Stars

Stars

“The stars are so bright today.” Juan said as he was sitting on top of the hill. “It has been so long since I have been able to come up to this spot with my telescope. Thank you Julius.” He looked so cute. My mind was a mess of sweet thoughts, good intentions, and the awkwardness of lust. He was my childhood friend and we had been apart for so long. I finally have this time to be close to him again but all I want to do is be even closer.
	“I want to be able to grab those stars in the sky like I used to try to do back in those days when we were kids.” Juan said. All I can think about is how cute I always thought he was back then. All I can think about is laying on the blanket underneath those stars beside the telescope and looking into his bright, starry, awe-filled eyes as he looked into those stars.
	“I want to save this moment forever.” Juan said. He always said things like that. He always felt at home looking at those stars. I like to think that he felt just as at home under these starry skies as I felt back then being by his side. He loved these stars back then just as much as he is showing love for them now. I never quite cared about those stars though. I only cared about him.
	The feelings that I once had are all returning to me now. I love him. Even if I am afraid to say it, I love him. I want him to know that his eyes are my stars. I want so bad to be able to be his star. I want him deep inside of me. His telescope peering at the stars that burn within me for him.
	“Juan,” I find myself saying before I can realize what I am doing. “You are my stars. You are my moon. You are my sun. Never have the stars shone as bright down from the sky upon me as when I am with you. I missed you so bad Juan. We have spent far too much time apart.”
	Juan looked at me and his eyes widened. He almost ran at me even though we were just a few steps away. His arms embraced me swiftly and strongly. I do not know what I felt in that moment and I do not think I ever will be able to put that feeling into words. He just looked me directly in the eyes and he said it to me. He told me that I am his stars.
	He started telling me as I was in his arms how much he adored all of our time together. He told me how much he always averted my gaze. He told me how he always felt this way but he was afraid to say it. He looked at me tenderly, with even more awe it seemed in his eyes than he ever gave a star. He nuzzled my chin in his hands and he licked my lips. “You want this too, right Julius?” He said. I had no words for him. Our tongues touched and then the next thing I knew we were rolling together on that hill.
	“I love you Julius,” Juan said. “I have always loved you.” All I could do was pull his head back in to my mouth. I wanted to taste his kiss. I cherished this moment just like I cherished those moments in our youth. Now I truly was able to look at the stars I had always come up onto this hill with Juan to see. Now I was not having my gaze averted. I continued to stare into his eyes as our tongues coalesced. Like shooting stars seeming to collide in the sky we were together on the hill that night.
	I rolled on top of him. I savored every moment. I felt his crotch and there was a bulge there bigger than any planet I had ever seen through the telescope. I put my mouth on top of his lump and I licked his jeans smoothly. He actually did it. He started to pull down his zipper. I stared in pure amazement as his under garment became visible. I wanted to peer into his telescope. I wanted to taste his apparatus. I wanted to do this for so long. Finally on this hill I was able to see the stars for which I had always came.
	He pulled it out. “Do you want to see the stars, Julius,” he said. “Do you want to look down my hole? Do you want to see inside my night skies?” I quickly answered. Not with words but with my mouth. I put my lips around his telescope and let it slip softly into my mouth. I never quite saw any stars like this before. This was a new sky to me and I wanted to explore every bit of it. I sucked him gently. I suckled his telescope, being careful to see with my tongue down into his hole. I licked him intently. I looked up at his face and saw the grimace of pleasure on it. I hear his soft moans.
	“Look into my night sky deeper,” Juan said. I obeyed. I wanted to look into his sky as deeply as my throat would allow. I wanted this glance to last forever. I was seeing all the stars in my mind’s eye just like as if I was looking into our telescope upward instead of into his telescope downward. I thought there were shooting stars coming into my view. Then I tasted it. I tasted his Milky Way. For that moment our galaxies were intertwined.
	His universe and my own were one and the same that night. He laughed. He patted my head as I let go of his telescope. I smiled so succinctly. Never in my life had I seen stars like this. I wanted to remember every last detail. The way his telescope tasted. The way my eyes looked up at him and saw the glee in his own. The way his hands cradled my head as I suckled him. The way it felt when I saw the Milky Way for the first time in his night sky. I wanted to remember this all forever. For so long I came up to this hill to see the stars and know I knew without a single doubt between us both, that we were both coming up this hill together all this time to stare into the same shared sky.