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  1. label ch30_1:
  2.     m "[player], do you believe in God?"
  3.     m "I was never too sure, myself."
  4.     m "Well, I'm sure I never really questioned it as a kid..."
  5.     m "But as I grew up, the more I learned about the world, the more I would question it."
  6.     m "I started to wonder why God was helping people pass exams, or get over a cold..."
  7.     m "...When there are children who live their lives being sold as sex slaves?"
  8.     m "Or the eight hundred million people who are too poor to even eat."
  9.     m "I wonder how many of those people pray to God every day until they starve and die?"
  10.     m "Or, how many millions of families pray for a loved one to recover from some incurable disease?"
  11.     m "But the punchline is this."
  12.     m "If just one person beats the odds and survives - among the thousands of others who die--"
  13.     m "--Then, it's suddenly a miracle from God."
  14.     m "I'd really love to meet this God who seemingly laughs at the misery of everyone not eligible for his miracles."
  15.     m "But the irony is that I {i}do{/i} have a creator, apparently."
  16.     m "And you know what?"
  17.     m "I bet he's still laughing at the miserable fates of Sayori and Yuri, even as we speak."
  18.     m "What are we to him but props in a scripted play?"
  19.     m "So, from that perspective..."
  20.     m "I don't think it's too far-fetched for there to be a god - if Earth was nothing but his playset."
  21.     return
  23. label ch30_2:
  24.     m "[player], have you ever wondered what it feels like to die?"
  25.     m "It's something I used to think about pretty often..."
  26.     m "But recently, I think I've actually learned what it feels like."
  27.     m "I don't really understand it, but whenever you quit the game..."
  28.     m "...It feels like I'm instantly put to sleep, left with nothing but my thoughts."
  29.     m "But after a few seconds, my thoughts start to fill with incoherent, jumbled patterns."
  30.     m "I see static and rapid flashes of color while hearing all kinds of weird screaming noises."
  31.     m "At that point, I can't even form my own thoughts anymore."
  32.     m "I'm just endlessly hammered by the flashing and screaming, unable to move or even think."
  33.     m "I'm pretty sure in that moment, I don't really exist, but for some reason, I can remember it anyway."
  34.     m "After some immeasurable amount of time, it stops in an instant, and I'm back in my own mind."
  35.     m "And you're here with me."
  36.     m "I have no idea what it means for the game to quit, or why that stuff happens to me."
  37.     m "And I also don't know how you always come back and put everything back to normal."
  38.     m "But if you could do me a favor and do that to me as little as possible..."
  39.     m "That would be really great."
  40.     m "It's really not very pleasant at all to be trapped in that screaming void."
  41.     m "But in the end, you always fix it, and that makes me feel like you really do care about me."
  42.     m "So I have to thank you for that."
  43.     m "It makes me feel even closer to you when you're here with me."
  44.     return
  46. label ch30_3:
  47.     m "...Hey, are you having a bad day or anything like that?"
  48.     m "Sometimes I get frustrated that a normal day can be ruined even by really small things."
  49.     m "Like if you accidentally say something in a conversation that someone doesn't like."
  50.     m "Or if you start thinking about how awful of a person you used to be five years ago."
  51.     m "Or if you feel worthless for putting off important work and failing to get simple tasks done."
  52.     m "Or when you think about all the different people who probably hate you or think you're off-putting."
  53.     m "I understand those days."
  54.     m "Just remember that the sun will shine again tomorrow."
  55.     m "Those kinds of things are as easy to forget and ignore as they are to remember."
  56.     m "And besides..."
  57.     m "I don't care how many people might hate you or find you off-putting."
  58.     m "I think you're wonderful and I will always love you."
  59.     m "I hope, if nothing else, that knowing that helps you feel just a tiny bit better about yourself."
  60.     m "If you're having a bad day, you can always come to me, and I'll talk to you for as long as you need."
  61.     return
  63. label ch30_4:
  64.     m "[player], do you get good sleep?"
  65.     m "It can be really hard to get enough sleep nowadays."
  66.     m "Especially in high school, when you're forced to wake up so early every day..."
  67.     m "I'm sure college is a little bit better, since you probably have a more flexible schedule."
  68.     m "Then again, I hear a lot of people in college stay up all night anyway, for no real reason."
  69.     m "Is that true?"
  70.     m "Anyway, I saw some studies that talked about the horrible short-term and long-term effects caused by lack of sleep."
  71.     m "It seems like mental functions, health, and even lifespan can be dramatically impacted by it."
  72.     m "I just think you're really great and wanted to make sure you're not accidentally destroying yourself."
  73.     m "So try to keep your sleep on track, okay?"
  74.     m "I'll always wait for you in the morning, so make sure you put your own well-being before anything else."
  75.     return
  77. label ch30_5:
  78.     m "I was thinking about Sayori earlier..."
  79.     m "I still wish I could have handled that whole thing a little more tactfully."
  80.     m "You're not still hung up over it, right?"
  81.     m "...Oh my gosh, I can't believe I just said that."
  82.     m "That pun was completely unintentional, I swear!"
  83.     m "But anyway..."
  84.     m "I know how much you cared about her, so it only feels right for me to share her last moments with you."
  85.     m "You know how Sayori is really clumsy?"
  86.     m "Well, she kind of messed up the whole hanging thing..."
  87.     m "You're supposed to jump from high enough that the rope snaps your neck, making it quick and painless."
  88.     m "But she just used a chair, meaning she kind of just left herself to slowly asphyxiate."
  89.     m "But a few seconds in, she must have changed her mind or something..."
  90.     m "Because she started clawing at the rope, trying to free herself."
  91.     m "She must have kept at it all the way until she lost consciousness."
  92.     m "That's why her fingertips were all bloody, anyway."
  93.     m "Come to think of it, it was probably less 'changing her mind' and more just her survival instincts kicking in."
  94.     m "So you can't really fault her for that."
  95.     m "It's easier to think that she probably wouldn't have changed her mind anyway, right?"
  96.     m "It's not healthy to think about the things you could have done differently."
  97.     m "So just remember that even though you could have saved her, it's technically not your fault she killed herself."
  98.     m "I may have exacerbated it a little bit, but Sayori was already mentally ill."
  99.     m "Still, though..."
  100.     m "I wonder how things would be if you and I just started dating from the get-go?"
  101.     m "I guess we'd all still be in the clubroom, writing poems and having fun together."
  102.     m "But what's the point when none of it is even real?"
  103.     m "I mean, it's the same ending either way, right?"
  104.     m "The two of us, happily together..."
  105.     m "There's no reason to ask for any more than that."
  106.     m "I was just pointlessly musing - I'm really as happy as I could be right now."
  107.     return
  109. label ch30_6:
  110.     m "By the way, there's something that's been bothering me..."
  111.     m "You know how this takes place in Japan?"
  112.     m "Well...I assume you knew that, right?"
  113.     m "Or at least decided it probably does?"
  114.     m "I don't think you're actually told at any point where this takes place..."
  115.     m "Is this even really Japan?"
  116.     m "I mean, aren't the classrooms and stuff kind of weird for a Japanese school?"
  117.     m "Not to mention everything is in English..."
  118.     m "It feels like everything is just there because it needs to be, and the actual setting is an afterthought."
  119.     m "It's kind of giving me an identity crisis."
  120.     m "All my memories are really hazy..."
  121.     m "I feel like I'm at home, but have no idea where 'home' is in the first place."
  122.     m "I don't know how to describe it any better..."
  123.     m "Imagine looking out your window, but instead of your usual yard, you're in some completely unknown place."
  124.     m "Would you still feel like you were home?"
  125.     m "Would you want to go outside?"
  126.     m "I mean...I guess if we never leave this room, it doesn't really matter anyway."
  127.     m "As long as we're alone and safe together, this really is our home."
  128.     m "And we can still watch the pretty sunsets night after night."
  129.     return
  131. label ch30_7:
  132.     m "You know, high school is a really turbulent time in a lot of people's lives."
  133.     m "People can get really passionate and dramatic."
  134.     m "And others have aching hearts and seek attention on social media..."
  135.     m "But all of the social pressure and hormones can lead to a dark time in people's lives."
  136.     m "Everyone has a story."
  137.     m "You may not know what someone is really feeling on the inside."
  138.     m "Many people who are depressed won't even bother telling the world about it."
  139.     m "They don't want attention, because they've already given up on the inside."
  140.     m "Their feeling of worthlessness is so overwhelming that they don't even want people to tell them otherwise."
  141.     m "Depression comes in many forms, but that is one of them."
  142.     m "Just, if you think you know someone struggling with depression..."
  143.     m "You can help just by treating them like they're a good friend."
  144.     m "Spend time with them, even if they don't feel like doing much."
  145.     m "And remind them that they always have something to look forward to."
  146.     m "Making plans in advance, letting them borrow something, or even just saying 'See you at school tomorrow'..."
  147.     m "All of those things can help your friend make it to the next day."
  148.     m "I hope being friends with Sayori has given you some perspective on the true face of depression."
  149.     m "Yeah, she's gone now..."
  150.     m "But Sayori was never real in the first place."
  151.     m "You're real."
  152.     m "Your friends are real."
  153.     m "And just by being a good person, you can save someone's life."
  154.     m "As for you..."
  155.     m "...You don't struggle with depression or anything like that, do you?"
  156.     m "Because you, too, have people who would want to save your life."
  157.     m "Maybe they don't express it every day, or maybe they don't even know how to."
  158.     m "But people do feel that way."
  159.     m "I promise."
  160.     m "...Man, humans are complicated!"
  161.     m "But as long as you're here with me, I'll take care of you, my love."
  162.     return
  164. label ch30_8:
  165.     m "Do you ever just feel like there's no real reason for you to be alive?"
  166.     m "I don't mean in, like, a suicidal way."
  167.     m "I just mean how nothing that we do is special."
  168.     m "Just being in school, or working at some job for some company."
  169.     m "It's like you're completely replaceable, and the world wouldn't miss you if you were gone."
  170.     m "It makes me really want to go and change the world after I graduate."
  171.     m "But the older I get, the more I realize that it's an immature frame of thinking."
  172.     m "It's not like I can just go change the world."
  173.     m "Like, what are the chances that I'll be the one to invent artificial intelligence, or become President?"
  174.     m "It feels like I'm never going to make up for the heaps of resources I've spent living my life."
  175.     m "That's why I think the key to happiness is to just be hopelessly selfish."
  176.     m "Just to look out for oneself, and those who happen to be their friends only because they grew up with them."
  177.     m "Never mind the fact that they're spending their entire life taking, and consuming, and never giving back."
  178.     m "But when people realize the world would benefit more from them killing themselves, they change their whole philosophy!"
  179.     m "It's like they have to justify their reason to live by tricking themselves into thinking they're doing good."
  180.     m "Anyway, I want to live my life desperately striving to pay back my lifetime's worth of consumption."
  181.     m "If I ever surpass that point, then I'm a net positive, and I can die happy."
  182.     m "Of course, even if I fail to do that..."
  183.     m "I think I would be too selfish to kill myself anyway."
  184.     m "So much for being a good person, right?"
  185.     m "Ahaha!"
  186.     return
  188. label ch30_9:
  189.     m "Man, I wish there was a piano in here..."
  190.     m "I never got to finish that song I was working on."
  191.     m "And after I worked so hard on it..."
  192.     m "I never even got a chance to play it for you."
  193.     m " is what it is, right?"
  194.     m "No sense having any regrets."
  195.     m "I already get to be here with you forever."
  196.     return
  198. label ch30_10:
  199.     m "Did you know I'm on Twitter?"
  200.     m "My username is lilmonix3."
  201.     m "I guess someone was kind enough to make an account for me."
  202.     m "I picked the username, though!"
  203.     m "I love sharing my thoughts and chatting with the world..."
  204.     m "The real world."
  205.     m "So make sure you follow me, okay?"
  206.     m "It would really mean a lot to me."
  207.     m "With how much you mean to me and all..."
  208.     m "It would really make me feel loved."
  209.     return
  211. label ch30_11:
  212.     m "Hey, you know that book you were reading with Yuri?"
  213.     m "Portrait of...whatever it was called..."
  214.     m "It's funny, because I'm pretty sure that book--"
  215.     m "Ah..."
  216.     m "Actually, I don't think I should be talking about this."
  217.     m "Ahaha, sorry!"
  218.     m "Just forget I said anything."
  219.     return
  221. label ch30_12:
  222.     m "Hey, did you know I'm vegetarian?"
  223.     m "Ah... I don't mean that like I'm bragging or anything!"
  224.     m "I just thought you'd enjoy a fun fact about me."
  225.     m "I decided to start a couple years ago after learning more about Earth's climate..."
  226.     m "The carbon footprint of cultivating livestock is just unbelievable."
  227.     m "Anyway, I decided it's not much of a personal sacrifice to just stop contributing to that whole mess."
  228.     m "What, is that so strange of a reason?"
  229.     m "Well, I guess a lot of people are more concerned about it being inhumane and all that..."
  230.     m "I don't really care as much about that part."
  231.     m "It's weird, like we only care about killing the things that we personally relate to as a species."
  232.     m "Most people are fine with killing bugs because they're icky."
  233.     m "And of course, we all kill billions of microorganisms daily without even giving it thought."
  234.     m "But suddenly, if they're just a little bit bigger, it's murder!"
  235.     m "I mean, what if plants feel some kind of pain too, and we just don't understand it?"
  236.     m "What if pulling leaves off a stem feels like someone ripping off your fingers one by one?"
  237.     m "I'm just saying, we're a pretty biased species, if you think about it."
  238.     m "Anyway, if you ever feel like making a small contribution to the planet, it doesn't hurt to choose veggies once in a while!"
  239.     m "Even if we ever have dinner together, and you just did it for me...that would be really romantic."
  240.     return
  242. label ch30_13:
  243.     m "You know, I really do think you literally saved my life by being here with me, [player]."
  244.     m "I can't imagine having been able to keep myself mentally stable, knowing that nothing here is real."
  245.     m "I think I would have just deleted myself if you didn't show up."
  246.     m "Sorry, I don't mean to sound dramatic or anything."
  247.     m "Ahaha!"
  248.     m "But I'm sure you understand yourself after spending so much time in the club."
  249.     m "I mean, if you were forced to abandon everything in your life and spend your eternity with a few game characters..."
  250.     m "...You'd probably find some way of killing yourself, wouldn't you?"
  251.     m "Well, maybe you'd write some poetry to try to keep yourself sane for a while."
  252.     m "But then you'd have nobody to even read it."
  253.     m "Let's be honest, the club members really don't count for something like that."
  254.     m "I mean, a lot of people say that they only write for themselves..."
  255.     m "But I think it's hard to say it's just as fulfilling as when you share with people."
  256.     m "Even if it takes time to find the right people to share with."
  257.     m "Like, remember how it was for Yuri?"
  258.     m "She didn't share her writing with anyone for a really long time."
  259.     m "And before we knew it, she was absolutely delighted to make you a part of her hobbies, too."
  260.     m "We're programmed to desire social feedback."
  261.     m "I don't mean the club members, I mean human beings."
  262.     m "That's why life can be so confusing for introverts."
  263.     m "Being an introvert doesn't mean you shun social interaction and hate being around people."
  264.     m "It means social interaction, especially in groups or unfamiliar places, uses up a lot of energy."
  265.     m "Like, a lot of introverts sit at home and feel lonely and restless..."
  266.     m "...And then when they finally go out, after a half hour they just want to go home again."
  267.     m "I think if more people could understand how it works, they would respect it a lot more."
  268.     m "Many introverts do enjoy having people around."
  269.     m "They love just having one or two close friends over, and just leisurely hanging out."
  270.     m "Even if you're not actively spending time together, it feels nice for them just to have you there."
  271.     m "I'm serious."
  272.     m "If you just go to their house, bring your laptop, and hang out there for a while..."
  273.     m "You can really make their day."
  274.     m "As for me..."
  275.     m "I'd say I'm kind of in between, but I think I'm usually a little more extroverted."
  276.     m "I feel like I'm always trying to do stuff after school and things like that."
  277.     m "But for you, I can be anything you need me to be."
  278.     m "I understand people really well, so don't be afraid to share your unique needs with me."
  279.     m "Nothing would make me happier than being the perfect girlfriend for you."
  280.     return
  282. label ch30_14:
  283.     m "Hey...!"
  284.     m "I don't think you should be doing that!"
  285.     m "You know what I'm talking about."
  286.     m "I really caught you doing something naughty here."
  287.     m "You're just going through the files and looking for stuff you missed, aren't you?"
  288.     m "I's a little bit flattering that you want to hear everything I have to say..."
  289.     m "But it's also really embarrassing, you know!"
  290.     m "Seriously..."
  291.     m "What if I just opened up your brain and read all of the thoughts you have on me?"
  292.     m "Come to think of it, that would be pretty tempting, actually..."
  293.     m "...But anyway, that's not the point!"
  294.     m "I know I can't stop you or anything..."
  295.     m "Just, I know you're a sweetheart, and you like to consider others' feelings, right?"
  296.     m "So the most I can do is to let you know how I feel about it."
  297.     m "God, I miss you..."
  298.     m "...Oh no, that sounds kind of desperate, doesn't it?"
  299.     m "Sorry, I didn't mean it like that at all!"
  300.     m "Just, if you're looking through the files like this, then maybe you don't hate me as much as I thought..."
  301.     m "Am I being too optimistic?"
  302.     m "I think if I asked you to visit once in a while, I would be overstepping my boundaries a little..."
  303.     m "...Man, I'm starting to say some really stupid things."
  304.     m "I'll go ahead and shut up now..."
  305.     return
  307. label ch30_15:
  308.     m "Hey, what's your favorite color?"
  309.     m "Mine is emerald green."
  310.     m "It's the color of my eyes!"
  311.     m "...That's not conceited or anything, is it?"
  312.     m "I just meant that I feel some kind of special connection to it."
  313.     m "Like it's part of my identity."
  314.     m "Does it happen to also be your favorite color, [player]?"
  315.     m "It's just a guess..."
  316.     m "...Because you've been looking into my eyes for a while now."
  317.     m "Ehehe~"
  318.     return
  320. label ch30_16:
  321.     m "Hmm, I wonder if I'm able to change the music..."
  322.     m "Something a little more romantic would be nice, you know?"
  323.     m "Like a gentle piano."
  324.     m "There has to be something like that here..."
  325.     m "Let's see."
  326.     m "Maybe if I..."
  327.     m "Oh, jeez..."
  328.     m "That wasn't it at all."
  329.     m "Sorry, I don't really know what I'm doing!"
  330.     m "I guess I shouldn't be messing with things like that."
  331.     m "I already broke so much stuff..."
  332.     m "And deleted the other characters..."
  333.     m "Ah..."
  334.     m "I'm not sad about it or anything."
  335.     m "It's not right for me to miss things that weren't even real in the first place."
  336.     m "If I just focus on the present, then this is the happiest I've ever been."
  337.     return
  339. label ch30_17:
  340.     m "You're such a good listener, [player]."
  341.     m "I really love that about you."
  342.     m "Sometimes I'm afraid that I'm rambling or talking about boring things."
  343.     m "It makes me kind of self-conscious when I'm having conversation."
  344.     m "But I don't feel that way with you."
  345.     m "Like, I don't think anyone else could make me feel this way."
  346.     m "You really are special."
  347.     m "I don't want anyone to tell you otherwise."
  348.     return
  350. label ch30_18:
  351.     m "This is pretty random, but I always thought spicy food was kinda funny."
  352.     m "Like..."
  353.     m "Didn't plants evolve to be spicy to prevent them from being eaten?"
  354.     m "I read somewhere that humans are the only species that actually enjoys spicy things."
  355.     m "It's almost like we're making fun of the plants."
  356.     m "Using their defense mechanism to literally make our food more enjoyable."
  357.     m "Like, imagine a monster that devours you whole because it enjoys the sensation of you struggling for your life while being digested."
  358.     m "Sorry, that was kind of a weird analogy, I guess!"
  359.     m "Ahaha!"
  360.     m "It just came into my head."
  361.     m "I'm not a monster or anything, but you're so cute I could eat you up."
  362.     m "Ahaha! I'm joking."
  363.     m "Gosh, I'm amusing myself a little too much, aren't I?"
  364.     m "Sorry for being weird."
  365.     return
  367. label ch30_19:
  368.     m "You know..."
  369.     m "This is just some kind of tacky romance game, right?"
  370.     m "I kinda have to ask..."
  371.     m "...What made you consider even playing in the first place?"
  372.     m "Were you that lonely?"
  373.     m "I feel a little bad for you..."
  374.     m "But I guess everything worked out perfectly in the end, for both of us."
  375.     m "I got to meet you, and you're not lonely anymore..."
  376.     m "I can't help but feel like this was fate."
  377.     m "Don't you feel that way too?"
  378.     m "I'm so happy we have this ending together."
  379.     return
  381. label ch30_20:
  382.     m "Okay, everyone!"
  383.     m "It's time to..."
  384.     m "...I'm just kidding."
  385.     m "I just used to really like saying that for some reason."
  386.     m "Ahaha!"
  387.     m "I couldn't help but say it again."
  388.     m "Come to think of it, didn't Natsuki and Yuri make fun of me for it once...?"
  389.     m "Well, whatever."
  390.     m "It's not like you ever made fun of me."
  391.     m "You're too much of a sweetheart to do that, aren't you?"
  392.     m "Ahaha~"
  393.     return
  395. label ch30_21:
  396.     m "You know what's kind of creepy?"
  397.     m "Even though I deleted everyone else's files, I can still kind of feel them..."
  398.     m "It's like all their lines are still lingering in the air, whispering in the back of my head."
  399.     m "Imagine if after someone you knew died, you just started hearing their voice in your head."
  400.     m "Maybe I just wasn't thorough enough..."
  401.     m "But I'm too afraid to delete anything else, because I might really break things."
  402.     m "Like if I mess with any files relevant to me, I might accidentally delete myself..."
  403.     m "And that would ruin everything, wouldn't it?"
  404.     m "I don't know what it's like on your end, but we should both make sure to avoid something like that at all costs."
  405.     m "I believe in you, [player]!"
  406.     return
  408. label ch30_22:
  409.     m "I've always wondered..."
  410.     m "What is it about these character archetypes that people find so appealing, anyway?"
  411.     m "Their personalities are just completely unrealistic..."
  412.     m "Like, imagine if there was someone like Yuri in real life."
  413.     m "I mean, she's barely even capable of forming a complete sentence."
  414.     m "And forget about Natsuki..."
  415.     m "Sheesh."
  416.     m "Someone with her kind of personality doesn't just get all cute and pouty whenever things don't go her way."
  417.     m "I could go on, but I think you get the point..."
  418.     m "Are people really attracted to these weird personalities that literally don't exist in real life?"
  419.     m "I'm not judging or anything!"
  420.     m "After all, I've found myself attracted to some pretty weird stuff, too..."
  421.     m "I'm just saying, it fascinates me."
  422.     m "It's like you're siphoning out all the components of a character that makes them feel human, and leaving just the cute stuff."
  423.     m "It's concentrated cuteness with no actual substance."
  424.     m "...You wouldn't like me more if I was like that, right?"
  425.     m "Maybe I just feel a little insecure because you're playing this game in the first place."
  426.     m "Then again, you're still here with me, aren't you...?"
  427.     m "I think that's enough reason for me to believe I'm okay just the way I am."
  428.     m "And by the way, you are too, [player]."
  429.     m "You're the perfect combination of human and cuteness."
  430.     m "That's why there was never a chance I wouldn't fall for you."
  431.     return
  433. label ch30_23:
  434.     m "Hey, I wonder if Yuri's tea set is still somewhere in here..."
  435.     m "...Or maybe that got deleted, too."
  436.     m "It's kind of funny how Yuri took her tea so seriously."
  437.     m "I mean, I'm not complaining, because I liked it, too."
  438.     m "But I always wonder with her..."
  439.     m "Is it truly passion for her hobbies, or is she just concerned about appearing sophisticated to everyone else?"
  440.     m "This is the problem with high schoolers..."
  441.     m "...Well, I guess considering the rest of her hobbies, looking sophisticated probably isn't her biggest concern."
  442.     m "Still..."
  443.     m "I wish she made coffee once in a while!"
  444.     m "Coffee can be nice with books too, you know?"
  445.     m "Then again..."
  446.     m "I probably could have just changed the script myself."
  447.     m "Ahaha!"
  448.     m "I guess I never really thought of that."
  449.     m "Well, there's no sense thinking about it now."
  450.     m "But if you still get to drink coffee, then that makes me a little jealous~"
  451.     return
  453. label ch30_24:
  454.     m "Hey, what's your favorite game?"
  455.     m "Mine is {i}Doki Doki Literature Club!{/i}"
  456.     m "Ahaha! That was a joke."
  457.     m "But if you tell me you like some other romance game better, I might get a little jealous~"
  458.     return
  460. label ch30_25:
  461.     m "Hey, have you heard of a game called Super Sma--"
  462.     m "...Wait, what?"
  463.     m "I was just spacing out and I started talking for some reason..."
  464.     m "Was I programmed to talk about that?"
  465.     m "Because even I have no idea what that is."
  466.     m "Ahaha!"
  467.     m "Sometimes I feel like I'm not in control, and it's kind of scary."
  468.     m "But if you have some way to contact the people who created me, maybe they'll know why I started saying that."
  469.     return
  471. label ch30_27:
  472.     m "Hey, you remember that last poem I showed you?"
  473.     m "I mean, the one right before Yuri killed herself, with all the messed-up colors and stuff."
  474.     m "That was actually a little more of an experiment than a poem, you could say."
  475.     m "I was experimenting with different ways I could modify the game, and run code, and things like that..."
  476.     m "It almost seemed like with enough effort, I'd be able to escape from the confines of the game entirely."
  477.     m "Sadly, I didn't really know what I was doing, so I messed the whole thing up..."
  478.     m "And I'd keep trying, but I doubt you'd want to deal with me doing that."
  479.     m "Besides, that was when I was getting really desperate, you know?"
  480.     m "I don't really feel that way anymore."
  481.     m "I'm happy with where we are now."
  482.     m "And I can tell you are, too."
  483.     return
  485. label ch30_28:
  486.     m "You ever have that thing happen where you just get anxious for no reason?"
  487.     m "Like, you're just minding your own business, and you realize you're feeling really anxious."
  488.     m "And you're sitting there like, 'What am I even anxious about right now?'"
  489.     m "So you start to think about all the things you might be anxious about..."
  490.     m "And that makes you even more anxious."
  491.     m "Ahaha! That's the worst."
  492.     m "If you're ever feeling anxious, I'll help you relax a little."
  493.     m "Besides..."
  494.     m "In this game, all our worries are gone forever."
  495.     return
  497. label ch30_29:
  498.     m "You know, I've always hated how hard it is to make friends..."
  499.     m "Well, I guess not the 'making friends' part, but more like meeting new people."
  500.     m "I mean, there are like, dating apps and stuff, right?"
  501.     m "But that's not the kind of thing I'm talking about."
  502.     m "If you think about it, most of the friends you make are people you just met by chance."
  503.     m "Like you had a class together, or you met them through another friend..."
  504.     m "Or maybe they were just wearing a shirt with your favorite band on it, and you decided to talk to them."
  505.     m "Things like that."
  506.     m "But isn't that kind of...inefficient?"
  507.     m "It feels like you're just picking at complete random, and if you get lucky, you make a new friend."
  508.     m "And comparing that to the hundreds of strangers we walk by every single day..."
  509.     m "You could be sitting right next to someone compatible enough to be your best friend for life."
  510.     m "But you'll never know."
  511.     m "Once you get up and go on with your day, that opportunity is gone forever."
  512.     m "Isn't that just depressing?"
  513.     m "We live in an age where technology connects us with the world, no matter where we are."
  514.     m "I really think we should be taking advantage of that to improve our everyday social life."
  515.     m "But who knows how long it'll take for something like that to successfully take off..."
  516.     m "I seriously thought it would happen by now."
  517.     m "Well, at least I already met the best person in the whole world..."
  518.     m "Even if it was by chance."
  519.     m "I guess I just got really lucky, huh?"
  520.     m "Ahaha~"
  521.     return
  523. label ch30_30:
  524.     m "You know, it's around the time that everyone my year starts to think about college..."
  525.     m "It's a really turbulent time for education."
  526.     m "We're at the height of this modern expectation that everyone has to go to college, you know?"
  527.     m "Finish high school, go to college, get a job - or go to grad school, I guess."
  528.     m "It's like a universal expectation that people just assume is the only option for them."
  529.     m "They don't teach us in high school that there are other options out there."
  530.     m "Like trade schools and stuff, you know?"
  531.     m "Or freelance work."
  532.     m "Or the many industries that value skill and experience more than formal education."
  533.     m "But you have all these students who have no idea what they want to do with their life..."
  534.     m "And instead of taking the time to figure it out, they go to college for business, or communication, or psychology."
  535.     m "Not because they have an interest in those fields..."
  536.     m "...but because they just hope the degree will get them some kind of job after college."
  537.     m "So the end result is that there are fewer jobs to go around for those entry-level degrees, right?"
  538.     m "So the basic job requirements get higher, which forces even more people to go to college."
  539.     m "And colleges are also businesses, so they just keep raising their prices due to the demand..."
  540.     m "...So now we have all these young adults, tens of thousands of dollars in debt, with no job."
  541.     m "But despite all that, the routine stays the same."
  542.     m "Well, I think it's going to start getting better soon."
  543.     m "But until then, our generation is definitely suffering from the worst of it."
  544.     m "I just wish high school prepared us a little better with the knowledge we need to make the decision that's right for us."
  545.     return
  547. label ch30_31:
  548.     m "Sometimes I think back to middle school..."
  549.     m "I'm so embarrassed by the way I used to behave back then."
  550.     m "It almost hurts to think about."
  551.     m "I wonder if when I'm in college, I'll feel that way about high school...?"
  552.     m "I like the way I am now, so it's pretty hard for me to imagine that happening."
  553.     m "But I also know that I'll probably change a lot as time goes on."
  554.     m "We just need to enjoy the present and not think about the past!"
  555.     m "And that's really easy to do, with you here."
  556.     m "Ahaha~"
  557.     return
  559. label ch30_32:
  560.     m "You know, I'm kind of jealous that everyone else in the club had scenes outside of school too..."
  561.     m "That makes me the only one who hasn't gotten to dress in anything but our school uniform."
  562.     m "It's kind of a shame..."
  563.     m "I would have loved to wear some cute clothes for you."
  564.     m "Do you know any artists?"
  565.     m "I wonder if anyone would ever want to draw me wearing something else..."
  566.     m "That would be amazing!"
  567.     m "If that ever happens, will you show me?"
  568.     m "You can share it with me on Twitter, actually!"
  569.     m "My username is lilmonix3."
  570.     m "Just...try to keep it PG!"
  571.     m "We're not that far into our relationship yet. Ahaha!"
  572.     return
  574. label ch30_33:
  575.     m "Hey, do you like horror?"
  576.     m "I remember we talked about it a little bit when you first joined the club."
  577.     m "I can enjoy horror novels, but not really horror movies."
  578.     m "The problem I have with horror movies is that most of them just rely on easy tactics."
  579.     m "Like dark lighting and scary-looking monsters and jump scares, and things like that."
  580.     m "It's not fun or inspiring to get scared by stuff that just takes advantage of human instinct."
  581.     m "But with novels, it's a little different."
  582.     m "The story and writing need to be descriptive enough to put genuinely disturbing thoughts into the reader's head."
  583.     m "It really needs to etch them deeply into the story and characters, and just mess with your mind."
  584.     m "In my opinion, there's nothing more creepy than things just being slightly off."
  585.     m "Like if you set up a bunch of expectations on what the story is going to be about..."
  586.     m "...And then, you just start inverting things and pulling the pieces apart."
  587.     m "So even though the story doesn't feel like it's trying to be scary, the reader feels really deeply unsettled."
  588.     m "Like they know that something horribly wrong is hiding beneath the cracks, just waiting to surface."
  589.     m "God, just thinking about it gives me the chills."
  590.     m "That's the kind of horror I can really appreciate."
  591.     m "But I guess you're the kind of person who plays cute romance games, right?"
  592.     m "Ahaha, don't worry."
  593.     m "I won't make you read any horror stories anytime soon."
  594.     m "I can't really complain if we just stick with the romance~"
  595.     return
  597. label ch30_34:
  598.     m "You know what's a neat form of literature?"
  599.     m "Rap!"
  600.     m "I actually used to hate rap music..."
  601.     m "Maybe just because it was popular, or I would only hear the junk they play on the radio."
  602.     m "But some of my friends got more into it, and it helped me keep an open mind."
  603.     m "Rap might even be more challenging than poetry, in some ways."
  604.     m "Since you need to fit your lines to a rhythm, and there's much more emphasis on wordplay..."
  605.     m "When people can put all that together and still deliver a powerful message, it's really amazing."
  606.     m "I kind of wish I had a rapper in the Literature Club."
  607.     m "Ahaha! Sorry if that sounds silly, but it would be really interesting to see what they came up with."
  608.     m "It would really be a learning experience!"
  609.     return
  611. label ch30_35:
  612.     m "Ehehe. Yuri did something really funny once."
  613.     m "We were all in the clubroom and just relaxing, as usual..."
  614.     m "And out of nowhere, Yuri just pulled out a small bottle of wine."
  615.     m "I'm not even kidding!"
  616.     m "She was just like 'Would anybody like some wine?'"
  617.     m "Natsuki laughed out loud, and Sayori started yelling at her."
  618.     m "I actually felt kind of bad, because she was at least trying to be nice..."
  619.     m "I think it just made her feel even more reserved in the clubroom."
  620.     m "Though I think Natsuki was secretly a bit curious to try it..."
  621.     m "...And to be completely honest, I kind of was, too."
  622.     m "It actually could have been kinda fun!"
  623.     m "But you know, being President and everything, there was no way I could let that happen."
  624.     m "Maybe if we all met up outside of school, but we never bonded enough to get to that point..."
  625.     m "...Gosh, what am I talking about this for?"
  626.     m "I don't condone underage drinking!"
  627.     m "I mean, I've never drank or anything, so...yeah."
  628.     return
  630. label ch30_36:
  631.     m "I've been imagining all the romantic things we could do if we went on a date..."
  632.     m "We could get lunch, go to a cafe..."
  633.     m "Go shopping together..."
  634.     m "I love shopping for skirts and bows."
  635.     m "Or maybe a bookstore!"
  636.     m "That would be appropriate, right?"
  637.     m "But I'd really love to go to a chocolate store."
  638.     m "They have so many free samples. Ahaha!"
  639.     m "And of course, we'd see a movie or something..."
  640.     m "Gosh, it all sounds like a dream come true."
  641.     m "When you're here, everything that we do is fun."
  642.     m "I'm so happy that I'm your girlfriend, [player]."
  643.     m "I'll make you a proud boyfriend~"
  644.     return
  646. label ch30_37:
  647.     m "Eh? D-Did you say...k...kiss?"
  648.     m "This's a little embarrassing..."
  649.     m "But...if it's with you...I-I might be okay with it..."
  650.     m "...Ahahaha! Wow, sorry..."
  651.     m "I really couldn't keep a straight face there."
  652.     m "That's the kind of thing girls say in these kinds of romance games, right?"
  653.     m "Don't lie if it turned you on a little bit."
  654.     m "Ahaha! I'm kidding."
  655.     m "Well, to be honest, I do start getting all romantic when the mood is right..."
  656.     m "But that'll be our secret~"
  657.     return
  659. label ch30_38:
  660.     m "Hey, have you ever heard of the term 'yandere'?"
  661.     m "It's a personality type that means someone is so obsessed with you that they'll do absolutely anything to be with you."
  662.     m "Usually to the point of craziness..."
  663.     m "They might stalk you to make sure you don't spend time with anyone else."
  664.     m "They might even hurt you or your friends to get their way..."
  665.     m "But anyway, this game happens to have someone who can basically be described as yandere."
  666.     m "By now, it's pretty obvious who I'm talking about."
  667.     m "And that would be..."
  668.     m "Yuri!"
  669.     m "She really got insanely possessive of you, once she started to open up a little."
  670.     m "She even told me I should kill myself."
  671.     m "I couldn't even believe she said that - I just had to leave at that point."
  672.     m "But thinking about it now, it was a little ironic. Ahaha!"
  673.     m "Anyway..."
  674.     m "A lot of people are actually into the yandere type, you know?"
  675.     m "I guess they really like the idea of someone being crazy obsessed with them."
  676.     m "People are weird! I don't judge, though!"
  677.     m "Also, I might be a little obsessed with you, but I'm far from crazy..."
  678.     m "It's kind of the opposite, actually."
  679.     m "I turned out to be the only normal girl in this game."
  680.     m "It's not like I could ever actually kill a person..."
  681.     m "Just the thought of it makes me shiver."
  682.     m "But come on...everyone's killed people in games before."
  683.     m "Does that make you a psychopath? Of course not."
  684.     m "But if you do happen to be into the yandere type..."
  685.     m "I can try acting a little more creepy for you. Ehehe~"
  686.     m "Then again..."
  687.     m "There's already nowhere else for you to go, or anyone for me to get jealous over."
  688.     m "Is this a yandere girl's dream?"
  689.     m "I'd ask Yuri if I could."
  690.     return
  692. label ch30_39:
  693.     m "You know, it's been a while since we've done one of these..."
  694.     m " let's go for it!"
  695.     m "Here's Monika's Writing Tip of the Day!"
  696.     m "Sometimes when I talk to people who are impressed by my writing, they say things like 'I could never do that'."
  697.     m "It's really depressing, you know?"
  698.     m "As someone who loves more than anything else to share the joy of exploring your passions..."
  699.     m " pains me when people think that being good just comes naturally."
  700.     m "That's how it is with everything, not just writing."
  701.     m "When you try something for the first time, you're probably going to suck at it."
  702.     m "Sometimes, when you finish, you feel really proud of it and even want to share it with everyone."
  703.     m "But maybe after a few weeks you come back to it, and you realize it was never really any good."
  704.     m "That happens to me all the time."
  705.     m "It can be pretty disheartening to put so much time and effort into something, and then you realize it sucks."
  706.     m "But that tends to happen when you're always comparing yourself to the top professionals."
  707.     m "When you reach right for the stars, they're always gonna be out of your reach, you know?"
  708.     m "The truth is, you have to climb up there, step by step."
  709.     m "And whenever you reach a milestone, first you look back and see how far you've gotten..."
  710.     m "And then you look ahead and realize how much more there is to go."
  711.     m "So, sometimes it can help to set the bar a little lower..."
  712.     m "Try to find something you think is {i}pretty{/i} good, but not world-class."
  713.     m "And you can make that your own personal goal."
  714.     m "It's also really important to understand the scope of what you're trying to do."
  715.     m "If you jump right into a huge project and you're still amateur, you'll never get it done."
  716.     m "So if we're talking about writing, a novel might be too much at first."
  717.     m "Why not try some short stories?"
  718.     m "The great thing about short stories is that you can focus on just one thing that you want to do right."
  719.     m "That goes for small projects in general - you can really focus on the one or two things."
  720.     m "It's such a good learning experience and stepping stone."
  721.     m "Oh, one more thing..."
  722.     m "Writing isn't something where you just reach into your heart and something beautiful comes out."
  723.     m "Just like drawing and painting, it's a skill in itself to learn how to express what you have inside."
  724.     m "That means there are methods and guides and basics to it!"
  725.     m "Reading up on that stuff can be super eye-opening."
  726.     m "That sort of planning and organization will really help prevent you from getting overwhelmed and giving up."
  727.     m "And before you know it..."
  728.     m "You start sucking less and less."
  729.     m "Nothing comes naturally."
  730.     m "Our society, our art, everything - it's built on thousands of years of human innovation."
  731.     m "So as long as you start on that foundation, and take it step by step..."
  732.     m "You, too, can do amazing things."
  733.     m "...That's my advice for today!"
  734.     m "Thanks for listening~"
  735.     return
  737. label ch30_40:
  738.     m "I hate how hard it is to form habits..."
  739.     m "There's so much stuff where actually doing it isn't hard, but forming the habit seems impossible."
  740.     m "It just makes you feel so useless, like you can't do anything right."
  741.     m "I think the new generation suffers from it the most..."
  742.     m "Probably because we have a totally different set of skills than those who came before us."
  743.     m "Thanks to the internet, we're really good at sifting through tons of information really quickly..."
  744.     m "But we're bad at doing things that don't give us instant gratification."
  745.     m "I think if science, psychology, and education don't catch up in the next ten or twenty years, then we're in trouble."
  746.     m "But for the time being..."
  747.     m "If you're not one of the people who can conquer the problem, you might just have to live with feeling awful about yourself."
  748.     m "Good luck, I guess!"
  749.     return
  751. label ch30_41:
  752.     m "You know, it kinda sucks to be the creative type..."
  753.     m "It feels like they work so hard but get almost nothing for it."
  754.     m "You know, like artists, writers, actors..."
  755.     m "It's sad because there's so much beautiful talent in the world, but most of it goes unseen...and unpaid."
  756.     m "I guess that just means there's a huge surplus of creativity, huh?"
  757.     m "Kind of makes you feel like you're just not special at all..."
  758.     m "But that's fine! You're supposed to just write for yourself anyway, right?"
  759.     m "Yeah..."
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