I am selfish and broken with little to no social skills. I have absolutely no self confidence or control of my feelings. I have multiple addictions and have done some really fucked up things in my life. I never really expected to even know what love was until I met you I didn't even expect to live to 20 honestly thank you for showing me what love is despite my problems you are amazing you know. I really hate letters so dramatic like this will change your life at all am not that big headed. goodbye Jordyn and I would not want an apology from my grandfather so I figured you would not want one from me. Oh and if you haven't guessed by the time you read this I will already be dead God am such a shit my poor mother. Well if there is an after life I have some unfinished business up there anyways. From Brandon ha that's funny I actually cried a lot writing this it has been awhile kinda feels good. God this fucking sucks death is my only option but I just can't stop talking to you even if this is the last time I ever send you a message it's just hard to stop realizing that this is it all never talk to you again or see you again mmm or send memes back and forth. Goodbye Jordyn I think am done writing now oh and this is the only note I bothered to write I can't explain this to my family it's just selfish no need to make an excuse. Well I guess bye bye pumpkin. Side note am now talking to you and have started crying 3 times I don't even know why don't think I have ever cried so much. Am sorry I didn't tell you what I was planning I just couldn't also damn 4 times now. Instead of telling you I decided just to trying and comfort you if I even can before I end up leaving forever mmm I hope you do get that back massager tho it's good. Am so glad to have met you even if maybe you regret it now... Mmm hope you're feeling less sick when you read this mmmm can snapchat even send a message this big? It's almost a short novel at this point. Woops looks like am gonna end up killing myself when you go to moab what terrible timing huh? I guess are conversation is just about to end I don't know if we will have one tomorrow that would make it very hard for me to end it after all so I guess your just gonna get this randomly am so sorry for everything. Am kinda a shity person really how did I get someone as amazing as you? Mmmm it's almost like you knew I was planning this telling me to come see you it's kinda spooky or am easy to read I guess Idk doesn't matter much when your reading this I guess. Okay now I think are conversation is over, it was really nice talking to you one last time I really appreciate it well looks like baby it's time for this note to end I... I hope when am gone you don't get any more nightmares