:16:54,318 --> 01:16:57,311
<i>You jump off cliffs</i>
<i>even though you can't swim.</i>

824
01:16:58,197 --> 01:17:02,032
<i>You think you can find</i>
<i>the meaning of life in a book.</i>

825
01:17:02,827 --> 01:17:05,160
<i>You don't have any vices.</i>

826
01:17:05,371 --> 01:17:07,363
<i>You should really get some.</i>

827
01:17:09,208 --> 01:17:11,700
<i>I'm trying not to love you.</i>

828
01:17:12,545 --> 01:17:14,036
<i>But I'm failing.</i>

829
01:17:15,965 --> 01:17:17,957
<i>This is my last e-mail.</i>

830
01:17:18,175 --> 01:17:19,916
<i>We're moving back to New York.</i>

831
01:17:21,846 --> 01:17:25,510
<i>We're leaving tonight,</i>
<i>when my dad's out drinking.</i>

832
01:17:25,683 --> 01:17:28,930
<i>My mom wants to do it at night, because
she's afraid she won't be able to do it</i>

833
01:17:29,145 --> 01:17:30,977
<i>if he's right in front of her.</i>

834
01:17:32,148 --> 01:17:33,559
<i>I finally told her about you.</i>

835
01:17:35,526 --> 01:17:37,813
<i>She thinks you're brave.</i>

836
01:17:40,614 --> 01:17:43,322
<i>Being with you made me brave.</i>

837
01:18:27,953 --> 01:18:29,160
Hello?

838
01:18:29,330 --> 01:18:31,322
- <i>Madeline Whittier?</i>
- Yes.

839
01:18:31,582 --> 01:18:35,417
<i>Hi, this is Dr. Melissa Francis</i>
<i>from Maui Memorial Hospital.</i>

840
01:18:35,628 --> 01:18:38,587
<i>I was your attending physician</i>
<i>while you were here.</i>

841
01:18:38,797 --> 01:18:41,164
<i>I'm just following up on your lab results.</i>

842
01:18:41,383 --> 01:18:44,672
<i>Your myocarditis was caused</i>
<i>by a viral infection.</i>

843
01:18:45,596 --> 01:18:48,555
<i>You seem to have a very weak immune system.</i>

844
01:18:48,766 --> 01:18:49,802
Well, I have SCID.

845
01:18:49,975 --> 01:18:52,843
<i>SCID? Really? Why would you think that?</i>

846
01:18:53,062 --> 01:18:54,803
I've had it since I was a baby.

847
01:18:54,980 --> 01:18:55,970
<i>I don't know...</i>

848
01:18:56,148 --> 01:18:58,640
<i>If you had that kind</i>
<i>of severe immunodeficiency,</i>

849
01:18:58,859 --> 01:19:01,192
<i>you probably would have suffered</i>
<i>more than myocarditis.</i>

850
01:19:38,148 --> 01:19:39,184
What's going on?

851
01:19:42,069 --> 01:19:43,560
Am I sick?

852
01:19:44,154 --> 01:19:45,190
What?

853
01:19:46,323 --> 01:19:47,985
Am I sick?

854
01:19:48,200 --> 01:19:49,941
Do you feel sick?

855
01:19:50,452 --> 01:19:51,988
That's not what I mean.

856
01:19:58,210 --> 01:20:00,953
Do you remember meeting
a Dr. Francis in Maui?

857
01:20:01,171 --> 01:20:04,255
I met lots of doctors in Maui, why?

858
01:20:05,592 --> 01:20:08,335
She doesn't think I have SCID.

859
01:20:10,306 --> 01:20:13,094
And she got your hopes up, didn't she?

860
01:20:15,394 --> 01:20:19,138
It was irresponsible of her to do that.

861
01:20:19,356 --> 01:20:21,814
S.C.I.D. is so rare

862
01:20:22,026 --> 01:20:23,767
and so complicated.

863
01:20:23,986 --> 01:20:28,026
Not everyone understands it.
There's just too many types.

864
01:20:28,365 --> 01:20:31,574
And every person reacts differently.

865
01:20:31,744 --> 01:20:32,905
You get that, don't you?

866
01:20:33,078 --> 01:20:34,740
Yeah, that's what you've always told me.

867
01:20:34,955 --> 01:20:36,287
Well, you just saw it for yourself.

868
01:20:36,457 --> 01:20:40,408
You were fine for a little while, and then
you almost died in that emergency room.

869
01:20:40,586 --> 01:20:44,421
Immune systems are very complicated.

870
01:20:44,631 --> 01:20:49,046
And Dr. Francis doesn't know
your full medical history.

871
01:20:49,261 --> 01:20:51,969
She's just looking at a tiny fraction.

872
01:20:52,181 --> 01:20:55,265
She hasn't been here
the whole time like I have.

873
01:20:59,521 --> 01:21:01,228
Where are the papers, Mom?

874
01:21:02,399 --> 01:21:04,607
What are you talking about?

875
01:21:06,070 --> 01:21:08,437
You have records for everything.

876
01:21:08,655 --> 01:21:10,647
But you have nothing about SCID!

877
01:21:10,866 --> 01:21:12,073
Where are the papers?

878
01:21:13,660 --> 01:21:16,277
Well, they must be here,

879
01:21:16,455 --> 01:21:18,663
because I keep...

880
01:21:19,625 --> 01:21:22,288
I keep everything and I...

881
01:21:23,629 --> 01:21:24,961
Did you...

882
01:21:25,381 --> 01:21:27,418
Did you take them?

883
01:21:27,883 --> 01:21:29,419
<i>The papers?</i>

884
01:21:37,393 --> 01:21:39,009
Madeline?

885
01:21:40,521 --> 01:21:41,853
Madeline?

886
01:21:50,823 --> 01:21:52,359
<i>Madeline?</i>

887
01:21:52,533 --> 01:21:54,024
Madeline?

888
01:21:57,037 --> 01:21:59,745
Madeline, what are you doing? Are you okay?

889
01:21:59,998 --> 01:22:01,284
Come inside, come inside.

890
01:22:01,500 --> 01:22:03,082
Why?

891
01:22:04,503 --> 01:22:06,620
Why do I have to go inside, Mom?

892
01:22:06,839 --> 01:22:09,877
Because you're sick, baby. You're sick.

893
01:22:10,092 --> 01:22:11,208
No.

894
01:22:11,427 --> 01:22:13,339
Madeline, please. Please.

895
01:22:13,512 --> 01:22:14,844
I'm not going back inside.

896
01:22:15,055 --> 01:22:16,045
You have to.

897
01:22:17,307 --> 01:22:20,050
You're all I have left. I can't lose you.

898
01:22:20,811 --> 01:22:22,052
Please.

899
01:22:22,855 --> 01:22:25,142
Have I ever been sick?

900
01:22:28,735 --> 01:22:29,771
Come inside.

901
01:22:31,321 --> 01:22:32,857
Come inside.

902
01:22:33,031 --> 01:22:35,023
Come inside, Madeline.

903
01:22:35,200 --> 01:22:36,862
Madeline, don't.

904
01:22:37,744 --> 01:22:39,155
Madeline, don't.

905
01:22:39,371 --> 01:22:40,612
Madeline.

906
01:22:41,123 --> 01:22:42,159
Madeline!

907
01:22:43,083 --> 01:22:44,449
Madeline!

908
01:23:30,255 --> 01:23:32,292
<i>We're not sure about the state
of your immune system.</i>

909
01:23:32,508 --> 01:23:37,128
<i>We think it's possible that</i>
<i>it's underdeveloped, like an infant's.</i>

910
01:23:37,930 --> 01:23:41,765
<i>It hasn't been exposed to common viruses</i>
<i>or bacterial infections.</i>

911
01:23:42,351 --> 01:23:44,217
<i>You don't have S.C.I.D.</i>

912
01:23:45,938 --> 01:23:47,270
Why did I get sick in Hawaii?

913
01:23:47,481 --> 01:23:50,224
<i>Well, normal, healthy people</i>
<i>get sick all the time.</i>

914
01:24:12,256 --> 01:24:14,623
I brought you some of your things.

915
01:24:21,932 --> 01:24:24,845
I'm only taking it because
I want you to leave.

916
01:24:32,859 --> 01:24:36,023
Right after your dad and your brother died,

917
01:24:38,657 --> 01:24:40,819
you got so sick.

918
01:24:42,077 --> 01:24:44,069
You wouldn't breathe right.

919
01:24:44,997 --> 01:24:49,082
And I took you to the emergency room,
where we had to stay for three days,

920
01:24:50,335 --> 01:24:53,248
and they couldn't figure out
what was wrong with you.

921
01:24:54,798 --> 01:24:58,462
They said it was probably
some kind of allergy,

922
01:24:59,344 --> 01:25:02,587
and they gave me a list of things
to stay away from and...

923
01:25:06,226 --> 01:25:07,558
I was...

924
01:25:08,270 --> 01:25:11,229
I was so sure it was something else.

925
01:25:21,408 --> 01:25:23,650
I love you, Maddy.

926
01:25:28,040 --> 01:25:30,657
And I hope you still love me.

927
01:25:34,504 --> 01:25:36,245
I'm so sorry.

928
01:26:07,162 --> 01:26:11,031
<i>The universe already took my dad
and brother away from my mom.</i>

929
01:26:12,751 --> 01:26:15,084
<i>She was afraid to lose me, too.</i>

930
01:26:15,462 --> 01:26:18,921
<i>So she made herself believe that I was sick.</i>

931
01:26:21,551 --> 01:26:25,636
<i>I can understand how she felt. Almost.</i>

932
01:26:26,515 --> 01:26:28,097
<i>I'm trying to.</i>

933
01:26:30,686 --> 01:26:32,678
<i>My mother loved my father.</i>

934
01:26:36,983 --> 01:26:39,270
<i>He was the love of her life.</i>

935
01:26:40,612 --> 01:26:42,729
<i>And she loved my brother.</i>

936
01:26:43,657 --> 01:26:46,115
<i>He was the love of her life.</i>

937
01:26:47,369 --> 01:26:49,361
<i>And she loves me.</i>

938
01:26:50,414 --> 01:26:52,747
<i>I am the love of her life.</i>

939
01:26:55,127 --> 01:26:56,993
<i>I want to forgive her.</i>

940
01:26:58,296 --> 01:27:03,132
<i>But right now, all I can think about</i>
<i>is everything I've missed.</i>

941
01:27:11,309 --> 01:27:13,426
<i>I've been trying to find the single moment</i>

942
01:27:13,645 --> 01:27:15,978
<i>that set my life on its path.</i>

943
01:27:16,773 --> 01:27:19,390
<i>Maybe there's a version of my life</i>
<i>where I'm sick.</i>

944
01:27:20,485 --> 01:27:22,477
<i>A version where I die in Hawaii.</i>

945
01:27:23,780 --> 01:27:28,195
<i>Another where my father and brother are</i>
<i>still alive and my mother's not broken.</i>

946
01:27:30,370 --> 01:27:32,783
<i>There's even a version</i>
<i>of my life without Olly in it.</i>

947
01:28:41,441 --> 01:28:42,522
Hi.

948
01:28:43,860 --> 01:28:44,896
Hey.

949
01:28:47,447 --> 01:28:50,902
Do you ever wonder what your life would be
like if you could just change one thing?

950
01:28:51,451 --> 01:28:54,615
What if changing one thing made things worse?

951
01:28:55,247 --> 01:28:56,783
What if we hadn't met?

952
01:28:57,332 --> 01:28:58,698
But we did.

953
01:28:59,459 --> 01:29:00,666
We did.

954
01:29:06,424 --> 01:29:08,632
I'm sorry that I didn't say goodbye.

955
01:29:10,136 --> 01:29:12,253
Are you sure you should be here?

956
01:29:14,015 --> 01:29:15,677
Probably not.

957
01:29:22,107 --> 01:29:24,815
What if today was the first day that we met?

958
01:29:26,611 --> 01:29:27,943
Okay.

959
01:29:31,449 --> 01:29:33,907
I'm so happy to meet you.

960
01:29:46,131 --> 01:29:48,464
I'm so happy to meet you, too.