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- When you say "maybe you didn't really care, it wasn't important" how else is that supposed to be taken
- even saying that is like implying that all the time I've spent getting all your software and tutorials and shit is nothing
- because I said that when your maya wasn't crashing, did you even read what I said before that? I gave you suggestions and tried to help
- if I didn't care about your maya crashing why in the fuck would I even bother trying to find a solution, that is a fucking stupid thing to say
- Again, why in the hell would it mean that when the very action of me helping you shows that I do care that its effecting you
- what you're telling me makes absolutely no sense, it's damn obvious that what I said was not because of the problem but because of
- how you're acting, and nothing else, its not a small problem to me, it's a big problem to me because I know a week worth of work
- is devastating for you to lose, which had you read, you say you do but time and time again you prove to me you don't with what you get from it
- ksg - Today at 3:51 PM
- I would have lost at least a week of work
- Sai - Today at 3:51 PM
- then thats not an option
- ksg - Today at 3:51 PM
- yes it is still doing the same
- Sai - Today at 3:51 PM
- is it essentially unusable
- how it is now
- no Im saying you dont have a week to waste
- doing all that over again
- Why would I say that if it wasn't a problem I'm taking very seriously? A week's worth of work to the trash was a huge
- problem which is why, I downloaded Maya 2016 in hopes that would help, why I looked up on forums if it would help
- so yeah, if I say "whatever dude" its pretty damn obvious I'm not saying that because I dont give a shit if it was fixed or not
- And you know dude, if I didn't give a shit do you think I would still even be thinking about you even when Im angry
- still trying to help you and try to make sure everything is fine for you because I know how important for your LIFE it is
- that you complete this, if I didn't know this why in the fuck would I have done everything up to this point
- don't insult my intelligence, I know damn well how life changing this is if you complete this or not
- You know what, I'm going to give you that, that day you did identify it, I was surprised honestly
- which is why I told you what the actual problem was because I respected you actually noticed and are trying to
- What did I get from that? "Ok" thats your reply? I go from being happy you are making an attempt to being
- disappointed that maybe I was wrong, even then, I still tried to let it go when I came back because you apologized again
- when I came back from work, you have no idea how much I try to let pass because I'm trying to be patient with you
- because I know you're trying, you have so much other things to deal with and focus on, but I have my limits,
- the night you told me that I told you I wasnt happy with you but that I was going to accept the apology, and
- then the next fucking night you do the same exact thing as if you learned absolutely nothing and were not sorry
- at all with what you did, which is why I said, I should just go before I start to get annoyed, thats what I said
- Even this, I am constantly worrying about you, I'm always asking if you're okay, if your hand is bothering you,
- that you should eat, drink water, reminding you of the time that you should sleep, etc I know damn well all
- of this is effecting you physically as well, and I understand that, but from what I explained earlier,
- yeah you probably are trying but is it going to look to me that way if the result is still the same?
- You say sorry and apologize, but continue to do it. Is that showing that a person is sorry? Or are they saying
- it so that the person won't be mad at them anymore?
- Believe me, it does make me happy if you do actually feel that way, but I said this before you don't need to give
- up that much to me to show me you appreciate my help, I don't ask that much from anyone, all I want is some kind of
- recognition that I have actually helped and they appreciate it, and obviously how someone acts clearly shows that
- Yeah, I know that you did identify it and brought it up, and you apologized correct, what you replied after that
- obviously was in question but I ignored it, I didn't pay it much mind, and yeah it happened again, but think about
- why it happened again, I gave you an explanation, your response to that was "ok" did you read it and take it to heart?
- if you had maybe it wouldn't have happened again I feel, but you did it again the DAY after, you did not apologize for that the day
- of because I left, I said I'm just going to go before I start to get annoyed, trust me kusugu I've been trying
- very much to be patient with you, I know you told me you were going to try, you were going to do your best
- and I tried to be even more patient than usual and let it go, and when you apologize you're saying it like
- it's my fault that it happened, I already told you its not about whos right or not, its not about the
- disagreement or anything like that, theres a difference when we see things different and when you keep undermining
- and saying everything contrary to what I'm talking about, like I mean I get it, I'm saying what I think it is
- or what I've learned it is, I'm not all knowing all seeing and neither are you
- its like with the music thing I said all I said was that I have trouble keeping up with albums, You say keep a list, I say that
- from personal experience that I have DONE it before that it doesnt really work, that it's too much to keep track of, and you kept
- pushing it that I was doing it wrong or that I was wrong that a I need to keep a list, I was just mentioning it,
- its not like it annoys me or angers me that it happens yet you turned it into a much bigger thing, yeah thats why
- I started to back up and not say as much, then it was about the mouse thing, you're trying to tell me that if your use your whole
- arm you can avoid wrist damage completely, dude, you should know better than I do that its impossible to remove
- wrist strain completely, even if you have your position, a ergonomic mouse, whatever you always need to use your wrist
- to use the mouse, you always need to put some kind of strain on your arm, shoulder, wrist because thats the fuction in your body
- that needs to happen to make it move, you can lessen it yes, but its impossible to avoid it completely, the dumbest thing
- about this is the only reason we were talking about this was because we were talking about how badly your wrist was hurting you
- and we were trying to figure out a way to lessen the pain for you, at least thats what I was thinking of, I talked about your posture in your
- chair doing this to you, and that it could help, and then you mention how its not unavoidable that its all about position or something like that,
- dude I am not trying to argue with you about how using your whole arm removes the strain from your wrist for gamers and all that
- and we had seen that all of them eventually gets some kind of injury or problems, that some kind of wrist problem is unavoidable
- if you play video games or work on a computer all the time, which is why we have so many ways to try to prevent as much damage as possible
- it's like saying a fighter who is constantly using his hands and arms for punching can avoid injuries and straining his bones and muscles
- thats impossible, because theres also time, age and degradation of our bodies that also effect it, there is ways to lessen it but not completely eliminate it
- of course, I didn't say all this because I already felt you were in some kind of mood to try to just be contrary, you left to eat and ask if I was mad
- and said sorry if you had said something that you shouldnt have, I wasn't mad, my demeanor had changed as you had said because
- I was saying less myself so that there would be no conflict, I kept saying "well I don't know, I guess you're right" because
- why am I going to start an argument over something like that dude, it's fucking dumb, I don't like arguing with you I don't want
- to be mad, disappointed, sad or whatever with you, so why would I purposely go out of my way to start something?
- You say you tried to be more calm, but when you start replying formally like you're sending a letter or some shit it does not come off as well dude
- because I know thats not how you talk or how you type, it's like you're trying to step on eggshells or something like I'm overreacting or I'm the one being
- an asshole, which further irritates when, yeah I am still trying to help you and I do care a damn lot about you graduating and finishing your project. I don't
- really appreciate the way you're putting it saying I just come out with "You never appreciate me" like I'm being a whiny bitch, that's not what I'm saying
- I'm telling you the truth about what I feel, and what I'm seeing especially with your actions building up prior to that moment, so you can say
- I blew up, and I told you everything I felt I needed to tell you. I explained to you very well, what I said was not because of that situation in general, it was
- me being fed up with the way you were responding and talking to me and acting as whole, or at least the way it was coming off to me.
- So yeah, this was not caused from just that but a series of events where I was trying very hard to be patient with you, because
- I trust you when you told me you really wanted to try the last time you and me had an argument and that you were going to try
- to change your attitude and try to show better treatment I guess? Don't you think that when it seems to me that I am putting in all the effort
- to try to trust that you will try to correct your less or reflect on what you said or did that when you apologize you really mean it
- and that you will try to correct it and change it, when your response to my explanation of how I felt was followed up with an "ok"
- and just the apology without a clear understanding for why you were saying sorry, and then you continue to do it,
- I got fed up, I I lost it and I told you that now you were legit starting to get me angry when instead of actually really
- trying to recognize and solve the problem you just run away and decide "bye" this is what I mean by that you don't try,
- it just always gives off the impression to me that the person does not want to deal with the problem or it isn't important
- enough to deal with, especially when I don't run away from my problems or from when you need help from me, so why
- do you think doing it to me is a good idea? You don't communicate with me you just run away or just say "ok" "I get it"
- and clearly it never really gets through because it happens again and again, and yeah, I mean I get pissed or angry or upset
- whatever you want to call it and you wait for me to get to this point to actually start talking it out with me and acknowleding it
- why? Do you need me to be at the point of absolutely being completely and utterly tired of all of this shit for you to decide its finally worth it
- to talk about it? Its frustrating to be putting in much more effort and to see you not even try to put in a fraction of that
- when I am trying to be patient and explain things to you, to not get any kind of actual response or feedback, I felt like telling you
- "Thanks for the amazing feedback kusugu, you fill me with such confidence that you get what I just told you" when you just replied like that to me
- but all I said was "kek, alright man I gotta go, later", you know that image you send me after all this, makes no sense to me if you
- sent that relating to this because for one, it would make sense that had you actually tried to communcicate with me and open up
- this wouldn't be happening in the first place, your one word responses and rushed responses, lack of assurance or confidence
- in resolving issues or conflicts is why we are right here in the first place, if anything I'm the one being open with you and telling
- you what I feel and I get punched in the face with a response that isn't even like a 1/5th of what I just typed.
- I said I was done, I was tired as hell of all of this building up and you not showing me that you actually
- wanted to resolve this issue and move past it, at least not the right way, so yeah I was more disappointed with you before
- I actually got mad. And all I did by the end of it was essentially let out all of my frustration and telling you
- exactly what the problem is with the way you worded that last statement before it.
- As far as your deadline, if you feel like you need to stay away and do a trip like thing to finish everything do whatever
- it is you need to do, I don't need to mention this but if you need something for your project you can come back and ask if
- you need it, I have no problem getting it for you if I can, I don't think I need to say it but I wish you luck and
- know you can do it, I have absolute faith in you and your ability and know you will complete this on time and with time to spare
- even with all this I want you to know I do care about you and I want you to get this done, and know you will get this done,
- don't listen to whatever your parents are telling you or let the bumps along the way hinder you, you got this, keep your focus
- believe in yourself, and I know you'll get this done, this is a completely different as I said don't base what will happen
- on what happened the last time, you have a completely different mentality, different set of tools, and you will have gotten
- there with you own hard work and your own hands, you got out of the hole when you failed, you did what had to be done and
- now you are on the verge of finishing something that didn't even seem possible a few months ago, or last year, regardless of
- what is going on here you have made lots of improvements and have changed your worth ethic and your focus when it comes to your
- work which I applaud you and you should be proud of. Just keep reminding yourself that you will get this done, and that it will
- be great because you worked on it, you've come a long way to get here, and you're so close, all you have to do is reach out and
- take it. Don't worry about the money, we'll figure all that out once this is all done and over with, don't feel rushed like
- you have to get it back to me immediately and right after having finished everything, relax. I'm not leaving you or going anywhere.
- I said I was done, but that was an expression of being done with talking with you, at that moment, and dealing with any of that
- shit any more, I was finished. I went off on my own for awhile and really get around to finishing this around, 10 or so is the time
- right now, obviously I wasn't planning on sending this to you today because you've had enough of this already, that you typed
- all of this up and decided this was too much emotional stress, which I understand, and I do apologize for this happening
- with you having 8 days left for you to turn in your project, I usually try to let out my frustration prior to
- talking to you about these things, but I at that point had enough and said it all at that moment.
- There, I think that about covers it, you don't have to read this now, whenever it is when I send it, or reply to it
- right after, if anything I suggest you don't right now until you have everything settled, although it would mean more to me
- if you did put some input on it at some point, I did spent a lot of time writing this, and a lot of the issues we have had
- is because your lack of communication, it would show me a lot if you did. Whenever it is that you decide to come back, I'm going to be there, so you don't have to worry about that.
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