The Advice of a Fox

[05:01] Mo'Cha says, "Star fall sounds better if you're going to your house-"
[05:01] Yoshiko Taiyang says, "My wind, Alexios should still be there."
[05:09] [ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8QPEVQp1MZw ]

Mo'Cha's influence has been nothing but brute strength all his life and perhaps that reflected badly on him. To like pain and to even love inflecting it - it wasn't normal. He could tell that this little obsession of his wasn't normal.

But he didn't really care, he just wanted to see how it is when people break, when people beg for their life. It made him twisted and if this keeps going on? He won't have the chance to hold himself together.

"... After my fight with Morok, I grew to love pain." He nonchalantly speaks, "I love dealing it, as much as I love experiencing it." He pauses for a moment, his gaze slightly pins the older kitsune.

"It makes me feel so alive..." He mutters out, looking down at his hands - his face, brused as it always is, dried blood is covering it at all times.

"... I don't want this animosity to keep growing, Yoshiko- I feel..." He pauses for a moment, clearly confused by all of this...

"It doesn't feel wrong but... The girl I love, she keeps saying that it isn't normal and I can't help it - I feel... Nothing." His empathy after Sylvannas' betrayal was dying out, all he wanted is pain - to receive or deal it.

"... All I want is to hurt people... It makes me feel alive, Yoshiko... Please help me, I don't know who else to turn to."
(Mo'Cha)
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[05:27] Yoshiko canted her head and tried to analyze Mo'cha's situation. She wasn't sure how to really tell him but she's never really experienced a problem like this for herself or anyone in general.

But Yoshiko was a proud member that the Ilian clan appreciated. So she didn't mind helping out one of the family members go through a problem of theirs. Especially when they want to better themselves through it.

"The thrill of giving and receiving pain excites you? Hm.. The feeling of pain is important. If we didn't something as important as pain, there'd be times where we don't know if we're hurt or suffering. But my question is this sudden love for pain because the enjoyment to fight?" she inquires.

The fox placed a finger to her chin and pondered for a moment. There were many ways to explain it but this caused her to dig deeper. Especially since he mentioned someone that he loved. It just got more important of a situation.

"If the person you love says it is not normal then do they love you back? If they do, they can understand and cope with your reasons. But.. If you would like to get rid of this satisfaction? Perhaps you'd do good with therapy.

But if the off-chance that this physical pain continues, you'll end up causing mental pain for others and yourself. You do not want that do you...? You do not want to end up harming those that love you and vice versa..." she added.

(Yoshiko Taiyang)
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[05:33] Did Yoshiko misunderstand him? Did she not get what he meant? That wasn't it, that's not what he wanted fixed. The boy ponders on her words for a moment, his love for Emily was strong - he could feel it forcing him to change.

Though, if that were to end - he might end up becoming what he feared... He really needed something to keep him held back from those dark thoughts that were planted into the back of his head from the traumatic experience after fighting the Archon.

"...No." He replies when it comes to enjoyment to fight, that wasn't it - enjoying a fight felt different, that was merely adrenaline making his heart beat rise.

"She does love me back." He replied, "But I'm afraid this is pushing her away - and no, this isn't what I'm afraid of- I just..."

"... I don't really care if I end up hurting her, I don't feel anything - you know when you know you're doing something wrong and you feel guilt? I am not guilty. I don't feel it. It died off a long time ago." A slap onto his face was delivered, he needed to bleed or else he'll cry.

Perhaps that's what bottling up your emotions does to you? If you keep them long enough, hidden, you do not feel them.

"That's the problem, Yoshiko, I just do not care..."
(Mo'Cha)
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[05:46] "Oh.."

Yohsiko felt like she could come to understand what the Rhoynish. Even though Yoshiko never had this feeling of not gathering the emotion of guilt, she still wanted to see if she could come to understand and relate. Just so she could access the situation better.

"That's problematic.. Hurting the one you love. I would never dare harm Alexios even if I was forced.. I would do my best to avoid such a situation. But in your case, if you hurt whoever, you do not care or feel remorse for your actions."

Yoshiko switches her stance and rests her arms under her chest; alongside her abdomen.

"If you lost it a long time ago... Then I suppose you must regain it. Sometimes, if you wait to long to gain something you've lost, it could end up being lost forever. But.. I believe you still have time, Mo'cha."

Yoshiko birthed a smile on their features. She might've had an idea that could work for them. But she wondered if the hot-headed rhoynish had the patience and dedication to do so. "How about going through a meditative state, hm? You'll realize your mistakes to a deeper level. It could reactive that certain guilt that you've lost.

What do you think..?"
(Yoshiko Taiyang)
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[06:10] "Is it?" He replied to her answer, problematic - it only felt natural to him. He didn't care, at all - it just felt weird that he could not do what he wanted.

"... I just want to take what I want and do what I want." He merely states, nonchalantly - gazing down at his hand, as he flexes his arm about, watching the back of his palm with his gaze.

"I just want to know how it feels to take a life..." He starts unloading on the older Kitsune, clearly, the young Rhoynish Prince was not content with merely that, though.

"... Do you know how it feels? To inflict the same they've done to the people you cared about? My brother, Cassius and my mother, Ella." He starts to pace around slightly, strolling - if he was to meditate on the subject - he might as well start.

"Is it worth finding if all I am is an agent of vengeance?" His guilt seemed like... An obstacle, truly problematic - hisentire demeanor seems to change, now that he'd thought about it some more.

"Does it matter if I feel wrong if I took a life to see how far stronger I got?" He repeats again, he just wanted to take a life to see if he could get over his limits.

"I think, the only reason I lost to that Archon is because humanity is an alienated subject to him, is it really what sets me back? Is it what makes me this... Weak?"
(Mo'Cha)
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[06:30] He didn't appear to care all that much. He didn't seem to bother to see what she had to offer with the meditative session. That was fine. He was letting a lot more out this way.

"It's not something fulfilling.. Especially if there is no reason to doing so," she admitted. There was nothing good about killing someone. Even if Yoshiko saw revenge or vengeance in it. Nothing felt good about it in her opinion. Well, she never saw purging as killing someone. She didn't think of it that way.

"I had a reason to do what I did to Izurza because she had to repent for her sins and the only way to do that was to cleanse her heart and let her soul be washed away into a safe realm. I forgave her for her sins as well.." Yoshiko could not say she know how it feels to do what happened to his mother or brother. She did not kill for the pleasure for it.

"Vengeance can bring happiness to some.. But it is not always the right path. But of course, Rhoynish customs are different from what I, a blessed Kitsune, think. So I cannot give you a correct answer on how you see it as it is best to ask someone who is related to you. I can only guide you to a more progressive and kinder path..

But if you take a life for your own benefit... That is not the way to see if you are stronger. You clearly not receiving anything from doing so and will only cause despair to others and then it will backfire on you... Much like what happened to Izurza when the occult got to her," the Taiyang adds.

Yoshiko sighs for a moment. "Dear..." She quietly stares at the rhoynish boy. "... There is no use focusing on why you think you are weak. You will not improve that way. You want concentrate on how strong you can be and become and how you will."
(Yoshiko Taiyang)
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[07:01] Why be kind if all he's going to do is dish out pain and punishment to those that wronged him? His innocence was caged inside a long time ago, why hold onto something this silly?

"Maybe I'll have you do that to me once I finish my crusade..." Dying once he's finished his purpose would be the best, "... maybe I should break up with Emily, this is a path I should take alone.." A cigarette was fished out from his jacket's pocket, it was ignited allowing for the boy to take a long, heaving draw from within it.

"I don't think vengeance will make me feel anything but content, happiness is too strong a word to portray how I feel right now.." The teenager blows out some of the smoke he'd inhaled, away from the smaller kitsune.

"A line once crossed, can not be walked back from - is that what they say?" He replied to the Izurza story, the Prince did not see any other way to climb outfrom what he's feeling - all the despair.

"... Well. I-" He seems to ponder the idea slightly, perhaps having a limit on yourself can help him try to keep himself from falling from his grace, entering the world of disgracefulness would be bad for his family.

Right?

Except, there was barely any family left. They say blood is thicker and all, but it wasn't the case to the young Prince. Sure, he'll give his life for his family happily and contently but that wasn't enough.

"I think I'll try your meditation now, see if it helps... If not- I'll have to tread my path alone..."
(Mo'Cha)
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[07:57] "You.. don't have to do that. A path travelled alone only causes you to become lost on the way..." Yoshiko felt this was in some relation to Misha who had lost their brother Yersin and became lost in bloodlust.

But of course, when you are like that there is ways to come back. Yoshiko wanted to make that clear. "I suppose..." Another sigh releases from her mien while she speaks to the rhoynish boy. "It does not matter that you crossed the line, Mo'cha.. It's what you do after you cross the line that genuinely counts."

She watches him smoke but doesn't comment on it. She's had a certain dog head do it all the time in front of her rather than politely doing it in the other direction. But she was hoping her words meant something and gave insight.

There was no use in disgracing his family. They had built up to a good point and there was only downfall in oneself if he tried to cause mayhem without their word onit.

"Well, I'm glad you're at least going to try. When my shrine's construction is done, I will call for you, okay? For now, it is time I reunite with Alexios..

If you need anything else from me, don't be afraid to tell me. I'll do anything I can for the Ilian clan as a whole."
(Yoshiko Taiyang)
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[08:16] "Mmm...." Mo'Cha had a lot to think on from this chat, perhaps he could try meditating on his own or perhaps try to relax - maybe some alcohol could help?

"I'll... I'll have Emily help me, I need to face this-..." He acknowledged the fact, at last, that this in it's entirety will only mean his misery alone. Though, to face this - he needed to acknowledge it.

Perhaps a year off the battle ground could do him well? Especially after all of this, rushing around aimlessly - it could do him a lot of harm, especially since he's been in so much danger in so little years he had on this earth.

"Thank you, Yoshiko." The boy stood there, cigarette already burnt itself out, alongside the tips of his fingers - which he didn't feel or rather, he did and did not care.

He tosses the piece of paper still in his hand back into his pocket, dirtying her home would be considered rude - especially after he confinded in her.

He walked closer to Yoshiko, with an arm around her back, a gentle hugh - nothing too tight or too forced, a simple quick hug.

"... I do not want family hearing about any of this, it stays between us, okay?" He mutters, clearly, he didn't want them to worry - a hint of low confidence really...
(Mo'Cha)
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[08:16] Yoshiko Taiyang says, "You have my word, dear."
[08:16] Yoshiko Taiyang says, "Now go home. I'm sure someone is looking for you."