My Future in Speedrunning

I'll be honest with you guys, speedrunning is probably something that won't be in my future for much longer, for a lot of reasons.

Most of you know by now that since February I've moved from New York State, to North Carolina, due to many many problems I was having where what was then called my home.

I'm not going to get into it too much, but let's just say when I was living in NY I wasn't very happy, I was actually going through quite a long period of depression, it was actually worse than I realized, but there were many other issues at hand going on, one being that I had to withdraw from the school I was attending because of financial problems.

I had recieved an offer from one of my relatives to come here to north carolina, gain residency and go to school to get my bachelor's degree, they would give me a place to stay and even pay for food, probably one of the nicest things anybody's ever done for me.

Now you might be thinking 'what's the problem then?' well I'll be getting to that.

Upon moving here, I realized that there were a lot of responsibilities that I'd been neglecting when I lived in NY that I just wasn't prioritizing over other things; Speedrunning got in the way of that a lot, it was almost like an addiction for me, it got pretty bad almost to the point where I'd rather do that than anything else. After I moved here I had so many more things to do that all of a sudden speedrunning just sort of became a pretty miniscule part of my life, i didn't really care about it anymore. I don't really care about it now either. I just don't really see the point in it anymore.

My reasoning for making this is that I feel I owe an explanation to most people (who i don't talk to on a daily basis) who actually enjoy watching me and whatnot. I've felt this way for quite a long time actually, I'm just finally going to accept it, I suppose.

Another reason, is that since I'm always doing so much every day, that I just simply cannot find the time for it these days. To be quite honest, I can't say for sure if I'll even bother continuing with twilight princess, even though I've done a lot of runs in my day, 3 in a half hours is actually quite a lot of time to sit down in one sitting, in retrospect I've just simply had a lot of things going for me, that I just can't spend that kind of time anymore.

That being said, I'll still support speedrunning streams, I still do watch  speedruns, but I don't think I can be a part of the community like I used to be, but don't misunderstand; this is not my way of throwing in the towel, it's something I still want to do, just not as much as I used to. It's not something I'll be taking very seriously anymore.

I apologize to everyone who loved watching me stream, I am quite sorry, but I have a lot of things in my life i need to catch up on, and other things that just require my attention, perhaps one day I'll come back being able to speedrun on a daily basis again, but who knows. Right now, that isn't happening.