NicciToday at 7:34 PM
My mom is home.
NicciToday at 7:41 PM
I wanted to come down. I thought she’d text and tell me and honestly you said about not being able to do things alone and do you have to wait for everything
So i kind of just wanted to leave
Sorry for not letting you do things
I wont say about it anymore
You can do whatever.
Im going to stay downstairs for awhile I think
KevinToday at 7:42 PM
I didn't say that at all
??
I said I asked you earlier if you wanted to play, and you said no.
And then I asked if I have to wait on you to do something first.
I think I'm just going to go then.
It's not fair.
It's not fair that I have to be made to feel bad for just wanting to play a game
and then made to feel bad even more when you want to stay away from me
its not fair its just not fair
I just wanted to play with you, I asked you to, you said no. Fine no big deal we could play next time your'e in the mood right? But I wanted to play so I made a character for myself to play on
But now you're upset that I went ahead and played
And now punishing me for it by ditching me and staying downstairs
NicciToday at 7:50 PM
Im not trying to make you feel bad..
You don’t have to wait for anything. Sorry. Go ahead.
KevinToday at 7:50 PM
I already don't even want to play anymore.
NicciToday at 7:51 PM
Im not punishing you.. I just felt bad and a nuisance
So i wanted to go
KevinToday at 7:51 PM
That's what I mean by punishing me
You just leave
NicciToday at 7:51 PM
Its not punishing.. stop
Im not trying to make you feel bad either
KevinToday at 7:51 PM
Considering how it makes me feel
its punishing to me
Because I want to be around you and to be with you
And I want to do things with you
and I invite you to do things with me
NicciToday at 7:52 PM
Its more punishing myself to me.
KevinToday at 7:52 PM
and I get you didn't want to in that moment
which is fine
but you got upset about me just playing the game as if I wouldn't play with you when you were ready to
And it just made me not want to play it
NicciToday at 7:53 PM
I know you would if I choose to play.
KevinToday at 7:53 PM
and then while I'm feeling bad about it , you choose to go downstairs and leave me all alone  :/
NicciToday at 7:53 PM
You can do whatever you want to.
Sorry Im so bad.
Its upsetting you think im always punishing you or keeping you from things or trying to guilt you and make you feel bad
KevinToday at 7:55 PM
Its because you do or say things without thinking about how I feel sometimes
NicciToday at 7:55 PM
You can do whatever. Im not trying to weigh you down. Sorry.
KevinToday at 7:55 PM
I'm literally here waiting for you all the time, doing the exact same things, every single day
NicciToday at 7:55 PM
You didnt think about my feelings either.
KevinToday at 7:55 PM
i save all the shows i want to watch and share with you, for when we can watch it
NicciToday at 7:55 PM
Well you can watch them.
KevinToday at 7:55 PM
you see thats what i mean
you just nonchalantly throw at me that i can
as if i didnt want to do them with you to begin with
NicciToday at 7:56 PM
Because im clearly just a nuisance.
KevinToday at 7:56 PM
... Just stop ..
It's like you don't want to understand at all ..
NicciToday at 7:56 PM
Its why I keep wondering if we should even be together.
KevinToday at 7:56 PM
Do you even want to do things with me? :/
Or is it like a mood thing? I ask you to do things with me all the time.
NicciToday at 7:57 PM
I know some things you want to do with me but im saying you don’t have to wait on me anymore with things. If you want to specifically for certain things okay but you dont have to.
I feel like
Im not a good person or girlfriend
You’ve told me all the things I do
so i dont really want to do anything
KevinToday at 7:59 PM
So your solution to me saying you haven't been doing much with me , is to further not do anything with me
NicciToday at 8:00 PM
Ofc I want to do things with you but my feelings about myself arent good at all and I just dont have motivation for anything
KevinToday at 8:01 PM
... You weren't like this before we were together. Did I fuck something up? Before you were always up and willing to do whatever with me whenever.
Did I fuck up?
NicciToday at 8:01 PM
The only things I do are occasionally play with Damien and watch things. Keeps me occupied from hating myself and thinking too much.
I just dont feel good about myself
KevinToday at 8:02 PM
So then I don't do anything for you then.
Emotionally I don't do anything for you.
I'm of no support to you in any way.(edited)
NicciToday at 8:03 PM
Stop. I love you,
KevinToday at 8:03 PM
Babe I love you too but that doesn't answer my question.
You've yet to mention anything positive I do for you or that you want of me.
You said doing things with Damien is a distraction from hating yourself and over thinking, and watching stuff helps too.
Don't I do anything? At all?
Or am I just a reminder of the bad for you?
KevinToday at 8:19 PM
....
NicciToday at 8:21 PM
Sorry Icecream problems
You’ve listed a lot of negative things
KevinToday at 8:22 PM
So it's my fault then.
NicciToday at 8:22 PM
I dont want things of you.. im happy that you even love me at all or find me attractive at all
Even im troublesome and stuff
If im*
KevinToday at 8:23 PM
That doesn't mean I do good for you
And apparently I don't
NicciToday at 8:23 PM
You do good too. At times you comforted me when things are bad. You try to help even when im just being shitty.
You’ve helped me with Damien.
KevinToday at 8:25 PM
Wow ...
Doesn't really seem like I do anything for you at all.
I have no impact on you.
I comfort you, and sometimes help with damien.
...